losing track of dates.   
03:58am 23/12/2003
  i keep having horrible dreams and i don't really care for what it means if it means anything at all. really. i just want some good sleep.

i've been home for over a week now but it seems only to sleep and even that i can't do well. lkasjalkdaskdja. i hate dialup connection.

it's 4am-ish again. next year... none of this insomnia nonsense.

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spppppank me.   
04:02am 19/12/2003
  i just worked 13hours straight. i work until next week monday, the day before christmas and the day after christmas and that weekend until sometime in mid-january. all closing hours. ask me how i'm feeling? ugh, i hate the need for money. my feet hurt and i've decided to treat myself with some full spa/massage escape before going back to school. anyone that wants to join.. come :)

i've been feeling all over the place lately. my thoughts just can't sit still. well, a lot more out of place than usual. i really need to write. more. or something. or else work myself to exhaustion which only leads to crashing on my bed at 4am only to wake up 2 hours or so before i have to do it all over again.

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blankpage was all the fucking rage.   
12:07am 16/12/2003
  i am so fucking livid. i don't even know how to handle this much anger. i really don't.


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when all is done.   
11:33am 11/12/2003
 
mood: listless
i keep trying to focus.
&i; sit& meditate& shhhh,
i really don't know still.
it has not worked.
there are flames everywhere.

now it's cold⁢'s almost over.
it's raining here, see?
you go, then i go,
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home HOME home!   
11:27pm 10/12/2003
 
mood: lazy
tonight is all about music with dave, two papers waiting to be written and a government final tomorrow. sounds like fun.

after friday, no more classes until next year. NEXT YEAR. ugh, time is going warp speed. SOON i will be home. why does that excite me? it doesn't really... it's just that i want to feel the "christmas spirit" already. and go shopping. sunday shopping for presents in jersey with cody. i need to make a list! i love christmas, i honestly do. christmas and my birthday :)

and in all seriousness, i need to save money. so after i've spent as much as i can on gifts, no more spending. aah :(


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