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| Saturday, October 7th, 2000 | |
| 10:01 am | me and rex spent a couple hours at the graveyard last night... we were taking lots of pictures.. it was relaly nice there all the leaves were there on the ground.. and we found a little black and white kitty.. he followed us everywhere, showed us his favorite graves... he was sooo cute...we got lots of pics of him too.. as soon as i get them developed i will be putting them up on the web.. |
| Wednesday, October 4th, 2000 | |
| 5:16 pm | ... i hate how i feel like i have to be descent over this thing.. like i have to hold back from so manyt hings that i really want to say.. but they probly wont make any sence and will be really rude..right now... its like im lying through these words... im so pissed at everything.. im pissed w my relationship to rex, im pissed about myself..and i know hell never read this anywys... cuz hes too busy playing his fucking internet games.. and if he does read this.. it would be an improvement.. Current Music: :luxt: cleanser |
| 8:06 am | here i am.. ready to go to the asshole dentist so i he can drill at my teeth... its 8 am and i feel like im ognna pass out .. i couldnt even get in one hour of sleep lst night i just kept tossing and turning back and fourth for hours..and then when i get hoem ill be too waway to go to sleep.. and then i have to go to st paul to talk to dr. snow haha.... he likes anne rice too..brrr im cold........and i am pissed that i cant embed this thing into a page so i can add my own html.. id have to pay for it.. it aint that much, but i dont have the money right now and so forth.... so it sucks.. i have to go with these cheezy lay out... i gotta go now. Current Mood:  coldCurrent Music: :misfits: she |
| Tuesday, October 3rd, 2000 | |
| 6:42 pm | heh.. boring..i have to go to the dumbass dentist at 9 am tomorrow.. then after that i get to go to st. paul and see my psychiatrist haha..at least he listens to me... sometimes it looks like he feels sorry. wish time could stop at one certain moment.. the other day in the doctors office... pissed me off.. several things actually..first off..what is it with poeple and admiring everyones babies.. how ocme every babie is so gorgeous and so sweet.. ugh... the baby could look like my cats fat ass and still be sooo adoreable.. people make me sick.. and then.. there was this poor kid in the waiting room.. 15/16 or so.. and he had a bad black eye.. he was there with his father.. and he was crying.. u couldnt really tell but i could see it.. i could hear him whispering to his dad how he didnt want to go to school tomorrow.. and it just relaly bugged me.. poor kid... and then this bitch ass lady kept walking around the room about some survey shit.. and she goes up and bugs this kid and i was like oh my god.. leave hikme the fuck alone hes got a fucking ice pack on his eye hes upset as fuck and u got this old hag on his ass about some teen survey .. fucking whore... and the dad was like i think well pass he has a headache... i wouldve told the bitch to stick the clipboard up her cunt.. i cant wait till i get some money.. i needmoney so badly.. i need new batteries for my cam and film.. im misisng out on all this nice graveyard scenary with all the leaves and what not.. and i aint got a damn workign camera.. i need to pay my bills.. i need a new car.. haha i need a new life...today i went out of the house on the edge of a nervous breakdown. well i already had one but it doesnt matter..i leave the house wearing jeans and a grey shirt looking like a dumb fuck.. i didnt feel like wearing black for the first time in a few years.. and i was pissed to say the least on how people had treated me with respect today.. it shows me how truly sick and shallow this world is.. not like i didnt know it already. Current Mood:  bored |
| 6:33 pm | heh.. boring..i have to go to the dumbass dentist at 9 am tomorrow.. then after that i get to go to st. paul and see my psychiatrist haha..at least he listens to me... sometimes it looks like he feels sorry. wish time could stop at one certain moment.. the other day in the doctors office... pissed me off.. several things actually..first off..what is it with poeple and admiring everyones babies.. how ocme every babie is so gorgeous and so sweet.. ugh... the baby could look like my cats fat ass and still be sooo adoreable.. people make me sick.. and then.. there was this poor kid in the waiting room.. 15/16 or so.. and he had a bad black eye.. he was there with his father.. and he was crying.. u couldnt really tell but i could see it.. i could hear him whispering to his dad how he didnt want to go to school tomorrow.. and it just relaly bugged me.. poor kid... and then this bitch ass lady kept walking around the room about some survey shit.. and she goes up and bugs this kid and i was like oh my god.. leave hikme the fuck alone hes got a fucking ice pack on his eye hes upset as fuck and u got this old hag on his ass about some teen survey .. fucking whore... and the dad was like i think well pass he has a headache... i wouldve told the bitch to stick the clipboard up her cunt.. i cant wait till i get some money.. i needmoney so badly.. i need new batteries for my cam and film.. im misisng out on all this nice graveyard scenary with all the leaves and what not.. and i aint got a damn workign camera.. i need to pay my bills.. i need a new car.. haha i need a new life...today i went out of the house on the edge of a nervous breakdown. well i already had one but it doesnt matter..i leave the house wearing jeans and a grey shirt looking like a dumb fuck.. i didnt feel like wearing black for the first time in a few years.. and i was pissed to say the least on how people had treated me with respect today.. it shows me how truly sick and shallow this world is.. not like i didnt know it already. |
| 12:46 pm | for jer.. i need to be on different medication... ive been really sick lately.. if im not putting lighters out on my face.. ive been skinning my head with the scissors.. and i get tears in my eyes jsut right now.. my whole head is practically shaved and ch9opped in different areas.. i didnt mean to do it.. yet i still feel there has to be more to be done..its never enough.. i keep touching it.. feeling.. all those little inperfections.. and diggin deeper and deeper.. and making it look like something worse.. why do i do these things..i am an aweful person.. and no one can help me. Current Mood:  accomplished |
| 10:18 am | ninth gate i saw ninth gate four times this weekend.. it was so wierd.. it just kept grabbing my attentnion.. even the the ending was in most peoples opinions terrible, it was kind of twisted, and it got to me.. i love movies like that.. then i usually start to have obsessions...the ending was soo good.. towards the end.. that girl was so beautiful at the end with the flames dancing behind her ... i loved her eyes.. they scared me... i cant get taht scene out of my head.. i loved it.. i never did get to see the cell.. looks like my kind of movie.. except for the fact they had to stick fucking lopez in there made me cringe.. but the effects and storyline would make up for it.. i cant wait for it to come out on video... Current Music: :dopehat: marilyn manson |
| 9:42 am | ... i just woke up... im thinking about how i should do my web page... i have dozens of them out there and.. there just all like a spur of the moment thing and never become complete.. but i have to finish this one.. becuz the page is so beautiful.. i just dont have a whole lot of motivation right now.. oh yeah in ten days i start working at the potato place again.. haha.. i love being a 'potato artist'.. im desperate for money so no complaints...i wonder waht i can do today... i wish someone could just come and get me and take me far away.. like into a beautiful woods or something where there are leaves all over the ground.. im gonna see if divorce court is on yet. Current Mood:  calmCurrent Music: none. |
| Monday, October 2nd, 2000 | |
| 4:47 pm | hmm.. guess what i just got back from the gyno hahaha.... that was fun... i had to use my imagination to take away from the uncomfortableness.. she fingered me.. that helped a bit .. Current Mood:  weirdCurrent Music: simpsons.. |
| 1:36 pm | hehehe i just consumed an entire half of a pizza... i was so hungry.. now i look at it and i get sick.. i am so full.. but im still hungry for some chocolate or soemthing.. Current Mood:  fullCurrent Music: phone is ringing.. im not goin to answer. |
| 1:11 pm | this is fun i kind of like this thing... i spose i shouldve started offon a better foot... u probly all think im a bitchy little whore... imnot.. i just have lots of anger in me.. and i like to express them in sentences.. hahaha.... i saw a really cool rob zombie doll that came out today.. u know , by mcfarlane toys? ive been waiting all year lonhg for it buyt i didnt have the money for it.. so i was pissed.. oh well.. i mistype alot... i get so anxious i type so fast and just keep typing sowwie.. Current Mood:  pissed offCurrent Music: montell again.. i dont like montel.. its jsut.. on.. |
| 1:11 pm | ... ... Current Mood: pissed offCurrent Music: montell again.. i dont like montel.. its jsut.. on.. |
| 1:03 pm | grrr... alright so i got this journal thing.. my fucking head hurts. i dotn know why im even doing this i think im probly bored .. im bored alot.. and im hungry... i gotta eat. Current Mood:  crappyCurrent Music: no music.. just montell williams :P |