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Wednesday, April 2nd, 2003
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4:30 pm - in a whole in the wall, where the boys see it all
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well, i think i got the job, he said, "call me Monday and work for a week.. see if you like it" so... i guess it's good. he also said he's interviewed 1000's of people before.. (at other jobs).. and he said that i have good vibe. so.. he knows what he's talking about... if i get the job, i'll either be after target and/or weekends, or i'll quit target. which i'm willing to do. but, i'd really like to do option one. and .. i case you haven't been paying attention, i'd be fixing and building computers. cakewalk.
and the new avirl lavine song.. i think is the best one so far.
.. i mean that's not saying much.
and the ataris had a.. SP(spanking new) video,
during the credits of Avirl Lavine Lose Grip making of the video.
.. i should stop watching MTV,.. but.. it's so.. mesmerizing... ::drools::
aaaah.. look at the people.. look at them dance.
pull za strings.. pull za strings //bela lugosi accent//
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12:50 pm - no rest for the worried
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i think a sign that you have made it musically..
is to have your video played on all major music video channels..
[i.e. VH1, MTV, M2, CMT, MuchMusic, and.. even BET.]
now.. BET together with CMT will be a bitch.. but.. it can be done..
it HAS to be done!
then.. the world will end.
and all that is good and holy, evil and demonic, neutral and null..
will cease to exist..
and we can finally rest.
i think concept of nothing and zero,
is as mind boggling as forever and infinity
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| Tuesday, April 1st, 2003
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8:50 pm - konichwa
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i think it's bobby's birthday.
.. and i received a post card from  krisptena
she's in japan..
.. i envy her.
the post card is very japanese..
it owns broken english.
humorous is card. the card i love.
it says..
"How are you?"
[with a picture of a "hello kitty like" dog's ass]
"When you are tired out from daily happenings,
I always encourage you. let's forget a disagreeable
thing, go to outside, and play together"
then there she wrote some stuff on the other side.
.. the card was a good choice.
that's awesome.
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6:11 pm - i'd write something today.. but it doesn't matter.
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| Monday, March 31st, 2003
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10:56 pm - no joke!
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who want's to go to Spirited Away with me on Wednesday.. or sometime this week?..
it's the new movie by Hayao Miyazaki, (he did princess mononoke) yeah.. i want to see it before it leaves theaters.. i'm thinking it will before the 15th.. since that's when it's coming to DVD. it's currently playing at AMC until Thursday.. at the least. .. i'll probably go if no one wants to go with me. i read the first manga of it.. and it seems interesting.
any takers..?
ooh yeah, it's April fools..
play a joke on someone you love, to show you care.
or on someone you hate... too show you don't.
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7:07 pm - for the love of god.. please.. let it stop
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| Sunday, March 30th, 2003
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8:50 pm - oh simpsons.. how do i love thee.. let me quote the ways
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grandpa - "since i never had any goals.. i can finally do what i want..
lisa - "what's that?"
grandpa - "... die alone!"
homer - "you may be a smart kid, lisa.. but you don't know much about people's feelings" ::runs away crying::
lisa - "does it make you feel big for pointing out other peoples problems and putting it on film for profit?"
documentarian - "and does it make you feel good for pointing out peoples motives?"
lisa - "yes.."
documentarian - "fair enough"
milhouse - "you're going to vandalize a mafia don's car?"
bart - "yeah.. we are all going to be murdered someday"
lisa - "could we do good through civil disobedience?.. Gandhi thought so"
bart - "well Gandhi also said.. 'less talk more rock'. "
::looking at the night's non light polluted sky::
marge - "this is better than our screen saver.. and i love our screen saver."
homer - "i wish god was alive to see this."
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2:27 pm - don't read this unless you care about body maintenance.
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if i was a body builder.
.. i would use no weights, i may use isometric exercise.. and my only equipment would be found, natural, easy to access equipment. the only thing i would use is maybe one of those tower of power things. the ones with the pull up bar, push up thing.. and the dip things.. i should learn the technical names instead of calling them.. things.. i'd use natural resistants, that only my own muscle strength and gravity, for resistance. incline pushups and a variety of pull ups. i'd use no partners for resistance.. usually working out till failure, until maintenance begins. i will not count, unless it's to detach myself. and then it'd only be numbers or just listing things. before i train my body, i'd train my mind, before doing this.. reading all i can about nutrition, methods, and personal fitness. i'd yoga as stretching and warm up and cool down routines. aerobics would consisted of a combination of running, swimming, and jump rope.. and possibly sports like basketball or soccer.. (but these need partners.. so) .
diet would be.
eating a well balanced meals, using no supplements, and no drugs.
doing this would i feel actually make body building an actual art. not a systematic. i believe... this is all i can think of at the moment. maybe i'll add more later.
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1:01 am - i'm going strait to video
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if i was a movie.
it'd be a cheezy 2nd rate B movie;
no matter how hard they try.. and how many tricks they use.
they will never be, the hollywood blockbusters they strive to be
predictable twist endings, boring dialogue, and a not so great cast...
to add insult to injury, blockbusters aren't all always that great.
ooh.. and the hero, he doesn't save the day..
and he doesn't' get the girl.
in fact.. the only girl.. is the villain.
and she wins, cause that's the way things work.
not much of a story, but that's me.
absolutely gorgeous
( sex lies and embaressment )
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| Saturday, March 29th, 2003
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7:37 pm - i watch to much TV but then again, Tv doesn't ignore me when i say hi.
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target has videos on their TV's in the electronics departpartment
music videos by.. the juliana theory.. and AFI .. and the like.
it's funny.
i was watching Mtv, and a simple plan "kidnaps" this guy, and he isn't to lucky with the ladies.. well they take him to jamaica for spring break. they force him to ask all these girls to go on a boat ride.. and he is shot down like a million times. eventually girls start saying yes, i'm sure once they knew Mtv was going to be there, they were more apt to go. well they are about to jump off this cliff, into the water below, and before doing so, he takes of his shirt. revealing a very skinny, pale, and undeveloped thorax. the girl that he asked to come, laughs behind his back.. and you can see her mouth "oh my god" to her friends. ... .. yeah.. i'm with you brother. you're not alone.
working at target is fine i guess. it's a job. my mom on the way home from picking me up.. (i'm so fucking cool) .. she says.. "oh a customer [at her job] is opening a computer store, he said to call him on Monday, to apply." .. yeah.. go figure.. this is just the type of thing i'm afraid of, if i get a girl friend. but, if i get the job there, i'll see if i can work on weekends.. to test it out. i probably won't get the job anyways. so what does it matter.
i'm a lot like failure,
you don't want us there,
but we follow you anyways.
maybe that's why we are such..
"great companions".
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1:26 am - frustration
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| Friday, March 28th, 2003
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11:40 pm - robot for sale
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robots have no feelings.
only sensors, to them yes.. or no.
life would be so easy.
( on/off )
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6:04 pm - working hard for the man.
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( go ahead.. test me )
well unfortuntally i will no longer be able to attend and particpate in Food not bombs. i tried.. but.. well.. the o mighty doller calls. i'll miss it.. and will come any days off.. that doesn't seem likely.
there is something comfrotable about knowing that in the end of the week you will get money. i'm a company tool, and i really don't care. i think this is exactly what i need right now.. hopefully i won't fall in debt with the company store.
and on this subject.. i give you ...
( Aesop Rock's - 9-5er's Anthem )
to skip:
and click here for a neat local reference, look at the first link!!!
da followin was writtun in an ali g translata found in da house. i just ave to say, dis geeza is incredibly ilarious. yous may recognize me turf is madonna's "music" video. he as a special on 'BO, and i recommend watchin it. it is much funnia than is british stuff, and as perfected is characters. yous can download video from kazaa if yous don't ave HBO. respect.. ::snap::
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3:37 am - dreaming in clefs and notes
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if i got into music enough to play.. i'd probably do solo stuff first, nothing serious, and it would be years before i would preform, so i can perfect this skill. eventually i can see myself having a sort of multi instrument set. with a keyboard/synthesizer as the primary source, then a moog as a back up, snare and bass for back beat and maybe a symbol or too for dramatics. and auxiliary instruments like.. the kazoo, harmonica.. maybe even trumpet or accordion.. i know this is a lot, and would take quite a lot of work. but, this only a daydream (but, isn't that how they always begin?).
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| Thursday, March 27th, 2003
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11:15 pm - what a boy wants
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i want to get a job a sushi bar and learn japanese.
i want to be bartender and get hit on my middle aged housewives.
i want to be able to do a pushup while doing a handstand
i want to be an ordain minister and own a strip club
"think about it.. Sea World, destroyed by the sea.. there is a word for that.. and ironically, it escapes me."
louis black; back in black.. .. is back? i'm not complaining... just curious.. and i think i love it
i came home at 7am last Sunday, and i haven't really been out of the house since then...
that could explain the recent posts, i'm so tired of this..
i should go for a walk.. and i just may.
why i keep writing in here..
it's almost as if i have something to prove.
but, i have nothing.
i'm sorry, everyone.. seriously..
forgive me. please forgive me
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9:33 pm - you've been x-'d
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i just watched the jamie kennedy x-periment... it's hilarious.. i don't know why, but i love this show. i wish to some day have a show like it. the difference, i wouldn't tell them they are on a hidden camera show.
now is .. "on the spot", which seems interesting.. i'll watch. it seems to be a "who's line is it anyways?" on crack.. kinda confusing.. i don't think it will do well.. but it's on the WB.. so i'm sure it'll become it's staple.
.......ps. i want zelda: windwaker.
...p.s.s. i start work tomorrow at target as a stalker.
p.s.s.s. shoot me in the head.
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7:47 pm - i'll get you, next time GADGET
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my mom was on the last guy on crash bandicoot: wrath of cortex. i ask.. "how's it going" as i'm walk pass the living room into the kitchen to make a sandwich, she say's "i'm not sure. it would help if i know what i was doing." .. "you and me both mom"
i love these Orkin commercials, to think of all the housewives screaming at the top of their lungs everytime they see that bug cross their screens, fills me with a joy and ease that has no end.
i wish i could complain about everything i got.
but all i can do is focus on what i do not.
[gay]
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| Wednesday, March 26th, 2003
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11:11 pm - if you can't write.. steal
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thanks to marc's away message.. reminded me of lonesome kicker. and came across this:
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January 21. 5:11 pm.
might as well have been in a coma for all of today. did nothing. saw people sleeping in blown snow under the kennedy expressway. decided time is faster than i thought. no more waiting. no more remembering. that's important. I'm killing myself with all this remembering. what the hell happened to me? I've become a person I don't want to be at all. well, thank god for green olives. I'm sitting here fishing them out of a jar with my fingers and having a nice 5 minutes. If someone totaled up all the minutes I've spent alone, I think they could kill me with that. on the other hand, I might just sit here and throw olives at their face as they rattled off the bad news. I don't know. late winter in the midwest has a way of sitting on you like a pile of grandparents.
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i should write like that. but, why write when it's been written before. just copy and paste your feelings from lonesome kicker.
plus. luke wilson is hosting Late Night with david letterman... or luke wilson..or whatever. i'm not sure how i feel about this. so far he isn't all that funny, but they have an extra guest to fill time. good plan. he is not doing such a great job.. he looks so nervous, it make me feel nervous. i feel bad.
i think my computer has a headache.. you know when you have migrains and you ge that sorta.. WOOOSH.. ... silence.. WOOOSH.. feeling.. well i can here it comeing from my computer. i am a fool.
all i want to do is go to sleep. but i can't. i want to go to sleep not cause i'm tired, i want to go to sleep cause i fell this is what hell is a lot of like. i don't know how much i can take.
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9:27 pm - scroll by or forever hold you peace.
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i don't listen to myself, so don't expect me to listen to you.
i keep repeating myself, in this and in my head.
there is a point where you want to give up, but you can't give up, and you don't know why.
i don't know if it's more frustrating or annoying. or which is worse.
i've tried to distract myself, i've tried spend my time more productively. but everything i've done turns to shit. i tried downloading the Matrix osiris thing.. (the matrix is always a good story to escape to.. i should buy the movie.. but i'll wait for the box set) and it turned out to be the first quarter of the animatrix.. so i was thinking "all right.. so i tried to download the second part.." again.. no go.. i tried to learn a bit of japanese.. i have no idea what i'm doing with that.. i tried talking to people.. but today my inability to come up with bullshit is at the all time low. i tried surfing the net.. but there was nothing worth reading or doing.. well there was stuff worth doing.. but i didn't want to do it.. TV is boring.. nothing is on. music just depresses me.. there is nothing.. so i decided to come here.. to old livejournal land.. i promise myself i wasn't going to do any of these things.. especially write in here. but alas.. i never listen. ..
so now.. i'll do this stupid survey thing.. i found in audra's journal
and don't worry about reading it.. it's just stupid, melodramatic, woe is me bullshit that i usually write.. only in survey form
( cut for your protection )
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| Tuesday, March 25th, 2003
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10:46 pm - dream a little dream of me.
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some days, your fantasies and delusions are all you have.
and other days, they are holding you back.
i wish i was as alone, as i feel.
why am i so pathetic?
maybe a good, long, hot, shower and shave will do me good?
i should be more assertive with females, but how assertive can i be, without coming off as the horny perv i am?
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