My Delirium

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Famous People I'd Like To Bone

Guys

Dave Nevarro
Sonny - P.O.D
Edward Norton - when he was in American History X
Brendon Frazer - when he was in George of the Jungel
Mark McGrath - Sugar Ray
Chino - Deftones
Mike Patton
Karl Kippenberger - Shihad
Jabba - Channel V
Mike - Channel V
James - Channel V
Brandon - Incubus
Vin Diesel
Jonathan Davies - Korn
Monkey - Korn
Head - Korn
David - Korn
Lajon - Sevendust
Justin Timberlake
David Draiman - Disturbed

Girls

Rose McGowan
Allysa Millano
Gewn Stefani
Angelina Jolie
Betty Page
Dita Von Teese

It's funny how you can come across a song and find that the lyrics relate perfectly to something going on in your life or maybe even some thing that happened in your past....

Hoobastank - The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

At least i can say that i never stooped to you level.

At least i can say i never talked trash about you to anyone who will listen.

At least i can say i don't talk badly about you to get sympathy.

At least i can admit that what i did was wrong.

Pitty you can't do any of that.

Hespera may explode without warning

M EXPLOSIVE

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From Go-Quiz.com

anyone on my friends list (or people just trolling past this space) want to answer 12 yes/no question for me for my psych report?!?!?!

If you could it would help me muchos grandos. Names or any personal information will not be used in this report...only your answers.

Thanks heaps guys...much love to you all.

( The Questions )

On the 13th of February (yes Friday the 13th ooOOoooOOoo) Lionel and i got engaged!!!

And that's all i'm going to say about it :P

I have something i'm dying to tell people............................................
But i can't!^@(&!%@&^!@

I don't want to jinx it...cos then it won't happen.

I guess you'll have to wait till

Do it...doitdoitdoitdoitdoit. Don't make me cry...

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

2. Am I loveable?

3. How long have you known me?

4. When and how did we first meet?

5. What was your first impression?

6. Do you still think that way about me now?

7. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?

8. Do you think I'll get married?

9. What makes me happy?

10. What makes me sad?

11. What song (if any) reminds you of me?

12. If you could give me anything what would it be?

13. Do you consider me a good friend?

14. When's the last time you saw me?

15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

16. Would you make a move on me?

17. Describe me in one word.

18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?

19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?

20. Do I cross your mind at least 2 times a day?

I don't think i'll tell you anything anymore. Turns out things i say to you go back to certian people. Now while that's not always a bad thing because what i said wasn't said in a nasty way (and it's been sorted out with said person), you had no right to go and say anything to them. I would have done it myself if it was such a problem for me. I was just telling you my feelings at the time. Thanks for blowing them out of proportion. Fuck you've got a big mouth!

With that aside i just wanted to inform you all that i am the queen of Excel (thanks to some help from Lincoln *mwuah*)and i made some bar graphs for this stupid assignment.

*the end*

To all the peope who are full of their own self-importance, to those who don't bother to get in contact with me, to those who can't send me a message, say hello, or ask how i am, those who couldn't give a fuck if i'm alive, to those who call themsleves my "friend" but aren't acting in a "friendly" manner, to those who bitch and moan about the same old bullshit that was going on a year ago, to those who can't move the fuck on, to those who play pathetic childish games, to those who take things far too seriously, to those who can't take a joke, to those who think that the world owes them something, to those who can't be happy with what they have, to those who hate me and want to talk trash about me to anyone who will listen, to those who lie, to those who cheat....this is for you.


Fuck you. Grow up. Suck it up. Get a sense of humour. Keep it in your pants. Stop being a baby. Build a bridge. Get over it. Change it if you don't like it. Learn to laugh. Pick up the phone. Don't say i don't do anything for you. Learn how to treat people with respect. Don't bitch when shit bites you on the arse. Karma is a bitch. If you can't be a friend don't expect me to be one in return.

...That is all...

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The following "comment" was found in the Prolife. Now while i'm all in favour of people having their own opinions, i just couldn't help but scoff at this belief...

"i can only speak for the catholic pro-lifers on this matter, but i can explain to you where the catholic church stands on contraception and why. our religion holds the belief that God created sex so that a husband and wife could, along with expressing their love for each other, create children. sex isn't just pleasurable; it was intended to make babies. that is the natural function of the act. sex that cannot create children because of the imposition of artificial contraception is considered by God to be unnatural. that's why the catholic church advocates natural family planning over things like condoms and hormone-based birth control."

Yes, sex is all about creation. Creation of a child. That is its primary function. But as society developed and the human race became more "civilised" (if that can even truely be said), it became obvious that having babies left right and centre just wasn't the right thing to do. Peer-pressure, TV/Movies, magazines, have all played a part in encouraging young teenagers to start having sex. Quite often these teenagers are having unprotected sex and are bringing children into the world. Kids having Kids...i know we've all heard the term before. Now while it's all well and good for God to have "created sex for husband and wife so they can produce children", it's no longer working that way. Husband and wife are not the only people having sex and making babies and because of that contraception is a huge life saver. Why? Because it's stopping a lot of unwanted pregnancies and it's stopping a lot of children from being brought into fucked up families and all that. There's nothing wrong with contraception and for that matter i don't see anything wrong with abortion, that is if it's being used correctly and isn't a form of birth control in itself.

But back to my original gripe with this comment..."artifical contraception is concidered by God to be unnatural". I wonder if God thinks having pedophile presist is unnatural too! I know he's all against homosexuals, so you'd think he'd be against male presist (cos let's face it, they're always male and they think males are superior...fucking Patriarchal bastards!) sexual molesting young boys. But it's not always just young boys...no these outstanding, upholding, God fearing, law obiding parishinars think it's ok to do this kind of shit to both boys and girls!

Like i said, everyone has their own opinions, and i have mine. Mine just happens to be that there's nothing wrong with being pro-choice, nothing wrong with abortion and contraception, but there is a definate need to re-assess the Bible and all this "God says this, God thinks that" bullshit. It's the 21st Century people! Why are we still living in the dark ages?

What exactly didn't you understand of the obvious "fuck off" message i gave you?

I don't know what this game is your playing but i don't like it. I've moved on, how about you do the same you stupid fuck!

He gets back today!

(When this began.)
I had nothing to say.
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me.
(I was confused.)
And I live it all out to find, but I'm not the only person with these things in mind.
(Inside of me.)
But all that they can see the words revealed.
Is the only real thing that i got left to feel.
(Nothing to lose.)
Just stuck, hollow and alone.
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own.

I wanna heal, I wanna feel, What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
Erase all the pain til' it's gone
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say. I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face.
(I was confused.)
Look at everywhere only to find.
It is not the way I had imagined it all in my mind.
(So what am I.)
What do I have but negativity.
Cuz I can't justify the way everyone is looking at me.
(Nothing to lose.)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone.
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own.

I wanna heal, I wanna feel, What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
Erase all the pain til' it's gone
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know myself until I do this on my own.
Cuz I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed.
I will never be anything til' I break away from me.
I will break away. I'll find myself today.

I wanna heal, I wanna feel, What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
Erase all the pain til' it's gone
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal, I wanna feel, Like I'm Somewhere I belong...
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, Like I'm Somewhere I belong...
Somewhere I belong...

eZzSkiMo - we will love you like the uni wont

I'm not in love but i'm gonna fuck you till somebody better comes along.

oh i almost forgot...

Happy Hour at Cactus Jacks tomorrow....$5 MARGARITAS#$@~#@~@~%!~%#

Oh boy am i gonna get sloshed!

Can you tell how bored i am? Look at all the posts! This is what not having your own computer does to you! Especially when you can't install MSN and stuff on other persons computers. OPPRESSIVE DICTATORS#~^@#$ Yes...i swallowed a Sociology text book at lunch.

I was gonna say all this stuff but i've forgotten what it was i wanted to say. Drugs fry your brain kids.

Dude..i'm in love with that Dave guy on Surviver! God damn he's hot AND he's a rocket scienctist! Which means not only is he uberhot but he's ubersmart too! Pity he's American...


"You can't trust a woman with a pulse." Couldn't have said it better myself