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And, finally a clean house... yes everybody, it is now a clean house. I'm very impressed with myself. I pretty much cleaned all day today, but I even dusted and cleaned the mirrors in the bathrooms. Of course, now I have candles lit all over the place to get rid of the cleaning agent smell. Nobody is comfortable in a house that smells like Lysol. The reason for the cleaning is that I've got guests from out of town coming in tonight. Breon and his brother are stopping in town on their way out west! It'll be good to hang out with him again, haven't gotten a chance to see the boy since graduation. It should be a fun night, and he'll get to meet P, because he's staying over too. It's our last chance to see each other until after New Years, which I'm thinking is going to be tough. Of course, time is flying by me so quickly these days, that I should probably be fine. He's also planning on quitting smoking while he's home for Christmas. :) yeah!
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AAARRRRRRGGG! I'm still working on my quantum final. I should have forced myself to get that finished two days ago! I'm probably good on about 2 of the 5 questions, and have a good start on the other 3. But, I am completely frustrated trying to finish up one of the latter. I've got 4 of the 6 eigenvectors, and am going insane trying to figure out the last two. Of course, it doesn't help that the whole time I'm working on this I'm thinking - have to finish and move on to studying for my other exams. I'm got one tomorrow evening, and the other Thursday afternoon, and am already far too short on study time even if I could start right now. Okay - breathing. lastscion posted a thing about christmass shopping, and when forming a reponse, it occured to me that this bitching might as well be in my journal: So, I'm too concerned with my finals right now to even consider gift shopping. And, quite frankly it will never be easy for me. The only easy one's I've got are the 2 younger siblings - I figure I can get them each some IU clothing and they'll think it's cool (I love young people). Then there are the two older siblings - both are now married and living in the same city. I have no clue how to deal with them. Maybe gift certificates - I'll have to ask each of them about stores in the area appropriate for the other one. The brother's in law will just have to share in their wive's joy, because my list is far from over with. 4 parents - none of whom have any needs or desires that require shit they don't already have. This means coming up with 4 meaningless random gifts and pretending like they mean something. Add to this the fact that my Mom and oe of my older sisters also have birthdays in December and I'm pretty much phucked with a capitol PH.
Then there's my man, whose birthday is on Friday... I sort of owe him a watch, considering my dog ate his. But, I feel wierd buying him things like that at this point. I'd like to take him out to dinner and maybe do something fun, but he's working until 1am that day, and leaving for a wedding the next day. Grrr.
However, that being said, I have no more time to think about it until Thursday after my last final, after which I will likely head straught to the bars to drown my sorrow, so that I can be sober and awake at 1 am to celebrate P's birthday with him - of course, I will probably just say 'Happy Birthday, can I go to sleep now?' Oh yeah, and my Dad calls me tonight to tell me that my step-mother's uncle is in the hospital on life support, but there's been no brain activity and they're probably going to pull the plug on him tomorrow. He's a very sweet man, who's always been very nice to us, but what am I supposed to say to that? The response is very short, 'I'm sorry, that's a shame, he was a great guy'. Am I heartless that this is all the response I can muster? And, should I feel guilty that what I leave unsaid is 'at a certain age, death really isn't all that of a sad thing.' Sure, he leaves behind a lot of people who love him, but is it so much of a shock? It is a natural thing for people to pass on.
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Forgive me my nonsense as I also forgive the nonsense of those who think they talk sense. Robert Frost
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So, just about the time I was starting to consider my homework tonight - I get a phone call. It was P, our mutual army friend is in town tonight and they were on their way to the comedy show at our favorite bar. Hm. Let me think - homework, or laughter and beer. The first comic left me a bit cold. Apparently he expected us to find his inability to deal with his son's homosexuality, his painful experiences in divorce court, and bigotry funny. Eh. But the second guy was a 62 year old stoner - very funny. Spent a good deal of time mocking the 'birthday girl' (a 21st, now, I know I'm not much older than that - but your 21st is still no excuse to be sloppy, obnoxious drunk and think it's cute). Bought a hat from the dude - first I was thinking of giving it to MB, aka 'Mom', but I might just keep it for myself. Very classy - white letters on black 'Did you poop today?'Anyways, I'll leave you with this: Have you ever watched a fly buzzing around and wondered how close they get to the ceiling before they flip over to land?
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