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Tesla - Paradise   
07:07pm 30/01/2004
 
music: Tesla - Paradise
Hold me close now, hold me tight.
Don't let go of me tonight.
You're all I want, you're all I need.
Hold me close now, hold me tight.
Don't let go of me tonight.
Sweet paradise.
How I love all of those crazy little things
You've said and done for me.
You're the one for me.
Darlin', dry your eyes.
I can't stand to see you cry.
Now just turn and walk away.
Don't look back when I say goodbye paradise.

Days go by and life goes on.
Feel I've been away too long.
What I would give to be with you.
Days go by and life drags on.
Feel I've been away too long,
For much too long, yeah.
And all the while that I'm away,
Don't let our love fade away.
Don't you fade away.
Now as sure as the sun is gonna shine,
The day will come.
Now I'm waitin' for the day.
There'll be no more sayin' goodbye paradise.

My sweet paradise.
You are the reason why
It tears me up inside,
And I break down and cry.
Didn't want to say goodbye paradise.

I'm comin' home to you tonight,
Comin' home to you tonight, so hold on tight.
Tonight I'm on my way back home to paradise.

I'm so lost without you,
Can't live without you.
I've been away too long now.
Tonight I'm on my way back home to you.
My, my paradise. My, my paradise.
To hold you in my arms, you're all that I adore,
To see your smilin' face as I walk through the door.
I'll never say goodbye again
 
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Pink Floyd - Goodbye Cruel World   
03:13pm 25/09/2003
 
music: Pink Floyd - Goodbye Cruel World
Goodbye, cruel world,
I’m leaving you today.
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.

Goodbye all you people,
There’s nothing you can say,
To make me change my mind.
Goodbye.
 
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Rasputina - A Quitter   
08:09pm 29/08/2003
 
music: Rasputina - A Quitter
I have worked out every small detail
In the plan I've made.
This thing which cannot fail
I dare myself to do this one thing.
You can have my car
Go and take everything.

All that's good is gone.
(-its gone.)
I have tried too long.

I don't think I'll miss my Mom and Dad,
The class I cut,
All the friends I never had.
these things I won't miss won't miss me,
my house- my block,
-the baby bird that I set free,
-The dance that I was never asked to,
-The teachers that thought they knew me.
They'll all remember what I did.
They'll ask "Who's fault was it?"
"Oh she was just a kid."

I'll be glad to go, you see,
You don't even know me,
Not at all.
 
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Mudvayne - World So Cold   
12:53pm 20/08/2003
 
music: Mudvayne - A World So Cold
When passion's lost and all the trust is gone,
Way too far, for way too long
Children crying, cast out and neglected,
Only in a world so cold, only in a world
This cold
Hold the hand of your best friend, look into their eyes
Then watch them drift away
Some might say, we've done the wrong things,
For way too long, for way too long

Fever inside the storm,
So I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

Keep your thorns
'Cause I'm running away,
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

burning whispers, Remind me of the days,
I was left alone, in a world this cold
Guilty of the same things, provoked by
The cause,
I've left alone, in a world so cold
Fever inside the storm,
So I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

Keep your thorns
'Cause I'm running away,
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

I'm flying, I'm flying away,
Away from the names
(Calling your names)
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold

Why does everyone feel like my enemy,
Don't want any part of depression or
Darkness, I've had enough
sick and tired, bring the sun, or I'm gone,
Or I'm gone

I'm backing out, I'm no pawn,
No mother-fucking slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone else
Not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about
Anything

Backing out, giving up, no mother-fucking
Slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone lese
Not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about
Anything,

I need to find a darkened corner,
A lightless corner,
Where it's safer and calmer,

I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

Keep your thorns
'Cause I'm running away,
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

I'm flying, I'm flying away,
Away from the names
(Calling your names)
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold
 
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Seether - Driven Under   
12:36pm 17/06/2003
 
music: Seether - Driven Under
"Driven Under"

Do you think I’m faking
when I’m lying next to you?
Do you think that I am blind
nothing left for me to lose?
Must be something on your mind
something lost and left behind
Do you know I’m faking now?

Do you know I’m faking
when I’m lying next to you?
Do you know that I am blind to everything you ever do?
Must be something on your mind
something lost for me to find
Do you know I’m faking?

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before on him
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before, oh man

I guess you know I’m faking
when I tell you I love you
I guess you know that I am blind
to everything you say and do
Must be something on my mind
there’s nothing left for me to hide
Do you know I’m faking?

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before on him
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before, oh man

We have to succumb to the feelings we can never face
I need you. I breathe you.
I can’t go through this all again.
We have to succumb to
the feelings we can never face I need you.
I breathe you. I can’t go through this…

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before on him
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before, oh man
Then she told me she had a gun
she says she wants to use it on me now…
 
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great song..   
06:38pm 18/04/2003
 
music: American Head Charge - Just So You Know
the surface is so cold and worthless
all the things that I have still come from there
so paint your windows in front of my face
when you know damn well theres
no one behind them
I wish your body was not so warm to me
just so you know
all it was was something beautiful
when tides and dreams dont seem so tall at all
its me against the world still Im losing ground
Id kill to taste what it must be like
cause its every one of my empty parts
that you fill now
I wish your body was not so warm to me
just so you know
all it was was something beautiful
when tides and dreams dont seem so tall at all
pause silence
another moment dropped off
left behind and
hanging still
you wont see me
I cant see you
all it was was something beautiful
when tides and dreams dont seem so tall at all
 
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our farewell...   
10:41pm 08/04/2003
 
mood: sad
music: Within Temptation - Our Farewell
In my hands
A legacy of memories
I can hear you say my name
I can almost see your smile
Feel the warmth of your embrace
But there is nothing but silence now
Around the one I loved
Is this our farewell?

Sweet darling you worry too much, my child
See the sadness in your eyes
You are not alone in life
Although you might think that you are

Never thought
This day would come so soon
We had no time to say goodbye
How can the world just carry on?
I feel so lost when you are not by my side
But there's nothing but silence now
Around the one I loved
Is this our farewell?

So sorry your world is tumbling down
I will watch you through these nights
Rest your head and go to sleep
Because my child, this not our farewell.
This is not our farewell.
 
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Evanescence - My Immortal   
07:12pm 03/03/2003
 
mood: bored
music: Evanescence - My Immortal
my immortal
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
 
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I really like this song...   
05:37pm 14/02/2003
 
music: Within Temptation - Caged
These are the darkest clouds
To have surrounded me
Now I find my self alone caught in a cage
There's no flower to be found in here
Not withering
Or pale to me
Everyone with a friendly face
Seems to hide some secret inside

He told me he loved me
While he laughed in my face
He just led me astray
He took my virtue
I feel so cold inside
Sorrow has frozen my mind

My heart is covered
With thoughts entangled
How could it ever have felt so real?
Is there a place more lonely than I feel within?
Could I have seen?
Could I have known?
I just took it as the truth
Everyone with a friendly face
Seems to hide some secret inside
Always there to remind me
To keep me from believing
That someone might be there
Who'll free me and never ever leave me
 
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Machine Head - The Burning Red   
11:13pm 04/02/2003
 
music: Machinehead - The Burning Red
I see the sun begin to rise
And I'm wounded
I've seen the world from painted eyes
That I'm crying through
I watch the darkness hit the tides
And confide in...

Hold On I'm falling
Can't breathe anymore
The ocean has opened
These scars need to heal

Caress the needle prick in my eye
The tears fell like rain
I've rode the phoenix as she glides
And I've gone insane
I've seen the light of suicide
And I'm dying

Hold on, I'm falling
Can't breathe anymore
And the Ocean has opened
These Scars need to heal

Hold on I'm falling, can't reach... reach...

Colder and colder
Just hold onto me
 
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good song...   
11:20pm 08/12/2002
 
music: Within Temptation - Mother Earth
Jay Gordon - Slept So Long
Walking
Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
Hating
Things I can't bear

Did you think it's cool
To walk right up
To take my life
And fuck it up
Well did you?
Well did you?

I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise(surprise)
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside

Walking, Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
Hating
Things I can't bear

Did you think it's cool
To walk right up
To take my life
And fuck it up
Well did you?

I hate you!

I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
And touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside

I've slept so long without you
It's tearing me apart too
How'd it get this far
Playing games with this old heart
I've killed a million petty souls
But I couldn't kill you

I've slept so long without you

I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you made me die inside
 
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04:15pm 24/10/2002
 
mood: blah
music: Chevelle - The Red
"The Red"

They say freak
When your singled out
The red...
It filters through

So lay down
The threat is real
When his sight
Goes red again

Seeing red again

This change
He won't contain
Slip away
To clear your mind
When asked
What made it show?
The truth
He can't send to most

Seeing red again

They say freak
When your singled out
The red....
It filters through
 
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finally!   
10:44pm 13/08/2002
 
music: Hatebreed--I Will Be Heard
I did this one on purpose..


Take
The Ewan McGregor Test!


I answered truthfully on this one...


Take
The Ewan McGregor Test!
 
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yeah...   
12:15am 11/08/2002
 
music: Corey Taylor--Bother
Well.. I thought I would update, but there is reallly nothing to say. I just got on to check my mail and three people IM me.. Oh well... Blah...

Check out this song.. It's the greatest thing out right now :)

I wish I was...
Too dead to cry
The self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochist to which I cater

You don't need to bother
I don't need to breathe
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go till it bleeds

I wish I was...
Too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason
My flaws are open season
For this I gave up trying
One good time deserves my dying

You don't need to bother
I don't need to breathe
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go till it bleeds

I wish I died...
Instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten with it's memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries

You don't need to bother
I don't need to breathe
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go till it bleeds

And you don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I'll never live down my deceit
 
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duh.   
03:43pm 05/05/2002
 
music: Jay Gordon--Slept So Long
You are Heavy Metal!

Angry, sad, and disillusioned, you are Heavy Metal. You are the embodiment of the darkness of the human heart. Your main themes are sadness, anger, and hopelessness. You are frequently misunderstood by others and many link you to devil worship. However, those willing to look through the shell of darkness and anger find you to be very intelligant, poetic, and artistic. Too bad your inclination to look for the beauty in darkness and your general attitude of frustration with humanity as a whole tends to send most people running for the nearest exit. But despite that, you wouldn't have it any other way.

Take the what music genre are you quiz by PsychosisX!





quiz created by glitterevil


Which of my favorite bands are you?






Who's SCREAM Do You Posess?
Quiz by Steph or Steph
 
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I love this song too....   
03:04pm 02/04/2002
 
music: Guns N Roses - November Rain
"November Rain"

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this auch a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away

If we could take the time
to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my
own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one
 
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sweetness...   
01:24am 01/04/2002
 
mood: melting
music: David Draiman - Forsaken
I'm over it
You see I'm falling in the fast abyss
Clouded by memories of the past
At last I see

Pre1
I hear it fading, I can't speak it
Oh yes you will take my grave
You feeling, finding, always whining
Take my hand now be alive

Chorus
You see I cannot be forsaken
Because I'm not the only one
We walk amongst you feeding, raping
Must we hide from everyone?

I'm over it
Why can't we be together and erase it?
Sleeping so long taking off the mask
At last I see
 
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....wish you were here...   
03:43pm 02/01/2002
 
mood: *sigh*
music: Pink Floyd--Wish You Were Here
So, So you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell
Blue Skies from Pain
Can you tell a green field
From a cold, steel rail
A smile from a veil
Do you think you can tell?

Did they get you to trade
Your heroes for ghosts
Hot ashes for trees
Hot air for a cool breeze
Cold comfort for change
Did you exchange
A walk-on part in a war
For a lead rold in a cage

How I wish, How I wish you were here
We're just two lost souls swimmin' in a fish bowl
Year after year
Runnin' over the same old ground
What have we found
The same old fears
Wish you were here
 
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