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| 04:20pm 25/03/2004 | |||
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"nobody likes me. everybody hates me. guess i'll go eat worms!" thanx guys.... |
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| 02:04pm 25/03/2004 | ||||
i've gone and done it again. wow, i really am a terrible person. |
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depressed| i think i'm in love........... | ||||
| 03:09am 08/03/2004 | ||||
they're fuckin amazing!!! i feel a longing deep inside my sole, pulling on the inside asking me not to go. asking instead, to stay around and explore some more. how could this have happened so quickly?!?! ever since first glace. i can't get the images out of my mind. such perfection. so traditional, yet extrmemly interesting and nonconventional. someday, i will be able to embrace all of the excitment at once. someday, life will be perfect. |
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restless| i'm free...free as a fuckin bird!!! | ||||
| 11:44am 26/02/2004 | ||||
fuck the bondage, they're gone. fuck you hot topic, you can no longer consume my soul. time to move on and move forward in life. i was sick of all your bullshit anyway. i left on my terms, not yours. i will fuck you pver in as manyways as i can think of. remember: the customer may not be right, but they are never wrong. i'm the fuckin customer now, bitch. what i says, goes. and think of all the people who use to shop there, just to see me :) no anymore. goodbye to your fuckin numbers, and indicators. you won't cut it by yourself you sorry sack of shit. and i will lay in bed late into the morning, and laugh at you from afar. welcome to the beginning of the end for you, asshole. you never know what you have til it's gone, i know i don't miss the place. but i think the fuckin place will miss me. ahhh, i can finally join the ranks of everyone else who has moved on in their life. guess what? i'll have time for people again. i may even go out and about like old times. all i have to concentrate on is school, not bad. oh, and if anyone knows of any job openings (perferably not in retail) let me know. i think i'm gonna go back to bed now. cuz i can do shit like that now. life is grand.... |
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cynical| 05:28pm 02/02/2004 | ||||
i wish i could make a really inspiring post. i wish that i wasn't feeling so lathargic. but as we all know, wishes are a waste of time, and they never come true anyway. |
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| (17 cunts have been fucked | fuck the motherfuckin backstabbing cunts) |
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lonely| i've decided to go public- | ||||
| 02:14am 20/12/2003 | ||||
i'm done being antisocial, done locking myself away by myself. in celebration just in time for my 21st fuckin birthday!!! be there. be square. i don't care. i'll be 21 and i can do whatever the fuck i want. i'll be at luna on tuesday the 23rd. anyone who is 21 or over needs to be there. i will be making my appearence roughly around midnight, so don't come too soon. i miss everybody, and i would like this to be special, even if i will never remember it. see you there!!!!!!!! presents are not neccessary to enter, but will niether be turned away. that is unless it sux really bad :). gotta keep practicing until then...... |
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drunk| i need to get this out....but it's not complete | |||
| 05:01am 13/12/2003 | |||
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but the list it too long if i had to name you all it wouldn't be in this song.... it doesn't make it better and it doesn't make it right i'm just thankful every night that you came in my life...... i don't have the song nearby to receive the lyrics from, remember so far...... |
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| you piss me off | ||||
| 03:04am 22/11/2003 | ||||
how can you criticize me for belittling you when you go on tangets abut how great nad perfect your x girlfriends are?????? don't you realize how much that hurts me when you talk about them and have nothing to say about me? do you realize you are imposing these unrealistic standards a\on me that are not part of who i am? that was them, not me. except me for who i am n dhow i am nad deal with it. i'm sorry i will never be perfect enough for you to marry or whatever, but this is who i am and how i am. if you dn't like it, then leave me alone and stop bothering me. i will not change, this is who i am. this is the prouct of my socialization. if it's nt up to your standards, and you've lived a better life, then by all means keep living it and don't include me then. this is who i am!!!! and i happen to like myself for the first time is my life. i like who i am, and what i've accomplished. if you cannot deal with it, then don't try to... you'll end up in misery. |
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annoyed| 02:25pm 01/10/2003 | |||
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just wanted to say thanx to melissa and george... even though they will probably never see this. |
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| what a glorious afternoon, and evening and night.... | ||||
| 01:55am 25/07/2003 | ||||
this is for a particular person that i am taking the time to write in this thing. someone told me recently that they miss resding my entries. actually there may have been 2 of you. ozzfest was fun and exciting. manson was a little disturbing in his mickey mouse ears. hanzel and gretyl was also an amazing show. it's a close call as to where the best times laid today. it doesn't matter because it was all good times with a beffers. we are gonna go shooting guns tomorrow. oooo what times. what exciting times we live in. i think i was exposed to the sun for too long today. i feel a little loopy. |
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content| 06:20pm 21/03/2003 | ||||
i could sell them for at least $40 make some good money, and give someone else a break on the price. |
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pleased| not what i really wanted to hear at all... | ||||
| 12:04pm 11/03/2003 | ||||
DOES ANYONE KNOW WHERE I CAN FIND A NEW CAR FOR INEXPENSIVE???!?!?!? goddamnit i'm fucked. |
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| (14 cunts have been fucked | fuck the motherfuckin backstabbing cunts) |
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disappointed| oh yeah | |||
| 05:36pm 19/11/2002 | |||
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today's my 3 year anniversary of working for hot topic. whoopdi-fuckin-do. god i'm lame. |
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| (5 cunts have been fucked | fuck the motherfuckin backstabbing cunts) |
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| just friends speeches are great | ||||
| 05:20pm 19/11/2002 | ||||
tomorrow i leave to go to columbus, ohio for a week. yeah, great fun. it's gonna be a hell of a lot of work and i do not feel in the mood to do so much as of late. in november, i lose all my friends, or so it would seem. wheni would like to hang ot and talk to them, they are not around. this is the tmie of the year that i hate the most. this is the time of the year when i would cherish those people most. but they don't care. nobody cares. and i'm not looking for sympathy here or any of that bullshit. i'm using my journal as it was intended, to vent. i'm in a rut of sadness. i can't seem to get out. i'm worried about gettin gold, but at the same time, i'm too young for everyone else. it will be nice when i an finaaly go out to a bar and drink and hang out. by the time that comes around though, everyone will be burned out on going to the bar. all i want for christmas, it some moral supprt. i want to be cared for, and to have people to care for. ah, fuck christmas. i'm really more concerned with my birthday. call me selfish if you wish. i don't give two shits. a birthday is a person's own personal day. it's theirs to do what they want and to enjoy themselves, because of that day that person is here in the present. people are way too fuckin greedy at this time of the year. i hear of all these families who will be getting together, and of all the materialistic bullshit that they will receive. what happens, or what can one say to add to the conversation wen that person doesn't know these concepts to which they speak? i guess i might be going to frankinbooth or whatever for the holiday, but that just means that the entire family is going to be drunk in a nice atmosphere. wow. i should just stay home and drink wine to myself again. i don't know if i realy hate my family that much, i just pretty much dislike them. maybe i'm just bitter from childhood. maybe this is all justified..... now my ramblings end. i must go to a class in which i will probably fall asleep in. i have nothing better to do. |
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| boi, that was a change, and was definately needed | ||||
| 09:24pm 27/10/2002 | ||||
i have gone and come back safe ad sound from the west coast. although i know some people that would not agree that i should have come home safe... anyway, this is the first vacationi have had in probably at least a year. the flight there was entertaining. it was really the first time that i had flown. i saw the grand canyon, and the rocky mountains from the plane. we also flew over las vegas, though you could barely tell except that the captain told us we were. after landing we were picked up adn taken to the hotel located in uuniversal city, hollywood. after uunpacking, we hopped n the subway and ended up in north hollywood, where we preceeded to go shopping. i found a texas chainsaw massacre shirt and found this cool green hippy looking skirt for free because it had a little hole that is not even noticable on the front. after hopping the subway back, we were feeling kinda tired, so we didn't want to walk up the steep fuckin hill that the hotel was located on. we saw the trolly and thought that it would take us up to the hotel. needless to say, the trtrolly went by the hotel and continued to the "citywalk" which is a tourist shopping area of universal studios or something. figuring since we were up there we wondered around. it was pretty fuckin chilly. everyone there was wearing their winter jackets and shit, but it was only like in the 50's. we went back to the hotel and fell asleep pretty early for the time out there. and pretty early for time here back home. next day was the big one....god this post is taking forever. this is all for now. i will have the next day installment later wheni can type again. |
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| ohmimotherfuckingod | ||||
| 04:20pm 02/10/2002 | ||||
i woke up feeling shitty, i went to bed feeling shitty, i expected today to just be shitty. oh no! NOT THIS TIME!!!!!! my phone call, that i receive was about being flown out to california to sit in during a simpsons voice over session!!! best part: complimens of hot topic. they are paying airfair, hotel, i think basically everything. i'm sofuckn giddy about this right now. i was such a stero-typical gurl when i found out the news. i screamed into the phone in a very high pitched voice "no fuckin shit?!?!!!!!!!" i almost feel sorry for scott's ear at that moment, but i'm too happy to be too concerned. this is exactly what i've been looking for and what i need. I CAN'T FUCKIN WAIT!!! :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):) |
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| it always has to end on a sour note | ||||
| 12:18am 04/09/2002 | ||||
i hate that goddamned bastard soooo fuckin much. after all this time why does his presence still bother the shit out of me?? i really don't think there are many people that i hate but i can say for sure that i HATE the cocksucker!!!!! all the shit i've been through....all the shit HE put me through. and he has the fuckin nerve to show up at my front door. i'm still shaking with rage. trembling even. so i had quit smoking like a month and a half ago, and all i feel like doing right now is chain smoking. i should be above this and him. but he makes me want to bash his fuckin skull in with a baseball bat. and how can my brohers still associate with him when they know everything that happened???? that hurts too. now i'm hanging out with friends, and i'm trying not to be a total drag, but here i am on the computer writing here and talking on line. talk about me being fuckin lame..... |
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| (10 cunts have been fucked | fuck the motherfuckin backstabbing cunts) |
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aggravated| fuckin make up your goddamned mind | ||||
| 04:51pm 14/08/2002 | ||||
fucked if i know. i know i received a bitchy phone call and email for lovely romona saying i wasn't putting forth enough effort. FUCK HER!!!! i know i sent an email back explaining that i had surgry and that was why i could not come in as much as some of the other fuckers. i know that i have been doing this for like 2 years and have not had a complaint yet so WHAT THE FUCK???!???!?!!? now i am receiving the emails that are sent out to everyone again. FUCK THEM!! anyway, i can't wait for tomorrow night. this is kinda last minute, but i was approved for a fire premit at my house while my father and brother are out of town and i'm gonna throw a bonfire and have lots to drink. :) anyone who would like is invited to come over and join in the festivities. it's goona be sooooo fuckin cool. |
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| (3 cunts have been fucked | fuck the motherfuckin backstabbing cunts) |
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drained| oowwwwwwwwwiiieeeee.............kjsdfhlakjhhlkZNSDKlfh | ||||
| 08:43pm 20/07/2002 | ||||
i have lots of vicodin. i can barely move or feel anything. you can just imagine watching me try to type this. it's ok though. in a couple of days i will be able to comsume solid food again. i will not be smoking again though. :( i did get to keep my teeth!!!!! and i can't talk very coherently. now to curl back up on my little couch and watch the simpsons videos chris is letting me barrow. time to take another pill........ |
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| (7 cunts have been fucked | fuck the motherfuckin backstabbing cunts) |
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high| mmmm...computer.... | ||||
| 07:46pm 04/07/2002 | ||||
NOT FAIR!! hoping to find shit to do tonight. i want to see pretty fireworks. hmmmm. i AM right about where elizabeth lake is, maybe i can get a group together. i also need to get drunk and go swimming today. and i just got off work. blah, life has seemed boring for the most part. my counterpart is out of town and i'm apartment sitting her place, but it's just not the same going to village place without her. random shit always happens when we're together. good times. my fuckin car is being dumb again. something is wrong in the front end. probably a halfshaft. so all in all i'm driving my dad's old car which is a bigger piece of shit then my car. time to find people, places, and drink. HAPPY FOURTH OF FUCKIN JULY |
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