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bye freaks. ;-) [01 Feb 2003|09:54pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | hoobastank-running away ] Hey, From now on, this journal will now be friends only. The reason why this is friends only is because I recently discovered that some people who should not be reading this and certain people that I really don't want people to know about my life are reading my journal and are running their mouth about it to other people. So if you would like to be added as a friend, please let me know. For those of you who do not have Live Journal, but read this, I'm sorry that a few morons had to spoil things for you. I can try to get you codes so that you could read this too, but there's really nothing that I can do for the time being. I love you all. peace out<3 7 think they love me, toos| i think i love you, baby

snow is amazing [16 Jan 2003|08:03pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | puddle of mudd-she hates me ] Wow, I haven't written in a few days. I've been pretty busy and whatnot. It's supposed to snhow tonight and we might get up to 6 inches. Cool as hell. My dad's all like "blahblah 6 inches is nothing and you're still gonna have school tomorrow" Well he's wrong as hell. I guess that's what happens when you grow up in Long Island. Anyway yesterday and today were fun. Yesterday Torrey, Rachel, Adam, and Shauna all came over for my biology project, which was a lot of fun. It came out good too. And today I went to Cynthia's to do my history project, which was fun. I'm watching Star Search and if Tiffany doesn't win I'm gonna have to hurt someone. I know her, I was in her music video, bitches. So vote for her or I'm gonna hurt you. I'm gonna go now...w00t. i think i love you, baby

his life was stole [14 Jan 2003|07:22pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | kelly rowland-stole ] My grandfather had another heart attack... They doubt he's gonna make it for much longer. That's all I wanna say. 1 think they love me, too| i think i love you, baby

you're really lovely underneath it all [13 Jan 2003|03:32pm] [ mood | nervous ] [ music | no doubt-underneath it all ] My audition for To Kill a Mockingbird is tonight. I'm so fucking nervous. I really want this part, bad. I don't know why, but I've never wanted a part this bad before. I rented the movie last night whoch was pretty good. I'm hoping to do well. I also got called back from the audition I went to at Weist-Barron a few weeks ago...I got called back for Carla, cool as hell. go me. I'm gonna go take a nap and everything...so later 5 think they love me, toos| i think i love you, baby

i dunno what to say [11 Jan 2003|10:21pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | nothing...the house is silent... ] My mom is gonna stay in LI for a few more days, until we get a little more news. My dad and my sister came up tonight and are gonna stay here. They're gonna take me home tomorrow sp my mom doesn't have to keep driving back and forth. I went to my uncle's party tonight with my uncle and my cousins. It was all right, kinda boring, but it always is. No one was really in a festive mood, especially me because I was the one who had to tell everyone the news about my grandfather. I got Tommy Girl perfume from my uncle, which was cool. My mom was too upset to go to the party and she needed sleep...she hasn't slept since she's been here. I got maybe about 2 hours of sleep myself last night, and it will probably be the same story tonight. She's staying here for a pretty long time-she said she's thinking about taking a leave of absence from work. My grandmother is crushed...she's been up all night the past few nights too. She was at the hospital with my grandpa all last night. Everyone is just crushed by this. The thing that's making me the angriest is the fucking retard doctors. They keep changing their minds about everything every 5 seconds and it's pissing me off to no end. It took them forever just to get a room for my grandpa, then they tried to get my grandma to pay for someone to watch him just so we didn't have to sit in the hospital all night. At least they put him in intensive care. So I guess that's good, in a way. At least he'll be somewhat taken care of, and he can sleep. Whenever anyone from the family is around he feels obligated to talk to us when he needs his rest. I hate this. I hate this so much. I'M NOT READY FOR MY GRANDFATHER TO DIE YET. THIS ISN'T SUPPOSED TO FUCKING HAPPEN NOW. THIS ISN'T FAIR. 2 think they love me, toos| i think i love you, baby

losing hope [11 Jan 2003|11:26am] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | the wind outside ] Last night was horrible. All night I couldn't sleep. My grandfather was so sick. I could hear him downstairs, making the most horrible noises. My grandmother, aunt, and my mom were up all night with him. He ended up having to go back to the hospital in the middle of the night. I was up crying for a good portion of the night. I was just sitting there, watching Daria (my grandparents have digital cable so I could watch all of those old-school Nick shows that are awesome) and crying. I finally fell asleep around 3 or 4. My mom is sleeping right now and she's probably gonna go back to the hospital later. My aunt will probably take me to Queens for my uncle's party, which I don't think anyone wants to go to now, but whatever. I hate this bullshit. I had so much hope, and as usual all of my hope is just ripped out of me. I fucking hate it. It's so bad I almost wish I was back in New Jersey. Normally I love going up here to Long Island. But this has killed everything. I just wish my grandfather would get better, soon. i think i love you, baby

i'm with you [10 Jan 2003|08:55pm] [ mood | numb ] [ music | quiet house noises ] Well, I'm in Long Island at my grandparents now. My trip here was all right, it's just me and my mom that came up. My grandfather came home from the hospital last night. But he's still so sick. It's so horrible. Abgout an hour after I got here, he had to struggle just to stand up and go to the bathroom...and then when he got there he fell headfirst into the bathtub...he wasn't hurt, but it took us a half hour just to get him to stand back up...we ended up having to carry him back into his room. He was crying, too-not just weeping, but actual sobbing crying. It was the worst sound I've ever heard. I hope I never have to hear him suffer again. My mom took me to the mall down the street from my grandparent's house to try to get both of our minds off of it. We ate really nasty pizza, and thats basically all. It's snowing out here and I'm sitting by a window watching it and thinking about everything that's been going on, while talking to Torrey, Van, and Henry. I have to use AIM express. lol. oh well. I'm ggonna go get something to eat...I'll probably be home Sunday morning...and PLEASE IM me, I need people to talk to right now.;.. 2 think they love me, toos| i think i love you, baby

i miss you... [08 Jan 2003|01:56pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | aaliyah-i miss you ] I haven't written anything remotely interesting for awhile. I didn't go to school today, I don't feel that great. I didn't get a lot of sleep last night and I forgot to take my medicine, and I woke up this morning with a splitting headache. I have one day left, but the end of the semester is in 2 weeks so whatever. I did a lot of thinking last night. And it's gonna surprise a lot of people what I was thinking about. Lately I've started to think a lot about my future, and how it might be affected with Charter Tech. It seems like that school is just completely falling apart. So many people are leaving this year. Also with Smith leaving, as much as I can't stand his egomaniac asshole self, I realize that he really does run the school. I also feel like I don't get the same oppurtunities as I used to. Last year, I really felt like I was accomplishing a lot, and I liked school...this year, it feels like just a big waste of my time. I'm not even really learning anything anymore. Theatre sucks now and I hate it more and more each day. I'm really starting to think about all of that a lot, and I'm starting to consider possibly going back to Mainland. But there's so many risks I'd have to take if I went back there, and I'm afraid. I don't know what to do, at all. 2 think they love me, toos| i think i love you, baby

i need a haircut [06 Jan 2003|04:15pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | jay z-big pimpin ] APPEARANCE - hair: about an inch past my shoulders, dark brown w/red streaks, naturally curly but I always straighten it - height: 5'6" - weight: 128...I've been losing weight :) - figure: ehh...I'm just normal...except I have a big ass STYLE - clothing: whatever I like - music: anything...I'm not picky with music...mostly rap and r&b; though - makeup: a lot...cover-up, bronzer, eyeliner, gold eyeshadow, mascara, lipstick, and lipgloss - body art: none RIGHT NOW - wearing: black shirt, tan skirt, black suade boots, tan headband - music: jay-z - thinking of: how cold it is in my room - feeling: tired and hungry LAST THING YOU... - bought: a whole shitload of clothes - did: came home from school - read: some magazine - watched on tv: I don't remember...I think Lizzie McGuire EITHER / OR - club or house party: house party - tea or coffee: tea - high achiever or easy-going: high achiever - cats or dogs: DOGS - single or taken: I'm single but I prefer taken - pen or pencil: mechanical pencil - gloves or mittens: gloves - food or candy: candy - cassette or cd: CDs - snuff or cigarettes: neither - coke or pepsi: pepsi - matches or a lighter: lighter - sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful: what the freak? - rickie lake or oprah winfrey: jerry springer owns them both WHO DO YOU WANT TO... - kill: Miss Eisenburg...I hate that bitch so much - hear from: no one really - look like: someone pretty - be like: someone cool FAVORITE - food: chicken caesar salad - drink: blue pepsi, iced tea - color: pink, baby blue, silver - album: dunno - shoes: my uggs - site: dunno - song: a lot - vegetable: carrots, broccoli - fruit: grapes, watermelon LAST - last movie you saw: Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers - last movie you saw on the big screen: see above - last phone number you called: I think Adam - last thing you had to drink: iced tea - last thing you ate: pretzels - last time you showered: last night - last time you cried: a while ago...I think a month or so ago - last time you smiled: today - last time you laughed: today on the bus when Sharmaine told me a funny story about this bitch I hate - last person you hugged: Torrey - last person you kissed: some guy at this kid's house..i don't remember - last thing you said: "Mom's gonna be late because she's getting a pizza" - last person you talked to online: Torrey, Josh, Ricky, and Dave...all at the same time - last thing you smelled: my perfume DO YOU... - smoke: nope - sleep with stuffed animals: sometimes - have a crush: I suppose - have a boyfriend/girlfriend: nahh - have a dream that keeps coming back: I've had them before - play an instrument: lol...I used to play the flute and guitar - believe there is life on other planets: it's debateable - read the newspaper: sometimes to look for auditions and shit - have any gay or lesbian friends: yep - believe in miracles: eh - believe it's possible to remain faithful forever: maybe - consider yourself tolerant of others: for the most part - consider police a friend or foe: I don't really care - like the taste of alcohol: some are okay...not beer - have a favorite Stooge: um, no? DO YOU - believe in astrology: sure - believe in magic: lol, I just thought of McDonalds - pray: yeah - go to church: occasionally - have any secrets: everyone does - have any pets: yep...2 dogs - go to or plan to go to college: yep - have a degree: not yet - wear hats: not really...sometimes - have any piercings: 2 in each ear - have any tattoos: nope - Hate yourself: those days are over - wish on stars: not really - like your handwriting: no - believe in witches: i guess - believe in Satan: yes - believe in ghosts: yes - trust others easily: not really - like sarcasm: yep - take walks in the rain: not really - kiss with your eyes closed: yeah - sing in the shower: lol sometimes five snacks you enjoy: - handi-snacks - bagel bites - hot pockets - soft pretzels - potato skins from Friday's five games you like: - the dark game...all you do is go into a dark room and beat people up...it rocks - penis - mash - solitare - i dunno five things you can't live without: - love - friends - oxygen - family - food/water five things you'd buy with one thousand dollars: - clothes - a Cd burner - a new cell phone - crap for my room - and more clothes i think i love you, baby

can't think of a subject [05 Jan 2003|04:55pm] [ mood | productive ] [ music | missy elliot-get your freak on ] Today started off as an extremly boring day. So I walked into my room and discovered how absolutely disgusting it was...so I finally decided that I had nothing better to do and then I cleaned out my whole room...it took me about hours but now my room looks fucking awesome, so w00t. I also went to the mall and the Olive Garden with my mom yesterday, and I got 7 new shirts, a skirt, a pair of jeans, a ton of black beaded bracelets, dangly silver earrings, and this cool as hell looking necklace...I spoent almost all my Christmas money except $50, which is gonna be for my nails. I was gonna go today but my mom doesn't wanna take me, because it's SNOWING!! :) YAY! I hope we don't have school tomorrow, I heard that it's supposed to snow tomorrow too...I really hope so. :) i think i love you, baby

fgdfygfejeioqhfr [04 Jan 2003|11:20am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | fabolous-this is my party ] Ummmm...yeah. I'm kinda bored. Anyway yesterday was all right. I went to school, was really bored all day, went to Absecon, hung out with people there, went home, fell asleep. And I was supposed to go to Long Island today, but my mom doesn't wanna go anymore, so that kinda sucks. So I'm probably gonna go to the mall in a little bit. And that's it. later 3 think they love me, toos| i think i love you, baby

I hate mainland fucks [02 Jan 2003|08:35pm] [ mood | infuriated ] XoXPrMaMi69X [8:33 PM]: iight fucken dick sucker u is a is a fucken hoe cuz i herd u fucked adam coopersmith go use him az a dildoe if u can even find him az one u skinny bytch so yea words goes that the reason u left aminland cuz people tlaked shit on u b/c the stuff people was true like that ur a whore haha bytch XoXPrMaMi69X [8:33 PM]: go scuk my dick & i saw u this summer u fuckin look disgisting u stutter XoXPrMaMi69X [8:33 PM]: haha bytch XoXPrMaMi69X [8:34 PM]: i saw u with pete angelo on the bus headin to SP or whatever XoXPrMaMi69X [8:34 PM]: bytch XoXPrMaMi69X [8:34 PM]: i'm out XoXPrMaMi69X [8:34 PM]: 1 XoXPrMaMi69X [8:35 PM]: -later Kim delaney XoXPrMaMi69X [8:35 PM]: bytch from northfield who couldn't handle bein made fun of so u had to charter tech to be with retards bytch!! XoXPrMaMi69X [8:35 PM]: 1 XoXPrMaMi69X [8:35 PM]: i'm out XoXPrMaMi69X [8:35 PM]: holla back Why I fucking can't stand Mainland. Fucking cunt rag. 10 think they love me, toos| i think i love you, baby

ebonics...holla [02 Jan 2003|05:32pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | fabolous-this is my party ] I was bored so I did my whole entry on the Ebonics Translator...enjoy... Today wuz all right...we's got an extra day ta do our notes, so tight. heh. I'm going ta Absecon tomorrow, it shall be interesting. I took uh lot o' funny pictures taday, maybe I'll post dem later if ah feel like it. well dat'sit. with muh beeotch holla. i think i love you, baby

i don't wanna go to school tomorrow...:( [01 Jan 2003|06:30pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | mario-just a friend ] I'm taking a little break from the insane amount of notes that I have to do for English...I'm not even halfway done and my hand hurts a lot. lol. Anyway, today was all right. I went to the4 mall for a little bit and spent a crapload of money...I got 2 shirts, 2 belts, 3 bras, a new pair of black boots, hair ties, a new purse, and some other crap that I can't remember. And now I have about 41095230450845528375207120574 pages of notes for Uncle Tom's Cabin to do. blaahhh. I'm probably gonna be doing much of it in theatre tomorrow. heh. Well, I better do some more work on it. fun fun. i think i love you, baby

for the new year's spirit... [01 Jan 2003|12:34am] [ mood | amused ] Your New Year's Resolution Should Be: Marry For Money! Most your relationships end in a flash So you might as well be in it for cash What's *Your* New Year's Resolution? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva cool. i think i love you, baby

happy new year [01 Jan 2003|12:22am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | benzino-crush, kill, destroy ] It's 2003...w00t. I was supposed to go to Katie's but she mysteriously disappeared...plus still feeling shitty so I decided not to go out...and my lovely parents decided to go out and leave me here alone. cool. But then my friend Steve IMs me saying he's coming over...so he chilled here and we talked about how Charter Tech sucks a dick for about 3 hours. Fun times. It was nice seeing him again. He left at about 11...Then I was bored as shit so I called Kelly and we talked for a little bit...I just got off the phone with her, to realize that it's now 2003, and right now I'm talking to Nicole and Ally, listening to Benzino, and feeling slightly less nauseated. so that's cool, I guess. The best thing about having the house to myself, is being able to blast music anmazingly loud...which I am doing at this moment. lol. Well, I'm gonna get to bed...Happy New Year, childrens. i think i love you, baby

::pukes:: [31 Dec 2002|04:00pm] [ mood | nauseated ] [ music | eminem-nail in the coffin ] Well, this is lovely... I have a stomach virus and I just finished vomiting...lovely. So I guess my New Year's plans are shot. Cool. 2 think they love me, toos| i think i love you, baby

i was wrong. [31 Dec 2002|02:03pm] [ mood | empty... ] [ music | aaliyah-i care for you ] This is eating me up inside. I hate this empty feeling that I have. All day all I've been doing is sitting here, all alone, about to cry...it was the same way last night. I feel so miserable. I had my doctor's appointment last night and my doctor said that I seemed better than the last time I was there...I told her about everything I've been feeling, and lately I have been better... But lately I've been getting these horrible bouts of depression. I still get the panic attacks a lot, and they've been worse then ever. I have moments where I feel great, and then 10 minutes later I'm in tears...the medicine doesn't seem to be working, at all. They said it will take a few weeks to kick in, but I'm sick of this constant depression. And I'm sure all of my friends are sick of hearing about it, but my friends are the only things that help me anymore. I can't lose them. I wish someone truly did love me. Or I at least wish that they would show it. i think i love you, baby

w00t [30 Dec 2002|01:01pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | 3lw-i do ] LiveJournal Trading Cards Free Account Edition lilstar416 User Number: 624069 Date Created:7-9-02 Number of Posts: 329 Kim, Kim, Kim....what to say about her. She is a very hard person to understand. Sometimes she can be the sweetest person you\'ve ever met, other times she can be a total complete bitch. However, Kim can get along with most people, and she likes almost everyone...you just can\'t get on her bad side. She loves acting and singing, and being with her friends. Strengths: Friendly; open-minded; nice to people as long as they\'re nice to her; has a high tolerance level. Weaknesses: Can be negative sometimes; gets upset by little things; has bad mood swings; also has a very bad temper; tends to scream out profanities at the worst possible times. Special Skills: The ability to hit people \"where it hurts\", physically and emotionally; can scream in people\'s faces when pissed off; good at talking to people who don\'t piss her off. Weapons: Legs that can swiftly be lifted up and perturded straight into a guy\'s nuts; fake nails perfect for scratching people\'s eyes out; and a very, very loud mouth at times. A wrod of advice from Kim..: A lot of people in this world are gonna talk shit on you and be ignorant...just let them, because you obviously affected their lives...they didn\'t affect yours. Make your own LiveJournal Trading Card! Brought to you by crossfire_ i think i love you, baby

trying to figure out this life [29 Dec 2002|03:24pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | avril lavigne-i'm with you ] I know, Avril Lavigne may be a bitch and whatnot, but I can't help but like this song...it's really pretty. I don't know how I feel about anything right now. My emotions are so mixed up. I really like this guy. And he claims to really like me. But we can't be together and it's driving me insane. It's a long story why we can't be together. But I hate it. I hate this confusion. What I felt with him was real. It really was. I know it. But we can't be together. And I hate it. 2 think they love me, toos| i think i love you, baby

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