I dunno. Here, there, everywhere.
Yesterday was Folsom St. fair. Always a good time. And I went with good guys and saw other friends.
But it just didn't fit. Standing around watching other guys get their buzz on while wearing dead cows just isn't as exciting as it used to be. I would guess that is because 1) Since I won't be sleeping with any of them, window shopping is kind of boring. 2) Since I'm not drinking, the rest of the crowd isn't getting any more attractive.
I feel like I'm on the cusp of a change for my life. I feel like I'm getting closer to where I want to be, but not quiet there. It'll be 5 months coming up that I haven't been drinking. I started surf lessons a week ago (about the coolest thing I've ever done).
I can point to all the peices of my life, but things don't feel like a tight fit anymore.
What's my motivation?
Posted by Matt at September 29, 2003 06:41 PM