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[15 Nov 2002|06:05am]
[ mood | numb ]
[ music | Staind - Fade ]

I should probably explain what happened today. I got referred up to this mental hospital and while I was sitting in the waiting room, who the fuck walks in? Cari and her mum. She just looked at me and said "Fancy seeing you here" but in a really sort of patronising way. She sat down beside me and I didn't say anything apart from "Hi" and she was all like, "Are you not talking to me or something?" I told her I just didn't know what to say and then the doctor called me in.

After I spoke to the psych, I went outside for a fag and Cari was standing there. It was realy awkward and neither of us really knew what to say to each other but before I left, I gave her a hug and asked if it was OK for me to phone her. She said to phone at 6 but I was out in the car with my mum so I ohoned at about 7.30 and she was asleep.

Cari's mum told my mum that hse didn't want us seeing each other for a while but what the fuck has it got to do with either of them? We're all supposed to be fucking grown ups here!

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[15 Nov 2002|04:16am]
***THE WAY TOO DAMN MUCH INFORMATION SURVEY***

**STUPID SHITE**
*name? NICKI
*age? 19
*convictions? NOT YET
*hight? 5'9
*wheight? NOT SAYING
*short job disription? CHIP SHOP - WOO HOO
*personality flawse? TOO FUCKIN MANY
*distingishing charaturistics? exap; *birthmarks, tattoos, piercings, scars: SCARS, PIERCINGS AND A MOLE ON MY LEFT TIT
*hair color? I PREFER TO CALL IT "GRAPE"
*real hair color? MOUSY BROWN
*education? LEFT SCHOOL AT 16. 7 EXAMS PASSES
*phone number? 0898 BIG-JUGZ
*address? FUCK KNOWS
*pants size? NOT TELLING YOU YA CUNT

**LAST**
*book you read? ANGELHEAD
*movie you watched? PANIC ROOM
*person you kissed? MEGHAN
*person you said i love you to? MEGHAN
*time you got drunk? ABOUT 2 WEEKS AGO
*time you woke up w/ someone elses underwear on? NEVER
*masterbated? ITS BEEN A WHILE
*thing you masterbated to? I DUNNO...PORN PROBABLY
*stupid thing you said? I DUNNO WHY BUT I CALLED MY BOYFRIEND DAD.
*person you cuddeled w/? CARI
*person you knew in jail? VICKY
*time you went to jail? NEVER
*time you were naked in public? ABOUT 2 YEARS AGO
*time you fell down the stairs? WHEN I WAS 16
*time you had to take medicine? 20 MINUTES AGO


**TIME TO PLAY FAVORITES**
*muppet? ANIMAL
*color? PURPLE
*flavor condom? SPEARMINT
*shoes? SKATE TRAINERS OR BIKER BOOTS
*drug? UPPER=COKE/E DOWNER=KIT
*country? SPAIN
*weapon? MY BARE FUCKIN HANDS. I DONT USE WEAPONS, MAN! THATS FOR PUSSIES WHO CAN'T FIGHT!
*artist? SALVADOR DALI/H.R. GEIGER
*male vocalists? BRANDON BOYD/AXL ROSE
*female vocalists? P!NK/MADONNA
*instament? ?
*musical genre? SOUTHERN METAL/FUNK/ROCK
*vice? SMOKING/DRUGS/SEX
*beer? STELLA ARTOIS
*alcohol? VODKA AND FRESH ORANGE JUICE
*food? TUNA
*colone? VERSACE BLUE JEANS
*wierd smell? PETROL
*fabric? LEATHER
*sight? A BIG PILE OF GREEN GREEN GRASS
*actors? BRAD PITT/ROBERT DENIRO
*actresses? ANGELINA JOLIE/JODIE FOSTER
*quote? "HEY LADY! yOU EVER HAD YOUR ASSHOLE LICKED BY A FAT MAN IN AN OVERCOAT?"
*abfab character? PATSY
*marx brother? FUCK THAT SHIT
*artifical light? CANDLES
*e.m.f.? I DONT HAVE A CLUE WHAT THAT IS. wHY CANT YOU PEOPLE JUST TALK NORMALLY?!?!?!
*new thing? PURPLE LIQUID EYELINER
*old thing? MY LEATHER JACKET
*dj? DJ TIESTO
*rave? I FUCKING HATE RAVE
*people? MY FRIENDS
*person? MEGHAN
*place to relax? BED
*place to be pissed off? THE WATER FRONT
*natural disater? VOLCANOES
*state? ONLY EVER BEEN TO FLORIDA
*city? GLASGOW

**WORST**
*sex? URGH...THIS GUY CALLED JAMES...URGH....*SHUDDERS*
*place to relax? IN THE FAMILY LIVING ROOM
*place to be pissed off? IN MY GRANS HOUSE
*place youve had sex? IN A BUSH
*hospital? FUCK THEM ALL
*rave? -
*state? ONLY BEEN TO FLORIDA - I FUCKIN TOLD YOU!
*city? DUNDEE
*country? IRAQ
*flavor condom? BEER
*drug? LSD
*artist? I DONT THINK U GET "BAD" ARTISTS. THATS WHAT ART IS ABOUT
*male vocalists? LIAM GALLAGHER
*female vocalists? bRITNEY SPEARS
*instrament? VIOLIN
*musical genre? BHANGRA
*vice? SMOKING
*beer? TENNENTS
*alcohol? PEACH SCHNAPPS ....leans over and projectile vomits
*food? RAW FISH. WHY?? WHY??
*wierd smell? CAT PISS
*fabric? SHELL SUIT STUFF
*sight? OLD DUNDEE GADGE HOMELESS MEN
*actors? JIM CARREY/ADAM SANDLER
*actresses? JENNIFER LOPEZ/SANDRA BULLOCK

**WHO**
*fucked your life up the most? BRUCE
*made your life beter? MEGHAN, CARI
*are you afraid of? NO ONE
*do you hate or just dislike a whole lot? I HATE GEMMA MCFEE
*do you love? MEGHAN, CARI, MY FAMILY
*was the last person that bought you somthing? MY MUM
*was the last person you got in to a fight w/? CARI
*was the last person you hit? mY BROTHER


and the best for last:

**SEX**
*sexual preferance? GIRLS BUT IF I CANT GET A GIRL, A GUY WILL DO
*favorite time of day to have sex? NIGHT TIME
*favorite positoins? GUY=DOGGYSTYLE GIRL=69
*fetishes? ARMPITS (ONLY CLEAN ONES THOUGH)
*favorite place to have sex? OUTSIDE
*favorite people to have sex w/? CARI
*fantasies? BEING A SEX SLAVE FOR LIKE, 20 PEOPLE
*how old were you when you first had sex? and w/ who? 13 AND HIS NAME WAS LEE
*what kind of people are you attracted to? PEOPLE WHO STAND OUT FROM THE CROWD
*what turns you on? GETTING MY NECK BITTEN
*pubic hair? I DONT LIKE GIRLS 2 SHAVE COMPLETELY COS THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE A PEADO BUT BRAZILIAN WAZ IS VERY VERY NICE.
*nastiest thing or most taboo thing youve ever done while having sex? WHEN I WAS 15, I HAD THIS OLDER GOTH BOYF AND WE USED TO CUT EACH OTHER AS PART OF FOREPLAY AND THAT TURNED ME ON. hE BIT MY NECK AND BROKE THE SKIN TOO AND I LIKED IT THE DIRTY BITCH THAT I AM!! :-)
*favorite sex toy? I DONT REALLY USE THEM BUT I WANT ONE OF THOSE GIANT LOVE SWINGS YOU HANG FROM THE ROOF.
*favorite porn star? DONT HAVE ONE
*do you own any porn? YEAH A FEW MAGAZINES AND ABOUT 5 VIDEOS
*ever been told to shut the fuck up while fucking? and did you like it? YEAH I HAVE BY MY BF'S DAD!! IT WAS SO FUCKING EMBARRASSING. AND YES! WE DID SHUT UP. IT PUT ME OFF SEX FOR AGES!
*have you ever busted out laughing while fucking? NOT THAT I CAN RECALL
*how many times a day or how often do you have sex? I HAVEN'T HAD SEX FOR 3 WEEKS
*do you give head? AH SHO DO HUNNY! ;-)
*do you enjoy it? ON GIRLS I DO. GUYS...ICK
*ever wanted to fuck a cartoon character? IF I WAS A GIRL LION, SIMBA WOULD SO GET IT! LOL
*do you intend to breed? I ALREADY HAVE
*have you ever been penitrated w/ a foreign object? what? YEAH, LOADS OF SHIT! JUST GENERAL HOUSEHOLD OBJECTS!
*ever fantisize about the energizer bunny? OH YEAH...GIMME SOME OF THAT FURRY LOVIN
*do you know what smoking porn is? are you into it? UM...NO WHAT IS IT?
*are you turned on by disturbing smells? NO, THEY MAKE ME FEEL SICK ACTUALLY
*do you prefer fresh or rotting corpses? NOT TOO FRESH...A LITTLE STIFF
*do you have sex w/ a person for the first time if there drunk? SURE! I'M ALWAYS DRUNK AS WELL THOUGH
*have you ever tried to have sex w/ someone that was sleeping? NO, I'M A GIRL. ONLY GUYS DO THAT SHIT.
*has anyone ever tried to have sex w/ you while you were sleeping? did they secssed? YES THEY TRIED AND THEY SUFFERED
*if someone were to pay you 2 million dollars once every year for the rest of your life would you fuck a farm animal? how about a parking meter? ANIMAL-NO BUT THE PARKING METER? YEAH, I SUPPOSE SO.
*have you ever had sex w/ someone that farted while you were fucking them? or have you? did you continue? MY EX FARTED WHEN I WAS GOING DOWN ON HIM AND I STOPPED IMMEDIATELY AND WENT IN THE HUFF FOR 3 HOURS
*have you ever had sex in public? YEAH A FEW TIMES
*if the phone rings while your fucking do you answer it? YEAH! ITS QUITE THRILLING!
*have you ever tied someone up? whipped them? left them there? LOL YEAH
*if someone you were very atracted to that were 10 or more yrs younger than you wanted to fuck you, would you? how about older? I WOULDN'T FUCK A 9 YR OLD....MAYBE A 16 YR OLD. I'D FUCK A 29 YR OLD NO PROBS.
*would you fuck your best freinds boy/girl friend while they were out of town? what if they were REALY hot? NO AND NO
*have you ever had sex w/ a pregnant chick? would you? I HAVEN'T BUT I PROBABLY WOULD. PREGNANT WOMEN LOOK DEAD SEXY FOR SOME REASON
*have you ever had sex w/ someone that was obiese? YES
*have you ever eatin ass? YES
*have you ever had your ass eatin? YES
*did you enjoy either? I LIKED GETTING MY ASS EATEN BUT DOING IT WAS A BIT SORTA..UUUH...I'M LICKING HER ARSEHOLE!! THATS WHERE HER SHIT COMES OUT!! LOL WE BOTH HAD SHOWERS BEFORE IT THOUGH
*are you turned on by or terifide by clowns? PETRIFIED
*do cybernetics turn you on? NOT IN THE SLIGHTEST
*what about puppets/muppets/feebles? LOL - NO
*have you ever finished a rubix cube? YES SIREE! *BEAMS WITH PRIDE*
*have you ever had an orgie? YES M'LUD AND JOLLY FUN IT WAS TOO
*whats the largest number of people youve had sex w/ at the same time? INCLUDING ME...4
*have you ever had sex at a party? I DONT THINK IVE EVER NOT HAD SEX AT A PARTY!
*on camera? YUP
*how many people have you had sex w/? THAT'D BE TELLING
*do you wank? COURSE I DO
*what about while having sex? UH HUH
*have you ever been turned on at the gyno? NAH
*do squirrels realy like nuts? I GUESS THEY DO
*favorite contraseptive? INJECTION
*are you turned on by lava men or lord zorgon? UH...WHO?
*do drugs incresse your sexual expiriance? OH FUCK, YES
*have you ever been raped? did you injoy it? YES AND NOT IN THE LEAST
*do you scratch, tear, bite and scream? YEAH! BUT I'M NOT LIKE THAT ALL THE TIME...ONLY IF ITS GOOD SEX!
*dose santa turn you on? UH...MAYBE IF IT WAS ANGELINA JOLIE DRESSED UP AS SANTA!
*how about the tooth fairy? NOPE
*have you ever had sex in church? was it w/ a priest or nun? NO NO NO
*dose girl on girl hardcore action turn you on? MMMM.....DROOL...SORRY WHAT WAS THE QUESTION?
*how about anal? YIP YIP YIP
*do you talk during sex? what about? IF THERES SOMETHING I NEED TO SAY, THEN YEAH, I'LL SAY IT
*has anyone ever quoted poetry to you as a pick up line? did it work? NO
*dose it piss you off when people leave there socks on in bed? YEAH
*leather or lace? LEATHER
*whos your favorite rocky character? -------
*have you ever had "relations" w/ someone of the same gender? did you like it? would you do it again? YES YES AND YES
*do you like to be tickled? NO, I REALLY FUCKING HATE IT
*how about scratched? OH YEAH
*how about being punched in the back of the *head while being fucked in the ass? NO BUT I LIKE GETTING MY HAIR PULLED
*what famoes people do you want to fuck? and why? PRETTY MUCH ALL OF EM COZ I'M A STAR-FUCKER
*do you have a burning sensation? NO
*plop plop fizz fizz? NO
*have you ever broken someone? YEAH
*ever been broken? YEAH
*any genital peircings? NO BUT I WANT ONE. WELL 2 ACTUALLY
*would you fuck someone in a hopital? if they were the patient?SURE
*do you like cum? NO. NOT GUY'S CUM ANYWAY! ITS DISGUSTING STUFF!
*can i sit on your b-day cake? IF U WANNA GET ICING ALL OVER UR TROUSERS...DO WHAT U WANT!
*will you sit on mine? NO I HATE GETTING DIRTY
*want to fuck? NOT AT THE MOMENT
*are you a porn star? NOT YET =P
*have you ever had sex w/ a dead chicken? NOT THAT I KNOW OF
*and then eatin it? WTF
*do you like opera? I DONT LIKE IT BUT I APPRECIATE IT
*how many of you current friends have you slept w/? LOL - MOST OF THEM
*whats more erotic: kissing above the waist or below? ABOVE
*do you become "alive" or "dead" when you cum? DEAD
*do you like sports? NOT EVEN A LITTLE BIT
*are you a gamer or a geek? NOPE
*on average how many times do you cum in 1 session? DEPENDS WHO I'M FUCKING. USUALLY 1 OR 2
*how long dose it take you (on average) to cum on your own? BOUT 10-25 MINUTES
*w/ someone else? 1/2 HOUR
*has your "you know what" ever fallen asleep? LIKE PINS N NEEDLES? YEAH...ITS DEAD WEIRD! I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE! THANK GOD!!
*did you enjoy it? KINDA
*do you know what a sazarac swing is? yes
*what is it? THE THING I WANT
*have you ever been acussed of "short cumings"? did you take it as a complament or an insult? DUNNO
*do you work to make your partners cum or dose it just cum naturaly? LET IT HAPPEN
*if you were in an open realationship would you want your partner to tell you before or after they had sex w/ someone else? YES
*are you constantly in search of your underwear? YES
*do you think your a good fuck? I'VE BEEN TOLD BY 8 DIFFERENT PEOPLE I'M THE BEST FUCK THEY'VE EVER HAD!
*do other people? OBVIOUSLY SO
*whats the wierdest thing you have told someone to do to you in bed? SLAP ME FULL FORCE IN THE FACE WHILE I WAS ON THE POINT OF HAVING AN ORGASM
*if you had to fuck one simpsons characure who would it be? MARGE
*futurama? THAT CYCLOPS CHICK
*will you spank me, please? UH...OK
*can i spank you? IF YOU REALLY WANT TO
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[15 Nov 2002|04:10am]
Test Results
You think of yourself as being sexy, luxurious, smooth, and funky.
Others think of you as being brave, beautiful, peaceful, and barbaric.
Your relationships can be described as vast, choppy, clear, and beautiful.
When stressed, you feel terrified.
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[15 Nov 2002|02:48am]
DisorderRating
Paranoid:Moderate
Schizoid:High
Schizotypal:High
Antisocial:High
Borderline:Very High
Histrionic:High
Narcissistic:High
Avoidant:High
Dependent:Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:Low

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Borderline
Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

Dependent
Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. They often remain in abusive relationships. They are overly sensitive to disapproval. They often feel helpless and depressed.

Schizoid
People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."

Schizotypal
Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.
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[15 Nov 2002|02:46am]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | Cold - Just Got Wicked ]

I just wanna see if this works.

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My Shitty Life is Getting even Shittier [14 Nov 2002|10:01pm]
OK, I can't even be bothered to write all this shit out coz I've already hand-written it in my regular diary but I'm feeling so fuckin shit right now that I have to do something or write something or I'll end up slitting my wrists. Again. This is why:

On Tuesday, I phoned my Mum so I could talk to my little girl and I heard my mum saying "Mummy's on the phone, come and talk to her," to Meghan and the Meghan saying "No love Mummy. Mummy's bad." That is the worst thing I could ever have heard at that moment coz I was already feeling like shit. I've split with Cari again coz I think she was just using me for sex but more about that later. This is probably gonna be my longest entry ever and I apologise to everyone whose Friends page this will appear on but I don't know how to use the LJ cuts and anyway it's my fucking journal so I can do what I want.

Anyway, I just hung up the phone and went back over to where Cari and Bobby were standing. Cari said to me in a really snidey way, "What the fuck's wrong with you? You look like someone's died or something!" And because she was being like that about it, I had no desire whatsoever to talk to her about it so I just said I was OK. We went back to her house and on the way I nipped into Tesco and bought myself a pack of good old Wilkinson Sword razor blades and when we got back to Cari's house, I went into the bathroom and really tore into myself. I haven't done it for so long and it felt so good that I just couldn't stop and there was blood all over the bathroom floor and shit.

10 minutes later, Cari starts banging on the door, asking to come in. I shouted through the door that she'd have to wait a few minutes coz I was "busy" but she said, "I know what you're doing in there, you'd better let me in" so I cleaned myself up as best I could but there was still blood everywhere and I opened the door. She came in and started going mental. All she seemed to care about was the mess on the floor and I was totally incoherent...I didn't know what I was doing or anything and she said I was being a total drama queen etc etc and it was disrespectful of me to cut myself in her house, but seeing as I LIVE there, where the fuck else am I going to do it, y'know?

She bandaged up my wrists for me and I went to her bed and lay there crying for about 3 hours. I just couldn't stop. She came through to ask why I was being like that and I told her what happened and she was being a total bitch about it all. She basically said that I was getting upset over nothing and that there was nothing wrong with me and I was just doing it for the attention. I thought of all people, Cari would understand but we ended up having this huge fight and I left.

I went to my ex boyfriend's house coz I didnt know what else to do and he's seen me in plenty of suicidal messes before so I knew he wouldn't be shocked or anything but even he was scared and he phoned my mum and she came to get me. She took me to the emergency doctor who gave me some anti-psychotic pills and sent me on my not-so-merry way. I took all the pills (he only gave me 4 though) but they didn't really help and I stayed up all night cutting and crying and generally being a total state. It wasn't all because of what Meghan said but when one thing sets me off like that, all my bad thoughts come rushing to the surface. I'm usually able to push everything into my subconscious but that night was BAD.

I went to see my GP this morning and she referred me up to the mental health team as an emergency case. I saw this really nice psychiatrist and she gave me new anti depressants. I don't think they're gonna work though cos it's not like I'm totally depressed all the time. I'm just fucked up. Fuck, I don't ebven wanna talk about it any more.

I'm gonna take a few sleeping pills and smoke me a fat one.

~*Nic*~
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Why Me? [14 Nov 2002|07:18pm]
What the fuck have I done to deserve to be treated like this?
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[29 Oct 2002|01:26pm]


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[29 Oct 2002|01:23pm]


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[29 Oct 2002|11:52am]
http://www.printroom.com/EditAlbumPhoto.asp?userid=nik_ita&album;_id=108066ℑ_id=1

here's the link instead. The password is HUNNYPOT in case it doesn't let you see.
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[29 Oct 2002|11:51am]
hope this works!



this is the piercing I want
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I'm so fucking tired [29 Oct 2002|11:22am]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]
[ music | Bikini Kill ]

I've been awake all night. Again. Just now, I'm getting the shakes and that sickening feeling in my stomach along with the horrible taste in my mouth. I haven't indulged in any form of substance abuse (including my old friend Mary Jane) since...Oh my God...I dunno actually. A good few days anyway. I'm craving a joint so badly but I'll have to go without. Actually, I might as well tell the story of WHY I have to go without. Here goes:

On Friday night, this guy Hutchy, who Cari used to fuck behind her ex boyfriends back, phoned her to get a couple of gram of coke. (Hutchy is Steve's mate. Steve is the ex boyfy) Anyway, Cari went along to the phone box to phone Cammy to get the coke and Steve phoned her mobile going absolutley apeshit cos he's caught Hutchy on the phone to Cari. He kicked fuck out of Hutchy and came along to Cari's house. I was just leaving the house to look for Cari when Steve came in the front entrance.

Steve: Where the fuck are you going?
Me : None of your fucking business
Steve: Away to look for Hutchy, are you?
Me : No, I'm away to find Cari actually
Steve: There's no point in looking for him coz I've just kicked his cunt in.
Me : Why?
Steve: He's fucking admitted it...

At this point, I immediately thought "Shit! Hutchy's told Steve he shagged Cari while they were going out!" So I scampered off to find Cari while Steve just let himself into the house. I didn't want to try to stop him cos he's much bigger than me and I truly thought he was gonna hit me. I found Cari not far from the house and told her what Steve had said, so naturally, she was totally freaking out and we ran round to the club where Hutchy was to see if he was OK. He was still standing with not a scratch on him but he didn't want to talk to Cari. He just got in a taxi and fucked off home with his coke.

Then Steve came round the corner, shouting at Cari so she just started walking towards her house where we'd left Julie, Dave and Phil sitting. Steve followed us all along the road and just as we were about to go into the house, he shouted, "I've just trashed your house and battered Dave and Phil!" We bolted up the stairs, and sure enough, Cari's plant was smashed, her lava lamp was smashed and Dave was sporting a rather lovely bruise on his face. Phil was OK though, it seemed that Dave took the brunt.

The point is, Steve is/was my dealer but as from then, I want nothing to do with him. But where the fuck am I going to get hash from? I'm not really all that bothered about any other drugs - they're just for recreational purposes - but I need my daily intake of marijuana! It's the only thing that keeps me sane!

And now, to top it all off, I've run out of cigarettes and the shop is ALL the way across the street! I'm still in my pyjamas and I can't be fucked getting dressed but I need nicotine. And I need food too but that can wait. It can wait forever for all I care!

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[29 Oct 2002|08:42am]
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What is my spectrum?

I am green: My main color is green. I like to have fun and comfort. Happiness is the marker of a great life.

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What is my spectrum?
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Another Pointless Survey Type Thingy [28 Oct 2002|10:47pm]
+ what do you think of cheerleading: WELL, I LOVED THAT MOVIE, BRING IT ON!
+ favorite Disney character: I LIKE MR POTATO HEAD FROM TOY STORY
+ what brand of deodorant do you use: Usually I steal Cari's Impulse O2 but I buy Dove
+ worst kiss: The guy I lost my virginity to was a shitty kisser. Toooooo much tongue
+ anyone you think is homosexual: well, not really. Except for my friend, Phil but he's in DENIAL!
+ do you know anyone named LeRoy: nope
+ do you like Pickles: I like pickled onions/eggs
+ do you have a website: unfortunately not
+ do you watch PORN: MOI?! *Tries to look innocent as she hides magazine under chair*
+ are you black: yo yo yo mother fuckah!
+ do you wish you were black: um....no.
+ who you gonna vote for: The SSP (Scottish Socialist Party)
+ do you have your own phone line: nope. I dont even have a house!
+ your thoughts on abortion: I am pro choice but I don't believe in abortion as a form of birth control
+ do you like brittney spears: SEXXXXXXAY MAMA!!
+ do you want a brittney doll: *shivers in disgust*
+ if not do you want one for christmas: you buying?
+ What do you want for christmas: BIKER BOOTS! PLEASE DADDY!!
+ do you have your 2 front teeth: yes thankfully
+ what do you want to do with your life: I wanna be a STAR!
+ ever been butt naked bangin on the bathroom floor: unfortunately I have. Not to be repeated. BRRRR!
+ would you ever get plastic surgery if so on what: Do you want a list? Boobs, tummy, nose, lips......need i go on?
+ biggest redneck you know: I don't think you get rednecks in Scotland
+ last time you went to skateland: what is "skateland"?
+ last time you went to the bowling alley: about 5 years ago. I fucking hate bowling
+ last time you were in a hoopdy truck: excuse me?
+ what perfume/cologne do you wear: Guess (the brand - I don't mean "Guess what it is!"
+ do you think forigen accents are sexy: I have a thing for Irish accents
+ do you like jell-o if so what flavor: mmm...its OK. I like strawberry the best
+ do you like hot dogs if so do you know whats in them: lots of onions and ketchup and a tiny splash of mustard
+ brand of toothpaste: Sensodyne Whitening
+ last time you went to the doctor: a few months ago...I'm a bit of a hypochondriac
+ do you think ricki martin is gay: maybe....
+ do you think my tractors sexy: oh yes. TRACTOR LOVIN baby!
+ do you have a credit card...can i use it?: nope
+ do you love your mom: of course i do!
+ do you love your mom as much as norman bates did in PSYCHO?: not quite
+ ever taken ballet: no but I did do Scottish Country dancing and Highland dancing
+ favoite juice: apple
+ Last time you used the restroom: ages ago...this morning i think. I dont need to pee a lot
+ most attractive person: in the world? probably Angelina Jolie
+ any diseases if so what are they: Schizophrenia, OCD and Manic Depression
+ last book you read...was it good: Addict by Stephen Smith
+ white, dark, or milk choclate: definietly white
+ ever dyed your hair: I can't remember my natural colour - I think it's probably mousy brown
+ What brand shampoo: Herbal Essences - mmmmm...oooooh...aaaahh
+ favorite holiday: New Year
+ thing you hate most about your body: my tummy - I love my baby but I hate what she did to my body. Obviously it's not her fault blah blah blah
+ do you still play with barbies: I gave all my Barbies to charity but I play with my daughter's
+ last thing or person you rode: Cari - but seeing as you can't really "ride" a gal, it's Bruce
+ are men really from mars: they might as well be
+ do you have to do chores if so what are they: I live with Cari at the moment so we split all the housework
+ last time you smoked: 2 minutes ago
+ last thing you bought: a cheeseburger from Maccy D's

m0re rand0m..

+ are you stressed out...if so from what: no money, too much work, hate my boss etc etc
+ what do you wear to the beach: the beach? I don't go to the beach!
+ do you belive in angels: I'd like to
+ would you ever join the army: fuck no! I don't believe in violence
+ do you want a puppy: I kinda co-own 2 kittens so no
+ ever had a kick me sign on you: no
+ how about a lick me sign: I wish!
+ Favorite icing: I dont like icing
+ are u a flirt: I try!
+ last time you were scared: today. I was scared Cari would tell me to fuck off. We had a fight
+ by what?: I just bloody told you
+ last party you went to: I can't even remember! about a year ago. A proper party anyway
+ do you do your own laundry: I hate other peopel going through my dirty pants! URGH!
+ what detergent do you use: Bold
+ what fabric softner do you use: You dont need to with Bold!
+ are your nails real or fake: bitten to a tiny stump
+ do you get jiggy with it: la la la la la la la la
+ do u live at the wild wild west: no...I live in the wild wild East
+ what do you wish you were named: Constance
+ favorite movie star: ooooh...I think it has to be Robert De Niro/Angelina Jolie
+ are your parents divorced...if so for what reasons: they were never married but they are split.
+ would you ever wear a waterbra: I've got a Gel bra
+ do you work out: sometimes
+ are u muscular: nope not at all - more flabby than anything! lol
+ are you flabby: my tummy is
+ are you fat: not fat....just curvy
+ do you take a lot of pictures: not really
+ favorite tv show: Oz
+ do you want a baby: I already got one but I'll maybe have another in a few hundred millenia!
+ ever thought u were pregnent: Yeah and I was!
+ last time you were sick: The other day. I'm trying to cut down
+ butter or margerine: neither. I like sunflower spread
+ your feelings on mcdonald chicken nuggets: URGH
+ do chinese people really cook cats and dogs: too fuckin right they do!
+ do you belilve in santa claus: I did when i was like 4 or something!
+ do you go to a tanning bed: Hell no! Pale is interesting!
+ are you in love...with anyone...with me???: yeah I'm kinda in love
+ do you have a car: I fucking wish.
+ do you have your licence?: not yet but I'm working on it
+ how do you get around: public transport
+ favorite rugrats character: Angelica

+ got milk: um...no
+ do you sniff markers: not since I was 12
+ are you dissatisfied with your hair color: yes. VERY. Purple my arse!
+ what kind of jewlry do you wear: lip ring, choker
+ what do you think of *//\\//Sync??: Dont even go there!
+ have you ever modeled: Yeah, I did a spot of modelling when I was younger
+ do you shop in catalogs: nah, I prefer shops
+ what do you like the opposite sex to wear: I dont care but I luuurve Goth Bois
+ do you have a cellie: Nope
+ what do you think of eminem: He's Ok I guess
+ favorite kind of gum: orbit
+ would you ever get a tatoo: I have 1
+ do you think lil bow wow is cute: Who the fuck is that?
+ have you seen charlies angels: no and i dont wanna
+ what magazines do you get: Cosmo and Diva
+ do you belive your horoscope: nah
+ Whats your sign: Aries

even m0re rand0m..

+ do u like coffee...what kind...what in it: no I dont
+ do you write in pen or pencil....or markers: Always my Parker pen
+ are you ghetto: Ghetto? Like Christina Aguilera?
+ favorite lip gloss: Vaseline works wonders
+ do you wear a watch: no
+ sunglasses: no
+ ever use nair....if so where?: no
+ ever been to the mall of america: no
+ do you want a leather jacket: I've got one! It's sooooo prettiful...green, knee lenght....oh so sexy
+ ever ridden a motorcycle: ah sho have hunny!
+ do you think justin timberlake and britney spears are really togther: He's boning MAriah Carey now
+ what you think of bsb?: they suck.
+ do you read the chicken soup books: I read one once but it wasn't mine. Die Becki Die!
+ have you seen the exorsist: Yeah
+ are you online a lot: as much as I can be!
+ do you have an old navy performance fleece: nuh uh
+ are you getting tired of doing this: yeah...this is really really fucking long.
+ do you buckle up: every time.
+ any siblings: yeah a bro and a sis
+ what are their names: Karen and Paul
+ what are their ages: Karen's 15 and Paul is 13
+ do they wanna fill out our great survey: I highly doubt it
+ do you know how to yo yo: doesnt everyone?
+ what color are your panties: black. Always black
+ ok we're done are you happy?: thank fuck for that

m0re.

+ number of times I have been in love: 3
+ number of times I have had my heart broken: 3
+ number of hearts I have broken: i dunno
+ number of boys I have kissed: Uh....is it bad that I dont know?
+ number of girls I have kissed: a few!
+ number of men I've slept wit: about 20 ish
+ number of continents I have lived in: 1
+ number of drugs taken illegally: too many
+ number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: 1, maybe 2
+ number of people I consider my enemies: about 5
+ number of people from high school that I stayed in contact with: absolutely none
+ number of cd's that I own: hardly any. thats what comes of being a drug addict for 2 years
+ number of piercings: 13
+ number of tattoos: 1
+ number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: i dunno
+ number of scars on my body: too many to count
+ number of things in my past that I regret: 2
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Utter utter boredom [28 Oct 2002|07:33pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]
[ music | Atari Teenage Riot - Too Dead For Me ]

I'm staying at my mum's tonight. Cari's pissed off at me. Do I have to spend every night there?

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[27 Oct 2002|07:12pm]
[ music | Christina Aguilera - Dirty ]

I love Christina Aguilera's new video. It's got dancing, writhing about in the water and simulated masturbation! How great can one video be? I don't care that Christina is a "ghetto whore" or whatever - she still turns me on! I could watch that ass for days! I saw her on TV last night doing an interview and I SWEAR she was on heroin. She kept slurring her speech, tripping over her tongue and scratching her face. Her pupils were tiny and her skin was all yellow and shit like a junky. She's still fucking sexy though!

I'm bored!!! I need to go home. But i have to wait till my mum gets in. Where the fuck am I going to get money? I didn't go to work this week cos I had food poisoning so I'm totally skint as a motherfucker. I have £30 to last me till Friday and it's only Sunday and I need to get a bottle of Bailey's! I think some 5 finger discount is in order. Tesco's here I come!

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[27 Oct 2002|04:53pm]
[ music | Audiovent - The Energy ]

Hmm...I think I got a little over excited there! This is what happened.

Right, you know how she said that she wanted to have sex and everything? Well, it just sort of happened last night and this morning and later on this morning! hee hee!

We haven't discussed whether or no we're back together but I think it's looking kinda likely. She's been a lot more tactile and shit lately...sitting on my lap and kissing me all the time which she only really did when we were together. I have to go now cos I'm late to meet her. I'll try to write more tomorrow. Bye!!!!!

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We're back together.... [27 Oct 2002|04:44pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Incubus - Pardon Me ]

I think! Well, we had sex last night anyway. Great sex! lol. With Cari by the way. Woo HOO!

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[24 Oct 2002|06:10pm]
bisexual



I'll be damned. You ARE bisexual AFTER all!


You sees "31 Flavors" as the ideal place to work.

You can get unequivocally turned on by eating Cheese 'n Crackers -

taking the little sticks from the wrapper and sliding them into the cheese.

You are definitely a sexual glutton, taking as much as you can ;)



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[24 Oct 2002|03:56pm]
gothic
what fucked version of hello kittie are you?

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