| Just got back from CANCUN!!!!! |
[22 Jul 2002|11:25pm] |
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Well i just got back from cancun mexico. Literally, i came straight over to the program when I got into town. I really missed all of the people hear especially one person inparticular. Put hay cancun was great. It was a good experience to go out of the country. While I was down there I got my nipple pierced at the Senor Frogs Down the street from my hotel.I'll be honest it hurt but only just a bit.Well since the moment I got into Springs I got into a happy-hyper kind of mood which was wierd because i felt a little off while down there. I have only been back at the dorms for an hour know but there has been alot of things that have happened to make me think. One of these things deals with that one particular person. I really need to talk to her. Over the week that I was gone so many things happened that I feel a little left out on what is going on, but thats alright. Well I could go on forever but I will end it know with this, "Some people are kinda of like journals, at the end of each day a blank page has been written."
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| To you Kate... |
[12 Jul 2002|12:47pm] |
Hello, kate.
Sorry i haven't been able to talk to you lately but being here keeps me real busy. I am really sorry that I missed you when you came to see me. I got your e-mails along with a bunch of other things from you that seemed a little old but oh well. Well kate I know I have told you this before but I guess I will say it again, I love you and always will. Honestly I have tried to forget about what we had but in the end the love that I have for you is still there. I really wish I could tell you this face-to-face, but if this is as close to you that I can get then i will have to let my thoughts and feelings out this way. When I read your reply it almost put me into tears with the thought of you sitting there crying and not being able to comfort you. I miss you so much. Tonight(Friday) I will most likely be at home so I will try to give you a call.
Bye Kate
Tony Olivas
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| Too Long............... |
[02 Jul 2002|09:07pm] |
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Well it has been a really long time since I did my live journal so I decided to give it a try one more time. Well I have been in the Upward Bound summer program for three weeks know and it is going alright. During the first week I noticed this very pretty girl named Valerie. She had been one of the new kids this year and right from the orientation I had decided that I was going to try and be with her. During the first week I noticed that she was showing some interest in me also. One of the things that made me want to be with her the most was a class session were we got really close where our feelings became obvious. I believe it was that night when we all went to the movies and we both went to the same movie where we ended up being together. That night I called her and asked her if we were going to be together, and she said that she wanted to be with me also, so know we are together. The whole next week was great. It was such an odd thing to be wanting to be with her every waking second of my day since my last girl-friend has been over several from know. Then all of a sudden out of now where she told me that she was leading me on and that we couldn't be together. I am not trying to bitch, and I am not trying to make people feel sorry for me. Sorry for wasting your time I just needed to get this out.
Laterz
Tony Olivas
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| Damn its been awhile. |
[13 Feb 2002|02:17pm] |
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Well it has been a really long time since I have done this. The last time I did this was back in December. Like last year, this year two days before Valentines Day me and my girlfriend end up breaking up. This time it was her choice. This weekend is supposed to be agood weekend because I am going to spend it with my cousins and get all stizzed. I don't know what I am going to do about the girls that i have been with lately. Each one is either a bitch or a god damn whore. I wish that I could just be with a girl that cares. We will see what happens here in awhile.
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| Hell A Long Time |
[04 Jan 2002|06:22pm] |
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Hay what's up. It has been a long time since I last did this. Well since then I broke up with Krissy because that bitch went and fucked some twenty-two year old. Well all I got to say is fuck her. Now I am with this girl that I really care about a whole hell alot. Her name is Angela. I have known for about a year and a half and one night when Krissy came by and Angela was with her. I have been with Angela for about a month now and I really care about her. Just wish she would realize that I care about her and only her. It sux sometimes when we get off the phone because every time we do I wanna tell her that I love her but I have to stop myself because I am not sure if we should wait for a while or what but I really do care about her. Well thats all for know. Bye Bye
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| Hello |
[08 Nov 2001|04:50pm] |
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Hay sorry I haven't done this for a while but nothing has really happened in these past few weeks
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| Bye Kate...... |
[19 Oct 2001|05:41pm] |
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Today will be over in just two hours. My life will go on for years. You were in my life for only a couple months, but those several months felt like years. They were so wonderful and so nice that every time that I was with you it felt like a dream. Then out of nowhere you decided to go and fuck it up and be a bitch like that so fuck you and stay the fuck out of my life. I once loved you but then you should you the real you and the real you is an ugly and heartless bitch that dont give a shit about anyone around you that truly cares about your stupid ass. It's over and I am done so that is my final farewell and my final fuck you.
Tony Olivas
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| Well I said Fuck It |
[18 Oct 2001|08:35pm] |
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Well this week has been another week of pure bullshit dealing with my ex-girlfirend Kate. Well this was supposed to be the first week that she was supposed to go to job core in Springs but when I called her the other night her mom said that she was at her friends house so I left it alone until tonight when she was there again so I went over there and I saw her walk in so I called for her but she kept walking so I went up to the door and Mickey walked out telling me to leave so I asked the guy that was with her if she was there and he said yes so I told him that if she don't come out then tell her that it's over, so he came back telling me what she told him and that was that I was stalking her and she didn't want anything to do with me so I just left and didn't look back. Well know that I know that we aren't together I can get on with it and hopefully be with someone that does care instead of someone that just led me on to believe that she loved me. Well that's all in my fucked up life so Bye Bye
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| Do You Really Want To Know |
[14 Oct 2001|09:50pm] |
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I just remembered When I told you that I loved You. See that is the kind of thing that I shouldn't say because you are with someone. I just remembered something else but you hace to call me if you want to find out....
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| Oh Fuck!!! |
[14 Oct 2001|08:56pm] |
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God this shit sucks so fucking bad. My life really sucks because I am back talking to this girl that I have liked since 7th grade and I have always wanted to be with her but right know she is with this guy that she really likes and thats cool but I really want to be with her but its alright. I have waited this long I guess I can wait for awhile longer. I think it will be cool if we do eventually get together but for know it is cool for know. Whoa I just thought of something that I told her like forever ago but I know she doesn't remember so it's all good. That's enough for know so Bye
Tony Olivas
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| Its been awhile!!!!! |
[11 Oct 2001|07:00pm] |
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well whats up. it has been awhiole since i have done this so there is alot that I have to say. well last time i did this I wasn't sure of what was going on withmy girl but know we are ok and back together. god I love her
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| Well I am tired!!!!!! |
[01 Oct 2001|07:53pm] |
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Well today was a very long day and at practice we had to run alot for conditioning. Tomorrow I hope will be a better day but for know my life sucks. I think my girl is cheating on me. I am going to ask her what is up tonight. I love her but I can't stand this shit of where I want her to come over and she says her mom won't let her then I call back an hour later and she will have gone out with her friend Dustin. I am just getting tired of it. Besides there are alot of other girls at school I could be with. Well that is enough for know so bye bye for know.
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| Today wasn't that bad.... |
[26 Sep 2001|09:26pm] |
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Today was an ok day but there were a few things that really sucked and I really dont feel like going into that right know so all that I am going to say I love You Kate..... I wish you knew just how much...
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| Well Hay It's Tuesday... |
[25 Sep 2001|08:48pm] |
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Well this week has been really fucking wierd but I really dont feel likke going into it know.. There was really only one thignhas gone right and that was my babygirl Kate coming over for only a few minutes but it still made me happy. God it is wierd that we both really think the same thing at the same time and that one thing is who much that we love each other. I mean that we both are honestly in true love(well that is what I see). Well kat if you ever get the chance to read this I Love You...
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| I slept all day.... |
[20 Sep 2001|08:22pm] |
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Damn fools I slept all day long I didn't wake up until 2..
I don't have much to say so this one is a little short. Well laters ....
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| Well i am very tired??? |
[18 Sep 2001|09:38pm] |
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Well this week is going by ok except for the fact that i didn't talk to my babygirl almost all weekend and that made me a little sad but I am going to be ok and I might be able to see her this weekend if she can come over... I dont understand that i can love her soo much.. I mean that she has done something to me that has kept me from messing up and I am glad that it happened.... I love you Kate
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| We Won!!! |
[16 Sep 2001|01:05pm] |
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We had to go up to this place called Broomfield and play thier freshman team. well we beat them with the score of 36-0 so we are know 3 and 0 so we are happy.. next week we play souths team and we are going to beat them just like we beat broomfield... Our varsity though but its ok.. I am hopefully going to do something with kate today either it is the movies or just her coming here.... it will be cool no matter what we do...
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| I HateSundays!!!! |
[09 Sep 2001|05:55pm] |
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Well today is sunday and I am sitting here being bored so I decided to get on and do this to waste time... My girl Kate was supposed to come over and probably just lay around for a while but I haven't been able to get a hold of her since I let her go so that she can get dressed.. Well see if there is enough time for her to come over when I do get a hold of her.. I hope there is enought time because I really miss her and I would love to see her if only for awhile.. Yesterday sucked pretty bad but I am still doing ok. Today Ashley got mad at me when I told her that I don't have time for her know that school has started and everything else so she was pretty mad.. Well I gotta to go so bye.... I Love you Kate....
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| This Sucks!!!! |
[08 Sep 2001|03:19pm] |
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Well hay this week has been pretty bad.... First of all Tuesday my aunt died.. Wednesday my babygirl got mad at for a very good reason.. I am very sorry baby.. Last night was better then ever.. I spent alot of the night with Kate which made me very happy with alot of other things. Tomorrow night my girl is supposed to come over and spend the day with me because she cant come over tonight because she is doing something with her sister for her birthday....So it dont really matter...Today I was supposed to go to muy game up in springs but I had to go to that funeral so ohh well...I hope they fucking won....Laterz.........love you Kate
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| Hello!! |
[03 Sep 2001|03:31pm] |
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Well hay I am really starting to get pissed off at my friend Ashley cause she will not get over the fact that I am with Kate and don't have alot of time to talk to her anymore. Everytime time that i stop to talk to her she gets mad at me and just walks off. Right know I am supposed to be at practice but my mom never showed up to take me and know I will not be able to start again this week. Well I think that is enough for know.....
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