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Wednesday, March 20th, 2002
11:52 am	I've been put down, picked up and put off I've been held up, pushed and shoved around You got me falling over and over I've been drifting this side and upside down I do it all for you You know I’ll be a fool for you I keep thinking I've lost something I look down and it's only you so here i am..with nothing really interesting to say..sitting here in 4th period trying to listen to my darren hayes cd..i'm bummed..because darren was on the morning show today and i didn't know it until right now when i looked on the web site...*frowns* ohhh well..so yeah nothing really happened yesterday..i've decided something..i'm sorry i really don't have much to say i haven't really been talkitive lately...i'll write more later.. Current Mood: bored Current Music: i miss you..darren hayes (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 19th, 2002
11:43 am	spin spin spin! I can see the sun And I can feel the rain I can hear the wind call your name I can feel your love But there's one thing I can't do I can't ever get enough of you the cd comes out today..mike is gonna take me after school to get it..but first we're gonna drop by elliots house to go hang out with him... it's official..we're together...march 18th marks the date..*sighs* and i dunno i think i've made a mistake..but we'll see right?...he let me drive his car yesterday..which was nice of him..while he sat in the back seat...it was fun..we looked around for houses for kelly and i'm happy to say that she found some that she liked and her dad liked too..so maybe i'll be seein more of kelly on the weekends..yeah and she can also drive me around to..hehehe..and yesterday danny came over..and he hung out with me and my sister..which was really something that was over due...i wish i was older..because he's a perfect man and i would love to be with him...but oh well..i'm sooo tired and i don't know why...i went to bed kinda early because i got soap in my eyes..and they hurt so i laied on my bed and the next thing i knew i was asleep..should i be feeling like i made a mistake with this getting with mike thing...he was makin me feel soo good yesterday because i was layin on the couch with him..and he was massaging my legs..and it was like the best thing in the world..i ended up fallin asleep..i dunno..i doubt it sometimes..and i know if i break up with him i'll have alot of really mad guys from the car club mad at me...blah blah..i'm sorry if i'm boring some people..but i'll stop..i'll write more later...i have a sub today in this class..so i have nothing to do.. :-P Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: insatible...darren (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 14th, 2002
12:04 pm	why do i even look anymore... Aries - Wherever you go, it's all about acquisition, satisfaction and playing. Put your best face forward and flash your brightest smile. Anyone who might even consider resisting or refusing is barely worth a second glance. i made a big mistake right now..huge..and i dunno what to do because it's already been done...ahh i'm feeling sleepy..and i need to drive today too..woo hooo my last 2 hours of driving and then i'll be able to just drive with my parents for right now..and then i'll go in for my tests..yeah i'm in school right now and i don't feel good now..i've been looking at deanna's journal..and i really don't like when she leaves people un-named..it just makes me think too much..and you know it sucks that i can't trust her as much i'm still parianoid about things.. *sighs* my dad drove by somewhere yesterday and my eyes got all watery..and i couldnt help it..it's like if i would ever drive past my uncle's house...bad memories..oh i dunno what to say..i gotta study for a test next period..im learning things on the mexican americans.. hehe..ok i'm gonna go..more later Current Mood: tired Current Music: mr. j talkin (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 13th, 2002
11:08 pm	goodnite Very cute, very pink, and very feminine. That's you. Find your inner rubber ducky. Current Mood: tired Current Music: crazy..britney spears (Comment on this)
2:11 pm	hey love.. Current Mood: busy Current Music: lalala (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:50 pm	Could I be good enough? Could I be good enough? If the going got worse and the worse got rough, The days became endless and harder than tough. I'd be good enough. Better than best, would be simply to be good enough. If everything I give doesn't seem like a lot. If it's all that I got, baby, tell me that could be good enough. well i stayed home from school today..which was a good thing really..i wasn't feeling well in the first place and i really didn't feel like going..so i didn't..i got a lot done around here though..i cleaned out some things and i found some things i've been trying to hide from myself for awhile..i hate crying..*sighs* i found pictures and letters also..yeah so whatever..but i'm gonna leave right now because i gotta go to the doctors..yup yup..i'll be a whole different peson pretty soon..so yeah..i was gonna post a picture..but my computer is bein retarded..so just look forward to that... Current Mood: crappy Current Music: good enough..darren hayes...*spin count down 6 dayz* (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 12th, 2002
11:49 pm	i don't wanna remember today... i feel weird..like crying..and i dunno what really happened..but yeah everyday..mike picks me up after school and takes me home..now he's becoming more and more forceful with me..and i dunno..i'm not like that..and i don't want him expecting more than what i wanna give him..well today i let him come inside..and my dad was home..but the minute my dad left..he wanted me to sit right next to him..talkin about how we were finally alone..and we get our alone time together..i dunno what to say *holds back tears*..i kept pulling away from him and he kept getting closer and more forceful..finally he got on top of me..i dunno how..and yeah..i tried to get him off because he was starting to scare me a little...and i was telling him to stop and he wasn't..i finally wiggled myself away from him and kinda sat away from him...he acted like nothing happened..and i dunno what to even say *looks at the ground*..i didn't know who to turn to..so i told robby..i don't know how to think right now..well..did i bring this upon myself..i dunno i'm glad i'm not gonna see him tomorrow..i have a doctors appt. at 2:30..so yeah..i'm gonna go to bed..nite Current Mood: uncomfortable Current Music: i'm lookin.. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:08 pm	eh? Aries - As it turns out, you don't know everything. The time has come to change the guard and air out that dirty laundry. Relax your expectations. Something different is trying to happen. (Comment on this)
11:48 am	my love for you is insatiable.. god i'm still updating on friday..well i saw whatever it takes and it's basically about two friends who fall in love with eachother..i dunno it makes me think about cody...cody cody cody..hahaha i can say his name and he'll never see this..oh well..yeah so my friday kinda sucked..then on saturday i was sooo friggin busy...my mom woke me up and she wanted me to go to a baby shower with her...for my cousin..and yeah so we went over to target and i talked to elliot for awhile while my mom shopped around..we talked about mike mostly but you know it doesn't really matter...lalala so mike was pagin me because we were supposed to go out...well whatever so we got the gift for my cousin's baby..and went over to her house to discover that the baby shower was next weekend..ohh fun stuff but you know it was all good because now i got a lot of new clothes...my mom wanted to take me shopping so i went...i got three pairs of jeans..and some tops..and everything was really cute..i have a belt now because my pants are fallin off.. :-D we talked about my birthday too..and i still don't know what i'm going to do..so i got home around 4....3 hours of nonstop shopping...i swear...i came home and mike picked me up around 6 and we went over to the long beach towne center to go watch a movie..we saw 40 days and 40 nights...i swear that movie is just meant for guys but you know it was adorable still...a love/porn..lol good stuff...after that we went over to down town disney..and he took me over to these beautiful places over by the hotel..he kept asking me if eric ever took me to places like this..because a beautiful person deserves to be taken to beautiful places..and i dunno..i didn't know what to think...he just made me think about eric a lot..and i dunno ..i don't even know what to say..i cried because i was thinking about how the things used to be..i dunno i don't wanna talk about it anymore..later maybe..i just wanna make this short...i got home around 11:30...yeah and that was it..the next day he picked me up at 12 and i went over to wendys with him to go meet the car club..we hung out over there and they did meeting stuff..and then we went over to adams house..which is by cody's house...so i got to go over there for a couple of minutes to see him..and then left...blah blah..we hung out at adams house for a few..and then went over to chris palmers house...hung out there and finally decided to go over to speed zone...hehe i got to drive elliot back to his house..mike trusts me with his car...so yeah we went over to speed zone..and they raced while i watched them..and a couple of other guys who were hot..but i couldn't even go up to talk to them because mike had his eyes on me the whole time..yeah so whatever..we went to eat after and then we went back to his house...hung out in his room..and then he took me home..*sighs* yesterday!! finally...i got home and hung out with kelly and mike before i had to go to driving class...nothing really happened at school...me and cody were actually having a conversation...that hasn't happened since awhile back..so yeah..but i was just sittin around with mike and god i felt like he was gonna rape me..he was all over me and i dunno how to say no..grrrr..whatever...then my instructor came..and we started driving...we ended up in cypress...by the other driving school..and yeah 2 more hours left..yeah..i dunno nothing else happened..me and mike got into another fight..but what else is new..*sighs* i'm getting sick of all the fighting.you know i'll write about that later..so more later.. Current Mood: amused Current Music: u remind me..(a girl is singing it over here) (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 10th, 2002
11:05 pm	hmmmmmmm.. i want you back, i want you gone maybe i'm sick of holding on ok i've been gone for way too long...when was the last time i updated? lemme look back...well on thursday i locked myself out of the house so mike stayed outside in the car with me..and we talked about things..we ended up talking about eric and he kept asking me questions about him..how was i supposed to tell him everything with a straight face..he was asking me really personal questions..like about how i knew i was in love with him and things like that..also making me think of what eric actually did for me and all that shit..i really don't think eric appreciates me talking about him on here so i'll stop..but yeah we were lookin up at the clouds and i was just thinking and i started to cry..not knowing what to tell him for the reason i was crying i went with the good old..i got something in my eye..it always worked..but i think everyone knows why i was really crying..i'm sorry i'll stop with that..so yeah nothing really on thursday...but on friday i had my driving with a driving instructor for 2 hours which actually didn't even feel like two hours..and it was alright..he said i'm really good for having minimal expericance behind the wheel..at one corner my heart nerly stopped because i swear to you this guy looked like someone who i haven't seen in awhile..who died* and i was just like what the fuck..and kinda looking...the instructor thought i was just looking to be safe to the people on the side..but it wasn't that...but yeah i kinda was just thinking about it after that spacing out but still driving pretty well..nothing happened that night either..my dad let me drive around some..and we went to blockbuster and i got a movie called whatever it takes..tomorrow there will be more..i'm busy.. Current Mood: busy Current Music: slience is golden (Comment on this)
12:40 am	pop pop pop *sighs* i'll update tomorrow before i go to speed zone..i've had a long day and i just wanna lay down..soo i'll update tomorrow..nite everyone..here's a new song by darren..spin comes out march 19th..happy birthday bryan..i miss ya babe.. do you love me? or am i just another trip in this strange relationship you push and pull me (yeah) and i'm about to lose my mind is this just a waste of time keep acting like you own me i keep running, watch me walking out that door i hear you behind me gimme that strange relationship never felt pleasure and pain like this something so right but it feels so terribly wrong i keep holding on gimme that strange relationship one of us gotta let go of this i keep pushing and you keep holding on i'm already gone do you love me? we break up and back together and i swore to myself never oh how you do me, yeah yeah you strip me of my honor and i don't ever think i'm gonna break free of these mind games all i'm trying to do is modify my plan cause i can't contain you gimme that strange relationship never felt pleasure and pain like this something so right but it feels so terribly wrong i keep holding on gimme that strange relationship one of us gotta let go of this i keep pushing and you keep holding on i'm already gone you keep acting like you own me i can't control me you said you never really wanted me back well maybe if that's a fact may i suggest a brand new plan of attack and in the fizzle that you're hard to crack you're way off track i want you back, i want you gone maybe i'm sick of holding on do you love me or am i just another trip in this strange relationship gimme that strange relationship never felt pleasure and pain like this something so right but it feels so terribly wrong i keep holding on gimme that strange relationship one of us gotta let go of this i keep pushing and you keep holding on i'm already gone Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: strange relationship..darren hayes (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 7th, 2002
7:44 pm	if you want to... i could be dirty too.. i could spin you around pick you up and go down. current mood: full.. :o\ current music: dirty...darren hayes.. current taste: orange chicken i just ate.. current hair: pony tail *grins* it rained today.. current dress: jeans and a sweatshirt current annoyance: people who say one thing and do another.. current smell: curve...i spilled some :( current longing: for the past?..i cried today in mikes car..thinking too much.. current game: ummmm...sure.. current thing I ought to be doing: homework.. current windows open: Kazaa..america online..and my AIM account.. current desktop picture: a picture of my baby..god he's adorable. current favorite musical artist: darren hayes.. current favorite group: incubus.. current book: of mice and men..oh yeah baby.. current cds in stereo: umm you really want me to name off 100 cds..yeah i didn't think so.. current colour of toenails: ewwwh toes.. current refreshment: nothing.. current worry: how i'm gonna hide this "bite" on my neck.. :o\ stupid mike.. current crush: : well it's someone that's untouchable.. current favorite celeb: josh Hartnet.. current time wasting wish: ehh..what..oh i'm keeping my mouth shut.. current hate: that some people are just so arrogant..and say one thing and mean another.. today have i .. smiled?: kinda..i guess., laughed?: yeah cried?: yeah hahah you shouldn't even ask me bout that.. bought something?: ummm..no im saving my money..plus mike buys everything for me :oP danced?: yeah in the car. were sarcastic?: yeah talked to an ex?: no it's probably been about 2 months since i've talked to him... watched your favorite movie?: nope...but friends is gonna be on in 6 minutes... (ok i'm back) *a last time for everything....... last book you read: of mice and men last time you had sex: haven't even had a first..i'm actually innocent.. last movie you saw: 12 monkeys last song you heard: hey love..mobb deep last thing you had to drink: strawberry soda last time you showered: i'm gonna go take one shortly last thing you ate: a piece of orange chicken *do you... smoke?: ewwh no do drugs?: nope have sex?: ummm sleep with stuffed animals?: stanley was my teddy bear...i don't sleep with him any longer.. live in the moment?: :o\ i don't think so have a dream that keeps coming back?: nightmares.. play an instrument?: nope believe there is life on other planets?: hahah i dunno remember your first love?: haha that's just like asking is the sky blue? or is there water in the ocean...come on.. still love him/her?: honestly..yes..and i dunno why.. read the newspaper?: only the comics.. have any gay or lesbian friends?: yes i do...gay men are awsome.. believe in miracles?: not really.. believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yes it is possible because you should have enough self control..and think about the feelings of the other person consider yourself tolerant of others?: yeah.. consider love a mistake?: sometimes i do.. have a favorite candy?: chocolate covered gummy bears.. believe in astrology?: yes i do... believe in magic?: ehhh david copperfield. :-P believe in God?: sure go to church?: not that much.. do well in school?: i know i could do better.. go to or plan to go to college?: i dunno.. wear hats?: nope... have any piercings?: 5..soon to be 6 or 7 :-D have any tattoos?: tattoos are stupid.. hate yourself?: haha.. have an obsession?: ehhhh..next question have a secret crush?: the untouchable kind. do they know yet?: if he knew then it wouldn't be a secret collect anything?: ummm movie ticket stubs.. have a best friend?: what is a best friend anyways..i'm still trying to work on that wish on stars?: yes but it never works like your handwriting?: nope..i hate it.. have any bad habits?: haha care about looks?: people who do are shallow.. believe in witches?: i know a couple.. believe in Satan?: i think he resides in some people.. Current Mood: awake Current Music: dirty..darren hayes (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 6th, 2002
12:03 pm	a smile is never the same if it's not felt on the inside.. i'm sitting here..i'd rather do this than study for my spanish test next period..which isn't good but what can i really do about that? god why am i in this mood..where i don't care about anything..i dunno whatever..yesterday was more drama that i didn't even wanna deal with..i guess after me and mike went out to lunch ...and then he told me that he needed to go talk to paul about something so yeah he dropped me off and then calls me later on that night while i was on the phone and told me that he needed to talk to me..that he heard from paul and elliot that i was hooking up with some guys on sunday night when i went to go get something to drink with kelly...which isn't even true but he seemed to think so..now i know how that is..and i remember when i didn't know who to believe or who to turn to when i was hearing two different storys but i know that i'm telling the truth and nothing went on..now i dunno what he thinks but he said he got over me and was gonna believe me..i was like alright that's cool..then richard called me to tell me that ryan had broken up with his girlfriend again and that he wanted to talk to me..i was laughing and i told the whole ryan story to mike and then ryan called so then i told mike i would call him back..and i guess that's where he got pushed out of shape..he got all pissed and called back later on that night saying that he was all mad that i got off the phone with him to talk to ryan...i explained to him that ryan was my friend and that was about it..and whatever i dunno so now he's mad at me and i dunno what's going on ..he told me he would talk to me tomorrow...so yeah..i talked to ryan though..and he was so funny..trying to spit his game at me..reminded me of someone i used to know.. :o\..well whatever i guess i'll try to study a little for my spanish test...oh wait i have more to say...i was lookin through my yearbook when i was on the phone with robby and i was just thinking about summer and the last day of school..and all that good stuff..and i really wanted to go back in time to summer and then pause it right in the middle of july..and live there forever..*drums her fingers* ok well i'm gonna stop..be back when i get home.. Current Mood: energetic Current Music: it's too quiet in here... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 5th, 2002
12:09 pm	grrrrrr... i updated..and then this computer got all retarded...so i'll do it later..i'm over this.. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: pearl harbor (Comment on this)
11:58 am	loving you is what kept me alive... ok yeah they are still watching pearl harbor..and you know it's about the doolittle raid..this is the saddest part..*sighs* yesterday was sooo tiring..me, kelly, vanessa and derek did our TV show yesterday where me, kelly and vanessa had to dress up like indians and derek was the cowboy and we taped it in the park..it was very interesting..i dunno not as good as i would have liked it but alright for the most part..mike taped it all..and i dunno me and him..i dunno if i'm just not letting myself like him because i'm picking all the things that he can never mesure up to or what...i dunno what to think..i guess i'm just not gonna worry about it anymore...robby left me a letter today in my locker..well deanna did but i guess he sent it..of course..but yeah..i'm still kinda upset over this whole stupid situation that's going on and i still don't know what to do about it..i'm pushing myself away from cody and deanna..and i wonder why? hmmm..whatever i'm still pissed..i don't mean to push myself away from cody..but i wish i could just talk to him..maybe at lunch when 4th is over..but yeah..what should i say..i was talkin to one of my friends about it..and he told me i need to tell her about it..and then maybe she'll understand..whatever..no more drama for lauren right now..nope i don't want any but yeah..mike is picking me up today after school..i wonder what's gonna go on..he's been kinda hinting towards some things and i just don't know what to respond to him..i think he's moving just a little too fast for his own good..but what do i tell him..god i hate being me right now..ahh i don't mean to bitch but whatever..ohhh nooo danny is gonna dieee..ahhh ohh speaking of danny...i talked to him yesterday..just for a minute..i guess he's back with the one that caused him the most pain and he's giving me a lecture on people that hurt me..i dunno i'm kinda dissapointed by that...it sucks..but i hope he's happy even though she doesn't deserve him..i'm sorry maybe i shouldn't even be talking about this..whatever i can't wait to go to sleep in mikes car..i'm gonna go now..i'll be home later.. Current Mood: bored Current Music: pearl harbor... (Comment on this)
Monday, March 4th, 2002
11:58 am	:o\ Aries - You're stranded behind enemy lines with nothing but your wits. Speed and secrecy are your best advantages. For the next few days, never stop looking for a way out. Current Mood: irritated Current Music: same thing.. (Comment on this)
11:38 am	well here i am... sitting in fourth period with way too much on my mind today..and you know it's really bringing me down because of it...one thing in general is bugging the shit out of me but i don't even know how to express my feelings towards it without coming off too bitchy...but yeah lemme talk to you about my weekend first...friday night i stayed home with my parents because my dad was still kinda mad at me..i went out to dinner with them and we talked..and i'm out of trouble for right now..oh yeah and i got a dozen roses on friday too..mike told me it has been a month since we've been seeing eachother so yeah i was like wow..alright thats cool..so yeah he could stay long because of my dad but whatever..so yeah i went out with my parents and we talked about everything and i guess i'm cleaning windows for awhile to pay for my driving..ok well yeah so that was my night..and i talked to cody for awhile on the phone because i could use it..wasn't really nothin to write about...saturday i went with deanna to cody's house where we spend the entire afternoon and almost night with him..i wish i could have stayed longer even though i feel like me and him are really coming apart *sigh* what can i really do..that's just life..oh well..yeah i guess thats what i say now when i can't do shit about something...oh well..n e wayz..so saturday mike was lookin all over for me because i kinda just left without him but god..a girl needs to spend time with her friends too..i dunno he's been asking for more then seeing eachother for awhile..and i'm just not ready for that..is it because i'm scared or am i just holding myself back from something that could be great...can i really make myself like him ..i dunno whats really going on..but yeah...so sunday comes along and he was talkin to me almost makin me cry...i made a prop for this thing that me and some friends are taping in the park..and kelly came over and helped paint it..then mike picked us up and we went to the meeting and then on to a car show with the guys..it was alright..i kept thinkin alot about someone..but that came and went..but i gotta tell you there were a lot of cute guys there that were lookin at me..and when mike would see he would grab me and hold me close...i felt like screaming..i dunno..nothing really i'm just thinking too much about things and about what is going on with people right now..i don't know what to really say about this thing right now..ahh i know i don't make sense and you know i don't plan on makin sense anytime soon...i guess..i'm just bothered by this and at least one person could tell..so i'm just saying if i start becoming distant to you..i'm sorry..but i just need to get away from things that make me think right now... :-\... Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: peal harbor (mr. j has people watching it) (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 3rd, 2002
1:18 pm	*sighs* i'm fallin in love with this song I don't want you to give it all up And leave your own life collecting dust And I don't want you to feel sorry for me You never gave us a chance to be And I don't need you to be by my side To tell me that everything's alright I just wanted you to tell me the truth You know I'd do that for you Why are you running away? Why are you running away? Cause I did enough to show you that I Was willing to give and sacrifice And I was the one who was lifting you up When you thought your life had had enough And when I get close, you turn away There's nothing that I can do or say So now I need you to tell me the truth You know I'd do that for you So why are you running away? Why are you running away? Is it me, is it you Nothing that I can do To make you change your mind Is it me, is it you Nothing that I can do Is it a waste of time? Is it me, is it you Nothing that I can do To make you change your mind So why are you running away? Why are you running away? ...What is it I've got to say... So why are you running away? ...To make you admit you're afraid... Why are you running away? Current Mood: content Current Music: running away..hoobastank (Comment on this)
Friday, March 1st, 2002
9:50 pm	... Your man is a lot of fun to be with. His talk is charming and because of this he always seems to be surrounded by girls. You'll just have to live with this and not let it bother you. If you let him know you're jealous, it's likely that he would turn his back on you without too many second thoughts. To be with him, you have to give him plenty of room to move, trust him, and allow him to be independent. You should also remember to be independent yourself! He enjoys going out to parties and likes you to have fun along with him too, so make the most of his love of life. (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 28th, 2002
11:36 pm	wanna see something cool?? hahhaha i've been saying that all day..but this is the best thing.. ok well yeah i'm famous..after that i'll give you an update on my wonderful day :o) ok well this is me..taken when i first got my camera..i was bored ok well yeah ..now here is my twin..i stumbled upon this picture..and it's crazy.. ok yeah..it's me :-P yeahh ok maybe not..but people tell me i look like her a lot..but whatever..ok it's time for my update on today..nothing really went on in school..just the same thing day in and day out..well you know i didn't get to update in my class because i was actually doing some work..it's crazy huh? lol..but yeah we have this project in history due where we have to create a 50s tv show..so me and my friends are makin one up..it's gonna be fun..we're gonna do it out in the park..and bring it into class..but yeah whatever...school was school..19 more days till spin comes out..ahh and i can't wait..i have a lot of things going on this coming month..including my birthday..awwh the first time really me and kelly went out to dinner..i feel so special..knowing her she'll probably remember too..*sighs* that day was the best day in the world..eric made me feel so speical too..i remember that..because he was being nice to me..whatever..today i was out of it though..kinda tired because i'm not getting enough sleep..but i'll live..i have this weekend...i heard from my mom that i'm getting my phone back this weekend..i can't wait..*bounces* gimme some ideas on what to do for my birthday...i'll probably spend it with the team..maybe..i dunno..i have a couple of things in the way of getting everything all together..but that means i'll just have to work around it..so yeah..mike picked us up after school..and took us out to in and out..and then home..because lately my dad has wanted me home..he seemed to be in a better mood today also so i was happy..i got on line to find that robby was over here and he wanted to stop by..i didn't know what to do..but i really wanted to see him..and you know what..it happened..i got to see my robby! i was so happy to see him..*smiles* i missed him soo much..getting a hug from him was the best..i gave him his things..and i was talking to his sister later on and she told me he kept his little monkey like right under his nose the whole car ride home because i put perfume on it..he cut his hair..it looked adorable..hehe i dunno..*smiles* he left me with a smile on my face..it started to make me think..ahh lately my whole body has been hurting me..and i dunno why..like today my hip was hurting..and now it's my arms and wrists..my mom says i'm growning again..i dunno about that one either..n e wayz i gotta get finished with my stuff..i have a chem thingy tomorrow..so if anything more later.. Current Mood: content Current Music: falling at your feet...darren hayes (Comment on this)