[	mood	|	amused	]
[	music	|	It's Tricky // RUN DMC	]

i am a odd odd child....and this proves it

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1989937/1/ 

*shrugs and goes to torture Adam some more*

X-posted to rubixcube_killr

[	mood	|	amused	]
[	music	|	It's Tricky // RUN DMC	]

i am a odd odd child....and this proves it

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1989937/1/ 

*shrugs and goes to torture Adam some more*

X-posted to Mighty Ducks

[	mood	|	and lonely	]
[	music	|	Only One // Yellowcard	]

I'm okay I swear just a bit lonely
( random bitching about things that people might not want to see )

[	mood	|	artistic	]
[	music	|	I'm Lost With Out You // Blink 182	]

Trying to write again...new story...Chels is beta'ing...let's hope i can do this with out dying of guilt...

*is curled up sobbing* EMMY! *sniffles* thought you guys might want to know that i'm not going to write any thing for FF.net with out her. I can't do it. There is too much of her there. and if the means that i am now announcing my reterment so be it.  so all fics are on a permanet brake.   Don't expect much from me.  Just don't okay? 

[	mood	|	amused	]
[	music	|	A Horse With No Name by America	]

1) go to google.com and type in "You know you're from (your state here) if..."
2) pick out whatever you wish and bold the ones that apply to you.
3) post it in an entry.
4) have your friends do it themselves!
5) snagged from kel_guamgirl

wow I'm a loser....

1. You've never met any celebrities. yes it's true...i have met no one remotely famous...

2.Everyone you know has been on a "Float trip." HEY! THOSE ARE FUN!

3. "Vacation" means driving to Silver Dollar City, Worlds of Fun or Six Flags. maybe...

4. You've seen all the biggest bands ten years AFTER they were popular.

5. You measure distance in minutes rather than miles. it's so  much easier that way....you mean other people don't?

6. Down south to you means Arkansas.

7. The phrase "I'm going to the Lake this weekend" only means one thing. It means you are going to the Ozarks...pft...stupid non-Missouri people

8. You know several people who have hit a deer. I've had my permit for like 6 months and have close to hitting a dear

9. You think Missouri is spelled with an "ah" at the end. I don't but my grandparents do...

10. Your school classes were canceled because of cold.  yeah....so....

11. You know what "party cove" is. again with the Ozarks bashing...

12. Your school classes were canceled because of heat.

13. You instinctively ask someone you've just met, "What High School did you go to?" hey! It's a releveant question! you might know some one from there!

14. You've ever had to switch from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day. this morning actually

15. You think ethanol makes your truck "run a lot better."

16. You know what's knee-high by the Fourth of July.

17. You see people wear bib overalls at funerals. 

18. You see a car running in the parking lot at the store with no one in it no matter what time of the year.

19. You know in your heart that Mizzou can beat Nebraska in football. HELL YEAH!

20. You end your sentences with an unnecessary preposition. Example: "Where's my coat at?"

21. All the festivals across the state are named after a fruit, vegetable, or grain. I'm beginning not to like this person...

22. You install security lights on your house and garage and leave both unlocked.

23. You think of the major four food groups as beef, pork, beer, and jell-o salad with marshmallows.

24. You carry jumper cables in your car and know that everyone else should. I got a pair for my 15th birthday...

25. You went to skating parties as a kid. you mean you didn't?

26. You only own 3 spices: salt, pepper, and ketchup.

27. You design your kid's Halloween costume to fit over a snowsuit. hhahahaha yeah...

28. You think sexy lingerie is tube socks and a flannel nightie. 

29. The local paper covers national and international headlines on one page but requires 6 pages for sports.

30. You think I-44 is spelled "farty-far." FOCL!!! it's true!

31. You'll pay for your kids to go to college unless they want to go to KU.

32. You think that deer season is a national holiday. it isn't?

33. You know that Concordia is halfway between Kansas City and Columbia, and Columbia is halfway between St. Louis and Kansas City. And, the Warrenton outlet mall is halfway between Columbia and St. Louis.

34. You can't think of anything better than sitting on the porch in the middle of the summer during a thunderstorm. It's very relaxing...

35. You know which leaves make good toilet paper. not the one's with 3 leaves...

36 You know if you've ever said, "It's not the heat, it's the humidity."

37. You know all 4 seasons: Almost Summer, Summer, Still Summer, and Construction. hahaha yeah! but don't forget "hella cold"

38. You know if another Missourian is from the Bootheel, Ozarks, eastern, middle or western Missouri soon as they open their mouth. they talk funny

39. You know that Harry S. Truman, Walt Disney and Mark Twain are all from Missouri, and that Harry Truman's birthday is aState holiday.

40. You failed world geography in school because you thought Cuba, Versailles, California, Nevada, Houston, Cabool, Louisiana,Springfield, and Mexico were cities in Missouri.

41. You think a traffic jam is ten cars waiting to pass a tractor. or by the poorly designed MODOT roads...

I think I may disappear for a while.  A break.  I'm really stressed right now and I just feel like I need to get out.  Maybe it's Mary hassling me. Maybe it's the lack of Chelsea. Maybe it's my lack of creativity. Maybe it's the lack of anti-depressants.

I don't know what it is. But maybe it will come back if i take a break. I need to fall in love with the fandom again.  But there is very little to love. And certain people are making it a lot less fun. 

I love all of you. but i can't take it anymore. Things on the RP are getting too personal.  I was down when something happened to Aimee. That's how connected I am. And I don't think it's healthy to be that obsessed with it.

I'm also going through some problems with friends and problems with my family. I need to be there for them.

So I'm going on a break. I'll be back soon.  This is the hardest thing to say...don't IM me. My IM is alway open and on. But it is a large distraction for me. So for the few of you that I know, love and IM with don't IM me. If i need you I will IM you. 

I hate doing this. But I should. I need to. If you urgently need me, email me. I'll get it.

I love you all to peices but I need time. I love you all. don't forget that

~Allie

with a title like that you would think that i would be talking about people my own age. But i'm not. I'm talking aobut the poeople that gave me life. My parents.

They were talking about me. Again. things that they don't mean for me to hear but i do. And it hurts. That i'm wasting my life away.

It hurts. exspecailly when my mom says general comments that i know she is meaning them towards me.

It makes me wonder why i even stay in this house where i'm talked to like this. Why i even continue with staying here. then i realize that i am only 15 and probably need a midol.

but me needing a midol doesn't excuse what they said. nothing ever will. And now i'm suddenly glad that i haven't told them about me writing.

My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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yep i'm only 10 years old! (no i'm 15)



Nerdslut


What's your sexual appeal?
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........


paranoid


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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i'm not paranoid everone just so happens to be out to get me!



You are SALUTE YOUR SHORTS. You are a wangsta who
knows business. You have fun in the sun and
know how to have a good laugh.


Which old school Nickelodeon show are you?
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tis a shame that they don't show that show anymore...



You should be dating a Leo.
23 July - 22 August
This mate is honest and loyal, with a sunny
disposition. Though this lion has the tendency
to be arrogant, sulky or smug, he/she is
unrestrained in bed.


What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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Non curo. Si metrum non habet, non est poema.
"I don't care. If it doesn't rhyme, it isn't
a poem."
You are a type A personality. You like bright
things, you don't call in sick to work, and you
have devastating opinions about art.


Which Weird Latin Phrase Are You?
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Rrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiigggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhtttttttttttttt



French Guard
I'm French! Why do think I have this outrageous
accent, you silly king-a?!


What Monty Python Character are you?
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wow that was a fun romp through quiz land and now it's time for work. So i bid you all adu! *scampers off*

[	mood	|	amused	]
[	music	|	Green Day the Nimrod (what can i say this was a long post)	]

Yes it's true...I'm back, and from what i have heard i was missed. *feels loved* but i am back to save the world. Okay I kept a notebook while i was in Ohio to keep track of all the things that i wanted to talk about when i got back. so here it is:

Sunday 7 (ish) AM

Well I'm going to write down what's going on so when i get back i can can post it all in my LJ We left my house around 1am. We drove to my Aunt Vick's house and picked up her and my uncle.

Then I'm guessing I fell asleep (no easy task in a van with 6 people in it) because when i woke up we were in Plainfeild Indiana. We stopped to get something to eat and we were on our way to the race.

And now we are here well kind of we are parked, and i'm still in my pink fleece PJs and don't feel like changing.

No calls from Emmy as of yet...which i'm guessing is a good thing. I'm guesing that all is well. Well I'm going to try to write chapter 6 so i don't have to worry about it.

Sunday 5:47

 The race is over. DAmn Bobby Rice won...

Tony Kahann should have won.

Points for disscussion:

Rednecks - one of the highlights of going to races are watching the rednecks. drinking their beer, smoking, and yelling at the cars. It's all humorous, and now i'm telling all of you. If you don't go to the Indy 500 for the race...you go for the Redneck watching.

smoking- for seroius people, almost everyone at the race was smoking. and I almost died. I have really bad allergys. And i was about to cough up a lung just by being around it. It was bad.  thanks to those smart-asses i'm going to die because of second hand smoke. *hack*

sunburn- it hurts. A LOT! my forehead is really red...well it's pealing now...ick

icky burger - yeah, food is nasty at the Race. but i ste this burger and i think it's what made me sick..i ate about 1/2 of it before going to get a priezel..that was yummy.

Allisonville Indiana - okay i was talking to Mary before i left and i said "Mary-land" and she said that there wasn't a Allie-land but there is! see? Allisonville! i win! *dances around happily*

"don't worry about the bogeyman; i fumigated under the bed" ~YAYA! -- i just thought that this was a funny quote. It's from the Divine Secrets of the YaYa Sisterhood    if you haven't read it you should...i really liked it.

Monday 2:00

just got off the phone with Emmy... - there is no news as of yet...but we did talk for a while...using up my minutes...meh...i'm not paying for it

Roller coasters -- well i went to cedar  point the Roller Coaster capital of America and rode some of the fastest roller coasters in the world. And had a great time doing it!

Wendsday:

 dehydrated-- when it's hot outside it's good to drink LOTS of water so you don't get dehydrated...you see i thought i was a cactus and didn't need water...and got dehydrated...but this made me able to finish Chapter 6

so that is all that really happend while i was gone.if you have questions or comments or any fun stuff like that just comment and i'll reply to it. why? because i'm cool like that.

QUACK QUACK QUACK
*Allie*

PS: i want to thank Emmy  for keeping my cell phone # a secret. I owe you big time!
emily_bloom

[	mood	|	pissed off	]
[	music	|	"Loser" by 3 doors down	]

GAH! sometimes i can't even stand her! My mother I mean. I was standing at the table trying to open something.  The pair of scissors stab the table leaving a slight mark (it's an old table, it has lots of marks) and she just looks at me and says "I wonder why I even try to keep anything nice any more"  then she looks at me with a disappointed look on her face.

And you know what? Those looks HURT!  I hate when she is does this kind of shit. I HATE it!  makes me feel like I'm not worth a shit. 

And now I'm starting to beleive her.  Maybe she is right. I'm just a half-rate writer, that has no life out side of her computer.

Man I'm such a loser.  I hate this.  I can't get away from here.  Away from HER!  I'm so done with this shit. With her shit.  I'm tierd of her mood-swings and over-all bitchyness.

Why can't she see that i want to be alone?

[	mood	|	pensive	]
[	music	|	Micheal W. Smith "Freedom"	]

i was looking over some older stories in the MD fandom looking for some insperation and i found a story that i think everyone should read...

it's called "Pride"

http://www.fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=1407190

I know what ever summary i might write for it won't do it justice. But you should know that I cried when I read it because the writer makes a valaid point.

This story made me think. Which is something really not expected in our fandom. But it makes me proud of my heritage. I'm 3/4 irish. And I'm known to get defensive if some one makes a comment about me being a Leprechaun. And believe me that one of the nicer comments I have heard.

So read it. It's 4 short chapters that will change your perspective on who you are.

here is a short clip:

I’m getting arrogant, because if no one notices when I’m just proud, why shouldn’t I? People are always wondering why kids ever get caught up in gang life. Well, here’s the reason. They want to be recognized. They don’t want to be assimilated and watered down. They—we—want to be proud of who we are, to not lose our culture to the mainstream. Proud? Hell yeah. Arrogant? If that’s what it takes. If we have to say, "You’re white, you’ll never be like us," then that’s what we’ll do. If we have to say, "We’re Asian, we’re better," then we’ll do it.

This is how it starts. I’ve seen it enough times to know. First you try to ignore it, figure people will grow out of their ignorance. Then the anger starts building inside, and you can’t fight it, because you don’t want to. You want someone to hurt because it hurts so much inside. Then you try to express your pride, because you want it to be known. You want people to know who you are. When it doesn’t work, you turn to arrogance, and then you’re done.




Semper Eadem
*Allie*

hee hee i'm in a rather random mood today... i have been sitting still for too long...just a quick post then i'm going to play in the rain!