| YAY, I PASSED THE RURAL PART!!!!!!!!.............. |
[Jun. 8th, 2004|06:56 pm] |
Well, I successfully made it to class with completed paper in hand and then I grabbed lunch( A Benless lunch THANK YOU VERY MUCH!). Afterward, I headed to the garage. It was awhile before Claudia got there to do my testing. We went through the route and it did not take long at all. We were back at the garage an hour and a half later.I passed. I did some city driving. Then I went home and napped so hard. I must have been very tired.
I've decided that I am pissed at Ben for the moment. OH MY GOD TOMMY LEE JONES JUST WALKED THROUGH THE DOOR!! WHY THE HELL IS HE HERE? IS HE JUST TRYING TO MAKE ME RUN FOR MY LIFE?!...okay, he sat down and isn't looking this way.-breathes sigh of relief-
Wondering where Kenny is.......wish he would answer phone. Me miss Kenny. |
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| TRANSFER TRUCKS =BAD!!!Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr |
[Jun. 8th, 2004|08:42 am] |
Oh my god, okay...well, I had Ben for training yesterday. We went and had lunch at El Ranchito beforehand. It was okay. I am not a big Mexican fan but for the sake of being agreeable, whatever. I just had the taco salad.BIG STRETCH for me.lol.
We were out and about on the rural roads for about four hours. We had a lot of time to talk. Why we had a two hour conversation about sex and dating(no, not us and sex and dating)........?This was AFTER I scared the hell out of both of us.
We were on a two lane road cruising about fifty. We meet a transfer truck coming at us. The wind from the truck got up under the back of the bus and it start trying to get out from under me. Then the bus started leaving the road. It scared the ever loving Christmas out of both of us. Oh my Mother Mary of .....you get the point.
We got started talking about the people at transit and I made a mistake I found out this morning. I told him about the fond little nickname(thermos). This morning as I was getting off the bus, guess what he did? He looked at me and said "bye,thermos". I slapped him hard. Ha ha.I am not even sure if he understood why they call me that. OMG, what have I done? Think we might be going to lunch again today.Don't know. Not waiting around. I have training again at one. I refuse to be late again. |
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| GRRRRRR........................ |
[Jun. 5th, 2004|03:36 pm] |
The past couple of days have been interesting to say the least.
I did my retest after Gougen had a hold of me. I tested with Patrick and he said he was impressed with my score. He had better be. I only spent like two hours out there practicing before the test.
The next day was my first day of rural route driving. Um, it went well minus the incident with the farm equipment. That freaks me out a little much.I can't so much as see a tractor without cringing. The second day of rural driving was with Claudia, Gougen's girlfriend. That was an awkward drive. GRRRRRR. Skinny little white girl. I could snap her in two like a toothpick. She needs not piss me off.
Monday I have Ben again. Hopefully, this will make up for all the uneventful days. I smacked him for cutting me off in the parking lot on Wednesday too. It is okay, as long as he doesn't do it again. I will have to kick him if he does. |
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| I Want to Gnaw His Arms Off His Body................ |
[Jun. 1st, 2004|07:35 pm] |
Well, I did not pass the pre-trip inspection part of the test. The sole reason being that I did not do the break test......on purpose. I was so freaked out by the time we got to that portion I just elected to fail that part of the test and do it all over again some other time...tomorrow. Let me give you all the run down on that little experience.You will all enjoy this.
First of all, Gougun comes out fifteen minutes late( I can forgive this b/c he was actually doing something for Patrick this time that applied to STA.) Then when he comes out, we fly right into the test.Bastard. I get no time to practice like I was promised. Bastard.
Once I begin the exam, I get about a quarter of the way through to realize that Gougun is staring off into space and dancing in place like a "special child". This frustrates me.I went through the wheel- suspension, brakes, tire, rims, seals, lugs..everything. Then he askes me if I remembered the wheels. Dumbass, you just gave yourself away that you were not paying attention. Why am I doing this FOR A GRADE if he is going to do the equivalent of sleep through it?So, this pissed me off and did not help the test anxiety. Bastard
For purposes of not melting in the sun, I agree that we can go ahead of the parking lot to let the A/C get the bus cool before I do the inside of the bus. Plus, it lets me get my wits about me. That was SOOOOO not the case. On our way there, he takes me on death ride and starts making plans on his cell phone for lunch in a half an hour. This pisses me off b/c he is cutting into MY time. Bastard.
We get to the bus. We start the inside of the pre-trip inspection.He says the faster we go through this, the better mood he stays in. If you don't want to be there then have someone else fucking train me, asshole! I have been trained to do it a specific way and as long as there is no set order to it all, then let me do it the way I was trained so that *I* do not forget anything. Instead, he begins to freak me out even more by telling me to check the emergency exits on my way down instead of on the way up with the window emergency exits.Bastard I am so pissed by this point..and just so freaked out. Bastard
By the time I get back up to the steering wheel, I feel as if I am going to vomit all over everything and I just outright refused to do the break tests because by this point my mind had just decided to blank. So, not only was I lost and confused but in an outright panic anyway. Thinking that we would also delay the driving test once I refused the break test, I got corrected on that point of business. I still ended up doing the driving part of it.Bastard. I passed that, but boy was I pissed. I said no more than two words to him on the way back to the garage. I am not impressed with him. I even had the balls to ask him for someone else to retest me tomorrow. I could have gnawed the arm right off his body and eaten it for lunch. It did not help that I was hungry the entire time. Bastard.
It was supposed to be a three hour day. We were back to the garage an hour later.Bastard.
I am thinking that if Patrick called me and told me not to bother or that I must test with Gougun tomorrow, I would not care. I would quit on the spot.I really hate to admit this, but I get the feeling that me and Ben run right on the same personality type level. He, however, is just a bit closer to the far end of that scale of Type A and I am just bordering it. If I had not been being graded for this test, Gougun could have stood on his head and licked his butt at the same time for all I cared. But it really pissed me off and frustrated me that he wasn't paying attention and that his big ass mouth was just asking to be filled with a wooden backscratcher.Bastard. At least Ben would have paid attention. He would have been difficult to pass with, but he would have paid attention and let me do it like I needed to. |
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| The Rundown of the Lunchmonkey............. |
[May. 30th, 2004|08:09 pm] |
Well, I went and did my training Friday and Saturday. Ben really didn't turn out as bad as I thought he was going to be. He was actually kind of nice and helpful. I think he is just a bit misunderstood.
He is a bit of a career oriented person and he expects everyone else to be as well. That is a very unrealistic expectation, especially in college. However, a little ambition is to be admired and wanting to do things as right as possible is to be admired. I have found that holding other people to those same standards only leave you disappointed though. I get the general feeling that this is a lot of his issues and hence the cause of the obnoxious behavior. I understand it, but I also understand how annoying it is to other people.
I don't know. I think he just needs a friend who will point him in the right directions and help him understand that the whole world is not a personality type A.I think that is all he wants too. Perhaps that is just my opinion. There are no applications being submitted for resident thermos thank you very much.
Anyway, the training went pretty good. I got a little frustrated at times. I didn't run over anything that I couldn't get away with and I didn't run over anyone.That is all a very acceptable day for me. The alleydock was fun. I liked the serpentine too. I found forward much easier than backward. I did not like the forward and backward bit. Pissed me off it did. Didn't help Ben had set the cones at like nine feet and there was a bump in the middle of the parking lot. Dammit.Oh well. Had a lot of fun smacking Ben around with the stick so heh, not a total loss. |
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| -cringes-....................................................... |
[May. 28th, 2004|08:27 am] |
Um, the past couple of days have been....interesting. I have been trying to keep up with my classes. Doctor Allred is making that interesting for me. Then there is my Biology class. I do believe I am going to have to start studying more routinely for that.
Today I go to train with Ben. Help me please. -shakes head-
I saw the guy that looks like me yesterday. It is freaky...really. |
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| Blah......*snore* |
[May. 26th, 2004|11:15 am] |
Yesterday has left me completely exhausted. I am now here after suffering through class. I wanted to sleep. It didn't help that the movie we are watching had a lullabye soundtrack.
I went to get my car yesterday. They had done none of the repairs except straightening out the door. So, that means that I am going to have to do another two days worth of scheduling. I think this means that I should wait until next session anyway. I think the money will work out better then.
I am ending up doing a weekend training session. I have Ben again. So, he is going to have a hold of me on days 2 and 3. I think it will be good for him to have the scare of his life. It is his own dumbass fault for willingly training me. MWHA HA HA HA HAAAAAA!
I need to get started on my next paper. It is due Friday. Oh help me.lol. |
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| A lot Has Happened................................ |
[May. 25th, 2004|09:15 am] |
Well, a lot has gone on in the past few days. I have turned in that paper and another is due tomorrow. I spent the weekend with Joel,Kristin and Kenny.That was pretty fun. The weekend also led to more destructive eating patterns. Am I noticing a trend here?
I did my first official day of transit training yesterday. My trainer seemed like a nice enough guy. But, he also seems like the type that is nice to your face and then talks smack about you behind your back.It was a lot of information to absorb but it was okay. I think if I ever get pre-trip down and I don't kill anyone that I will be good to go.
I left my car for repairing today. It might take two days. They decided to fix the door this morning though and then do the painting tomorrow. So, as long as Patrick doesn't get excited and try to schedule me for Wednesday all will be well.
I think that I am still a little mad at some people in my realm of knowing. I think I am kind of pissed that they take an attitude with me when I ask them to do things that are a matter of life and death and then have the nerve to chastise me in front of people as if I am their child. This has happened twice now and I am not happy about it. If you have a problem, then wait until an appropriate time to address it with me. Don't try to knock me down to size in front of other people. It kind of pisses me off. Hence the physical hostility...even in a joking manner.I didn't realize that until I was in the middle of training yesterday.
Really no other news to talk about except for finally formally meeting Ben..or lunchbox as they call him. I didn't think he was that bad actually. Of course he had a Wendy's burger stuck in his mouth most of the time...but hey.Perhaps in time I will see the true colors peeking out. Perhaps I will not be around that long.
In any case, it is time for me to go. |
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| MWHA HA HA HA HAAAAAAAAA! |
[May. 22nd, 2004|04:15 pm] |
Now I know why planners are so expensive. They are hard as hell to get sorted out in the creation process....especially if you are trying to make things easier on yourself in the reproduction phase of creation. But, mine is well on its way. I hope to be prepared to have a finished product before the end of next week. -rubs hands together in hopeful anticipation- My oh my. I can't wait. It looks as if I might actually have something on my hands that I can use.
Now I just have to get all the little features in it that are going to make it much easier for me to use and call all my own. Damn, I should just be an efficiency expert. You know, telling people what they are doing is crap and that they should do it my way to improve productivity...and organize thier little lives.-Toothy smile- Do not be fooled my friends, the life of someone how has obsessive compulsive tendencies is not easy. It is often overwhelming that you do not have the time to be as organized as you would like and it often seems as if your life is always in a clutter.-sigh-. I think it would be much easier if I could be content with being a mindless slob.Even with my measures of order and neatness I still feel like a slovenly little creature. |
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| Odds and Ends.......................... |
[May. 22nd, 2004|02:12 pm] |
The past few days have passed with a bit of exhaustion mind you.
I got the scheduling snafoo with Tranist worked out. -rolls eyes- Hopefully I will start training on Monday and continue through as planned. I am glad that I do not NEED this job. I am beginning to think it is going to be a hard road. It will provide comfort to me knowing that I can get out at any point. I am already having horiffic nightmares about interactions with some of the assorted people who work there.lol. Mainly lunchbucket.lol. And NO!I am not THERMOS!lol.
My classes are going okay. I haven't really done a lot with the Biology yet. I had better get started this weekend though. I have already turned in a six page paper for Dr. A and I have another due on Wednesday..which is why I am here.I believe I have already made decisions about next Spring so I went ahead and filled out my FAFSA and turned everything in. I FINALLY do senior summary next Tuesday.
I have already turned in transcript request and money for PCC. That should be handled within the next work week. Upon hearing back from them, I am to schedule and advising appointment and then I learn the fate of all that.
This weekend has been okay. I came home yesterday totally exhausted. I slept for nearly four hours sound as a baby. I then watched television until I was ready for bed again. I finally got up today and went to B&N.; I looked at cookbooks and then called Joel. Him and Kristen came to CiCi's and we ate. We have plans to work out later. I am glad that Joel is trying to do more for himself. It looks like it is having an effect.YAY |
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| Grrrrrrrrrrrrr.......................... |
[May. 19th, 2004|09:05 pm] |
I am sitting here and supposed to be working on my paper which is due on Friday.I am, of course, procrastinating yet more.
Everything was going well today until I got the training schedule from transit. The one day that I asked off for, they put me training on. I am kind of stressed out about that. It warranted a trip to Golden Corral with Kenny. I ate way too much. When you are iffy on moving b/c you are so full, you have over done it. But, thankfully that is the first time in a long time that I have been in that destructive pattern of behavior. I then went and hung out with Kenny. I miss him and love him. I should hang out more with him. I just wish I could call him to arrange such activities more. I am trying though. I need my life to straighten out.
That is about all the usefulness that I have to report for today.I must go and start working on this paper now. It absolutely has to be done by Friday morning at 9:45.I refuse to start slacking off this early in the week. It is just that SIX PAGES is a lot to ask for in such a short period of time. |
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| HA! TAKE THAT !!!! |
[May. 18th, 2004|01:54 pm] |
Okay, well I have a few moments before I should be off to figure out my training schedule. The good news that I have found out is that Tommy Lee Jones is leaving in December. I have met a guy that works for transit. I do not like his take on things at all. He is a bubble buster with his bad outlook on it all.
In other news, I have managed to construct the perfect planner. HE HE HE HEEEEEE.I figured out(FINALLY) how to manipulate excel into doing what I want it to do. MWHA HA HA HAAAAA. I am in the process of making the magic book.WOO HOOOOOOO
The madness must stop! Madness meaning the scene today when I was reintroduced to someone. He got a haircut and looked....well..different. I mean madness when I say that I am so conditional like that. Forget it. I am not digging him. I refuse. I think that I am just trying to find something to use to occupy my time. I know I blushed. That means nothing. I mean, have a piece of clothing arranged the wrong way on yourself and I will be embarrassed for you! So, to all of you out there...get it out of your heads, I am not digging it. Besides, he is no Larry(not that I like Larry either, we have already been through that song and dance).
Anyhoo.....I think the time tells me that I should be off to conquer transit or at least avoid T.L.J. |
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[May. 18th, 2004|12:49 pm] |
Yesterday I had a really girly day. I went and worked out, tanned, tried on clothes, read books about make-up, played with my make-up and contemplated buying more make-up...and clothes.
Today I go to get my training schedule down. I hope that I don't end up talking to Tommy Lee Jones. Oh god. Help me much.
Well.....I will detail more later. Today was the first day of classes I am going to be doing a lot of work. |
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| Points.................... |
[May. 13th, 2004|11:25 am] |
I've been sleeping in my bed a lot more as of late. For those of you who know me, you know this is a good thing. I still wake in the night in a panic and listen for sounds that do not belong. But, after awhile I fall back to sleep and go back to my dreams.
I have discovered that I will still have a job at ORAT next year. I hope that Happy gets Val's job.I am currently working on ways to insure that Happy is less stressed. This means learning the ends and outs of the NCS Survey program.My oh my that is proving to be interesting.
May 18th begins my first formal day of training at STA. It is also going to be a huge day because of it being the first day of classes and I need to get my Senior Summary done FINALLY!
I talked to Tammy while she was at work but haven't heard from her since. She is up Marshall's ass as usual. Now I know why my friends got pissed. No worries. I will do everything in my power to not do that again. Of course, I will also work to keep my friends seperate from my b/f or g/f. That really confused things a lot.
I sometimes take that object from it's silver grave. I look at it and wonder if I made the right decision. I wonder if it's time with me is done or if I am destined to ever make use of it again. I look at it and the person that I was with it and I know that being without it is the right choice for now. |
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| Shaping Up............. |
[May. 11th, 2004|11:18 am] |
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Well, things seem to be coming along. I just have a few other minor details to get worked out and all will be well. Thank you Divinity.
A major crisis with my financial aid has been averted in the past few days. That caused me to have a bad weekend. Well, it would have been had I not slept through it.That and I had some very interesting things to enlighten my mom with.I think she now believes me to be a good candidate for hopitalization but......what can you do? Right?
I just found out that I made a C in my Abnormal Psychology class. YAY. So, this helps out my GPA a little more than I thought it might. YAY! I needed this surprise today.
I went and took my drug test and all of that for work. I have to go the first day of classes and start formal training I suppose. The only problem is that my new boss scares the absolute hell out of me.
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[May. 7th, 2004|10:05 am] |
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| | Hoobastank-The Reason | ] | The past few days have been a mixture of stressful and relaxing.
I went and took that drug test. Of course they handed me that standard cup and it didn't stand a chance. I had been holding in for like seven hours. Even as a camel, after seven hours you must go.
Yesterday, I did absolutely nothing until after I watched the finale of friends. To think, in ten years I might have watched the show like seven times. It was good that all worked out though.YAY! Anyhoo...Tammy finally called me and when she didn't have to worry about getting off the phone because her b/f was there she couldn't even pay attention to what I had to say. That is, unless we were talking about her b/f. So, I hung up with her after fifteen minutes. I was a little depressed about that so I finally cleaned.
I realized I was sunburned. So, I am being very careful about how I move in this shirt this go around.ouch!
Today, I am at work.
I thought about life and death. I thought about what I wanted my epitaph to say. I came up with one word: 'fierce'. Only if it is true, that is. I want to be able to look back and say I lived my life as full as possible, that I hit the gate running and never gave a hint of slowing down.I want people to be able to say that I might not have won, but I challenged.I want to say that I busted my ass to make a difference and at least one person benefitted from it. But, if I don't pick up the pace that is all going to pass me by and I know it. |
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| Surprise........................ |
[May. 5th, 2004|02:55 pm] |
Well, I came in today to find that I made a C in my POLYSCI class.You know, the one that I went to like for like three weeks and then decided I wasn't going back to. Yeah, that one. I thought I was destined to fail it. YAY!
I also took my CDL permit test yesterday and passed it. The DMV officer said she was impressed because I tested really fast and still passed. She said that was rare. YAY!
Today I have to go and take a drug test for STA. Dammit! I hope they give me something bigger than that cup to go in. Aiming is not my best event you know. I don't have a guiding system for it. It kind of goes in a general area of where I want it to and if I am doing it properly it stays in legal bounds.lol.
Otherwise, it is home to clean after that. YAY!Clean house equals good house. |
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| Many Things to Say.......... |
[May. 4th, 2004|10:10 am] |
Well, Thursday was fun. The ladies from the office and I met up at Chico's and I got sloshed off of strawberry daquari.We then went to see Kenny's performance of Grease. It was amazingly good. I still can't tell you what the story was about. But, the kids performed very well. Sandy needed to sing up and the band needed to forget all of the sound markings and play softer at all points in time. Also, the band needed to kick the trumpet out. OMG! That poor child needs to consider switching instruments to a woodwind. He was in no way nailing the pitches. -cringes- It was almost painful to listen to him. I was very impressed with the twins' performances. I also liked the guy who sang the 'letter song' as I refer to it fondly. The black guys also did a good job. It was pretty good. Kenny, also turned in an amazing performance as well. He has gotten much better in he time that he has been here at ECU. I know why he passed his jury this year now.
Since then, I have worked. I have also been out playing more soccer with the guys from upstairs. One of them, as I suspected he was about to do, professed his undying love for me.God help him. All I could do was laugh. I have only talked to him twice since they moved in a year and a half ago. Ummmmm...NO. He was trying to be all touchy feely with me too while he was professing.lol. You all know that did not go over well with me. I actually had to get mean and say NO! At this point, he finally got the clue. I am glad to know that I still have standards. This was Saturday night.
Sunday was very uneventful and then yesterday was about the same. I actually toyed with the idea of going to take my CDL test, but I chickened out. I believe I am going to go today. It should not be a problem. I made some cheat sheets(well, not to actually cheat with.lol.) They have helped keep things straight a little. It is a lot of information to absorb. I hope I get the job. It will actually be kind of cool.
I am about to go and take my final for that ******* experimental class. I will be so happy when that b.s is over. I will miss Larry over the summer but that is okay. Hopfully I will see him next fall in my Psych. of Religion class.
I finally mailed in my PCC application. So, I guess things have been set into motion.I need to get back to the gym and such. I guess I will know more about that whenever I get my schedule decided.
Well, guess I should go and prepare for the final. Only have about thirty minutes til' then. Then, no matter what, I am FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! |
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| Vroooom, Vroooomm.............................. |
[Apr. 30th, 2004|09:33 am] |
The past few days have been going okay. I have neglected to mention that I got my job at transit(provided I pass the CDL permit and road test). I have been studying. I hope to take my test Monday or Tuesday. There is a 50% pass/fail rate. Not good. Hmmmmmm....
Work is okay. I am going to have a huge check...if it ever gets here. I am waiting to get paid today. I am hungry and want food.
Um, all in all, everything is going well. That is about it. |
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