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[26 Jun 2003|11:06pm] |
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http://artists.mp3s.com/artists/564/angels_without_wings.html
^ check ^ out ^ this ^ band ^
they are pretty impressive.. i liked them
im bored..
i worked tonight
its wierd starting working again after being pretty much layed off for 6 weeks
and also not knowing if or when im going to get money for it..
lame..
im tired.. its 11:10, im hoping im going to pass out early
and head to xans early tomorrow
i love xan's house.. i <3 xan..
i love my friends... all of them
and i love music..
i love hardcore music a lot.. its quite wonderful
oh yeah and josh marshall +dreams+
im sick of my dreads itching... swimming dried out my skull
now it itches.. BADLY
its time to sleep, i think?
.end.
oh yeah.. this is a public entry.. so have a hay day with it (directed to those who live in new philly, well the ones whos lives consist of nothing but mine, and my journal..) <-- and thankyou to those of you who STOPPED caring.. thankyou very much
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.The.Entire.World.Is.Counting.On.You.
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[17 Jun 2003|01:07am] |
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YOUR ABSOLUTLY INTOXICATED BY YOUR OWN MOUTH RUNNING IN CIRCLES YOUR TOUNGE ALWAYS TENDS TO LOSE IT EVERY CHANCE YOU GET YOU ABUSE IT YOU HAVE NO SPENT A LIFE TIME KILLING TIME
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.The.Entire.World.Is.Counting.On.You.
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[11 Jun 2003|07:11pm] |
these blooms are in full
it is incredible that you have become the answer to all my prayers. the shadows that softly held my eyes have returned to their darkened corners. is there a way around this. to look but never taste those lips. to touch and not feel a thing. to love but not love. sent to this outcast, a picture of what was to be. an eternal gift. a life once empty is filled by hope and i overflow. but in the night the torrent came announcing the worst of times. angel, you held me beneath the waves to protect me from the storm. and in this place i lay down my tears, as you breathe life in me. in this place i give it up. i give it all away to you. and there is nothing we can do as the waves of time wash over every part of us. as we wither and watch all the flowers turn to dust. it is incredible that you have become the answer to all my prayers. my sweetest thoughts of you are in circles that never end and flowers that never die.
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13 ..Shot.Gun.Messages| .The.Entire.World.Is.Counting.On.You.
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[04 Jun 2003|11:00pm] |
--Yes or No--(add a band at the end. Make it Grow!)
1. Nirvana- kurt is dead, but yes
2. Sublime- FUCK YES!
3. Depeche Mode- haaaail yeeeah nigga!
4. Linkin Park- fuck you!
5. No Doubt- OLD stuff
6. Rage Against the Machine- oh yes!
7. U2- ew..
8. Green Day- oh yes!
9. Beastie Boys- hells yeah!
10. Red Hot Chili Peppers- gotta love funk
11. Blink-182- uh?
12. System of a Down- maybe?
13. The Smashing Pumpkins- !!!YEAH!!!
14. Korn- in 6th grade?
15. Bob Marley- YES!!!!!
16. Metallica- DIE
17. The Offspring- alright.. i guess
18. The Cure- OBSESSION
19. Incubus- sure
20. Stone Temple Pilots- yummy!
21. Pearl Jam- sure why not
22. Tool- = LOVE!!
23. Radiohead- = MORE LOVE!
24. 311- sexy!
25. Nine Inch Nails- oooo! aww!
26. Weezer- yepp!
27. Social Distortion- HOLLA!
28. The Smiths/Morrissey- YES YES YES!
29. Jane's Addiction- oh yeah!
30. Oingo Boingo- haha.. naw
31. Alice In Chains- used to
32. Limp Bizkit- ITS ALL ABOUT THE YOU SUCK!
33. The Clash- YES!
34. Dave Matthews Band- yepp
35. Creed- no.
36. The Ramones- ARE THE GREATEST!
37. Staind- needs a hug.. and no
38. R.E.M.- ..shiney happy ppl... not on my watch!
39. Bush- yepp
40. Bad Religion- OOO YES!
41. Foo Fighters- sorta
42. New Order- sure
43. Soundgarden- sure sure
44. Garbage- yepp
45. Pennywise- BROHYME! yeeeeah!
46. Violent Femmes- YES YES YES YES YES
47. Rob Zombie/White Zombie- eh..
48. David Bowie- YEAH FUCK YEAH!
49. Godsmack- eats turds
50. Duran Duran- DOO-RAN DOO-RAN NOOOO!
51. P.O.D.- fuck you you shit eaters
52. Coldplay- yes ma'am!
53. Beck- yepp!
54. Eminem- nope
55. Deftones- YES!
56. Cypress Hill- no
57. Oasis- sure
58. Jimmy Eat World- sometimes
59. Tori Amos- YES!
60. Moby- sorta
61. The Pixies- HELLS YEAH
62. Blondie- OH YES!
63. Live- way back when
64. Hole- YEAH YEAH!
65. Rancid- YES!
66. Fatboy Slim- yepp
67. Siouxsie and the Banshees- yyyyes!
68. Marilyn Manson- mmhmm
69. Save Ferris- hah yepp
70. The Sex Pistols- yyyyyeeee[!
71. Disturbed- die..
72. Billy Idol- yes!
73. The Strokes- yeppers!
74. The Police- HELL YEAH ROXANNE!
75. Primus- YEP!
76. The Go-Go's- yessum!
77. Everclear- nope
78. Bjork- YES LOVE YES LOVE SEXY LOVE YES!!!
79. Dramarama- naw
80. Prodigy- smack my bitch up!
81. The Cult- yep
82. Cake- YES YES YES YES YES
83. MxPx- sorta
84. Third Eye Blind- sometimes
85. Sum 41- some stuff
86. Travis- HELL YEAH!
87. Papa Roach- DIE DIE DIE
88. Devo- whipit! yes!
89. A Perfect Circle- yepp!
90. New Found Glory- okay i guess
91. The Cranberries- yepp!
92. Lit- not really
93. The B-52's- YES!!!
94. Puddle of Mudd- noooo
95. Blur- YESSS
96. Unwritten Law- sorta
97. Pet Shop Boys- fuck yaeh
98. Hoobastank- when incubus gets old
99. X- xibit- hells yes!
100. Lenny Kravitz- had nice dreads.. no
101. Adema- DIE DIE DIE GAY QUEERS
102. Echo & the Bunnymen- hahah! sure
103. Kid Rock- no
104. INXS- YES!
105. Everlast/House of Pain- um, not really
106. Faith No More- YES YES YES
107. Ozzy Osbourne- no no no
108. Mindless Self Indulgence- love it.. but its trendy now.. die fuckers
109. Pantera - yes, but they broke up
110. Pat Benetar - shit yeah!
111. GWAR - IS AMAZING
(you love my sex, and you love gwar too!)
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8 ..Shot.Gun.Messages| .The.Entire.World.Is.Counting.On.You.
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[02 Jun 2003|04:39pm] |
Two Pianos
You say to yourself,
“Nothing will shake me”
You take hold of the world to find yourself
You find yourself so empty
What have you let go of and for?
What have you let go of?
You were a brother before you were a king
When you’re dethroned what will you be?
You were a tower lifted up so tall
We have to gasp as we see the height from which you fall
You wanna hide beneath the pretty paint
You wanna be okay with everything
You wanna be transformed and stay the same
You wanna be dry in the rain
You loved you skin and dropped the “k”
You were called to be free
Do you wish again to be enslaved?
One hand to the sky, the other to your side
Clinging to a bag filled with two thousand dollar. Bills.
What have you let go of and for?
What have you let go of?
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| cool hand? |
[02 Jun 2003|01:09am] |
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Nobody Hugs A Rose
She cannot see the ocean
For the trees that block the way
She cannot see forever ‘cause she can’t see past today
She’s driving home so empty
From another one night stand
With a guy who doesn’t care but just wants to feel like a man
If only falling in love was as easy as making it
But nobody hugs a rose
Nobody hugs a rose
Nobody hugs a rose
She’s all alone ‘cause nobody hugs a rose
She has no ring to speak of
Save the one her daddy left
He stepped out of her life leaving some jewelry on a shelf
Seems like every man she loves ends up walking away
‘Cause nobody hugs a rose
Nobody hugs a rose
Nobody hugs a rose
She’s all alone ‘cause nobody hugs a rose
There’s never been a prettier soul
No, there’s never been a lovelier rose
But she can never wipe away all her tears
She cries herself to sleep and wakes up to the same old fears
She only needs someone to hold her right now
A man who would wear those thorns like a crown
She steps into her bedroom
And falls onto the floor
She cries out to her savior
That she just can’t take no more
Jesus says, “Girl, I’ve been waiting
For this very day
When I could pick you up and strip those dirty thorns away”
Nevermore will she think in her old futile ways
That nobody hugs a rose
Nobody hugs a rose
Nobody hugs a rose
She’s not alone ‘cause somebody loved a rose
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[31 May 2003|09:22pm] |
"Strangled"
I feel strangled.
I feel torn into insufficient amounts of two.
Is this a sign of what I'm made of,
or how I allow myself to be treated?
Grab the wrists, pull away.
I don't want to die today, so I won't.
I can't believe this is me,
well you're drowning me with my own hate, so I...
Do you feel they're laughing at you through the TV? I know I do.
Do you wonder how they get away with that shit they say?
I was the glue that held us together.
I'll be that fucking stitch forever.
When you feel like there's nothing left inside of you
just remember I wanted something I could hold onto...
Are the mental restraints a good replacement for me?
It's such a pretty sound, ear to the ground.
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| i think im loosen' this game again |
[30 May 2003|04:56pm] |
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Regular exposure to insecticide has caused me to break out in hives. I'm losing weight. I cannot wait till Saturday... cuz on Saturday, my tax deductions make me function like a blue collar... white collar...? ...I don't know -so I gotta hollar "Oh! Oh Goddamnit! I think I've lost it! Oh God! Goddamnit, I think I've lost you! Anti-oxidants have got me causing accidents because my wine is spiked with pomegranite. If you've got just one, then slam it. Shot down -it's just such a shame. I bet you feel no pain. Mercy! Expect a rivalry. Shot down -it's just such a shame. I'm losing at this game. No fair! Why don't you seem to care. Lack of consequence has got me making decisions based upon truth or dare decision making. No faking. I end up taking karate. She's naughty... I call shotty! My body will never live up to these expectations... I still make invitations. Oh! Oh Goddamnit. I think I've lost it and I think that I've lost you.
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[28 May 2003|09:13pm] |
oh man.. yes ithink christina got fat.. and yes it grossed me out.. its sick to see someone SO THIN go to THAT.. that i mean.. shes big now.. okay admit it, you all trying to be nice ppl.. you know that thats a REALLY dramatic change, ALSO shes on drugs hardcore now.. and its obvious, explaining the weight change..
oh man the world is a sick and dark cruel place..
+puke!+
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