The Ever Euphoric One

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Subject:	Crazy night.
Time:	12:09 am.

The snow, though troublesome for practicability, adds a solemn aura to the otherwise grey winter landscape... and softly offers to cushion our fall. I forgive the snow for its hindrances and am grateful there can be no rush. Tonight the desolate roads and soft footing offered us solace.

Scott and Kevin lost their mother Thursday night. A heart-attack swiftly stole her away. The only witness was Summer, their 14-year old dog, who had just that week undergone surgery to remove 2 large tumors from her neck and nose. Poor Summer has been bewildered these last few days; among a sea of faces suddenly within her home, the one most familiar to her is missing.

Whether it was the medication, released-toxins from the tumor removal, the emotional trauma of this past week, or some combination of these factors, Summer suffered a severe seizure tonight. There was shaking, extreme salivation, urination, the whole nine yards. Quite a thing to witness.

Knowing that I have at least minimal experience with taking care and medicating dogs, the family looked for me for guidance and support. I couldn't do nearly as much as I would have liked to, but I helped them wrap Summer up and comforted her during the postictal phase while Jim drove us all (father and 2 sons, myself and Summer) to the animal emergency hospital. If for no other reason, I'm glad I could at least be a comfort to both Summer and her family by helping them feel she was in good hands and that her behavior was pretty typical.

In any case... I feel in some ways that my calling to work with animals has been validated tonight... and now my thirst for knowledge about animal care has been very much piqued.

Just talked to Scott on IM... he says Summer is looking much better and her vision has been seemingly restored... now let us hope that his family may not suffer any additional traumas anytime soon.

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Subject:	On a lighter note:
Time:	1:10 pm.

Of course I don't expect to get even an eighth of this, but I like to give people options.

Christmas List:
GC's:
1) bath and body works
2) ny & co.
3) victoria's secret
4) cafe buteras
5) United Artists theatres
6) Barnes and Noble or Borders

Toiletries/etc:
1) Bath and Body Works Purely Silk Salt Scrub - Rice Flower and Shea
2) Bath and Body Works Aromatherapy Sugar Scrub - Lavender
3) Bath and Body Works Body Splash - either Rice Flower and Shea or Warm Vanilla Sugar
4) Bandanas

Electronica:
1) Digital Camera w/ at least over 2 megapixels and 3X digital Zoom
2) CD/MP3 Player w/ Headphones (iRiver SlimX iMP-350 CD/MP3 or something near that calibur)
3) A Car-CD Player/Stereo *w/ anti-skip protection*
4) *New Computer Monitor (I don't have one)

PS2 Games:
1) Sphinx and the Cursed Mummy
2) Dynasty Warriors 3 or 4
3) FFX-2
4) DDR Max 2
5) Okage - Shadow King
6) Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles

Clothes:
1) purty gloves.... the softer the better. bright colors.
2) matching scarf?
3) warm winter coat (like the one at ny & co thats microfiber peacoat-style lined w/ fleece and black)
4) jeans - darker blue, 14 avg, boot-cut or flare
5) sweaters, no turtle-necks, nothing that itches too much
6) leggings
7) boots - black or brown size 9 1/2.... high w/ zipper or low slip on or lace up
8) black small-medium sized pocketbook - no leather
9) socks of all colors and styles. boot stockings, black, brown, beige, etc etc
10) clothes suitable for work - long sleeved fleeces, tshirts, thermals, zipper-up sweats, etc

OTHER:
1) The Lion King on Broadway Tickets
2) Cirque de Soleil tickets (2+)
3) A Wished for Song - photo-book of jeff buckley
4) Books about dog-training and different breeds.
5) small photo-albums
6) Small-Med, non-leather Datebook/Planner w/ address -phone section
7) Sheet/Bed Set
8) Furniture: Entertainment System and/or Desk, More Shelves for the walls
9) 20 Gallon+ Glass Fish Tank w/ new filter and scenic backdrop. (no joke... I want to make my fish tank look a little nicer)

So what do YOU want for Christmas/Hannukah? Leave comments here.

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Subject:	Thank god for girlfriends...
Time:	10:05 pm.
Mood:	listless.

Laura, thanks for always knowing when to reach out to me... for knowing me as well as you do to help remind me when i forget, and for instinctively understanding and saying just what i need to hear.

Abbey, thank you for understanding unconditional love better than any creature i have ever known... and for loving me that way.

alliemoon thanks for lending a sympathetic shoulder to cry on while simultaneously knowing how to make me laugh.

giventofly888 for helping me understand things better, and constantly pointing me in the direction of more constructive decisions and activities. Thanks for having me over tonight too, despite it taking so long for me to get my butt over there.

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Subject:	odds and ends
Time:	12:28 am.
Mood:	accomplished.

I hate to do this in such a manner... but lately I've been too damn lazy to update about EVERYTHING that has been or is happening with my life.
So here's a long story, short:

*Went to Minnewaska last Saturday w/ Jim and Scott. T'was gorgeous as usual. Felt good hiking the 2 miles around the lake. Then Jim, boyfriend-turned-slave-driver, pressed Scott and I onward past our better judgement and we ended up completing our 7-8th mile in the dark, past park hours, in sub-freezing temperatures. Didn't feel so good at that point. Jim felt guilty and paid for everyone's dinner. I was unhappy for a number of reasons, all of which Jim heard once I got back home. But it was good, b/c it was grounds for talking, which we needed to do... and now all is right again.

**Signed up to volunteer at Tackapausha Preserve, which would be an awesome learning experience and great for my resume. Now I need to actually GO.

***Interviewed for Bide-a-Wee, a no kill animal shelter on Monday. Knew I got the job immediately after the 2 hour interview. Then they didn't call for 2 days and I got nervous. But I got the job and I start this Sunday. It's for pennies, but the job comes w/ good benefits and I'm excited to be doing something I care about.

****Jim's parents were away this Sunday-Wed... this meant we got to spend a lot of down-time together, which we don't do nearly enough of. We watched movies, I got to play w/ Tootsie, one of his parents' cats that is particularly fond of me, finally got to see Jim's "stuff" at the storage center, including baby pics and his photography :), and FINALLY got to meet Dante, one of Jim's bestest friends. Dante is an interesting guy... I call him a "mover and a shaker"... He designs and maintains internet websites for a number of clients across the US, and also impersonates spiderman for children's parties, plus does balloon-art and magic on the side. He made me a balloon man. Pretty incredible. He thanked me for sleeping with his friend. That was the first thing he said to me actually. Caught me off guard. Then he squeezed lemon all over my hand when we split fried calamari.... it's funny how he was immediately quite comfortable w/ me.
Mom was impressed w/ the balloon man too and told my aunt so.... when i told Jim all this he said "uh oh... Dante has one-upped me" heh. I told Jim he had nothing to worry about, b/c although Dante can make balloon-art, he could make me happy and that's all that mattered. :)

***** Tonite I watched Survivor and hit the diner w/

lastscion,

alliemoon, and Jim. It was nice to see Allison again.. I think it had been too long since my last dose of estrogen-bonding. It was also nice to see John laughing and joking.... somehow I feel like Allison has been better at bringing out that side of John than I have lately. Jim was spacy in the diner.. i think he has a lot on his mind.... but after we got dropped off, he accompanied me to my car and we sat and talked and "talked" a bit. He's back to being quite sweet again, or more importantly... I can see "it" in his eyes again, which makes me giddy :) I so love that man.

This weekend: tomorrow a walk hopefully. saturday a baby-shower (i'm part of the surprise-plan! how cool is that?!) sunday i start work.... and for once i'm quite excited about this.

Well that wasn't so bad an update now, was it?

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Subject:	Halloween from Hell (part 1)
Time:	9:41 am.

dad's undoubtedly going to kick me off the comp in a few... so i dont know how much i can actually spit out now, but i'll at least get started.

Halloween was the day from hell for the first 3/4s... after staying up till 4-5am the morning of, cutting patterns for my alice costume and pinning them together, i went to my grandmother's house to try to sew them together.... when i got there, grandma was just getting out of the bathroom where she had attempted to wash her hair by herself, and was looking a little worse for wear. That made me feel a lil guilty for coming over... then my aunt ann marie tried to set me up on the sewing machine upstairs, but as soon as she left, the bobbit fell out and the thread got tangled and i couldn't straighten it out... after an hour or so of trying to figure everything out, i decided i was running out of time, and left in a hurry to get my paychecks, cash them, and go shopping again.
On top of all that, Pete had given a stranded friend my number to find out if he could hitch a ride, and rather than say "no", i tried to arrange a pickup from connecticut as well...
Needless to say, I was very stressed.
SOOOO, shopping sucked muchly, as did the driving everywhere in order TO shop, and I was running out of time..... Also, mind you, I had the WORST cramps and a headache for good measure as well.... so, frustrated, I returned to this one place to rent their god awful costume that didnt really fit me well for entirely too much.
FUN.

So, stressed and running late on 2 hours sleep, a completely empty stomach, w/ cramps and a bad attitude, i got ready for this trip, and left with Jim around 6. We picked up Keely and

lastscion.... Our venture to massachessetts was underway by 7:10.

More later.

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Subject:	At least you can always count on family!
Time:	10:14 am.

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
euphoricone goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Alice in Wonderland.
alliemoon tricks you! You get an empty wrapper.
arnurna gives you 2 mauve coffee-flavoured gummy bats.
bellevioletrose tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
diamondndaisy tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
dragonpookie gives you 8 red-orange passionfruit-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
giventofly888 gives you 7 red-orange peach-flavoured gummy bats.
inevitability tricks you! You get a pen cap.
labile gives you 6 red-orange blueberry-flavoured gummy bears.
lunaticongrass gives you 6 blue tropical-flavoured hard candies.
speedball tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
euphoricone ends up with 26 pieces of candy, an empty wrapper, and a pen cap.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

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Subject:	Feeling Halloweeny
Time:	10:38 am.

This Thursday is my last day at The Northwest Company. Everyone here says they'll miss me a lot, especially Surong. That makes me feel loved and appreciated. Still, everyone i know, friends and family at the top of the list, think I'm a bit nuts to throw away a job that has kept me on despite my tardiness on an every day basis. But I know that the florescent lights and staring at a computer from a very uncomfortable chair all day would break me if I were to stay much longer. I need to move around, engage my brain, and do something I can believe in...

So I gave myself Friday off to prepare for what will be (hopefully) the BEST HALLOWEEN PARTY EVER! I'm going as Alice in Wonderland, and Jim (if he ever gets a hat) will be the mad hatter... if he doesn't, I'm gonna put cat ears on him and paint his face and make him the Cheshire Cat. That'll show him.
The party is in Massachusetts at my friend Pete's apartment. Pete really enjoys Halloween, so I have high expectations for this shindig.

lastscion will be The Hurricane (prof wrestler), Keely is going as a fairy i think, and we are still trying to recruit scott and

alliemoon (PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEASE COME!??)

Then on Saturday night, we've all been invited to Keely's place in Brooklyn for ANOTHER party. (I can't catch a weekend break, can I?) I'm hoping I'm not completely dead by then. I'll probably wear my goth dress and paint my face all scary-like. Anywho, I'm excited.

Now back to work (sorta)

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Time:

10:23 am.

[LAYER ONE]
-- name: Jennifer
-- birthplace: Long Island
-- current Location: "--"
-- eye color: Blue
-- hair color: Brown, black tips
-- height: 5'5"
-- righty or lefty: righty
-- zodiac sign: leo

[LAYER TWO]
-- your heritage: irish, english, german mostly
-- the shoes you wore today: black penny loafers
-- your weakness: a comfortable bed
-- your fears: not fully living
-- your perfect pizza: fresh tomatos and mozzarella?
-- goal you'd like to achieve: get my animal behavior degree

[LAYER THREE]
-- your most overused phrase: "whatsup"
-- your thoughts first waking up: shit, im late again
-- your bedtime: whenever i pass out
-- your most missed memory: being around all my closest friends at school

[LAYER FOUR]
-- pepsi or coke: coke
-- mcdonald's or burger king: burger king
-- single or group dates: single
-- adidas or nike: adidas
-- lipton ice tea or nestea: lipton
-- chocolate or vanilla: depends
-- cappuccino or coffee: neither... tazoberry w/ cream

[LAYER FIVE]
-- smoke: no
-- cuss: too much
-- sing: constantly
-- take a shower everyday: no, generally every other
-- have a crush: 2 words: "jon stewart"
-- do you think you've been in love: i am now :)
-- want to get married: eh, why not.
-- believe in yourself: 1/2 of the time
-- get motion sickness: only in cars when i read and when watching simulated motion sometimes
-- think you're attractive: can be
-- think you're a health freak: not at all
-- get along with your parent(s): lately, i have
-- like thunderstorms: yes
-- play an instrument: i wish

[LAYER SIX]
in the past month...
-- drank alcohol: yes
-- smoked: no
-- done a drug: if caffeine counts
-- gone on a date: yes
-- gone to the mall?: yes
-- eaten an entire box of oreos: no
-- eaten sushi: yes
-- been on stage: no
-- been dumped: no, thankfully
-- gone skating: nope
-- made homemade cookies: no, but not for lack of trying
-- gone skinnydipping: uh-uh
-- dyed your hair: think that was little over a month ago
-- stolen anything: yup

[LAYER SEVEN]
-- ever played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
-- ever been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes
-- ever been caught "doing something": yup
-- ever been called a tease: uh huh
-- ever gotten beaten up: ...
-- ever shoplifted: nothing major
-- ever changed who you were to fit in: sure, long time ago
[LAYER EIGHT]
-- age you hope to be married: not too important to me
-- numbers and names of children: 2-4? uhm... Sabine, Athena, Zachary, :::shrug:::
-- describe your dream wedding: outside, lots of plants, maybe by a lake or ocean, sunset, casual.
-- how do you want to die: in my sleep? i dunno
-- what do you want to be when you grow up: wildlife conservationist
-- what country would you most like to visit: australia/tanzania/botswana/india

[LAYER NINE]
in a guy/girl..
-- best eye color? blue
-- best hair color? brown or dark
-- short or long hair? usually short, but not too short.
-- height: 5'9"
-- best weight: whatever looks toned
-- best articles of clothing: comfy sweaters, boxers
-- best first date location: dinner and a playground at night ;)
-- best first kiss location: wherever you are when you're with the right person