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shaun mcdermott's LiveJournal:
| Friday, January 18th, 2002 | |
| 8:48 am | Greeting Card I had reached a point in my life, where I felt that "true love" was a thing of the past for me. There were nice people it's true, but no more being swept off my feet. And right about when I was ready to close the door on that chapter of my life, you walked in...and everything changed. Suddenly I found myself smiling almost all the time. And the more I learned about you, the more astounded I felt at just how perfect you were for me. There was no escaping the fact that what was happening between us ... was meant to be. And now, everytime you hold me in your arms, I realize that Life saved the very best for me. |
| Monday, January 14th, 2002 | |
| 4:30 pm | BREAD SONGS AND WHAT HAVE YOU baby...my sweet baby...i have never known anyone as sweet and fragile as you..i don't think i can ever hurt you in any way...not in this lifetime...doing that would simply be unforgivable....it would be pure defilement. here is something i reali love to hear from you again>> baby i'm a want you, baby i'm a need you, you're the only one i care enough to hurt about, maybe i'm a crazy, but i just can't live without.... your lovin and affection giving me direction like a guiding light to help me thru my darkest hour lately im a praying, that you'll always be a stayin beside me Used to be my life was just emotions passing by, then you came along and made me laugh and made me cry u taught me why... |
| 4:30 pm | BREAD SONGS AND WHAT HAVE YOU baby...my sweet baby...i have never known anyone as sweet and fragile as you..i don't think i can ever hurt you in any way...not in this lifetime...doing that would simply be unforgivable....it would be pure defilement. here is something i reali love to hear from you again>> baby i'm a want you, baby i'm a need you, you're the only one i care enough to hurt about, maybe i'm a crazy, but i just can't live without.... your lovin and affection giving me direction like a guiding light to help me thru my darkest hour lately im a praying, that you'll always be a stayin beside me Used to be my life was just emotions passing by, then you came along and made me laugh and made me cry u taught me why... |
| Thursday, January 10th, 2002 | |
| 4:54 pm | zzzzzzzz im bored, work sucks. if it sucks the way my baby does, things would have been more exciting. m kinda 'asiwa' in writing entries here now that my baby has access...makes me fel like i'm being watched...m totally not myself. i just want to share something though. these are lines that i really would want to live by (here goes my mushy self again)... ...work like you don;t need the money, ...love like you've never been hurt, ...dance like nobody's watching.... |
| Wednesday, November 14th, 2001 | |
| 1:34 pm | my visit oh well, i think my infatuation over a reli nice guy has ebbed.and it seems like he's having quite the time of his life with the kind of arrangement he has with his bf and THEIR lovers. i dont think i can take that, besides im happy terribly happy with bedbug. what more could i ask for? probably a different job!!!! |
| Friday, July 20th, 2001 | |
| 11:51 am | He just called up and saying mushy things and crying a lot....geeezzz how worst can he get!...doesn't he realize the danger he's putting me into?this is my workplace for chrissakes! I feel terrible though. It's not easy, I just cant shut everything out just like that...it's the memories thats killing me...he's become part of me...but all i know is that I'm not happy and i'm becoming someone I don't in the least bit like...We ceased to be healthy,happy, positive people and I don't think that's good..and now he's telling me his plans of changing and his plans for me...but I can just take promises so much...I have to put a stop to it and get out of this cycle.Its making me crazy, It breaks my heart really...I love the person-thats a fact, but then I can just go on like this and him also, I think he ought to get a life ...take a break...get a new change... Spent last night with the new one...he never ceases to amuse me...though I wish he could also be more sensitive and mature.:), and his family's treating him like some kid-geez at 22! and I wish we cud spend more time together, even on the phone, ou-know -who"would wake up...and just get over me...that's gonna save everybody all the shit... christ! i wanna cry! I wish 'y Current Mood:  melancholyCurrent Music: each day with you |
| Thursday, July 19th, 2001 | |
| 3:47 pm | Whew, so this is it...the talk of the chatroom. Well, this might be worth the try considering I don't get to let some steam off and blabber my way with someone over a cup of coffee or over the phone(wanting to talk with someone in person nowadays is purely wishful thinking, save for him who wants to se me everyday and unloads all his negative garbage on me!). All the Marks and the anthony's in the world ar up to here->see my finger...already in listening to my woes...besydes they're just so damn sore and jealous with all the time i spend with him that they'd want to see me on my knees *winks* before they give me the satisfaction of their listening ear and warm shoulders. Besydes, mr. new guy hasn't given me his number yet and i don't think i'd wanna make him the trashbag for all the baggage i'm carying. :) It's basically an easy day today....finished my presentations and reports and my bosses are out of town!hehehe...I talked to mr. new guy earlier(i mean 7:00 a.m.) and again around 10 and we kinda set the record straight. I just wish in evrything that's holy he's not playing any games. The person's nice...he makes me smile..makes my heart smile...and ooohhhh that's just the kind of change i need right now. It's a nice feeling to be my 22 year old self. Ive mentioned this time and again that I fel like someone hus around 70....but he makes me feel great...just great!I love it! I'm wondering where you-know-who is at right know...funny but I haven't heard from him the whle day...maybe tonight. Maybe tonight i'd have to start worrying....hE'S SUIDICDAL YOU KNOW! Current Mood:  relaxedCurrent Music: you make me feel brand new |