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hello lj world... long time no talk...nothing new really going on here to mention except that I'm getting Married!!!!!!!!!! Got engaged on christmas day. No dates planned yet and I get my ring on friday from the jewelry store because it had to be sized. I have an online pic of it if anyone's interested. My new years resolution is to try and keep in touch better with LJ. I hope everyone is well and got everything you wished for at christmas!!! Love, Kristin
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[26 Apr 2003|09:46am] |
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Morg, you and a other people are on my friends list. But Colleen and Madelinerose are the only people showing up on my friends page! Until you go back and see my name. (I'm on my friends list too! =))
Nevermind! I see you now! =)
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[20 Apr 2003|01:21pm] |
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Happy Easter Everyone! Hope you have a great day with your families!
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[19 Apr 2003|06:35pm] |
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After 2 LONG days of trying to understand my computer and how it works with LJ, I FINALLY Edited my style! Check it out and tell me what you think!
Thanks for the help, Chris.
In other happy news- Scott sent me 8 candles and a dozen roses in a Waterford Crystal Vase today!
I love that boy so much! I think I might keep him around for awhile...maybe definately forever! =)
Hope ya'll are having a great day!
Also:
I made a new icon as well, in case you haven't already noticed. It's palm beach barbie in a bikini standing next to my name, I chose her because I'm not posting a pic of me in a swimsuit anytime soon. And I'd feel like a lesbian putting other girls in swimsuits up.
*No offense to Lesbians out there!*
So what do ya think?
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[17 Apr 2003|06:04pm] |
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I hope Morg and Col have a great time tonight and be sure to party enough for all of us! =)And remember to take lots of pictures!!!!!!!!!!!
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[17 Apr 2003|04:46pm] |
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And no, I'm not bi, but I do think women can be really friggin sexy! Which is why I'm oh so glad I am one! =)
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[17 Apr 2003|01:37pm] |
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I recieved a box of belgian chocolate truffles in the mail today from Scott's Mom for Easter! Isn't that so sweet???? =)
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[17 Apr 2003|01:23pm] |
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Subject: The Plan
OK America! Here's the Plan!!!
1) The US will apologize to the world for our "interference" in their affairs, past & present. You know; Hitler, Mussolini and the rest of them good old boys'. We will never "interfere" again.
2) We will withdraw our troops from all over the world, starting with Germany, South Korea and the Philippines. They don't want us there. We would station troops at our borders. No more sneaking through holes in the fence.
3) All illegal aliens have 90 days to get their affairs together and leave. We'll give them a free trip home. After 90 days the remainder will be gathered up and deported immediately, regardless of who or where they are.
France would welcome them.
4) All future visitors will be thoroughly checked and limited to 90 days unless given a special permit. No one from a terrorist nation would be allowed in. If you don't like it there, change it yourself, don't hide here. Asylum would not ever be available to anyone. We don't need any more
cab drivers.
5) No "students" over age 21. The older ones are the bombers. If they don't attend classes, they get a "D" and it's back home baby.
6) The US will make a strong effort to become self sufficient energy wise. This will include developing non polluting sources of energy but will require a temporary drilling of oil in the Alaskan wilderness. The caribou
will have to cope for a while.
7) Offer Saudi Arabia and other oil producing countries $10 a barrel for their oil. If they don't like it, we go someplace else.
8) If there is a famine or other natural catastrophe in the world, we will not "interfere". They can pray to Allah or whomever, for seeds, rain, cement or whatever they need. Besides' most of what we give them is stolen or given to the army. The people who need it most get very little, if any
anyway.
9) Ship the UN Headquarters to an island some place. We don't need the spies and fair weather friends here. Besides, it would make a good
homeless shelter or lockup for illegal aliens.
10) All Americans must go to charm and beauty school. That way, no one can call us "Ugly Americans" any longer.
Now, ain't that a winner of a plan!
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| Whoohoo! I'm a gay male with a heavenly voice! |
[15 Apr 2003|01:36pm] |
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You're Clay Aiken! Sweet and sensitive, you are
nice to everyone and if you have a mean bone in
your body, we haven't seen it yet. And that
voice! Heavenly. A word to the wise, though.
You and Simon? Soooo obvious.
Which American Idol contestant are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
In other news I'm sick as a dog and have no sprite or soup and no energy to go get them much wanting to be out of my bed long enough to write this! =( Atleast I have juicyjuice and icecream!
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[11 Apr 2003|12:23pm] |
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...for these troubled times! I don't know about you, but it is definately all about what I'm preachin!
Courtesy Of The Red, White And Blue (The Angry American)
(Toby Keith)
American girls and American guys
We'll always stand up and salute
We'll always recongnize
When we see Old Glory flying there's alot of men dead
So we can sleep in peace at night when we lay down our head
My daddy served in the Army when he lost his right eye
But he flew a flag out in our yard till the day that he died
He wanted my mother, my brother, my sister, and me
To grow up and live happy in the land of the free
Now this nation that I love has fallen under attack
A mighty sucker punch came flying in from somewhere in the back
Soon as we could see clearly through our big, black eye
Man,we lite up your world like the 4th of July
Uncle Sam put your name at the top of his list
And the Statue of Liberty started shaking her fist
And the eagle will fly and its gonna be hell
When you hear Mother Freedom start ringing her bell
And it'll feel like the whole wide world is raining down on you
Brought to you courtesy of the red, white, and blue
Justice will be served and the battle will rage
This big dog will fight when you rattle his cage
You'll be sorry that you messed with the US of A
Cause we'll put a bullet in your ass it's the American way
Uncle Sam put your name at the top of his list
And the Statue of Liberty started shaking her fist
And the eagle will fly and its gonna be hell
When you hear Mother Freedom start ringing her bell
And it'll feel like the whole wide world is raining down on you
Brought to you courtesy of the red, white, and blue
Ohhh
Of the red, white, and blue
Ohhh
And for those interested: Dr. Phil, America's Newest Daytime Tell-it-like-it-is Talk Show Host, is airing a special on Anti-War Protestors, and how they suckass to my understanding. It's on today at 3PM eastern time, and whatever time it is where you are! So Tune in!
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[07 Apr 2003|11:54pm] |
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I wonder why I spend time putting questions in my posts when noone ever answers.
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[07 Apr 2003|11:51pm] |
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If I grow into half the woman my mom is...that would be such a blessing. There are no words to express how amazing she is. I'm so lucky to have her as mine.
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[07 Apr 2003|09:45pm] |
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how can I lose 20 lbs in 6 weeks, healthy?
My diet consist of 1/2 a bowl of cereal in the morning.
maybe a side salad (no chicken) for lunch
lately I've been packing either sandwich and baked lays with fruit cup for dinner or salad (no chicken) and fruitcup with pudding strip.
I drink mostly water or juice and limit myself to one soda per day if that.
Given that, I eat fairly healthy and I'm pretty active, work out about 3 times per week. And yet I'm still 155 lbs. I want to be 135 lbs so that I can feel and look on the outside the same way I feel on the inside. I want to be able to wear sexy clothes for scott, and feel sexy in them and right now I just dont.
I'm trying to plan a 7-10 day cruise for us in august and I want that to be something I can show for it. plus my graduation from this medschool is August 23rd and that's how want my fellow classmates to remember. Not someone who was depressed about her appearence and did everything she could to fix it but nothing worked... I want them to remember me as happy and vibrant and full of life and energy.
Everything has seemed to be getting me down the last few weeks and I'm ready to get out of that pattern... please help.
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| Update on my Weight Depression |
[01 Apr 2003|02:33pm] |
I've decided to try and change myself mentally and accept how I am. Scott loves me for me and actually get's upset when I say I'm "fat" or what not. I know he'd be happy to come home and see me weighing less, because he knows that's what I wanted (or atleast what I thought I wanted) but he'd be more happy to know that I accept what I am and that I accept how he sees me and loves me. Well, that and he doesnt have to worry that I'll do anything foolish.
I figure if I just try to relax and focus on other things, eat sensibly and work out atleast 20-30 minutes everyday, it will come off if it's meant to. I don't want to force anything to happen that shouldn't or that might cause me harm in the end. So, that's that. I'll just have to continue to buy 5 inch heels because I like how my body looks when I'm taller. Well, and that puts me closer to Scott's lips since he's a foot taller than me. Perfect smoochin range! =)
I know it's going to be a lot harder to change myself mentally than it would be physically...it's so easy to give into weakness. But I'm stronger than that and I know I can do this. I told mom about it and she's very supportive. All my family and friends are, really. And I love you guys for that.
Wish me luck!
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[01 Apr 2003|02:23pm] |
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Teddy the RN at the Cardiologist called me today (well really he called yesterday and returned the call today) Anyway my appointment with them was on friday and they did an Echocardiogram (basically an ultrasound of the heart) and The front desk lady said if my results come back ok, Teddy can tell me, otherwise Dr. Dillahunt will call me. But before I left the office they said they would get in touch with me my wed for the results. Turns out they called yesterday and I missed it. So it freaked me out that they called so soon. Obviously, something is wrong with my heart or else I wouldnt of had to go to a cardiologist to begin with, I just didnt know if it was minor or major. So, I called Teddy today and he explained to me that over all my heart is functioning right...but I have a Mitro-Valve Prolapse or (MVP). This means that my mitrovalve is functioning to slowly and flapping irregularly, since it's your heart's responsibility to circulate blood through your body, because of this prolapse my blood is not fully circulating which is causing my limbs to go numb and the consent weak feeling it what not. This diagnosis also explained why I fainted 3 weeks ago. My heart did not get enough oxygen to my brain. I don't know if that will happen often from now on or what. They said that MVP's are fairly common and I know my cousin has it as well. I guess for now they will monitor me and start me on medication. Aside from that I have 2 appointments throughout the next 2 weeks to find out more about it and the treatments for the symptoms. I'll keep ya'll updated if you want. From what I gathered it's not really severe but it's not a minor thing either. I guess we'll call it Moderate. From now on I'll have to be on antibiotics to even go to the dentist and what not. I guess one would think knowing I have a heart condition would get me down but I'm actually more relieved to know what exactly is going on with me now. The hardest part of all of this so far is having to keep it from Scott and him not being here for support and what not. I know he's going to hate finding out when he gets back instead of sooner, but for the sake of not worrying him...it's the only way. I'll post more later.
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[29 Mar 2003|07:27pm] |
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...is admitting you have one.
So here it goes...
I have become really depressed with my weight. To the point where I dont want to live with myself like this. I wont kill myself, I can't even get myself to purge...although, I wish I could. I know that's not right. I told my mom that this has caused me to be in a state of depression. But, I live on my own, what can she do? I try not to tell her too much about it because I don't want her to feel like she failed me somehow.
My Scott knows. He and my mom know I wish I could be bulemic or anorexic. They know I'm obbsessed. My doctor knows, but hasn't done much to fix the issue. He had more important concerns on his mind: like my heart. That's for another entry.
I'm more so depressed because last year xenadrine worked so well for me. I lost 40 lbs in 3 months with the accumulation of that and working out and working. I can't take it anymore because of my heart issues. That kills me inside.
I work out now, regularly, but it seems like the more I do, the fatter I look.
I wish I could just love me for me and accept me for me, Scotty does. I love him so much for that and it breaks my heart that I can't change for him and for me. I'd rather change physically but I think if I could mentally change and just accept things that would make him happier. To me, that's harder than working out.
I love everything else about me, just hate how I look.
It doesn't help that I have people in my life that look how I used to, how I want to. people that love me and this makes me resent them. They can't help it. They're beautiful. My height and frame is meant to fit their bodies. Not this.
I'm 5'2 and currently 160 lbs. I have a ghetto ass (no offense to anyone) where when I walk up stairs or anywhere really, my cheeks lead my feet.
I wear a size 10 shorts when I should be in a 5/6 at the most. My sister and cousin are in a 3/4. I'd give anything to be that way. Heck, I didnt even realize how happy i was in my size 8 pants until now.
I feel so un-proportionate. I wear a small/med shirt and large/stretchy bottoms. If my legs were longer or if I wear my 5 inch heels I look great. I want to look great barefoot.
I want to be able to go shopping and into the dressing room and have the clothes fit. Not have to hang all of them on the return rack and walk out in shame.
I don't know what to think or what to do. I don't want to die and I love my life right now, I have a relationship some people spend their whole lives dreaming about, a great supportive family and a bright future. I just want my external body to influence how great I feel inside...is that so much to ask for?
I know some people reading this entry may feel that I have no right to feel the way I do or complain.
But, I'm depressed. And I'm not going for a "poor poor pitiful me" post.
I know some people have it a lot worse off than me. But I know twice much more who have it physically way better.
*sigh*
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