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| Wednesday, December 19th, 2001 | |
| 3:24 pm | Long time... I just read through my most recent entries...which really weren't that recent....... I've been super busy, but I suppose I could always write at work, which is what I used to do...but now I email a lot....Susan, April, Rye.....yep...my girls....speaking of girls....elise and i broke up....rye and i are together..........i'm a really happy boi.....if you read back to my other entries....it has one that says "some interesting feelings came up for me this weekend"....well...the interesting feelings were feelings for mariah....i just didn't want to type it on here, cause who knows who reads it...and i didn't want a bunch of drama.............................. things are going well............really really well...............i'm super happy..............rye is super happy...we're going about our lives and having a really fucking great time..... Jen and I really aren't friends anymore...and to be honest, i really have no desire to be her friend......................the last time i talked to elise, things seemed to be getting better for her...i think she's dating a bio boy..............well she's been hanging out with him, and he doesn't have a girlfriend anymore, and i know he's always had a thing for her....so.....i'm only assuming, but with good reason. Christmas is so close it's ridiculous....anyways....i need to get my head straightened out before i start writing in this thing again...LOL =) |
| Friday, October 5th, 2001 | |
| 11:25 am | camping woo hoo......i'm going camping. |
| Tuesday, September 11th, 2001 | |
| 1:38 pm | Shell Shocked...... Funny how all the little things mattered yesterday.....and today, nothing really matters...except that I want to be close to my family, my lover, my friends. So many people were affected by this...it's just not comprehendable, at all to me. It doesn't feel real...it feels like I'm dreaming, and any minute I'm going to wake up and everything is going to be fine...but everything is not fine. The whole damn country is under seige, everything is closed because everyone is scared......and we have a fuckin' moron for a President..........geez, somethin' like this would have to happen when that asshole is in office. God.......I swear I'm dreaming. I'm trying to convince Mariah to get out of SF, at least for the night.....she's acting strange.....but I suppose we all are. Everyone has the same look on there face...at least most people...but it seems to be affecting me a little more than most people.....it seems to me that the rest of the country is in denial.....this isn't over yet.....this isn't going to be over for a very long time....thousands of lives already lost...probably thousands more that will be lost. The whole thing is just sickening. And the ignorance in this fuckin' country is astounding.......racial battles, riots...all that bullshit that occurs after something like this...i mean really...shouldn't we all be coming together, uniting and loving each other...helping each other through this. I can't even type anymore...the whole thing is just fucking sickening. |
| 1:38 pm | Shell Shocked...... Funny how all the little things mattered yesterday.....and today, nothing really matters...except that I want to be close to my family, my lover, my friends. So many people were affected by this...it's just not comprehendable, at all to me. It doesn't feel real...it feels like I'm dreaming, and any minute I'm going to wake up and everything is going to be fine...but everything is not fine. The whole damn country is under seige, everything is closed because everyone is scared......and we have a fuckin' moron for a President..........geez, somethin' like this would have to happen when that asshole is in office. God.......I swear I'm dreaming. I'm trying to convince Mariah to get out of SF, at least for the night.....she's acting strange.....but I suppose we all are. Everyone has the same look on there face...at least most people...but it seems to be affecting me a little more than most people.....it seems to me that the rest of the country is in denial.....this isn't over yet.....this isn't going to be over for a very long time....thousands of lives already lost...probably thousands more that will be lost. The whole thing is just sickening. And the ignorance in this fuckin' country is astounding.......racial battles, riots...all that bullshit that occurs after something like this...i mean really...shouldn't we all be coming together, uniting and loving each other...helping each other through this. I can't even type anymore...the whole thing is just fucking sickening. |
| Monday, September 10th, 2001 | |
| 11:05 am | boy oh boi......... Well..........had a pretty good weekend. Friday night of course went to 1220 and got way too drunk, but had hell of fun. Devon was there, and all girled out, which it was nice to see her that way again.....she had a bit of an identity crisis for a while............i had fun kickin' it around with her, and dancin. It was Alanna's birthday (jen's gf)...and Stanley's too........so just about everyone was there. Mariah and I didn't think we'd end up seeing each other this weekend, but as it turned out, I took Bart out to the City early Saturday night, and stayed with her at her place, then we kicked it around all day Sunday, and went out to 1220 to see Trish play last night.................damn that girl is beautiful...........and so talented. If I was single...my eyes would be on her. I fell in love with her voice when I heard her cd while elisa and i were broke up. Last night Trish walked up to me and introduced herself, and I said HI, I"m JUNIOR...and she was all "Junior...i've hear that name soo many times" you know...like she knows me............which i'm sure she has heard my name quite a bit, cause i know everyone she knows...we just hadn't met before. Hmmm..strange. Yep.......so, it was a good weekend. I forgot how much i love the city...just the atmosphere......i love the weather.......everything............it was so nice to wake up and walk down Clement, and get coffee and breakfast.......very relaxing....i really needed that. I feel rejuvenated........although at the present time I feel grumpy, because this moron car dealer is causing me a bunch of chaos at work..........he's really workin' my nerves................oh well. I would like to go shoot some pool tonight, but i think i should just go home and go to bed............yep yep yep....we shall see. |
| Tuesday, September 4th, 2001 | |
| 8:32 am | lemon drops... Welp...it's a Tuesday that feels like a Monday...the weekend is almost half way here again...........woo hoo...I love 4 day weeks. I had an awesome weekend. Went to the Ren Faire, and got shitty with my girl, mariah, and dre........after the fair we went to 1220 and each bought a round..........of lemon drops.......and then I had another drink..........I was pretty shit faced by the time i got home, but i had a great time, and didn't suffer from a hang over, so all was and is well. I'm starting kick-boxing tonight...4 nights a week...I'm pretty stoked on that...finally I'll start getting back into shape and losing weight. It's only 40 bucks a month too........which is quite a deal. Elisa is super PMSing...I feel bad for her........there's nothing she can do about her weight, because of her illness (lymphedema)...it breaks my heart to watch her cry, and struggle with it........hopefully one day she'll be able to move on. She's going to do kickboxing too at some point, probably next week after she gets paid. I think it'll be good for us. I had some interesting feelings come up for me this weekend...I don't really know what to make of them.....I'm almost glad to be back at work.....hmmmm.......that's strange. Dre and Rye ended up hooking up this weekend...they were smooching from the time we left the ren faire, until the next morning.............cute, i guess. Rye's a really cool chick, and I really like Dre.....but Dre is a Scorpio...which always gives me weird feelings. I'm not sure how Rye feels about her yet... Lil' Sarah emailed me over the weekend...I'm excited for her to come back home, even though it's like 6 months from now.......actually i think it's like 4 months..........I worry about her being in Israel, with all that's happening over there, but she emails now and again to let me know she's safe... This weekend I think we're going to see Ronni's drag band...the Woodyz...they're playing at Hotel Utah....it'll be tons of fun...and i haven't seen Ronni in months, so that's always a plus too. She was on the Weakest Link last Monday.....I'm curious how she ended up on that show. Welp....done for now...but more later. |
| Thursday, August 30th, 2001 | |
| 2:37 pm | dopey, sleepy, grumpy, doc.... the day is winding down.....the weekend is almost here......i'm tired as hell..........and i could sure use a beer...................................l *yawn* *yawn* *yawn*..............................sorr Welp....it's 230. it's almost time for break......i've managed to make it through the day...and it was very productive actually...i got more done than i have in a while around here. My horoscope " Sudden romance ends as abruptly as it began. Focus on work while your personal life shapes up"................too funny. Oh well. I really should go to my mom's house tonight to do laundry, but i'm super sleepy, so i dont really feel up to it...i'll probably have time to do it on Saturday afternoon.....while i have a hangover (can you tell i'm anticipating the weekend?).....i also need to wash my car...i've let it go for so long.....prolly cause i'm gettin' sick of the car anyways...in August i'm getting a Tacoma Pre-Runner...........I'm way psyched on that.........I mean next August by the way...it'll prolly be sooner, that's just when my lease is up...but finances companies contact you about 6 months before then...........i know, cause I work for a vehicle finance company (which will remain nameless as of now)............. Haven't talked to Jen much today, and haven't really talked to Rye much today either......just been getting a lot of work done really..........but like i said, it's whinding down now. Not a very eventful day...I think i'm too tired for it to be eventful anyways. damn it, i should really do my laundry....................i'm such a bad boy. oh well. Current Mood:  drained |
| 2:37 pm | dopey, sleepy, grumpy, doc.... the day is winding down.....the weekend is almost here......i'm tired as hell..........and i could sure use a beer...................................l *yawn* *yawn* *yawn*..............................sorr Welp....it's 230. it's almost time for break......i've managed to make it through the day...and it was very productive actually...i got more done than i have in a while around here. My horoscope " Sudden romance ends as abruptly as it began. Focus on work while your personal life shapes up"................too funny. Oh well. I really should go to my mom's house tonight to do laundry, but i'm super sleepy, so i dont really feel up to it...i'll probably have time to do it on Saturday afternoon.....while i have a hangover (can you tell i'm anticipating the weekend?).....i also need to wash my car...i've let it go for so long.....prolly cause i'm gettin' sick of the car anyways...in August i'm getting a Tacoma Pre-Runner...........I'm way psyched on that.........I mean next August by the way...it'll prolly be sooner, that's just when my lease is up...but finances companies contact you about 6 months before then...........i know, cause I work for a vehicle finance company (which will remain nameless as of now)............. Haven't talked to Jen much today, and haven't really talked to Rye much today either......just been getting a lot of work done really..........but like i said, it's whinding down now. Not a very eventful day...I think i'm too tired for it to be eventful anyways. damn it, i should really do my laundry....................i'm such a bad boy. oh well. Current Mood: drained |
| 2:29 pm | dopey, sleepy, grumpy, doc.... the day is winding down.....the weekend is almost here......i'm tired as hell..........and i could sure use a beer...................................l *yawn* *yawn* *yawn*..............................sorr Welp....it's 230. it's almost time for break......i've managed to make it through the day...and it was very productive actually...i got more done than i have in a while around here. My horoscope " Sudden romance ends as abruptly as it began. Focus on work while your personal life shapes up"................too funny. Oh well. I really should go to my mom's house tonight to do laundry, but i'm super sleepy, so i dont really feel up to it...i'll probably have time to do it on Saturday afternoon.....while i have a hangover (can you tell i'm anticipating the weekend?).....i also need to wash my car...i've let it go for so long.....prolly cause i'm gettin' sick of the car anyways...in August i'm getting a Tacoma Pre-Runner...........I'm way psyched on that.........I mean next August by the way...it'll prolly be sooner, that's just when my lease is up...but finances companies contact you about 6 months before then...........i know, cause I work for a vehicle finance company (which will remain nameless as of now)............. Haven't talked to Jen much today, and haven't really talked to Rye much today either......just been getting a lot of work done really..........but like i said, it's whinding down now. Not a very eventful day...I think i'm too tired for it to be eventful anyways. damn it, i should really do my laundry....................i'm such a bad boy. oh well. |
| 8:29 am | woes, won'ts, and woozles....... damn.....i'm super sleepy this morning...i stayed up too late..........i knew that was going to happen.......oh well...sometimes when i'm sleepy i work better.......we'll see. I just asked angelique (my boss)...for the time off in October that I'll need to go to Cancun.......I'm super psyched about going to Cancun........yippee................ So, we'll see what she says...........i'm sure it will be fine. Last night was fun...lots of my buds there....so that was cool........but, really I just hung with Rye all night......and talked, and talked and talked..........I don't know what's up with me lately, I sure do talk a lot, and seriously normally I don't really talk at all.....I'm pretty quiet. Elisa is going to her bosses parents funeral today....they both died within the same couple weeks, and they knew it was going to happen......they cremated them and are holding the service together..........i think it's sweet.......and sad..........Elisa is pretty sensitive, and hasn't been to many funerals, so i'm sure she'll come home all whacked out............i'm still really struggling with her......i'm not ready to write about it though........i feel like when i write something, it's like a commitment, even though it's not...i don't even know what's going on anymore...... i'm getting really pissed about the vents in this building...i again have a stuffy head already...and when i woke up i felt fine..........they need to clean the damn things, and change out the air filters........seriously! I can't really think of much else......I'm psyched on the weekend coming up............. more later |
| Wednesday, August 29th, 2001 | |
| 2:03 pm | 1220 welp, looks like i'm going to 1220 tonight..I'll be surprised if i make it in to work tomorrow...it's so important that i do though, cause it's end of the month and there's a lot of stuff to clear up...that, and i dont like people going through things on my desk......i like my work left alone. i'm wondering if jen is annoyed i'm going, because i made plans with mariah...and we just now told her..........hmmmmmmm.............oh well.........who really cares.......we're all adults.... |
| 11:15 am | lunchtime love... my girlfriend is coming for lunch today...this is becoming a regular thing.......strange, but cute.......she never used to eat lunch with me at work before...i always wanted her to, but she never did....i'm curious why she's starting now. i suppose she loves me...part of me thinks she's feeling insecure...I'm not sure...she does random girl things sometimes..........drives me crazy..........but on the other hand i love it.....i love that i never know what she's going to do next. I like flying on the seat of my pants...sometimes i even like walking on egg shells, only to be surprised by a kiss.........I'm such a pain slut......................oh well....................... i'm gettin a headache...i'm not sure if it's the crimson wave causing it, or if it's the damn vents (with the moldy smell coming out of them)...or if it's from the mass consumption of motrin with very little food in me belly...............hmmmmmm........oh well...it's here, and it sucks................. i think i'll go smoke........and contemplate whether i'll go to 1220 tonight......... |
| 8:15 am | lonely tear drops..... Last night was no fun at all........Elisa came home in a super grumpy mood.......for no real apparent reason.......pretty much didn't talk to me all night......and when she did she just bitched at me........I'm soooo frustrated......yet I love her so much...i'm wondering if I should just go get my own place.........I don't know...I have to sit down and talk to her about all of this.............I love her, I'm just scared it's not going to work at this point...........there's just too much to deal with...I'm getting really tired............. enough of that. I felt like crap yesterday......I had really bad cramps..........I went home and took a nap...then watched Big Brother 2......I'm not sure why, i'm just super addicted to that show...... on Monday my friend Ronni was on the Weakest Link................didn't even look like her. I'm scattered........i'll end this now. |
| Tuesday, August 28th, 2001 | |
| 2:51 pm | freaky diseases... man......maybe i'm a hypochondriac....but my cramps during the crimson wave, are freakin' horrible, and always have been since i can freakin' remember.....and seriously......they're bad...and everyone keeps insisting that i may have endometriosis....some crap like that...which is really not a good thing to have............ and the pills they used to put people on who had this makes you go through menopause...i guess that's a plus in my case...........but just the whole fact that i may have a serious female problem, and i dont feel like a female, is horendous to me........i mean, i can't even imagine going and spreading..........you get the idea........i just can't do this............it's too much...............i also can not suffer in this pain any longer...........arrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhh |
| 2:20 pm | Crimson Wave.... yuck...i hate bleeding...a boy shouldn't bleed...this sucks, and it hurts Just thought I'd share. Elisa came to have lunch with me today.....i'm not sure why....usually after we fight she doesn't want to do anything nice for at least 3 days...I'm lucky if she even talks to me....it's just because she shuts down because she's sensitive, but all it does it make me more upset about the original situation.......................oh well....anyways, i guess her and i are doing fine. Jen is trying to convince me to move out on my own....but Jen is also really selfish, and immature, and doesn't really understand how an adult relationship works.......i tried explaining things to her, but of course she disagreed, because lately that's what she's best at. Mariah and I have been emailing all day.....makes the day go by faster, and we both get to vent what's on our minds....and it seems a lot is on both of our minds.........so it's nice to have someone to talk to...besides the normal people i talk to everyday.........it's refreshing........like a breath of fresh air................yep..........sometime OUCH *sigh*.........this really sucks....................... more later |
| 8:12 am | blurred visions... Okay, so still nothing all together too exciting happening................I had an awesome weekend..................turns out that "random" party I went too, well............i knew the girl throwing it...I've known her since I was a weee baby boi (15)....I had a huge crush on her...................it was interesting seeing her again...........a bit of a shock..........she's still as cute as ever.......but my taste has definetely changed..........she's far too quiet for me. Yeah, so...i got trashed at the party, and Mariah drive me home, cause Elisa left really early, she wasn't feeling that great....I told her that I'd go home with her, but she really wanted me to stay.......so I did, and I had a great time........until the next morning when I felt like shit..........lol.......it was fun though, well worth it, and luckily i didn't drink beer, so i didn't feel too shitty. I did end up laying around all day though.........hee hee. Yeah, so...Mariah took me home, cause she's a rockstar........seriously.........she's not one of those people that I don't like......i know you're all probably laughing at that...but seriously...I really just don't like very many people........my instincts are usually right on, and I usually follow them.......but I've always liked Mariah...she has a good sense of humor, a good attitude, she's a lot of fun to be around, she's a good listener...those are the things i look for in friends....and she has those things...........so, anyways, i'm stoked on being her friend....yeps! Elisa and I got into last night, over some stupid ass shit...........I'm getting really frustrated in this relationship...it feels really complacent.....it's never a good thing when i start to feel that way....it's probably just a phase.......at least I hope it is.....I don't know...lately, I've just wanted my space a lot......wanted to spend time alone.......sleep in a bed alone..........it's weird, I've never really felt this way before with her. The thing is, I know she loves me.......and I am trully in love with her, but there is part of me that just wants to run away, and be by myself, with my own friends, and my own life...and just be free..............then there's that part of me that's completely in love with her, and never wants to leave, and wants to spend the rest of my life with her...........it's all very confusing...........I feel like I'm changing somehow, but it hasn't taken full effect yet, and to be honest, I'm scared of it, I'm scared of changing, especially when it feels like it's against my own will...........if that makes any sense. Oh well..more later. |
| Friday, August 24th, 2001 | |
| 2:26 pm | sucks damn. LJ has been nothing but trouble this week...and now that i'm back on the ball, it's super annoying that it's not working right....i got my hairs cut, and i'm lookin' sexy again.......lol.........at least i'll try to convince myself of that. my girlfriend is being super cute today..........i'm excited for tonight...i could use a little action!!! (*)(*)........hee hee. i think i'll run to target after work and get a black t-shirt...mine are getting all faded again...i have to by new black t's about once a month, cause i'm super anal...as soon as they start fading...i dont want to wear them anymore..and black t-shirts look really good when i have blonde hair........yiipeee...yeah, so that's the plan. i think i'm going to some random dyke party in Martinez tomorrow, with Jenny....or possibly I'm going camping........i don't know, everything is up in the air..... i'm passing the time until my break at 3 by writing in LJ...I'm definetely ready to kick it up (hacky sac)...i'm gettin' better and better at it...i have more control, and can do front and back kicks...and a back kick over my head to a front kick...not that any of you care...but, i do...i've been working on this for a while. I may start playing footbag net...i had an awesome time the last time i kicked with the pro's...........(yes, there are some pro hacky sackers...it's much different than you think though...check it out at www.footbag.org) I don't know how to add a link...sorry. i hate it when i get my hair cut on my lunch break because then i'm itchy the rest of the damn day...arrrggghhhh. I'll survive..lol. I'm stoked to go out tonight, probably because i didn't go out all week, and usually i go out at least once, if not twice, even if it's just to shoot pool for a few, and split a pitcher.....but i didn't this week, i was feeling super tired, and grumpy, and didn't much feel like being around people. I took my girlfriend out last friday, and she's takin' me out this friday......so i'm pretty psyched on that too. |
| 8:37 am | trouble in shang ri la... Last night sucked. My girlfriend was acting like a freak...she just got on new meds, and she's all whacked out....super sensitive, and driving me crazy. I'm super stoked it's Friday though..... Elisa and I ended up talking last night..it was good...she just kept repeating herself...apparently she didn't think i got it the first time...anyways, it's over now, and she was super sweet as we kissed goodbye this morning. She's silly...and super cute...I'm just extremely frustrated with her mood swings lately...i'm sure she's just as frustrated with me however. Stupid ass live journal sucks this morning.....about all i can do is update the damn thing, so that's what I'm doing. Goin' to 1220 tonight....lots of people wanted me to go last night, but i just wasn't up for it...besides, I needed sleep, so I can party tonight....................I'm still not sure what's up for the rest of the weekend...but i'm sure something will come up. I really wanna kick with Jenny....(Jen's Ex)...her and I get along really really well, we have a lot in common, raised in the same way, like the same things...our birthdays are like 7 days apart so we're both Cancers....I just relate to her...it's awkward though, because of Jen, but that is getting better the longer that Jen stays with Alanna........i shouldn't hold myself back from being friends with someone just because they're an ex of one of my other friends...it's stupid petty high school drama bull shit.....and i need all the friends i can get right now. People should understand that, and not be so damn selfish...................hopefully Jen is over it by now. Work is sooo slow lately...which is okay...even though it's been slow, this week has gone by incredibly fast................which is always a plus. My girlfriend swears I'm conspiring something behind her back...she says she's joking, but she keeps making these weird comments, hopefully things will change when her drugs come into effect....sometimes i just dont know what to do...sometimes i just want to run away...sometimes there's is nothing keeping me here but my own tenacity. ah well...more later. |
| Thursday, August 23rd, 2001 | |
| 8:09 am | Yippeee...it's Thursday. Even though it's Thursday, and I am excited about that....I'm sure I can still find something to bitch about...ha ha. But seriously...I've had the flow a few too many times lately...I want to go to the doctor, but I'm afraid they'll put me on hormones...the wrong kind (estrogen)...and I just really dont need that, but I also don't need Aunt Flow to be visiting twice a month. Yesterday I ended up with a fat ass headache, and got all my work done here, and then went home and took a nap...which was nice, for once i had the whole bed to myself...which is always cool once in a while. I don't know what's planned for this weekend...we'll probably end up at 1220 on Friday night...Jen starts working there that night as a barback...and that whole situation just annoys me. She just quit drinking, because " she's an alcoholic" yet she's going to be a barback...makes no sense to me....but hey, what do i know? lol...it's probably not just that, i'm sort of just annoyed with her in general, she's got an attitude problem, and she's somewhat of an egomaniac...and it's really starting to wear on me. She can be really cool at times.........I sure do like her better when she doesn't have a girlfriend though....that's a long and tough story to explain....but NO i do not have those sorts of feelings for her AT ALL....quite the opposite actually. I'm actually in a good mood today, wondering if Jen is going to come to work.....doubtful, but we'll see. So anyways, oh yeah, the weekend...so we'll probably end up at 1220 on Friday night....I'm not sure about Saturday, I'd like to venture to SF or the Beach...or at least work on the house some more. Something. I'm pretty broke till pay day though...but the beginning of next month, I'll get my 300.00 bucks back from the gov. so that should help................I think I'll put it aside for Vegas......damn i love that place....maybe this time I'll just stay there. |
| Wednesday, August 22nd, 2001 | |
| 8:31 am | Utopia... actually, i just couldn't think of a "subject"....i have a meeting at 9 o'clock....which i'm just so enthusiastic about......imagine that, i get to sit in a room and listen to a bunch of people who i don't really care about tell me about a bunch of things i don't really care about....sounds like a good start to the morning...I'm just glad that I already ate my breakfast, and I'm about to go have a quick smoke before it starts. OH boy....what a day. I'm off..................................... |