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[05 Nov 2002|01:52pm] |
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unbelievable I got to see Paul again last week.Its been so long.Hes as cool as usual when i saw him again.he hasnt changed much but my life has been changed alot since i came to uni.I wish that I can talk to him without feeling nervous one day.
things are going on well between me and Olly.hes in love with me apparently.I dont know if i am.I thought that i was in love with him but I felt so happy when i saw Paul again.so...I dont think that i'm in love with Olly.aw...
I'm such a bitch but i cant help it:P
I got my first two exams these two days.they were not very hard .i guess that i did ok.
I hope that i can move to Richmond park or whitworth park soon.I need to find someone to stay in my room first tho.ew...come on take my room please.
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[30 Oct 2002|01:00pm] |
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I just finished my Reasoning example class.its cool that i could do the problems even this is the first time i turn up this class.
I went to the clinic to check if i was preganent yesterday.thank god that I wasnt.I feel sick everyday tho.
I just got my passport.I dont feel like i'm a second class citizen anymore.big woo hoo for that.I've been waited for over a year to get my passport back .stupid home office!
the Surf dude Ollie was talking to me just now .he didnt get a job in Industry.aw..I really want to work with him.so he can walk me home in the middle of the night and hes crazy like me .
ok I'm going to work now .I'm late for 3 hours .opps.
come to Industry if you are bored in the weekend.I'm working there and ill give you a free drink.:P
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| thinking... |
[17 Oct 2002|05:13pm] |
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I was trying to do some work for Trees&Network.It;'s unbelieveble HARD.I dont know how can I survive the exam which is coming in 4 weeks.I'm so scared...
I've been wasted most of my time on stupid things since I came to uni.I dont think that I should stay the same anymore.I think that I am going to tell Olly about stuff tonight.I've spent all the evenings with him and stayed in his flat every night for two weeks.This is an unhealthy lifestyle.I hardly speak to any of the people from my course or live in the same hall as me.so ...I need to be more socialable.I'm going to stay in mine and hang around in the bar downstairs most of the nights.and I need to find some friends from my course.
and the most important thing is that I AM GOING TO ALL MY LEATURES .I have missed most of my leatures.I'm being extreme stupid.coz my dearest parents are paying 20 grands a year for me to study here.
ok Ive done a little bit self-developed.its time to work again.
I'm going to be a cool geek.sweeeeeeet....
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| Uni?UNI! |
[16 Oct 2002|12:58pm] |
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Uni has been started for 3 weeks.I havent done any work yet.I'm so lazy.all I do everyday is getting drunk and being self-pity.I havent got used to the student life.I dont have any closed mates from uni.coz i havent found the people who are the same kind of the people as me.and I spent most of my time with my new loverboy Olly.we like each other so much and I can see that there is a serious relationship between us.I'm happy about this .I'm sick of messing around and waiting for someone who doesnt even know me.
oh and I got to see Kate last weekend.she's enjoying her uni life in Liverpool which is cool.I was quite worried about her .coz she just broke up with her bf who she went out with for 3 years.
aw...I think that a few exams are coming in a month.so I'd better go to library and get some work done now.*geeky*
oh I just found out that I only got £12 in the WHOLE WORLD.I didnt realise that I got no money after paying the stupid 10 grand fee.
aw..Aim and Mark Rae are playing in the Ritz on sunday for Grand Central's 8th birthday.it will be a cool night out.
sweet...
PS: I miss my mates from college.I havent phoned you guys coz I got £12 left in the whole world.please phone me if you are reading this journal.yeah.I'm talking about you.:)
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| Uni!!!woo hooSWEEEEEEEEt |
[07 Oct 2002|04:52pm] |
god I even forget when was the last time I wrote my journal.so ...I'm a fresher in University of Manchester now .everything is so different.I dont even feel like i'm living in manchester .coz I look at everything in a different way now.my life on the Oxford Road has been started.
Freshers week has been amazing.I'm very antisocial.so I spent the first 3 days with me ,myself.I didnt talk to any other freshers coz I didnt know how to start the conversation.then,I met Ollie.the funniest person ever.he started my social life and everything became amazing since then.
I've been moved out from the posh apartment in piccadilly .I am living in the wannabe prison--- student village.its a huge building which including 2000 rooms.I 'm share a flat with 3 other guys.Simon is from stockport.He spent all his life in the scubar downstairs .James is from somewhere in the north.its on the way to glasgow or something.well.hes cool but he hardly talks to me .Jason is from macclesfield.i never see him smile and never see him angry.whatever i talk to him his answer is 'yeah yeah yeah'.so ... he's boring.
ok so Purple doenst have a flat life.I 've been spending most of my time in flat 19, withworth park student halls.there are a bunch of cool dudes live there.they are crazy and friendly.and they got a powerful shower.we went clubbing everywhere involving walking around town without shoes.
I havent met anyone from my course tho.they all seem like those kind of people who will hate me .so i'm not bother talking to any of them.
I had a good time on saturday.Ste dave came around in the afternoon.He's cool and helpfully all the time.Lovely Claire and Dan came and visited me.Its so cool that they are still friend with me when I left collage.Claire Dan and some of the moshers in my hall went to Rock kitchen with me .the only rock music I like is Punk and funky rock like incubus and chili Pepers this moment .so I didnt really enjoy the music they played in rock kitchen.and this dude who lives in the flat nextdoor was insane.He held my neck and pushed me to the wall when he was drunk.then he passed out on the dance floor after jumping and moshing around with Pantara.it freaked me out .then I ended up staying in ollie's flat.they were stoned and ...stoned.we were having lots deep conversations about nothing.its stupid and ...fun...?
So life is not bad .well at least I'm still alive .
at last I think that i should say hi to people who is reading this.you must care about me if you are still reading this piece of shit.thanks XX
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| Leeds festival day 3 |
[29 Aug 2002|09:31pm] |
the second day was an Indie Day.most of the bands in the main stage were indie bands. I sat around and watched Dandy Warhol for abit. I only like one of their songs so i wasnt that bother if i saw them.then it was time to watch New found glory.I was standing near the stage 15 mins before it started.as soon as they went on the stage thousands of kids push to the front suddenly.i nearly got killed in the mosh pit.why they cant just stand there and watched them peaceful? it pissed me off.
then I dont really remember what i did after that coz i was too drunk .
the high line of the evening was Aphex Twin.they were AMAZING.their music was fucked up but fun.guess i was the only one dancing without taking any pills.I am going to get their album.
I was really dissapointed at UNCLE.i thought that they would play some DJ shadow stylish stuff but they played some cheesy dance shits.
it was raining heavily when The strokes were playing.i am gutted that i didnt see them.I heard some of the songs they played and they sounded good .
The night in the camping site was pointless.we moved out tent to the middle of nowhere for some reasons.its the most blondish decision Ive made in my life. I was mean to claire .oh well...
Then Tom came .he walked all the way down to my tent from the car park.that's a long trip.aw... hes really sweet.it'd be better if he gave me his wrestband tho.
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| Leeds festival day 3 |
[29 Aug 2002|09:31pm] |
the second day was an Indie Day.most of the bands in the main stage were indie bands. I sat around and watched Dandy Warhol for abit. I only like one of their songs so i wasnt that bother if i saw them.then it was time to watch New found glory.I was standing near the stage 15 mins before it started.as soon as they went on the stage thousands of kids push to the front suddenly.i nearly got killed in the mosh pit.why they cant just stand there and watched them peaceful? it pissed me off.
then I dont really remember what i did after that coz i was too drunk .
the high line of the evening was Aphex Twin.they were AMAZING.their music was fucked up but fun.guess i was the only one dancing without taking any pills.I am going to get their album.
I was really dissapointed at UNCLE.i thought that they would play some DJ shadow stylish stuff but they played some cheesy dance shits.
it was raining heavily when The strokes were playing.i am gutted that i didnt see them.I heard some of the songs they played and they sounded good .
The night in the camping site was pointless.we moved out tent to the middle of nowhere for some reasons.its the most blondish decision Ive made in my life. I was mean to claire .oh well...
Then Tom came .he walked all the way down to my tent from the car park.that's a long trip.aw... hes really sweet.it'd be better if he gave me his wrestband tho.
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| Leeds festival day 3 |
[29 Aug 2002|09:31pm] |
the second day was an Indie Day.most of the bands in the main stage were indie bands. I sat around and watched Dandy Warhol for abit. I only like one of their songs so i wasnt that bother if i saw them.then it was time to watch New found glory.I was standing near the stage 15 mins before it started.as soon as they went on the stage thousands of kids push to the front suddenly.i nearly got killed in the mosh pit.why they cant just stand there and watched them peaceful? it pissed me off.
then I dont really remember what i did after that coz i was too drunk .
the high line of the evening was Aphex Twin.they were AMAZING.their music was fucked up but fun.guess i was the only one dancing without taking any pills.I am going to get their album.
I was really dissapointed at UNCLE.i thought that they would play some DJ shadow stylish stuff but they played some cheesy dance shits.
it was raining heavily when The strokes were playing.i am gutted that i didnt see them.I heard some of the songs they played and they sounded good .
The night in the camping site was pointless.we moved out tent to the middle of nowhere for some reasons.its the most blondish decision Ive made in my life. I was mean to claire .oh well...
Then Tom came .he walked all the way down to my tent from the car park.that's a long trip.aw... hes really sweet.it'd be better if he gave me his wrestband tho.
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| Leeds festival Day2 |
[29 Aug 2002|09:13pm] |
Lots good bands were playing on Friday.i woke up in the lunch time and went down to the arena straight away .they first band i saw was Handred reasons.they were really good live .The first song they played was 'I found you' which was a surprise.they were really good live .then Puddle of Mudd went on the stage.they were really boring.I bet they were stoned when they went on the stage.the only two songs I liked from them were 'Blury' and that 'she fucking hates me ' one.
NOFX was funny as what i expected.I missed half of NOFX to see Reel big fish but they were canceled by some reasons.i was gutted but ive seen them twice anyway.
Incubus was really popular.All I could hear was the screaming of the girls as soon as Brandon Boyd went on the stage.He knew that hes sexy tho.especially went he took his top off.he's like 'look at me ladies. I'm super sexy'they played lots good songs but they didnt play Drive!!!
after Incubus I went to get something to eat.as soon as i walked down to the noodle bar I saw Colin.I thought that i wouldnt care about it at all but i could feel my heart beatin as soon as i saw him.then I just ran away as fast as I could.aw... he's too gorgeous.I hope i wont see him again.
slipknot went on the stage when i was having dinner.all the little kids went to the pit .I really cant stand their music.why they're always angry?they are rich,they got people who loves them and they got people who they love.they should write some chill out happy songs.
the high line of the night was Prodigy.guess everyone who went to Leeds was standing in the field and watching Prodigy when they were playing.they played lots good songs. i wanted to dance with it but the speakers werent loud enough at all.plus there were too many people there.I bet everyone would step on me if i fell over.
oh and i got to see Tom which was cool.he tried to pull me when he had to go to meet his mate.aw.. i just want to be his mate tho.He's cool but hes not my kind of guys I guess.
and stupid enough I didnt stay there and watched Guns and roses.coz i dont like old school music.
then I spent most of the night with Neil and ste dave.I just talked bullshit like usual and had a laugh.
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| Leeds 2002 day 1 |
[28 Aug 2002|07:21pm] |
woooo Finally I woke up.I've been slept ALOT after the crazy Leeds festival.everything is back to normal again.so aw.. Leeds festival was cool but not as great as what i expected.i wasnt drunk most of the time which was quite a surprise.
so what i have done during Leeds?
aw...
Thursday:
there were about 15 of us went to leeds by train.only 5 of us got the tickets for leeds.all other people just went there for a smoke.
this year was so different from last year.they checked the tickets as soon as we went into the camping area.so only 3 of us got in .we walked all the way from the red campsite to the yellow campsite coz Claire wanted to camp with Kelly.we didnt realise that all the people who camped in the yellow campsite were geeks ,stoners and grandpas.
anyway we tried to set up our tent but it didnt work coz it was huge and the tent was jo's .shes dissappeared tho.so we decided to sleep on the grass with our sleeping bag .then Neil phoned me up and told me that they finally got in .they went through lots stuwards coz they gave the stuwards beer.
so people started smoking and talking bullshit.it was quite a peaceful night actually.at 5 o clock in the morning we fell asleep when we were playing Queen which was cool.
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| friendship?friendship! |
[20 Aug 2002|01:19am] |
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i just realised something i should have notised ages ago.sometimes you just find out who are your real mates and who are the people just using you .I thought that all the people i hang around with are my real mates. I do consider them as my mates and try to be really nice to them.guess sometimes people become closed to you just for some other reasons.i think that some of my 'MATES' became my mates coz they like me but maybe they just like my flat.coz its in the centre of town.it pisses me off but i cant do anything about it.you dont use people then you will be used.what a loser i am !
I am very upset about this .I am not going to trust my 'FRIENDS' any more.then i wont feel hurt like today.
god silly tears are falling down to my face. I'd better go and upside down my body so the tears wont fall down.its pointless to be upset about some people who are pretent to be nice to me .
I only can trust myself now .its sad but its good ....well i guess..
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| I only like strangers |
[14 Aug 2002|07:24pm] |
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Purple is so tired.she is sitting in the internet cafe and geeky.ok stop talking to myself...ew.. this guy who sits next to me is singing some Kenny G -style song to a webcamera and he's in a chatroom called 'put your ass into it'.It freaks me out .I'd better change my seat before he starts wanking.
I am so tired and confused.guess I am going to start a new life soon.so... what did i do last week?aw,,, I spent the weekend with kate.We went clubbing in Leeds for some pointless reasons.we went to over 20 clubs and bars in one night which was quite fun.and I met this guy called Tommy who is going to nottingham uni as well.and he pulled me.Drunk Purple is always a bitch.Purple need to start a life without evil alcohol.I am so regret that i gave him my number:s oh well...shit happens.
then came back to manchester .we went to Friend and Family in road house.they played amazing funk and trip-hop.it'd be better if they played some drum and bass as well.this guy who works in Spar was there as well.his friend and him were dancing with us all night .it was funny.they thought that we would chat them up but sorry,guys lol Sunday,we were going to meet Dave after work but picadilly record was closed when we got there.guess He totally forgot about it.oh well.hes one of the coolest person ive met recently.
Monday i got to see lovely Kevin again.i thought that he's been totally forgotten about me but we had a laugh together on Monday.aw.. he's still one of my best mates.hes still there for me when i need him.he actually cried in front of his mate when he found out that I might go to nottingham for uni.that was so sweet.
Tuesday I went to Neil's house. I was so worried that people would ignore me again but they were all cool.i saw Paul there for a few seconds.he's as cold as usual lol.I think that i freak him out .oh well. whatever.
Leeds festival next weekend.aw... sweeeeet.I promised myself that i am not going to be a bitch again in leeds festival this year.cant wait to see DJ SHADOW!!! i cant belive that DJ SHADOW is playing in leeds.
FEED ME SOME FOOD NOW !:S i am too hungry to type.so i am off now...
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[07 Aug 2002|11:11pm] |
I am pretty fucked this moment.I went to neil's party for 3 days .it was good but i felt like most of the people there werent bother talking to me.well maybe its because that they didnt know me well.i drunk 10 bottles of bacardi breezers on Monday night.that was pretty scary.i didnt even realise that i drunk all Claire's drinks.lol opps.i was watching them skating pass a curve.Paul was the only who could land it really well.we were watching a video tape which Paul and Jamie were playing the songs they made for their band Borderline Insanity.lolit was an amazing song.I like those funky bass stuff and i was really suprised that Paul is so good at playing that .
Neil Paul and me were sitting in the front room and talked for a few hours.it was the first time and i hope that its not the last time Paul talked to me .I was trying to hide myself from him at the begining of the party so i was actually flatter about sitting next to him and talking to him.oh and i found out that he likes Mr Scruff as well.everyone else hates Mr Scruff which i cant understand .Mr Scruff is not as good as DJ shadow but he made lots really funky tunes.the new album is out in two weeks so a big 'woo hoo' for that .:P
aw.. then tuesday morning ...yeah i woke up early coz i couldnt get in sleep in front of a giant Julian Anderson's poster.lol I sat downstairs with ste-dave.he looked as stoned as usual.Tv was on but the Tv was stoned. it didnt work at all when we tried to turn the TV volume down.then this huge insect flied into the room.guess the insect was scared of drunk Purple.it was actually trying to flying away from me before i screamed .its so huge that really scarying me and Ste-dave.so we tried to kill it with a hoodie.then it dissappeared when we covered the hoodie on it.The Calling was on all the music channels again and again.so i was watching sexy Alex Band from the Calling for the whole morning.however everyone who sat next to me was not impressed about it .
then everyone went upstairs for a join.claire started playing super Mario.i was reading magazine and Paul came and sat next to me with his spliff.well i never see him without a spliff anyway.i told him the good news that there is something scary in his hoodie.he said its all right .then kept smoking and be quiet.I really wanted to talk to him but i could feel that my face turned red lol.oh dear.I am not a 16 years old little girl.its so silly.
so we still havent became friends. hes still wont say a word to me if i dont ask him a question.
he's so cold to me but I think that i will get used to it.I am not good enough for him anyway.i will have to wait and see how things going ...
Kate and me went to the Jazz club in Oldham street last night.the live band was amazing.i was so surprised that i would actually enjoy those classical music.god guess I am going to be obsessed with Kenny G soon.
Today,Mike,funky Yasir and ste dave came and chilled in mine for the evening.it was pretty funny.we had a laugh .Yasir is so funny especially when hes floating lol
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| happy? |
[26 Jul 2002|03:33am] |
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yesterday was mad.Jo,mike,yasir and Neil went to gasworks in the afternoon.everyone was professional stoner apart from me and Jo.we just sat and chill like usual.the weather was crap but i was having a good time actually.then we went back to mine.the stoners carry on getting stoned.Yasir was totally gone.Mike and Neil were half gone lol. finally they decided to go home.after 5 mins Neil went back and he missed his bus.
its cool .coz i was really bored.so we decided to smoke some weed.it was the second time i smoked.Neil shared some weed with me and we were talking about bullshits.actually we did turn to some wierd deep conversations.I found out that he liked Jo alot.Jo is officially going out with Dan now tho.so i dont know ...I hope that he can get over it.
we were sitting outside then we started wondering if we could go to the big garden on the 6th floor of my building.I thought that the garden was some private garden for the people who lived on the 6th floor.we went upstairs then we found out that it 's actually for everyone who lives in this building.it was such a big surprise.guess i am going to have a barbiq party or something there.
we carried on talking untill 6:30 am .we were proper chilled and peaceful which was good .
today we went around town.town was unbelievble busy today coz the commonwealth game. i was quite surprised that people did care about the common wealth game.its good that the whole manchester was having a big party today.Me and Neil went and chilled near the Urbis.there were some wierd people playing wierd music there .I nearly felt asleep in the field.
this summer is all about chilling out and having fun with my friends. its all good .
oh yeah and we went to jillys today.it was ok i supposed .nothing was really exciting but i had a laugh with Katie and Caz.we are going out tomorrow as well.
everything is not as bad as i think.so i am fairly happy now :)
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[24 Jul 2002|09:18pm] |
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I need a cake...I need a jaffa cake....I will be fat ....
so i dont want one actually.:p
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[23 Jul 2002|08:21pm] |
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oh and I am still wondering who is secretly reading my journal.my life is not interesting tho:Poh and thanks for the secret hugger....i think that i know who he is .
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| wierd... feeling? |
[23 Jul 2002|08:14pm] |
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so we went to The ritz last night .I was drunk before i got in there.it was as busy as usual .i was walking around and giving people flyers with Jo.and met some random people.I felt so wierd that i wasnt interested in anyone who wanted to pull me.i thought that they were nice but I just wasnt in a mood to pull people.coz ... i really like paul:(i hate it .I should have fun and forget about him.
I had some deep conversations with some of my mates tho.so it was all good .
Back to my apartment after the ritz .Mike and Claire were smoking and got really stoned.Claire kept laughing for nothing.i was quite worried.well .then the next thing i can remember is that i woke up at about 1pm today .everyone was still in bed when i woke up.so i just did some revision for my stupid exam.Purple is still a geek after A-levels.Surprise Surprise!
I still havent sort myself out ... and i am really bored ...
anyone wants to go skating tomorrow? give me a call if you do.
bluh ... :P I cant wait to see Jason again.I miss him so much .hopefully i will see him tonight .it will be so cool:) I still cant understand how come he wanted to join TA tho.:s
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| a thousand miles |
[22 Jul 2002|12:24am] |
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A Thousand Miles
Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me
'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories
'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight
And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't....
Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight
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| Love burn |
[21 Jul 2002|07:15pm] |
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I am so worried about stuff.i am stressing out .my exam is coming in two weeks and ive done nothing about it .and i want to run away from the fact that i really like him....
why i am in a depressed mood today???I hate it ...
ew.... anyone phone me or come and visit me please :s
I need a hug from any of my mates.
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