November
6, 2003
They Put a Bag Over
My Head & Flew Me To Syria for Torture and Interrogation
This
is What They Did to Me
By MAHER ARAR
I am here today to tell the people of
Canada what has happened to me.
There have been many allegations made
about me in the media, all of them by people who refuse to be
named or come forward. So before I tell you who I am and what
happened to me, I will tell you who I am not.
I am not a terrorist. I am not a member
of al-Qaida and I do not know any one who belongs to this group.
All I know about al-Qaida is what I have seen in the media.
I have never been to Afghanistan. I have
never been anywhere near Afghanistan and I do not have any desire
to ever go to Afghanistan. Now, let me tell you who I am.
I am a Syrian-born Canadian. I moved
here with my parents when I was 17 years old. I went to university
and studied hard, and eventually obtained a Masters degree in
telecommunications.
I met my wife, Monia at McGill University.
We fell in love and eventually married in 1994. I knew then that
she was special, but I had no idea how special she would turn
out to be.
If it were not for her, I believe I would
still be in prison.
We had our first child, a daughter named
Bar'a, in February 1997. She is six years old now. In December
1997, we moved to Ottawa from Montreal.
I took a job with a high-tech firm, called
The MathWorks, in Boston in 1999, and my job involved a lot of
travel within the U.S.
Then in 2001 I decided to come back to
Ottawa to start my own consulting company. We had our second
child, Houd, in February 2002. He is 20 months old now.
So this is who I am. I am a father and
a husband. I am a telecommunications engineer and entrepreneur.
I have never had trouble with the police and have always been
a good citizen.
So I still cannot believe what has happened
to me, and how my life and career have been destroyed.
In September 2002, I was with my wife
and children, and her family, vacationing in Tunis.
I got an e-mail from the MathWorks saying
that they might need me soon to assess a potential consulting
work for one of their customers.
I said goodbye to my wife and family,
and headed back home to prepare for work.
I was using my air-miles to travel, and
the best flight I could get went from Tunis, to Zurich, to New
York, to Montreal.
My flight arrived in New York at 2 p.m.
on Sept. 26, 2002. I had a few hours to wait until my connecting
flight to Montreal.
This is when my nightmare began. I was
pulled aside at immigration and taken to another area.
Two hours later some officials came and
told me this was regular procedure -- they took my fingerprints
and photographs.
Then some police came and searched my
bags and copied my Canadian passport. I was getting worried,
and I asked what was going on, and they would not answer.
I asked to make a phone call, and they
would not let me.
Then a team of people came and told me
they wanted to ask me some questions. One man was from the FBI,
and another was from the New York Police Department.
I was scared and did not know what was
going on.
I told them I wanted a lawyer. They told
me I had no right to a lawyer, because I was not an American
citizen.
They asked me where I worked and how
much money I made. They swore at me, and insulted me. It was
very humiliating.
They wanted me to answer every question
quickly.
They were consulting a report while they
were questioning me, and the information they had was so private
-- I thought this must be from Canada. I told them everything
I knew.
They asked me about my travel in the
United States. I told them about my work permits, and my business
there.
They asked about information on my computer
and whether I was willing to share it. I welcomed the idea, but
I don't know if they did. They asked me about different people,
some I know, and most I do not.
They asked me about Abdullah Almalki,
and I told them I worked with his brother at high-tech firms
in Ottawa, and that the Almalki family had come from Syria about
the same time as mine. I told them I did not know Abdullah well,
but had seen him a few times and I described the times I could
remember.
I told them I had a casual relationship
with him.
They were so rude with me, yelling at
me that I had a selective memory. Then they pulled out a copy
of my rental lease from 1997. I could not believe they had this.
I was completely shocked. They pointed
out that Abdullah had signed the lease as a witness. I had completely
forgotten that he had signed it for me -- when we moved to Ottawa
in 1997, we needed someone to witness our lease, and I phoned
Abdullah's brother, and he could not come, so he sent Abdullah.
But they thought I was hiding this. I
told them the truth. I had nothing to hide. I had never had problems
in the United States before, and I could not believe what was
happening to me.
This interrogation continued until midnight.
I was very, very worried, and asked for a lawyer again and again.
They just ignored me. Then they put me
in chains, on my wrists and ankles, and took me in a van to a
place where many people were being held -- another building by
the airport. They would not tell me what was happening.
At one in the morning they put me in
a room with metal benches in it. I could not sleep. I was very,
very scared and disoriented. The next morning they started questioning
me again.
They asked me about what I think about
bin Laden, Palestine, Iraq. They also asked me about the mosques
I pray in, my bank accounts, my e-mail addresses, my relatives,
about everything.
This continued on and off for eight hours.
Then a man from the INS came in and told
me they wanted me to volunteer to go to Syria. I said no way.
I said I wanted to go home to Canada
or sent back to Switzerland. He said to me 'you are a special
interest.' They asked me to sign a form. They would not let me
read it, but I just signed it. I was exhausted and confused and
disoriented.
I had not slept or eaten since I was
in the plane. At about six in the evening they brought me some
cold McDonalds meal to eat.
This was the first food I had eaten since
the last meal I had on the plane. At about eight o'clock they
put all the shackles and chains back on, and put me in a van,
and drove me to a prison.
I later learned this was the Metropolitan
Detention Centre. They would not tell me what was happening,
or where I was going.
They strip searched me. It was humiliating.
They put me in an orange suit, and took me to a doctor, where
they made me sign forms, and gave me a vaccination.
I asked what it was, and they would not
tell me. My arm was red for almost two weeks from that.
They took me to a cell. I had never seen
a prison before in my life, and I was terrified. I asked again
for a phone call and a lawyer. They just ignored me.
They treated me differently than the
other prisoners. They would not give me a toothbrush or toothpaste,
or reading material. I did get a copy of the Koran about two
days later.
After five days, they let me make a phone
call. I called Monia's mother, who was here in Ottawa, and told
her I was scared they might send me to Syria, and asked her to
help find me a lawyer. They would only let me talk for two minutes.
On the seventh or eighth day they brought
me a document, saying they had decided to deport me, and I had
a choice of where to be deported. I wrote that I wanted to go
to Canada. It asked if I had concerns about going to Canada.
I wrote no, and signed it.
The Canadian consul came on Oct. 4, and
I told her I was scared of being deported to Syria. She told
me that would not happen. She told me that a lawyer was being
arranged. I was very upset, and scared. I could barely talk.
The next day, a lawyer came. She told
me not to sign any document unless she was present. We could
only talk for 30 minutes. She said she would try to help me.
That was a Saturday.
On Sunday night at about 9 p.m., the
guards came to my cell and told me my lawyer was there to see
me. I thought it was a strange time, and they took me into a
room with seven or eight people in it.
I asked where my lawyer was. They told
me he had refused to come and started questioning me again.
They said they wanted to know why I did
not want to go back to Syria. I told them I would be tortured
there. I told them I had not done my military service; I am a
Sunni Muslim; my mother's cousin had been accused of being a
member of the Muslim Brotherhood and was put in prison for nine
years.
They asked me to sign a document and
I refused. I told them they could not send me to Syria - I would
be tortured.
I asked again for a lawyer. At three
in the morning they took me back to my cell. At three in the
morning on Tuesday, Oct. 8, a prison guard woke me up and told
me I was leaving.
They took me to another room and stripped
and searched me again. Then they again chained and shackled me.
Then two officials took me inside a room
and read me what they said was a decision by the INS director.
They told me that based on classified information that they could
not reveal to me, I would be deported to Syria.
I said again that I would be tortured
there. Then they read part of the document where it explained
that INS was not the body that deals with Geneva Convention regarding
torture.
Then they took me outside into a car
and drove me to an airport in New Jersey. Then they put me on
a small private jet. I was the only person on the plane with
them. I was still chained and shackled. We flew first to Washington.
A new team of people got on the plane
and the others left. I overheard them talking on the phone, saying
that Syria was refusing to take me directly, but Jordan would
take me.
Then we flew to Portland, to Rome, and
then to Amman, Jordan. All the time I was on the plane I was
thinking how to avoid being tortured. I was very scared.
We landed in Amman at three in the morning
local time on Oct. 9. They took me out of plane and there were
six or seven Jordanian men waiting for us.
They blindfolded and chained me, and
put me in a van. They made me bend my head down in the back seat.
Then, these men started beating me. Every time I tried to talk
they beat me.
For the first few minutes it was very
intense.
Thirty minutes later, we arrived at a
building where they took off my blindfold and asked routine questions,
before taking me to a cell. It was around 4:30 in the morning
on Oct. 9.
Later that day, they took my fingerprints,
and blindfolded me and put me in a van. I asked where I was going,
and they told me I was going back to Montreal.
About 45 minutes later, I was put into
a different car. These men started beating me again. They made
me keep my head down, and it was very uncomfortable, but every
time I moved, they beat me again. Over an hour later, we arrived
at what I think was the border with Syria.
I was put in another car and we drove
for another three hours.
I was taken into a building, where some
guards went through my bags and took some chocolates I bought
in Zurich. I asked one of the people where I was and he told
me I was in the Palestine branch of the Syrian military intelligence.
It was now about six in the evening on Oct. 9.
Three men came and took me into a room.
I was very, very scared. They put me on a chair, and one of the
men started asking me questions. I later learned this man was
a colonel.
He asked me about my brothers, and why
we had left Syria. I answered all the questions. If I did not
answer quickly enough, he would point to a metal chair in the
corner and ask 'Do you want me to use this?' I did not know then
what that chair was for. I learned later it was used to torture
people.
I asked him what he wanted to hear. I
was terrified, and I did not want to be tortured. I would say
anything to avoid torture. This lasted for four hours. There
was no violence, only threats this day.
At about one in the morning, the guards
came to take me to my cell downstairs.
We went into the basement, and they opened
a door, and I looked in. I could not believe what I saw. I asked
how long I would be kept in this place. He did not answer, but
put me in and closed the door. It was like a grave. It had no
light.
It was three feet wide. It was six feet
deep. It was seven feet high. It had a metal door, with a small
opening in the door, which did not let in light because there
was a piece of metal on the outside for sliding things into the
cell.
There was a small opening in the ceiling,
about one foot by two feet with iron bars. Over that was another
ceiling, so only a little light came through this.
There were cats and rats up there, and
from time to time the cats peed through the opening into the
cell. There were two blankets, two dishes and two bottles. One
bottle was for water and the other one was used for urinating
during the night. Nothing else. No light.
I spent 10 months, and 10 days inside
that grave.
The next day I was taken upstairs again.
The beating started that day and was very intense for a week,
and then less intense for another week. That second and the third
days were the worst.
I could hear other prisoners being tortured,
and screaming and screaming. Interrogations are carried out in
different rooms.
One tactic they use is to question prisoners
for two hours, and then put them in a waiting room, so they can
hear the others screaming, and then bring them back to continue
the interrogation.
The cable is a black electrical cable,
about two inches thick. They hit me with it everywhere on my
body.
They mostly aimed for my palms, but sometimes
missed and hit my wrists -- they were sore and red for three
weeks. They also struck me on my hips, and lower back. Interrogators
constantly threatened me with the metal chair, tire and electric
shocks.
The tire is used to restrain prisoners
while they torture them with beating on the sole of their feet.
I guess I was lucky, because they put me in the tire, but only
as a threat.
I was not beaten while in tire. They
used the cable on the second and third day, and after that mostly
beat me with their hands, hitting me in the stomach and on the
back of my neck, and slapping me on the face.
Where they hit me with the cables, my
skin turned blue for two or three weeks, but there was no bleeding.
At the end of the day, they told me tomorrow would be worse.
So I could not sleep.
Then on the third day, the interrogation
lasted about 18 hours. They beat me from time to time and make
me wait in the waiting room for one to two hours before resuming
the interrogation.
While in the waiting room I heard a lot
of people screaming. They wanted me to say I went to Afghanistan.
This was a surprise to me.
They had not asked about this in the
United States. They kept beating me so I had to falsely confess
and told them I did go to Afghanistan. I was ready to confess
to anything if it would stop the torture. They wanted me to say
I went to a training camp.
I was so scared I urinated on myself
twice. The beating was less severe each of the following days.
At the end of each day, they would always
say, 'Tomorrow will be harder for you. ' So each night, I could
not sleep. I did not sleep for the first four days, and slept
no more than two hours a day for about two months. Most of time,
I was not taken back to my cell, but to the waiting room where
I could hear all the prisoners being tortured and screaming.
One time, I heard them banging a man's
head repeatedly on a desk really hard. Around Oct. 17, the beatings
subsided. Their next tactic was to take me in a room, blindfolded,
and people would talk about me.
I could hear them saying, 'He knows lots
of people who are terrorists;' 'We will get their numbers;' 'He
is a liar;' 'He has been out of the country for long.' Then they
would say, 'Let's be frank, let's be friends, tell us the truth,'
and come around the desk, and slap me on the face. They played
lots of mind games.
The interrogation and beating ended three
days before I had my first consular visit, on Oct. 23.
I was taken from my cell and my beard
was shaved. I was taken to another building, and there was the
colonel in the hallway with some other men and they all seemed
very nervous and agitated.
I did not know what was happening and
they would not tell me. They never say what is happening. You
never know what will happen next.
I was told not to tell anything about
the beating, then I was taken into a room for a 10-minute meeting
with the consul. The colonel was there, and three other Syrian
officials including an interpreter.
I cried a lot at that meeting. I could
not say anything about the torture. I thought if I did, I would
not get any more visits, or I might be beaten again.
After that visit, about a month after
I arrived, they called me up to sign and place my thumb print
on a document about seven pages long.
They would not let me read it, but I
had to put my thumb print and signature on the bottom of each
page. It was handwritten.
Another document was about three pages
long, with questions: Who are your friends? How long have you
been out of the country?
Last question was empty lines. They answered
the questions with their own handwriting except for the last
one where I was forced to write that I had been to Afghanistan.
The consular visits were my lifeline,
but I also found them very frustrating.
There were seven consular visits, and
one visit from members of Parliament. After the visits, I would
bang my head and my fist on the wall in frustration. I needed
the visits, but I could not say anything there.
I got new clothes after the Dec. 10 consular
visit. Until then, I had been wearing the same clothes since
being on the jet from the United States.
On three different occasions in December,
I had a very hard time. Memories crowded my mind and I thought
I was going to lose control, and I just screamed and screamed.
I could not breathe well after, and felt very dizzy.
I was not exposed to sunlight for six
months. The only times I left the grave was for interrogation,
and for the visits.
Daily life in that place was hell. When
I was detained in New York I weighed about 180 pounds. I think
I lost about 40 pounds while I was at the Palestine Branch.
On Aug. 19, I was taken upstairs to see
the investigator and I was given a paper and asked to write what
he dictated.
If I protested, he kicked me. I was forced
to write that I went to a training camp in Afghanistan. They
made me sign and put my thumbprint on the last page.
The same day I was transferred to a different
place, which I learnt later was the Investigation Branch.
I was placed there in a 12 feet by 20
feet collective cell. We were about 50 people in that place.
The next day, I was taken to the Sednaya prison. I was very lucky
that I was not tortured when I arrived there. All the other prisoners
were tortured when they arrived.
Sednaya prison was like heaven for me.
I could move around, and talk with other prisoners. I could buy
food to eat and I gained a lot of weight there. I was only beaten
once there.
On around Sept. 19 or 20, I heard the
other prisoners saying that another Canadian had arrived there.
I looked up, and saw a man, but I did
not recognize him. His head was shaved, and he was very, very
thin and pale. He was very weak. When I looked closer, I recognized
him.
It was Abdullah Almalki. He told me he
had also been at the Palestine Branch, and that he had also been
in a grave like I had been -- except he had been in it longer.
He told me he had been severely tortured
-- with the tire, and the cable. He was also hanged upside down.
He was tortured much worse than me. He had also been tortured
when he was brought to Sednaya, so that was only two weeks before.
I do not know why they have Abdullah
there. What I can say for sure is that no human deserves to be
treated the way he was, and I hope that Canada does all they
can to help him.
On Sept. 28, I was taken out and blindfolded
and put in what felt like a bus and taken back to the Palestine
Branch.
They would not tell me what was happening,
and I was scared I was going back to the grave. Instead, I was
put in one of the waiting rooms where they torture people. I
could hear the prisoners being tortured, and screaming, again.
The same day I was called in to an office
to answer more questions, about what I would say if I came back
to Canada. They did not tell me I would be released.
I was put back in the waiting room, and
I was kept there for one week, listening to all the prisoners
screaming.
It was awful. On Sunday, Oct. 5, I was
taken out and into a car and driven to a court. I was put in
a room with a prosecutor. I asked for a lawyer and he said I
did not need one.
I asked what was going on and he read
from my confession. I tried to argue I was beaten and did not
go to Afghanistan, but he did not listen.
He did not tell me what I was charged
with, but told me to stamp my fingerprint and sign on a document
he would not let me see. Then he said I would be released.
Then I was taken back to the Palestine
Branch where I met the head of the Syrian Military Intelligence
and officials from the Canadian Embassy. And then I was released.
I want to conclude by thanking all of
the people who worked for my release, especially my wife Monia,
and human rights groups, and all the people who wrote letters,
and all the members of parliament who stood up for justice.
Of course, I thank all of the journalists
for covering my story.
The past year has been a nightmare, and
I have spent the past few weeks at home trying to learn how to
live with what happened to me.
I know that the only way I will ever
be able to move on in my life and have a future is if I can find
out why this happened to me.
I want to know why this happened to me.
I believe the only way I can ever know why this happened is to
have all the truth come out in a public inquiry.
My priority right now is to clear my
name, get to the bottom of the case and make sure this does not
happen to any other Canadian citizens in the future.
I believe the best way to go about achieving
this goal is to put pressure on the government to call for a
public inquiry.
What is at stake here is the future of
our country, the interests of Canadian citizens, and most importantly
Canada's international reputation for being a leader in human
rights where citizens from different ethnic groups are treated
no different than other Canadians.
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