genderqueer [iamacliche]

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i'm going to try to find the transgender AA meeting around here tonight. i'm a recovering addict/alcoholic and i'll be clean and sober for 6 months on easter (this weekend)... i've always had a hard time with AA, but lately i've been trying to venture out and find some good queer meetings. last night i went to an excellent meeting and was invited to a queer sober dance and drag show in a couple of weeks.

i am nervous about the meeting tonight, because i've never been to anything specifically geared towards transgender people, and i am new to it sort of.

someone posted maybe yesterday about feeling more comfortable with themselves now that they are out to themselves. i feel that i am more comfortable with me now, but i dunno if it's cuz of that or cuz i have a girlfriend. maybe both.

i gotta scoot for now though. the meeting starts in 20 minutes and is about a half hour away. i'm so disorgonized.

later.

genderqueer [quesita]

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Especially with the subject of Gender and/or Sexuality. Also, any articles dealing with the problems of how to use performance art as a tool to effect social change (on a mainstream level) looking at the typical audience of performance art (which by definition is not mainstream).

genderqueer [zon_rik]

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Hmm...

What's up people, I am Zonrik, that be a strange name, but that's not to worry about...Anyway, I've come here in search of finding out about my own gender and what not, not the most optimistic about it, and feel rather intrigued by it as well. However, I am not really closed minded about things, and tend to try almost...anything once. I feel somewhat uncomfortable even typing this out(such a wuss, it's not even funny..) Blah... wtf am I talking about..anyway, glad to speak to all who reads this.. <3

genderqueer [gothicboy069]

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hello im new here so i thought i would make an interduction.my real name is jamie, im 26 and like a lot of people in lj find i to am struggeling with gende issues.i was born male but thats just the outside of the package.on the inside im all female.i know this my famely( parents siblings) understand this and agree. i was labeled gay as early as 3rd grade. of course i had now idea what the label ment at the time. even in high school i was not 100% sure of who or what i was. even when i finally fell in love with a guy for the first time and was called a fag,queer etc. those labels still didnt fit. at least not to me.to me i am hetrosexual.i am a str8 female i just happen to traped in the body of a man there for im called a fag. i was married and then for the first time i felt i was gay.it didnt last long because i relized i would never be abel to live that way. i had to be true to myself. i have been diagnosed as haveing gender disphoriea(sp) born as the wrong gender. i pass as a female with out much effort but trying to ge a guy is really hard for me.its very stressfull.in away its nice to now im not alone or the only one who feels this way.

genderqueer [osidian]

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um. I guess I ought to say a hello.

Just joined to the community.

I am a boygirl/girlboy-whatever, whatever happens to be on at the moment.

I am finding hard time to identify myself anywhere. I´m just a glamrocker who is whatever at the moment in the field of gender. My gender role probably is to be of the opposite sex to my possible partner and for the friends, relatives, people I know/work with/are accuintances with/socialize with/meet I am usually just of the sex they prefer me to be.

I believe I am more of an omnisexual ( finding myself to be attracted to people of any gender or between genders that have attractive outer features that meet my taste in the area ) than pansexual ( finding all the sexually arousing features from the mind and from that only without any gender or between gender limits ).

If anything more than this I am a total catastrophe when it comes to dating and finding a mate or a partner. Me being two genders in my head or of the third non gendered gender at time to times and looking like a girl or a boy or an andro probably makes me very hard person for the possible beloved to deal with. I dated a man for two years and a woman for three. And for the duration of those relationships I probably more labeled myself as an ever child than as their genderblender/andro partner.

For some reason from the people that have been attracted to me the most part have been the ones who have identified theirselves as heterosexuals/straight. I believe it is for there aren´t really many gay/omnisexual/queer/pansexual/so on people where I live or I just have not happen to find them ( and this is also the reason why I wanted to join this community, to find the people I´ve missed and ached for ).

In my both relationships I´ve somehow put my partners to very new situation where they have been bit lost and I believe I have been lost too, mainly because I do not want to start discussing straight ahead topics like "these are the things us andros and genderblenders do in bed, these are the things we think, are, want to do" with new people I meet. And maybe it is just me, who thinks that partners aren´t chosen in the way that you just blurt out at the same time all your needs and wants and see if you can make a deal. I believe every relationship is different and that there are different things you find comfortable in different relationships. I do not want to be a product that has on it a list of recommendations for the user. But, what I want to say, is that I feel myself as an outcast for I can´t be of one, for I can´t set up rules how to be with me, and thus I feel that I am so cast off when it comes to relationships and love. ( maybe the reason why I joined is the secret hope to find someone/someones here who understands the dilemma or someone/someones who convince me it isn´t a dilemma at all ;D )

And what I am doing here? huh. I believe I´m trying to meet people who are of different gender identities, to have few good discussions and maybe even force myself to find new thoughts from conversations that are running here, to put my whatever-self to new situation where I am forced to use my whatever´s brain.

ummm. yep. *flashes a big smile* say hi to the glamrocker-whatever, will you?

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Much of my anxiety about being trans comes from fears of interacting with the public at large. How will people react to someone trying to identify as genderqueer? Especially when they're far removed from any sort of queer scene, a strictly heterosexual male OR female kind of world.
I'm starting hormones very soon. I've been getting more confident around my friends with the topic, but dealing with those I'll never know intimately still scares me.
I wonder how this will impact life at a job, or if/how it will make finding work harder.
Can anyone who is out about being trans and/or genderqueer relate some words of advice for dealing with employment and real world reactions?

genderqueer [blueinside]

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hey everyone,I just wanted to introduce myself since i've been lurking for 4 months. Well anyway I came out to myself as something other than just female, in october/november 03, I thought about it, figured out a name and by late december 2003 I was Lee. I ended up dating a trans boi who was very supportive in my confusion, which helped greatly, I am from NYC , Latino/a ( puertorican) I'm 20 years old. I date all types of people sorta pansexualish. my screen name is nyctaurus21. Even though I still have tons of confusion as to whats going on in my head, i'm very glad this community is on LJ and I can't wait to read more posts.

genderqueer [starlights]

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Hello everyone. I'm new here and just joined a few minutes ago. My name is Starlight. I'm also a member of the transgender community, but I was looking for a place where people who are more specifically like me tend to congregate.

You see, I consider myself to be a herm or shemale. I do not feel comfortable having an identity as a male (in which I was born) and it has created a lot of hardships for me throughout my life. I've had trouble in society, making friends, keeping jobs, and just staying sane due to this issue with my identity. Things simply don't feel right and it causes me to have a lot of anxiety.

Yet, while I want to have a female identity in the social world, and like to look, act, dress, and talk like a woman, I do not feel that making the complete transition is something I want to do. I like to have options. And I feel that I simply cannot be categorized so easily or stuck into a "normal" group. For instance, I like gay/bi men. And I feel a little bit of that way, myself. I just believe that most of my body should look female, save for everything down there. *blushes*

I'm not sure how much of that makes sense and if there's anyone here who feels the same way.. But I thought I would make the effort to find others who may be more like me. It can't hurt. The worst that happens is you think I'm extremely weird. ^^;

Anyway, that's about it for now. I hope to meet some nice people here and have some good conversations.

-Starlight

genderqueer [hybrid_beast]

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The musical "Hairspray," playing on Broadway for the past two years and now on tour, is about race relations and the growth of tolerance in 1962 Baltimore. It won a Tony Award for Best Musical, and its leading lady took home the award for Best Lead Actress in a Musical. More notably, Harvey Fierstein won Best Lead Actor for portraying the leading lady's mother.

A man winning plaudits for portraying a woman raises a few questions: Why do we celebrate performance in drag? Isn't drag just yet another variation on a dominant group appropriating the identity of a disempowered group for its own ends?