02:44am 30/04/2003   alyson- you dont' even know the humor in that...on sunday all i wanted to do was listen to it for some reason but i had os much to do so i put it on repeat and left it on all day so that it woudl always be on when i walked into my room(i do stuff liek that), i got it stuck in everyone's heads and my friend was ready to kill me...i love that song.=)        Post   loathing for a change    02:31am 30/04/2003   WAAAARRM SUN FEEEED MEEE UP AND I'M LEERY LOADED UP in one word i could describe it as beautiful but i'll just keep it to myself and you'll never know and you knwo i';d share it with you such a waste of your time i'm selfish when i dont' make you happy the simplest is enough for me and that's so complicated HEAVY ABOUT EVERYHTING BUT MY LOVE SURE ABOUT EVERYHTING BUT YOURSELF PISS ON SELF ESTEEM        Post   WHERE THE GRASS IS GREEN AND THE GIRLS ARE PRETTY    01:22pm 28/04/2003   i like doing things and hate having things to do. such a fucking turn-off. i think he's very left brain and i'm very right brain and somehow they're really really similar. and alot of times the same. maybe it makes extremeties make sense.        Post   FEEL LIKE MAKIN LOVE FEEL LIKE MAKIN LOVE FEEL LIKE MAKIN LOVE    09:55am 28/04/2003   FFEEEL LIKE MAAAKINLOVETO YOU TANGERINE TREES AND MARMALDE SKIES THERE'S A STEEL TRAIN COMIN THROUGH I WOUDL TAKE IT IF I COULD AND I WOULD NOT LIE TO YOU CAUSE SUNDAY MORNING SUN WOULD COME UP i like to think it's about running away =)=) i <3 euro-trash shane who talks with his eyelashes. i love when words in conversations all float together and mix in with everyhting esle. and sitting by josh and long phone messages and droppign things from the roof. ccad hates my guts and they dont' want me to graduate in 4 years. fk'n evil. goodfellas has a kick ass soundtrack. I KNOW WHY IT'S SOOO NICE I WANNA HEAR THE SAME SONG TWICE IT'S SO NICE IT;S SO NICE IT'S SOOOOO NICE SO NICE WITH YOU GIRL WITH YOU GIRL WITH YOUOOOOOOOOUUU GIRL A GIRL WITH KALIDASCOPE EYES        Read 1 - Post       03:57pm 15/04/2003   it's fucking beautiful...=) alot of distratced and alot of "cunninglingus" (and friends) and nice weather and sleeping ontop tables in parks (sleeping on top of tables in parks is quality) and a few good movies (saw tommy boy for the first time finally, tried to watch muholland drive, bones (it has snoop, i think he wrote the script just to have amovie to be in and the poeple who made the movie tried to throw in as much corny stuff as possible so they coudl at leats have somehitn got laugh at). i lost my phone again. matt,sorry about that, lol,...you know how i do=) if you see huff anywhere tell her what up from jackson...and if you see sarah reece tell her she shoudl email me back. and oh yeah....eric miller was a ccad party like a few weeks ago (and wasted)...but at a ccad party. i'll tell you about it. we shoudl tlask about our birthdays*points and winks*. so there's only like 6 orignal ideas in the world or somehitng (you know, that one theory)....last night josh i were talking about illusions and logic...how everyhting in the world can be explained through logic, or through math and calc and physics and then everyhtign can be related to eachother through math and calc an dphysics and what not...but then there's always that somehting esle that kind of can't be explained...liek why is there logic to explain everyhtign in the first place and why is that this logic can connect everyhting and what somehting is everyhtign from (the usual of everyhting)...and he explaned that as being like to circles, one run by logic and one run by illusion but both running dependent on eachother....so then i started talking about all the visiaul wsy to explain the same idea and how i'd always envisioned continuous circles or spheres but over break someone mentioned it being like a sprial,lots of circles that connect everyhting...which made me again think of time travel....like the same circle that can be used to eplain the cycle that everyhting runs in but plus velocity....if all the circles were connected and laid out in front of you.. somehow all this thinking mad eem htink about the orignal idea theory...the fact the all ideas are derived from a varition of other ideas is logic and the fact there were 6 original ideas to begin with is illusion...then i started thinkning about a gene pool...bc there's can be someone with the exact same genes (except twins...which is just a little weird all toegther, come one now, who doesn't think identical twins are weird, i mean christs sake...two i sjust odd.....) whihc would kind of seem like a new set of genes for each person is orignal...but i guess as orignal as they are they are still derived form other genes...so,,,yeah....it let to nothing...like a circle...or somehintg....but you just read all of it....*points and winks* i watched gladiator for the first time too....colluseums and pyramids and collonaeds and amazing just imagining them will never be as ssatifsying, i have to see them sometime...architecture still aroudn today more beuatufl then the architecture created even today and what about stuff liek pyramids all set up to point o the north star, let alone th epyramids themselves....but in gladiator there's a secene were two men can't add and subract....hunter made the point of how the human race is becoming more left brain dominate....i wish i coudl experience a world of right brain dominated poeple.... hunter is interesting. hed pe tomorrow. shane got the new autechre cd(music of the lobby) and not only doe sit come with an amzing graphic artwork cover...it comes with mutlipe covers so you can switch them. AND...he showed me another one of their cd's...where the cover is totally white except their typed in like 10 pt font at the top...but when you hoold it under lgith in a certain way you can see theta there is other writting...bu tin white also....yeah=)        Read 1 - Post   erotic done only in female body parts    02:23am 10/04/2003   "adam, i'll find you in twenty years and make sure you're in a surf band.....and you find me in twenty years and make sure i'm in a doo-wop band...and black." i finsihed my collage fish tonight. from far away it loks like the fish, but up close it looks like 80% identifyable things... and everyhting's random, i think thats' why i liked doing it o much.....up close you can see that all fins are made up of lips and i stuck kurt cobain's face in there, a woman flipping off the camera with two middle fingers, a beach scene, and a cartoon man withthe word "division" written under his face...for some reason i thought that one wa smost himerous. i watched a movie about a woman who had 200 different personalities. some were woman, some were men, some were animals even. they all dealt with the incidents that happened to her when she was really young, her parenst abusin her and stuff ....when i thnk about for a long time i start to notcie how much of the stuff i do is a reaction that revolves around all the stuff that happened to me frmo 7-16...there's so much stuff i block out and ignore to make myself happy....they said it's survival...that makes sense.        Read 5 - Post   earth angel    01:34am 09/04/2003   "kiss me....go ahead... kiss me.....i like to be kissed when i'm being fucked." - al paccino,of course "i wish i had a huge megaphone so i could just sit down here and record all the little sounds." aaron (talking about all the sounds "inside the city" in the basement of crackhouse...it's funnny bc he makes his own musci with just sounds." matt- you should listen to autecher, and dl a video from them if you can schizophrenia doesn't start showing until the age of 18-20.        Post       04:20pm 08/04/2003   "this world is a fine place; and worth fighting for....i agree with the second."        Read 2 - Post       04:12pm 03/04/2003   alyson- that's sweet then. hopefully hopefully, it shoudl be no problem at all, i 'll be able to go then. whos the list of the poele goign to be there? i know j5, incubus and...i knew someone esle once.        Read 1 - Post       04:01pm 03/04/2003   i spend most of my time outside, and i feel liek i have one emotion all the time, and it can't change. liek pefectly balanced, it can';t feel better. last song n hanzel and gretyl on repeat. andy- if you went to school at ccad then we'd hang out on the roof alot. there's a nice bench up there and it's high but no too so you can see everyhitng but not fear falling to a horrible death, ands when it's sunny out you just want to lay up there and chill and jack shit except play cards and goof off. matt would hang out with me up there all the time too.=) i wante dm y net tattoo to be a poentagram on the back of my neck...but have the pentagrambe the liek the color fo my skin and it's like it has depth and shape bc it's shaded in aroudn it,liek a shaow. but i was worried about what peoel woudl think....why woudl i think about that. i definately think i'll get that next. they filled the vending mahcines up with styrophome peanuts, so your food doesn't break or so you lose whatever you buy ro somehing liek that. so i wrote down "i want my job to be the guy who fills the vedning machine up with styrophome peanuts." and taped it to the front. scott gave me his dog tag. my ideas for 3d wordplay (create an absrtact scultpure of two words): 1) pulp fiction 2) cotton mouth and my personal fav 3) smooooth operator *points and winks* "you try to take credit fromme as often as you can...and give to yourself when ever possible." - casey shane showe dmy as picture on rotton.com of a 90 year old man who got into his tub witha water heater and the died whiel he was in the tub, bouiled, and then sat there for 2 weeks....intensly rotten. on my list of top 10 favortie things in the wolrd to appreciate: water...by far.        Read 1 - Post       04:01pm 01/04/2003   since i can't appreciate how nice it feels to run every monring anymore...i'd liek to appreciat epulp fiction and how sexy pots are.;)...or somehintg liek that        Post   IS SURE TO FADE AWAY.......SOMEDAY    03:44pm 01/04/2003   i'm a graphic design major with a fine arts minor. i want my own underground magazine, i want to design my own fonts, i want to make graphic tag designs then blow them up on walls and spray paint them, i want to draw and write my own comics and then stylize them with graphics. i want to make flyers for raves, lol(and meet hot raver chicks...lol, thst was for scott). yeah...this si going to be fun. saw three good hardcore bands. unearth, cephalic carnage, and shadows fall. i was impressed...and surprised. some nice drummers. the lead singer of shadows fall had dreads to his thighs...then he would head bang. what is about tall guys with dreads....*ahhhhh* a state of mind is real.i beleive in the state of mind that is love.i beleive in him. he always feels to good to seem real. -not typical...just typical*=)- and now i'm going to go do some artwork that I WANT to do. a visual presentation of aiden hughes. might spend quality time on it=) speaking of...matt- i left the charger for my cell at home. if yu happen to find anyhting email ti to me=)=)=)        Post   my new fav quote    04:46pm 29/03/2003   SellOut3871: "Naturally the common people don't want war, but after all it is the leader of a country who deterine the policy, and it is always a simple matter to drag people along whether it is a democracy or a fascist dictatorship or a parliament, or a communist dictatorshiop. Noice or no voice, the people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders, this is easy. All you have to dois tell them they are being attacked, and denounce the pacifists for lack of patriotism and exposing the country to danger. it works the same in every country" SellOut3871: -Hermann Goering. Hitler's Reich-Marshall at the Nuremberg Trials after world war two        Post       04:00am 29/03/2003   Demonpopcorn: hardcore fat and tan, what else could I ask for        Post       03:56am 29/03/2003   Demonpopcorn: training is going to rock, I think nate is my trainer haha RBtrendyF241: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA        Post   just like music    03:27am 29/03/2003   finally hung out with the boys. watched cky4 and played vietcong (scott got it the day it came out, know he's goign tof ail out of college...i wanna fail out of college for video games...is that bad?). that game kicks ass, it's sop hardcore realoistic i htink i hsoudl be scared...but really i just want to play more.jonh's name was "satan's father" and then he got killed by someone with name "god's hand". we all went with john to pick up yougn from work (i tried to get everyone to go so the car woudl be jammed pack, just bc it owudl have been funny). jonh parked int he very very back of the parking lot with have of his car underneath a semi. john knows jiuthit-su now...lol, lots of great htings will come form this=) hanging ou them makes me want to do time-based....i dont' knwo what to do.i think i shoudl flip a coin. i want to drop out....(for video games and running) jake, jake form acorss the hall jake, called me the other night. he's in new york and leaves for iraq in a week. we talked normal, he htinks he'll be there for 6 months for sure. i miss him.        Post       01:53am 28/03/2003   RBtrendyF241: you suck a big black cock RBtrendyF241: twice lI Wonder Boy Il: only twice? lI Wonder Boy Il: then you havent seen my second movie        Post   KMFDM1843: Sarah is sexy tested, mother aproved    05:48pm 24/03/2003   http://www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi?word=my+penis lol, thanks kevin. so i made peace witht he lane public and good alot fo good books i've been wantign to read. starting reading "ibm and the holocaust"...very very inetersting (thanks casey). then i came hoem to screaming an dyellong and cussing and got hung up on. my mom likes to scream iuntil she realizes she has notign to screm about so she fizes everyhitng by just hnaging up. very strategic. now i gotta find somehwre to go before she gest home. i want to be adopted. Demonpopcorn: only the fool breaks a my penis Demonpopcorn: haha Demonpopcorn: they just getfunnier Demonpopcorn: haha Demonpopcorn: so many of them haha Demonpopcorn: ok I can only have enough of my penis Demonpopcorn: that was me being serious though Demonpopcorn: haha        Post       12:20pm 24/03/2003   this won't be the big post i've been anticipating... i have to go make peace witht he lane public...so that not every library hates my guts. AND GOT NO HOPE WITH GUNS started "the dharma bums". josh recommended it. so far it's a go. chris asked my mom for a bunk bed. chris currnetly had a bed that works fine. why does he need tow of them work fine when he has one now? so my mopm said she coudlnt' afford a bunk bed. so...chris made a lilst of ways she ocudl afford one. it went like this... (-) cut spending (+) increase funds plan A 1. food -1/2 2. cltohes -1/2 3. sarah -2/3 4. child suport +1/2 5. new daddy (thats' what he calls her bf) + $300 6. gma and poppy (that dont' want new daddy to show them up) + $300 7. mom gets secdon job for 1 month plan B sell charles's babies plan C steal b.b. TELL ME ARE YOU A BADFISH TOO        Read 1 - Post       02:00am 24/03/2003   brinker-hoff- email me.        Read 1 - Post

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