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| 01:27pm 27/11/2002 | ||||
befriend your IT manager. bring him cookies. lend him an ear. soon, you too will be the proud user of the biggest, meanest computer in the building! well, okay.. so it's not THAT cool. but considering that I'm currently running an Athalon.. my new pentium 4 is gonna FLY!! I am SO excited about having programs that will open immediately, instead of on a 30 second time delay. Yay for great IT people. Yay for great managers that sign off on IT recommendations. Yay for neat coworkers that trust you to learn thier jobs, making you more useful. Yay for having a job that I enjoy! |
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bouncy| hoo boy | ||||
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loved| Still Alive | ||||
| 08:26am 19/11/2002 | ||||
( TMI about strep throat ) In other news.. actually, there isn't a lot of other news. I've been sick. very very sick. scary sick. that's about it. slept a lot. speaking of which, I think I will go back to sleep now. take care, all. |
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sick| 09:25am 14/11/2002 | ||||
Being sick, yet not feeling sick enough to circumvent the guilt of missing work, so sitting here miserable trying to concentrate sucks even more. Being sick and having someone who brings you tea and chicken soup and wraps you in afgans rocks. I wanna go home. |
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drained| I'm alive | ||||
| 10:23am 13/11/2002 | ||||
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| If you don't want to know | ||||
| 10:37am 11/11/2002 | ||||
If you don't want to read about my life, the good and the bad, the happiness and the rage.. please remove me from your friends list. I will no longer accept chastisement for posting about things that are not a secret. I do not accept responsibility for your inability to avoid my journal. I will post my business if I damn well please. I have a never infringed on anyone else's privacy, and I don't intend to start now. but I will not be cowed into submission, or guilted into silence. If I choose not to broadcast to the world my sorrow and pain and rage, that is my business. I do not feel obligated to show you that I am hurting or angry. If I choose to tell the world that I am happy, that too is my business. If you have a problem with that, you should not be reading this now. ( random musings.. ) |
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thoughtful| Yes.. I'm alive. | |||
| 04:58pm 08/11/2002 | |||
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wow.. amazingly accurate? according to the Demonic Name Generator I am: Yabtavbyftuf, Seducer of Carnal Lust. also...  What's *your* true alignment? This quiz was made by  titanghost |
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| 08:55am 08/11/2002 | ||||
I'm alive. I love the rain.. but I need the sun. I don't want to deal with you right now. |
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bitchy| QOTD | ||||
| 04:24pm 07/11/2002 | ||||
I don't know that I can quite explain why this resonated so hard with me.. "..the object.. is to fight and *lose*.. The point is defeat, not surrender." ~ tyrsalvia~*~ |
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| 12:41pm 04/11/2002 | ||||
In the most casual possible way. Kinda. I'm head over heels for the guy. But we weren't dating or even seeing each other.. we weren't any kind of "together". Because I'm terrified of a relationship.. of being sucked in.. I need to be the Flying Woman for a while longer. A LONG while longer. But at a party this weekend.. we found ourselves stumbling over how to describe "us".. because I've been determinedly avoiding any possible connotations of there being an "us". So.. for the sake of clarity: We're dating. He's my boyfriend. Just in case you were wondering. *bounce giggle grin* |
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| 04:01pm 30/10/2002 | ||||
chainsawravenHey Everybody!! guess WHAT!! blargh! |
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silly| so I'm sitting here.. | |||
| 03:21pm 30/10/2002 | |||
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bored. bored. bored. bored. the sun is shining in at the perfect angle to render my monitor completely useless in about 8 minutes. it will remain useless for about an hour. and I don't care. because I don't have anything to do. I considered writing up an LJ entry.. but realized I didn't have a damn thing to say. life alternates between great and sucky. idiots are still idiots. I still have a fetish for .. oops, was that my out loud voice? seriously, though. I mean.. noone wants to hear the details of the stressors in my life.. good or bad. those who care, know. (apparently, know all too well, no matter how I'm trying to hide.) I'm not even in the mood to rant at the moment.. and that's simply amazing. |
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| 10:11am 30/10/2002 | |||
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RANT HERE - YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED - move along if you don't want to know. Is it just the median idiocy level of the general public?? what do these two things have in common: laser radio frequency I'll tell you what. jack and shit. how on earth can one be the other?? one has to do with sound waves, the other has to do with beams of light. I don't pretend to know the whys and hows of the physics involved, but I would never ever believe that a radio frequency generator is going to emit a laser beam!!! AARRGGHHHHHHH!!!!! why on earth would our product.. Radio Frequency Vein Ablation - have anything to do with Laser Vein Ablation????? and how come I have to tell you six frazzing times that No, this is NOT like laser therapy??? sorry bout that. /Rant |
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| and you think YOU'VE got it bad? | |||
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Wow. Did anyone else looking south at 7:25 this morning catch the sunrise? I don't have the words, so I'm not even gonna try. ~*~*~ In other news.. It's great to be loved. thank you, Dana, for checking on me. ~*~*~ ~G |
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| 10:22am 24/10/2002 | ||||
no anger, no resentment, just.. don't have time for you anymore. I know that I do this when I need space, but if directly asked about the situation, I will say so. maybe I'm just overly sensitive. I'll give it a month, see if maybe when we both have more time, things start to reconnect. ~*~*~ What do you do when life doesn't seem quite real? When all you do each day is float through, trying not to get a face full of water.. Sometimes it seems I have no control over my own life. Sometimes it feels like someone else, this little demon in my head, is making my decisions for me. I want time and space to heal and grow. I want to find my inner goddess. I want to be the hunter, not the hunted. I want to trust again. I need to reconnect. I need to take the time to ground and center. I need to look before I leap. ~*~ never ever again. understood? never. ~*~ Meds are such fun! *bouncy bouncy boingboingboing* not too hyper today. this is good. need to remember to space the pills at least 8 hours apart.. taking one at bedtime and one in the morning doesn't work when bed is 1:00am and up is 6:00am. |
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chipper| 01:17pm 23/10/2002 | ||||
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aggravated| 11:38am 23/10/2002 | ||||
ohgod ohgod ohgod ohgod ohgod flying, tripping, massive doses of agitation, can't sit still, bounce, can't keep hold of a thought. something happened a second ago, and I can't remember what. seemed important - needed to pay attention as soon as I was done.. lost it already. can't type fast enough to keep up with my thoughts. my foot is shaking a manic rhythm wow, oh wow.. 'm okay. 'm okay. just speeding. just think like I'm tripping, speeding, and remember that it's all legal. Rx. it's all good. tripping hard. Board meeting today.. I'm real efficient and productive today.. no work left to do, need to find something to focus on, rather than just paging through random people's LJs.. so.. I write. it sounds like I'm busy. maybe. I hope. wish the phone would ring.. wish I could hear your voice. wish something would happen to pull me out of this hazey phase look. a car pulls up to my doors. she hesitates before parking, because I forgot to go get the cones. ~*~ cones put away. all the board members are here, no need to reserve the spaces anymore. floating, flying.. too much coffee.. too much meds... will I be okay to walk, okay to drive? my mind is going to fast.. to hard.. breathe. breathe breathe Heather went to lunch. Jeannette went to lunch. JoAnne went to lunch. everybody is gone, noone to grab the phones, no one to cover while I take a walk and remember to breathe. so I write. I write in this space about my fragmented thoughts. Aaron I am so sorry. I'm scared and I'm worried and I don't know what to say or do to make it better. I don't know that I can make it better. I don't know that it will ever get better. I am so sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I'm so sorry I'm so sorry Im so sorry Im so sorry Im so sorry Im so sorry imsosorry u-imsosorry imsosorry imsosorryimsosorryimsosorry eeep. thank you tony, for making me look up. stuck in a loop. erp. Yahoo freaking, keep losing touch with Kim.. ARGH. HI ALMUS!! yay I have someone to chat with. and Debbie is gonna let me reconcile Fed Ex shipper things. something to do, something to focus on. more later, maybe. |
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