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"American Pie" as FOX's Friday Night movie. They had to edit out half of the damn thing! INCLUDING the pie humping and what the band geek did with her flute. 'MILF' was called 'Mother I'd Like to Feel" instead of the other thing that begins with 'F'.
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This episode of 20/20 is really getting to me. They're talking about popularity and about how middle school kids acted and stuff. Boys get popular through athletic ability, height, and humor. Girls get popular by looks, clothes, and charisma. Unfortunately, I had none and therefore middle school was hell. I was overweight, wore dorky glasses, had a high IQ, and was sensitive. I couldn't go a damn day without somebody saying something everywhere I went. "Fat bitch", "nerd", "crybaby". Whatever. Then I would lash out and curse back at them, and *I* would get in trouble! What kind of fucking bullshit is that? And needless to say, boys didn't like me either. While all the other kids were having their first puppy loves, I was running to Nick Carter because at least he couldn't hurt me like all the boys I knew did. My BSB obsession is what made me believe that not ALL males were assholes. Without my family and my teeny pop music, I wouldn't have gotten through this.
Popular kids can basically do whatever the fuck they want, and adults won't do a thing! You know, this is how shit like Columbine happens. I don't approve of what those dudes did, but I can understand how they were picked on and harrassed until they just couldn't take it anymore and snapped. I've definitely felt like putting all those people that insulted me through the pain that I went through. although that's of course NOT the right way to go about it. Most likely, i'll turn out to be extremely successful, and they'll be the morons asking me if I want fries with that, which is probably the best revenge of all.
Some of this show is reminding me of bullshit I prefer to forget about. At least here in high school, there's so many damn kids that they can't focus on me and make me a laughing stock.
"If you ask one of them to do your homework, they will" - Popular High-School Boy (Fuck no. Just because someone's popular doesn't mean they're better.)
OMG! This exclusive club wouldn't let this guy in, even when there was nobody in line! I'm sorry, but I consider "elitist" bullshit like that discrimination.
I can't believe I just admitted all of this here...don't I sound pathetic? I doubt that any of you guys on my friends list were as much of a loser as I was, but I just wanted to let this out.
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Well.....i'm not exactly Homecoming Queen and still feel sorta awkward compared to girls that seem a bit more 'together', but things are must better now. Now back to happy stuff. Crossroads came out today! I wanna see it! I've got this backlog of movies....I also wanna see Big Fat Liar since I heart Frankie Muniz. He's hilarious :)
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