Friday, November 2nd, 2001
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8:42 am - Hey B, I need a favor
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Ok this is the thing man.
I have found a job and a small room. SO Im pretty much set-up.
I do have problems with money right now though just cuz I have just started working.
I would like you to buy a 10 bucks phone card and call me up on my cell.phone, if that is not too much of a problem.
we need to talk.
all you need to dial is 00447816451446.
hope to hear from you soon man.
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Monday, October 22nd, 2001
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5:22 pm - fuck internet cafes
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4 pounds for an hour??!?!?!?!
Can you believe that?
that`s like 6 bucks.
Well ive found a place where to stay, at least for these days.
They are all musicians in their 30s.
Amazing musicians actually.
2 of them have just done composing a music score for this movie called Luna Rossa which has just come out in italy and another guy is spinning records and producing people.
He works with Lamb.
And then there is the guy who plays drums in Lamb.
It's crazy.
Just as crazy as prices.
Fuck ill be paying probably around 300 bucks per month for my room and that is really good but I need to start cooking my lunches and shit cuz im spending all I have in food and weed.
and thats not good.
I`ve met Graham Coxon, the guy who plays guitar in Blur at this club called water rat.
It's just a small club but he was there cuz there was this small band he produced playing there.
He was cool.
Well what else I still have to figure out for sure where im gonna end up.
Ill keep you updated.
B, as soon as I have some shit delineated I will ring you up k?
And as soon as I get my salary Im gonna go shopping in camden town. it's so entertaining.
cheers everybody.
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Friday, October 19th, 2001
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4:00 pm - Hello earth. it`e speaking.
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Monday, October 15th, 2001
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7:26 pm - Here we go.
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I've postponed my departure of about a week in order to be done with mixing this new track im gonna bring with me to London as
demo tape.
im pretty happy of the way it sounds.
I couldnt afford a milion dollars recording studio but im pretty happy of the way it sounds.
Ill find a way to post it on the web so that whoever wants to can download it.
Any comment once done that will be greatly appreciated.
Im leaving on wednesday morning.
Im excited.
hopefully next time ill post it'll be from london.
Wish me good luck.
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Tuesday, October 9th, 2001
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12:54 am - What should I do?
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fuck. i dont know what to do.
See, I got a ticket fto London and it says "11th of october".
Now, english and american troops are bombing afghanistan.
London is considered the next target for any terrorist action.
Should I leave or not? should I posticipate to a week later?2 weeks?1 month? next summer? next 10 years?
Fuck I dont know what the hell.
Is this situation gonna last for a long time or it's gonna be a flash?
Busk said it was gonna be a longlasting war.
And so what im not supposed to do shit because of this?
If I leave, would it be considered being irresponsible/immature/consciousless or it'd be kinda of my way to go on with my life. kinda not letting myself being "virtually kidnapped", grounded by a bunch of terrorists?
Would london be a city full of colors, people, music, good vibes, or it'd be the paranoia and tension ruling in the Capital of a European State in war?
If so, what would london offer me?
I dont know.
bullshit.
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Thursday, September 27th, 2001
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12:12 am - finally.
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Yeah. Today I booked my flight. Finally. I am going to leave for london on the 11th of october.
Im gonna be hosted for the first couple of night by this girl who is a friend of this american college student I met once on a train.
I smoked him out about 4 months ago and he wanted my e-mail address so we kept in touch.
He's from connecticut..
im leaving at 10:30 am.
i cant believe it. im scared. weird.
and I got an amazing deal, I paid about 33 dollars for it isn't that crazy?
I hope im not gonna get hi-jacked and smashed against the Big Ben.
rock.
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Thursday, September 20th, 2001
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9:12 pm - All that I want to say is that...
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Tuesday, September 11th, 2001
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7:54 pm
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there are no words for what happened.
and there are no words for anybody's future.
What's gonna happen now?
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Saturday, September 1st, 2001
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11:07 pm - well, we're almost there
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the new bjork is the S-H-I-T plus I deeply recommend this album called "asleep in the back" from this band called Elbow.
Hey b you should check it out the singer reminds me a lot of you.
and the new Buckley "live at the Olympia" - france is soo good as well. and this band called funkarma as well.
God all of these cds are some of the best stuff i have ever heard.
And if you've never heard whan a an angel whispers like, you should give a listen to the last one i've listed.
yo.
peace im out.
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Saturday, August 25th, 2001
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8:46 am
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Monday, August 20th, 2001
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12:03 pm - only e.
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well,
I have been planning my deaparture for London for a long time. I had taken it as an occasion to finally get to see people I have been missing for a long time. it's ok that none of you can't make it. I know you put some effort in trying. I'm just sad I don't get to share it with any of you.
it would have been massive.
nothing new has happened. I've just come back from a week long vacation in calabria, south italy....mmmmmmm....no watch on my wrist and swimming and relaxing it's been fun and I got to see my father and his family after 3 years and a half. And finally I bought a Macintosh. I needed it for music. I've been dreaming about it for over a year. a g4.
yeah.
hey I wanna see you really BAD anyway.
You know who you are.
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Saturday, August 11th, 2001
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5:05 pm - so we are stil all alive
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and we all survived.
after the g8 I've realized that right now my country is way too much against my beliefs.
MY generation, MY people, and people like ME.
they have all lost credibility. And it all seems hopless.
I have seen their hands beggin mercy to their skies.
white flags sticked in flash.
I was throwing sand in Venice a couple of weeks ago. and i lost her ring and forgot her smell and now everybody thinks it's time for a change. am I gonna find what I've been looking for in London?
or im just gonna discover how much it's true that there's no point in looking for something until I've found my reason of being? brendan, I miss talkng to you. it feels like i've lost you. jack, im sorry about your dad. and it's not a formal sorrow. danielle, you still alive girl? shane? everybody?anybody?
i'm leaving in a month and a half.
I'm trying to figure out what musig gear bring with me and what to leave here. I have a couple of options of places where to stay right now.
we'll see. believe it or not, nothing has happened. nothing at all. I am working an average of 12 hours per day and forcing my brain to stop doing its job while doing it. consequently my summer seems like it's never existed. it'll be such a beautiful day that day.
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Saturday, July 7th, 2001
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9:51 pm - pardons
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I am truly sorry. I read my journal. It is fucking depressing.
it's just that I have been writing what I'd write in MY journal, and I haven't worried a flying a fuck about how tiring or entertaining to read it'd be.
the truth is that I have not much to say, other than there's no news, other than I'd like to like Depp in Fear and loathing in las vegas, other that I am working my ass off 10 hours per day, other that I just wanna leave for london right now.
I might have an amazing conection up there but I dont wanna talk about it until it's for sure.
Hope your lives are better.
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Wednesday, June 27th, 2001
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11:17 am
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Tuesday, June 19th, 2001
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11:49 pm - "don't get angry with yourself, I'll heal you.
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jacko and I talked on the phone for a long time as usual.
ANd we got to talk about bry once more.
ANd I made up my mind while talking to her. I got to know seriously the most disgusting things. I thought we had already reached the bottom. But we got lower.
So I called her and told her not to call me anymore.
It' crazy. It feels weird. Probably the biggest part of me is gone forever. For good.
A brand new day.
Of a brand new life.
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Wednesday, June 13th, 2001
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11:58 am - early morning depression
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so there it goes my summer.
I needed some money since I wanna move to London in like september or october at the latest for at least a couple of months.
So I went out and got this 3 month-job at this H-U-G-E factory where powders for washing up and laundry are made.it's not hard but it's fucking alienating.
Machineries going everywhere.
I started on monday.
The first thing I remember thinking when I walked in there was Dancer in the dark. It's crazy. there ARE amazing grooves made in there I swear I wish I could bring my sampler. And I played a gig last night. It went good. I'm happy of the way my music sensibility is evolving.
I need to move away for a lil though. I wish I could leave right now and brng all my gear to fucking tibet or somewhere around there. Since that's impossible I declassed my trip to some months in London. I can drop some demos around too, I got nothing to lose.
I am so excited to meet english people.
But it's gotta be tiring to work at that place for what seems is gonna be the longest three-month period of my life. Last night some things happened and I realized that ahahah that's funny ...that I miss sex. I really do. Intended as "sex with feelings" of course I am way too sensible right now to just go out and sleep with somebody. the fact is that I haven't had it in like 6 months. I think that if I won't by like 2 or three months I'll be a virgin again.ahah. sorry Im so high right now.
goodbye
current mood: determined
current music: "Analogue Bubblebath 1" - Aphex Twin
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Monday, June 4th, 2001
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2:25 am - quote
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>>make peace with imperfection. become more patient. let others be "right" most of the time. Surrender to the fact that life isn't fair. Lower your tolerance to stress. Experiment with your back burner. Repeat to yourself "life Isn't an emergency" Resist the urge to criticize. Breathe before you speak. Become a less agressive DRIVEr. adopt a child through the mail. DO one thing at a time. Stop blaming others. Mind your own business. Keep asking yourself "what's really important?" Get comfortable not knowing. Redefine a "meaningful accomplishment". Lighten up? <<
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Thursday, May 31st, 2001
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11:54 pm - One night in Verona....
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I met thom yorke and his son noah and his wife and jonny and ed. Me and jonny got to speak in front of his room and finally i got to give him my cd.
And then the show.
But right now im wordsless.
I dont think i'll be able to talk about it for a few days.
It's an alien feeling.
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Monday, May 28th, 2001
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11:22 pm - everybody's so fucking happy
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11:14 pm - a child sleeping near his twin.
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she called me today.
and told me she's got a new boyrfriend-
and then asked me what I thought about it and I just said the truth, as I'va always told her.
I was...I AM happy for her.
It just makes me feel sad.
I knew when it was over cuz I WANTED it to be over. but you know, you just can't explain it.
anyway radiohead is coming so who gives a flying fuck about everything else.
in 2 days.
I need it badly.
I'm starting to fuck loneliness.
current music: Jeff Buckley - "Dream Brother (Live in Seattle)"
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