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two. by the end of the night I'll be truly alone
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[09 Apr 2002|01:08am] |
God.. I just want to bitch up a storm in this thing.. but other people read it.. so I'll suffer silently....
Tonight just sucked
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[09 Apr 2002|12:52am] |
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I lost a friend today.. go me.
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[08 Apr 2002|04:23pm] |
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Wow.. it rained like twenty minutes after that last post... wow
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[08 Apr 2002|12:48pm] |
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I don't even know what to write in this thing anymore... I just update because I'm told to.. basically blah.
All my friends lives are falling into shit.. Patty and Jackie broke up.. now Patty's on one of her "depression binges" that I so lovingly abhore. Adam and April went Kapoot yippy for them. Raurk and Meaghan? No longer dating.. what the fuck.. I don't even know why I let any of that shit affect me but it does.. I have no desire to continue to try a masquerade of life anymore.
I'll still be here for all those who need consolation but I don't think I'll be much of a feeling being... God I wish it was raining... I need the rain.. NOW!
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"Tonight: I won't be alone.. but you know that don't mean I'm not lonely"
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[31 Mar 2002|01:15am] |
I have so much shit I want to put into this.. I have new poetry.. I have alot of ranting to do.. but somehow I can't even find the desire to type it all out. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore, I'm so lost and alone at the moment. I saw Dave and Adam at the mall yesterday, and I was with three other people... yet I still felt so empty.. so worthless... nothing is making me feel any better anymore.
I've spiraled into this whirling emptiness that has become my life, I can't control even the tiniest of facets of it. It's like everything is just.. gone. My family life is exactly horrible, I don't even know what they want from me anymore... Friends.. I have none, well I have a few but they're never around.
As for work, life is retarded... I hate my job, then again I hate my life..
Wait. this turned into a rant, so yea.. I'm gonna stop now, because I dislike ranting about nothing, especially when other people have to read my complaining.
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[30 Mar 2002|12:18pm] |
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Adam, phone number here
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[21 Mar 2002|02:11am] |
I've been told to update, so... I guess I'm gonna.
I don't really have anything to say..so I'm more at a loss for words and I'm like.. confused.
I'm never at a loss for words.. God I never even shut the fuck up...
That's a post..---Gee I'm glad I updated
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Have you ever...
01. Fallen for your best friend?: yes
02. Made out w/ JUST a friend?: no.
03. Been rejected?: ding ding ding!, We have a winner!
04. Been in love?: Yes I have...
05. Been in lust?: uhm?
06. Used someone?: only for joking purposes--Frank deserved it
07. Been used?: yes.
08. Cheated on someone?: I would never
09. Been cheated on?: Yes.
10. Been kissed?: yea.
11. Done something you regret?: defently?thats basically my life..
Who was the last person...
12. You touched? Myself?------ and not like that
13. You talked to? My bitch of a Grandmother
14. You hugged? The last person who hugged me.... Meaghan! and I haven't seen her in a while
15. You instant messaged? Dezzy
16. You kissed? Laura... like, last february
17. You had sex with? -------------- 5th amendment
18. You yelled at? I dunno.
19. You laughed with? ----
22. Colour your hair? Naturally dark brown.I gonna make pink dreads!
23. Have tattoos? Nope
24. Piercings? ----------
25. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? Both!
27. Own a webcam? Nope.
28. Ever get off the damn computer? The computer always makes me
29. Sprechen sie deutsche? Yes
30. Habla espanol?: sometimes
31. Quack? YES! Quack Quack! Toilet Duck!
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I never update
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[17 Mar 2002|12:11am] |
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What era of Trent Reznor are you? Take the What Trent Are
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[10 Mar 2002|12:50am] |
Updation... hmmmmmm nothing to really say......
Who reads this anyway??? It's just like a scroll down thingie... anywho yes.
I hate my job, it sucks..and my boss is fucking me for my cash. I know he is.. I just feel it, and this week I'm going to prove it.. dirty bastard.
Hmmmm I hate my family.. they all suck.. I'm hungry.. but I won't eat.. cause that would mean having to actually see family members again.. Grah.
That's about it.. I haven't seen my friends in like 2 weeks.. I'm going insane in my house.. Someone come pick me up!!!!! I NEED/b> to hang out soon.. or I will just... snap
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I don't post nearly enough do I?
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[01 Mar 2002|12:10am] |
Stolen from Nuria who stole it from.. God that's a long chain....
Profession: Writer (Full time assistant manager at Sunoco)
Height: 5'9"
Lucky number: ???
A smell that makes you pause: Lilac,Vanilla
A hobby that occupies your time: Writing... poetry...AOL. reading too
A city you'd like to visit: I'd have to go with Nuria, New Orleans.
A country you'd like to explore: Scottland....Russia
Your favorite meal: I don't really have a favorite.
A delicious dessert: Uhm... a half moon pie? Half chocolate half vanilla
A book you highly recommend:
1. The Sword of Shannara-Terry Brooks
2. Trilogy of the Red Death-Robert Weinburg
3. The Diviners Ring - Carlos Adams
The music you prefer while alone: Techno Industrial.. music of choice.
Your favorite band/artist: Nine Inch Nails, Stabbing Westward, Cruxshadows.
A film you could watch over and over: The Crow... Interview with a Vampire...
A TV show you watch regularly: Unsolved Mysteries
Your favorite time of the day: Late night
Your favorite place to sit at home: My room, anywhere.. just about anything I want is within a few steps.
You live in: Hell
Your transportation: My bicycle! No.. I have a car.. 1991 Dodge Spirit.. but transmission went kapoot
Your cologne or perfume: Drakar Noir.... that's it
Something important on your night table: I dun have a night table.
If you had a safe, in it you would keep: My Crow DVD! Interview one too
Things you like to buy: CDs, Dvds, I think clothes..
If you could afford it at this moment, you would buy: An apartment?
You collect: Dragon paraphenelia
Your strangest possession: A plastic mask worn by Corey of Slipknot.(Or many many many guitar picks)
Your most prized possessions: I don't prize possesions particularly.. but my NiN CD collection?
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