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Sunday, January 26th, 2003
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2:46 am - Confusion
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I'm so confused about everything right now. Even the things that I've never been confused about before... I'm starting to question. I kind of just want to drop everything that I have in my life right now and move away. You know... to find out what I really want I might have to get away from it all for a while.
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| Wednesday, January 15th, 2003
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12:24 am
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| Friday, December 20th, 2002
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3:46 am - ???
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| Sunday, November 17th, 2002
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11:39 pm
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// Series One - as usual
-- Name: Katherine Denise Verhelst
-- Birthdate: 12/02/84
-- Birthplace: Regina, SK
-- Current Location: Regina, SK
-- Eye Color: Green
-- Hair Color: Blond now!
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
-- Innie or Outtie: innie
// Series Two - describe
-- Your Heritage: 1/4 Scottish, 1/4 Austrian, 1/2 Belgian
-- The Shoes you wore today: ummm my walmart runners with the sparkly laces
-- Your hair: is down and boring. (and blond!)
-- Your eyes: still green, at least they were last time I checked!
-- Your weakness: becoming depressed for no reason
-- Your fears: bugs, being left alone, zombies!!
-- Your perfect pizza: pepperoni baby
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: I'd like to be a millionaire someday
// Series three - what is
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: I don’t have an instant messaging thingy anymore :P
-- Your thoughts first waking up: moh.. me tired
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: probably hair or smile
-- Your best physical feature: hmmm tough. I have a pretty decent body, but nothing is spectacular.
-- Your bedtime: 12:00 weeknights and 2:30 on weekends
-- Your greatest fear: holy deja vu
-- Your greatest accomplishment: ummm….. I dunno all the good flute stuff I've done
-- Your most missed memory: I rather miss Japan.
// Series four - you prefer
-- Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi!!!
-- McDonalds or Burger King: DUH McDonalds all the way!!!!!
-- Single or Group date: Single
-- Adidas or Nike: LOL neither
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
-- Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
-- Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino
-- Boxers or briefs: neither!
// Series Five - do you
-- Smoke: No
-- Cuss: Sometimes
-- Sing well: Sorta
-- Take a shower everyday: yes
-- Have a crush(es): I guess
-- Who are they: jason
-- Do you think you've been in love: yep
-- Want to go to college: booyeah U of R
-- Like High School: maybe If I'd gone to a GOOD high school :P
-- Want to get married: Yup!
-- Type w/ fingers on the right keys: yup
-- Believe in yourself: sometimes
-- Get motion sickness: No
-- Think you're attractive: depends on the day
-- Think you're a health freak: no way!
-- Get along with your parents: better lately I think.. but I still wouldn’t say "get along"
-- Like thunderstorms: love them
-- Play an instrument: yup
// Series Six - in the past month, did/have you
-- Drank alcohol: no
-- Smoke(d): No
-- Done a drug: No
-- Have Sex: yes
-- Made out: yes
-- Go on a date: yes
-- Go to the mall: yes
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
-- Eaten Sushi: no
-- Been on stage: yes
-- Been dumped: no
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: yes
-- Been in love: yes
-- Gone skinny dipping: eee that would be cold!
-- Dyed your hair: yes
-- Stolen anything: no
// Series seven - have you ever
-- Played a game that required the removal of clothing: No
-- If so, was it in mixed company: ---
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes
-- Been caught "doing something": "doing something" eh?
-- Been called a tease: probably
-- Gotten beaten up: no
-- Shoplifted: no
-- If so, did you get caught: --
// Series eight - the future
-- Age you hope to be married: hmm 23 sounds nice
-- Numbers and Names of Children: Mikaela, Jamieson, Demetrius
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: don’t really care that much
-- How do you want to die: peacefully in my sleep
-- Where you want to go to college: Julliard baby
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: something to do with the flute
-- What country would you most like to visit: Italy or Greece
// Series nine - number of
-- People I could trust with my life: Actually.. quite a few.
-- CD's I own: approximately 2
-- Number of piercings: one in each ear
-- Number of tattoos: none
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: no idea
-- Number of scars on my body: probably 5 or 6 from stupid things
-- Number of things in my past I regret: "mack-fest 2000" as Scott puts it. I don’t regret going out with Jason… but I do regret starting our relationship that way… especially since it gave us a bad rep that lasted for 2 years… Ahh… that memory is pretty shameful.
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| Monday, October 14th, 2002
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11:42 am - yo yo
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| Saturday, August 3rd, 2002
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1:19 am - Random tidbit
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Tyne says:
oh my what have we been smoking kt?
I'm goin out with a hotttie, nya nya nya nya says:
cheese
Tyne says:
oh really...never heard of that before.
I'm goin out with a hotttie, nya nya nya nya says:
its good
I'm goin out with a hotttie, nya nya nya nya says:
or should i say
I'm goin out with a hotttie, nya nya nya nya says:
gouda
current mood:  amused
current music: Blue moon
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| Friday, July 5th, 2002
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11:49 pm - JAPAN!!!
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My two bags are packed, I'm sorta ready to go
I'm sitting here, couldnt ask for more
I'd love to wake Laura up to scream goodbye!
The dawn is soon breakin', it's almost morn,
I'm sick of waiting, my ass is sore,
But still i'm so excited i get to fly!
So kiss my ass and i'll smile for me
I laugh cuz u stay home and wait for me
To Japan, i know you'd really wish to go!
I'm leeeeeeeeeaving on a jet plane!
In 23 days i'll be back again!
Ohhh babe, i'm glad to go!
current mood: excited
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| Wednesday, July 3rd, 2002
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2:14 am
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Maybe i'm just crazy... but theres so many little things that jason does over and over again that just break my heart into itty bitty pieces. i just don't get it
current mood: unloved
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| Friday, June 28th, 2002
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1:31 am - i dont remember where i got this from
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Nothing.
Time passes and i want to die.
Nothing can make me happy.
Pain is all i feel within and out myself.
I cant do anything right.
Then again i cant do anything wrong.
Blood surrounds me, i feel again.
Pain floats out of me.
Death enters my brain.
Katie disappears away, far away.
Stillness is in the air.
Pain is nothing.
Life is nothing.
I am nothing.
current mood:  cold
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12:32 am - I HATE SUMMER
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God! This is supposed to be the best time of my life. I just graduated and i'm supposed to be as happy as can be. This summer is supposedly the BEST one of my life.
except...
1) grad was crappy.
2) i'm tired of marching. i'm sorry to all those who love it and stuff... i used to but really i'm just horribly sick of it. and we've barely even started.
3) i got in another accident and now i can't drive my family's cars anymore. i'm screwed for like, ever. i also have to pay for the damage and its not going to be cheap, since i just found a big dent on my trunk that i didn't see at first. i can't believe how horribly stupid i am. and i'm obviously a horribly crappy driver considering that i've been in 3 accidents and gotten a ticket and i havent even had my license for a year and a half.
4) i'm sick. and tired. all this stuff just keeps haunting me and i feel worse and worse every day. i'm more stressed now than when we had finals.
i'm not even enthused for japan. all thats waiting for me when i get back is working LOTS, arranging a whole bunch of crap for school, and a big big bill for my.. sorry.. my parent's car. instead of celebrating i just want to break down and cry and not face anything or anyone all summer.
my dad is so incredibly mad at me for doing that to the car... i cant stand to be around him, hes always so horribly disappointed in me. i hate being the "bad" child in my family. i really really don't try to screw up but it always happens that way...
current mood: depressed
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| Sunday, June 9th, 2002
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12:30 am
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i really dont know whats wrong with me. i have an incredible want to be held right now...
current mood: sad
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| Tuesday, June 4th, 2002
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7:33 pm - Hey buddies
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Hey, i haven't written for a while... theres quite a lot going on in my life right now. this weekend i went on a school band trip to north dakota.. that was fun i guess. i made some new friends with people i hadn't really talked to before. i think theres enough inside jokes left from that trip to last me a lifetime.
countdown to grad is now on... 3 weeks today i graduate. that means i NEVER HAVE TO GO BACK TO MILLER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! that makes ne quite happy, considering its the raunchiest school in the whole city. theres talk going around that they're going to turn it into a "community" (all native) school.. i suppose it wouldnt matter all that much, most of the people that go there are native anyways.. but the people that aren't will get kicked out and forced to go to like.. leboldus and such. oh well enough of that, it doesnt really affect me anyways.
countdown to japan is also finally on. 32 days until we leave. i FINALLY got my passport form in.. that'll be ready on June 17th. im getting excited for that.. although i really really need to prepare or something.. i dont know anything about the japanese culture... or how to behave or anything.. i dont have much money.. i have to buy gifts for our home-stay families and such too... yikes.
the scholarship money has been pouring in lately. so far $600 and i'm crossing my fingers for another 1300 soon. i wont be at band on thursday because i have to pick up a $300 scholarship. i feel kinda guilty about missing so much band.. being a section leader and all... but hey, its $300... which i really really really really need. anyone want to donate money to the Help Katie Go To Japan and Further her Education fund? :( i didn't think so....
I only have to work possibly 3 or 4 more times til august guys... one shift being tonight from 8 til 12.. if you're really bored, come in and visit me! jeez i'm going to have to load on the hours when i get back.. and also decide where im living next year! but thats a totally different matter. does anybody know of a rent free place that i can live next year?!
anywho gotta go to work now
current mood: chipper
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| Sunday, May 19th, 2002
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9:26 pm - Bon Jour means good day, not hello!
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Bonjour!! Tis I, Kate the Great... returned from the land of not-writing-ness! I am in an extremely good mood now even though i have to work tomorrow morning at 5:00 :( :( because i went in and they cut my shift short so i can go to marching at 9;00!
yay!!!!
ummm bye
current mood:  okay
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| Saturday, May 4th, 2002
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10:03 pm - Bwahagh!
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I, Lukas, have taken over Katie's livejournal accout. Muhahah!
Uhm... *realizes the stupidity of this scheme*
Go see Spiderman, it's a good movie.
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| Friday, May 3rd, 2002
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11:13 am - Law Class!!
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Law class is possibly THE most boring and pointless class in the history of school. Right now we're supposed to be working on skits... blah. Stupid stupid stupid!!! Thank God in an hour i'll be out for lunch with jason.. woo hoo!
Jeremy is gay
current mood: bored
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| Sunday, April 14th, 2002
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1:55 am
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moh.. i'm lonely and depressed.. no one's around to make me happy..
today was possibly the worst day ever imaginable.. i thought friday was bad, but today was worse. i basically got up at 10 and then was busy the rest of the day until now.. and its 2 in the morning. i really should get some rest but i'd rather be talking to someone. but everyones in bed. :(
this whole week has be so bad and next week will be even worse cuz i wont even have jason to talk to.
current mood: sad
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| Saturday, April 13th, 2002
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1:14 am
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12:32 am - Some thing..
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| Thursday, March 28th, 2002
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11:20 pm
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| Sunday, March 24th, 2002
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9:24 am - I hate stuff!
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Well yesterday was definatly a very shitty day... probably the first time i've gone to bed in tears for a couple months..
what i dont get is why jason is talking to me if he's just going to bitch and act like he's doing me such a huge favor.. honestly, i'd rather have him not talk to me at all than that. see, what happened was i was in a bad mood... then he mysteriously left.. waited up for him for an hour... then the second he got back he was like.. uhh gtg bye. i just wanted him to stay for 5 minutes or something.. i mean, i was really happy that he was back cuz i basically felt like crap and wanted to talk to someone. then he bitched at me because he was doing me such a huge favor to stay awake that late in the first place.. and then i just left. i wonder if he realises that i stayed up til 3:30 when i had to get up at 9:00 today just to talk to him.. but I didnt complain because i actually WANTEd to talk to him... and didnt treat it as some huge favor i was doing him.
the moral of the story is, if you don't want to talk to me, you don't have to.
current mood: sad
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