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I surprised my parents yesterday. They were happy to see me, but when they heard that I was coming back down to Santa Cruz in a few hours, they were disappointed. They scolded me for coming back so late. They said, "We know you said your friend is a safe driver, but it is so dark at night. Even if you're not worried, we are." That's sweet, but at the same time I felt that they completely missed the point of my going home. That's okay though. I got to be there for my parents and my sister, and that's all that really matters.
Every time I listen to my dad complain about my mom or our family, I keep seeing our house fall apart. Whenever he speaks badly of my mom and her side of the family, I felt this huge urge to tell him to be more patient and to follow what the Buddha teaches (which is very similar to Jesus' teachings too): to have a loving heart even if you feel the other person isn't responding in a way you want him/her to. I tried to tell him that, but he asked me, "What if your husband doesn't love you, are you going to continue to love him and his family?" I told him that I would, and his reply was, "Well, you're special then. I can't do that." That made me really sad. I cried while listening to him speak.
I felt really bad for my mom too because right after she started to tell me the story of how my grandma died, my dad called me away from her. So when my dad finished talking, I went back to her and asked her to tell me the rest of the story because I knew my sister didn't want to listen to her and my dad didn't want to listen to her, so she had no one to talk to about it. I let her talk. After she was done, she started to fuss over me, and she gave me lots of stuff to take back to Santa Cruz. ^^;
I also felt that my parents were stuck between rushing me out of the house and keeping me there for another few hours. They didn't like the idea of Andy (a guy) driving me back to Santa Cruz at night (it's super dark and dangerous driving at night, they say) so they volunteered to drive me back in the morning. But Katharine's going to take her permit test today (I hope she does well!) so I said, "No, I'm going back with Andy. I need more time to study anyway."
I met one of Andy's friends, Bong, when Andy came to pick me up around 11-11:30pm (I got back around 8pm). He's a really funny guy. Very racist and prejudice towards the Japanese (because of the Japanese invasion of Korea history). I thought that it was funny how he kept trying to tell Andy that he would go Korea and love it there. He kept trying to convince us that interracial marriages are bad and why God wouldn't want that. Andy and I had a really good time laughing and trying to convince him otherwise. Haha. Before that, he kept asking Andy why he didn't introduce girls to him like Andy did, Jae Pil. I thought that was hilarious. Andy kept saying, "It happened naturally!!" When Andy dropped off Jae Pil's gifts (a portrait sketch and the Christmas card that got sent back) for me, I stayed in the car half wanting to look out the window (because we agreed not to meet). But Jae Pil came out! That surprised me because I would have been okay if we met, but I knew that he didn't want to meet me. I wonder if he was at all disappointed because one of the reasons why he didn't want to meet me was that he was afraid he would be disappointed in me and I, him. I wasn't disappointed though. I was happy he came out to meet me. I just hope that this doesn't mean our friendship is over. He wanted to preserve the novelty of an online friendship. Andy's response to that was, "What does that mean???" Haha.
All in all, it was a very fun-filled night for me. ^_^
Anyway, I need to get my laundry. If I finish everything tonight, I'll probably go to Berkeley with ABSK to hear someone talk about Christianity (Lisan woke me up this morning ^^;). Then, tomorrow, depending on what time Liana's coming over, I'll think about going to either Pathway or Berkland. But that's only if everything goes according to plan and I actually finish everything before the talk. ^_^
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