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A little slice of incongruity
create your own visited states map
or write about it on the open travel guide
I know I need to make a real post but I ran across this and couldn't resist. A lot of these represent road trips cross-country but there are a fair number I have lived in/made extended visits to as well.
I have lots to tell everyone about everything, but I don't really want to talk about it right now. I am gearing up for this weekend which is the big fetish event in town, held both summer and winter but a bigger deal in winter. I will have lots of friends there and I am trying to find a way to volunteer so that I won't be spending money I don't have.
The thing is... this is the first event that I am practically guaranteed to see my ex-Dom at. I have seen him under social circumstance in the year plus since we broke up and I have been ... well at least okay with it, but this is the first time I will see him in a scene context, and to be frank I am in turmoil. The more I think about it and realize how upset it is making me, the more I realize that I really have to go through with it. Ugh! Send me good thoughts people, I'll need 'em.
Current mood:
scared.Current music: Gone, Daddy Gone - Violent Femmes.
I promised people (waves to the long neglected but not forgotten
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shadesong )I would write this story down, and as I seem to be having to tell the story a lot lately anyway, I might as well put it down in a convenient spot that I can point to....( graphic story behind this, might be triggery to rape victims etc. )
Current mood:
sad.Current music: Gone Baby Gone- Violent Femmes.
I just want to actually take a moment to update here and to thank all my wonderful friends who stick with me through thick and thin and support me so well. Thank you especially to those who responded to my last post. I needed that. I genuinely don't deserve you, which is lucky I'd hate to think of what my life would be like if I go what i deserved. I noticed that I have some new friends here and I want to say welcome to
matronmalice, featheredfrog and yakusai. ( welcome wagon here ) I hope I won't bore the new people too much and you others don't seem to mind too much!
Although on that note what would you guys *like* me to write about here? I need direction you know! Feedback, feedback, feedback! Please?
Something I saw in Featheredfrog's LJ that made me think, was an explanation/sort definition of some of his more unusual interests. Does anyone want to see me do that and if so are there any in particular that you'd like to see?
The more I hear from people the the likelier I am to post, so help out.
Current mood:
loved.Current music: Crazy Diamond- Pink Floyd.
And funnily enough it usually involves me. SO I have this big long half done post telling everyone what the hell, where the hell, and who the hell I have been for the last two months, but as I never seem to finish that one and I need to stop waiting to finish before I can post that one to post anythinghence I am breaking the cycle and posting this piece of crap. Ultimately it amounts to Jeanette being overinvolved in herself and her life (although admitedly massive shit-storms were weathered.) If you are a major nosey bitch or you happen to have the same friends that I have you may have seen some of my guest appearances in their journals. (Points to those of you who can find at least two of them!) Ultimately this is a post to appologize for being me. It's been that kind of night, week, month, two months, year, decade, life. *sigh* PLease know hat I love you all still and try in my half-assed, fucked up way to keep track of you. Am going to bed now before I become morbid.
O Yea.... on a postive note I got to work tonight. Easy job, made good money, sweet kids and impressed the hell out of the parents. Best of all I accidentally fliped on the last two min of the Apple cup and got to witness my beloved Huskies trounce the *evil* Cougars!!! YAY!!!!!!
Current mood:
melancholy.Current music: Here Comes the Rain Again - Eurythmics.
I know most of you are too far away for this to mean anything to you , but if you are in the Boston area....( Rocky shit behind this )
So it seems I only write when I have something bad to say, I promise to work on that. Still the fact remains that I *am* the Lucky Duck from Spider Robinson's Callahan books, just wish I could learn to control my luck like he can. So I totaled my car today, and it was all my own fault. The sun was shining from behind me onto the brake lights of the car in front of me, hence I did not see her stopping and totally slammed into her. I have full coverage so there is a good chance that the insurance will cover the rest of my payments, so I will only end up with out a car and higher insurance premiums if I am lucky. On the good side I knew there was a problem with my licence since I missed a court date (they didn't mail the notice to the right place) and the cop only gave me a warning citation for failure to stop which means no fine. Yay! Also I happened to be wearing my seatbelt, which I am sure saved me from any real damage (I know I should do it always but I am just as likely to forget... maybe this will help me to remember.) I did miss a significant portion of work today but my boss was very understanding and helpful as always. Glenn was able to come and bail me out as he always does, I really don't know what I have done right in my life to deserve him! All in all it could have been *much* worse and ultimately this means i should be entitled to some really cool luck after this. I am hoping that it means I will get a wicked cool new car for a great price.
turkchief this means that if I do get to go down to commons that I will need to ride the bus down, be forewarned.I was going to go to a movie sneak peek of an Anime film that Glenn had gotten free passes to but after I got off work, I knew I wouldn't have time to make it. I only got a few comics this week. The Wed. night gaming group started back up this week and I couldn't escape because Glenn and I were sharing the car! Our least favorite customer was in the store tonight.... for *hours* (This woman is the *reason* annoying customer got her name.)
Everyone in our crowd is cursing each other (I.E. "It will be so great to get home, I can't wait, unless....heh, heh The car won't start." Two seconds later the sound of the car turning over but not starting.) So on the way to drop them off at work, Don cursed me with "I really hope that Jeanette rolls out the car door." (Have I mentioned lately how the boys are the brothers I never wanted?) So as soon as we park, I open the car door and an empty bottle falls out, I lean over to grab it bracing myself on the door frame, My hand slips and I fall out of the car. Doomed, Doomed are we!!
Still I do have a piece of good news, I finally got to talk to a couple from bondage.com that I have been playing phone tag with and had a *really* lovely chat with both of them. They seem sweet, nice and exactly the kind of people I am looking for!! We set up a time to meet and I am keeping my fingers crossed! I hope it goes well as we seem to have a lot in common. Her voice reminds me a little of a cross between
redpoppies and soraspera it's a good association. He is really nice and actually seemed interested in my blather about work (Don't get me started on my nanny kids or I will put any bragging grandmas to shame!) I can't wait to meet them! So I at least had a high point to end my day with! 'night all...
Current mood: Ambivilent.
Current music: Don't let me get me - Pink.
I know I should do a real post but I am wicked tired and I am so happy I got this result. I *love* this movie.
( What movie should I be in quiz )
( stupid Quiz alert )
My friend Jeanette ( the *only* other Jeanette I know,) posted this in her journal but I love the quote so much I am gonna post it here too. I think it suits me, don't you?