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Thursday, December 18th, 2003
3:05 pm	The Rules: 01. Copy this whole list into your journal. 02. Bold the things that you have in common with me. 03. Whatever you don't bold, replace with things about you. Me compared with TheKefka 1. I have all the rpgs for psx. 2. I eat when i'm bored. 3. I rock out harder than anyone. 4. I suck at shaving. 5. I call it "Soda," not "Pop." 6. I am afraid of what I am capable of. 7. I can kinda speak Japanese 8. I can never catch a fucking break. 9. But that probably isn't true. 10. I really like seafood. 11. I am looking at a computer screen. 12. I like grammar. I try to notice grammatical errors. 13. I hate The Ozzbournes. 14. I hope someday I'll find happiness. 15. but I think I'll die before I can realize it. 16. or she'll divorce/or whatever to me and leave me worse off then when I started. 17. I think I'm weird, and not in the good way. 18. I think my tendencies change. 19. I can't stand being alone in public. 20. I appreciate satire. 21. I show too much emotion on my face. 22. Man, I've got a fucking headache. 23. I always think everyone is out for themselves. 24. I procrastinate. 25. I am pretty indifferent to politics. 26. George W. Bush makes me embarrased to call myself an American. 27. I don't think he'll be re-elected. 28. I hate people. 29. People are jealous of me. 30. I know some cool people online whom I've never met. 31. They want to meet me. 32. I get annyoing really fast. 33. I eat so much meat it's not even funny. 34. I take things that people say to heart. 35. I don't like the new Star Wars movies. 36. I barely like The Matrix. 37. I think Maddox is genious. 38. I root for the underdog. 39. I hate my indiscrepencies. 40. My shower is not broken. 41. I can be very cynical. 42. I am depressed rarely, but very depressed when I am. 43. I am very good at sleeping. 44. But not as good as the deceased. 45. I sleep because I have hang-overs and I don't want to deal with my laundry. 46. I'm a fuck-up. 47. I love photography. 48. I avoid cheating. 49. I am a terrible person. 50. I avoid lying. 51. If my computer broke, I dont know what I would do with myself. 52. no, seriously, I would have a fucking breakdown. 53. I've worn the same clothes for five years. 54. Im really not that bad a guy once you get to know me. 55. no, really. 56. I like change, but its hard to do it. 57. I get nervous over things. 58. Anxiety will be the end of me. 59. I forget what mysogynist means. 60. I wish I still did the LJ deally. 61. I wish I talked with more of my hometown friends on aim. 62. I like going to plays. 63. I like making things for people. 64. I get worked up over things that aren't very important in the long run. 65. I like a lot of obscure music. 66. I cannot STAND the radio. 67. I listen to the same band for months without getting bored of it. 68. I get stuck on the details while missing the bigger picture. 69. I don't know who vicent price is. 70. I enjoy travelling. 71. I like driving too. 72. I wish I could go to europe or japan. 73. Getting drunk is a waste of time, but a man without vices is a man without virtues. 74. Drugs are lame. 75. I daydream about unrealistic things. 76. and I hope that they come true. 77. I keep a long sharp screwdriver next to my desk, just incase they do come true. 78. If I ever become fluent in Japanese, I'll shit myself. 79. Stevie Spice is the greatest thing to happen to music. 80. and Lance Rockworthy. 81. and Eddy Eyeball. 82. and Special J. 83. and J. Guevara. 84. and Mikey B. 85. and A.J. Stumpy Johnson. 86. I hate most teenagers that don't have tits. 87. Just kidding. I hate the vast majority of them. 88. Even though I say high school is worthless, I wish I did better. 89. I like people with intellectual wit. 90. I feel like there's something missing. 91. Sometimes I'm over-motavated. 92. I’m interested in photography. 93. I am interested in Japanese culture. 94. but Japanese Language and hot girls more then anything. 95. I reminisce to myself a lot. 96. I've never been stood up. 97. Taco Bell is the majority of my diet. 98. I don't know a lot of random Trivia. 99. Ninja are better then pirates. 100. If I lost or broke my ps2, I'd go apeshit. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 24th, 2003
7:50 pm	You all know the Test Sunday, July 8th, 2001 Paranoid: Low Schizoid: Low Schizotypal: Low Antisocial: Moderate Borderline: Low Histrionic: Very High Narcissistic: High Avoidant: Low Dependent: Low Obsessive-Compulsive: High Today: Disorder Rating Paranoid: High Schizoid: Low Schizotypal: Moderate Antisocial: High Borderline: Low Histrionic: High Narcissistic: High Avoidant: Moderate Dependent: Moderate Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate -- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- Whooo, This thing is always fun. Just seeing the changes. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 31st, 2002
10:50 pm	James- As James, you have a natural interest in the welfare of your fellow man, and a desire to help and serve others in a humanitarian way. You are responsible and generous, although somewhat scattering and disorganized at times. Any jobs requiring systematic and conscientious effort, or involving any form of drudgery, dismay you. In your work, you would seek a position offering self-expression through contact with people, such as sales or teaching, or a position giving scope to your creative, artistic talents. You are good-natured and likeable, and people tend to confide in you and seek your advice in personal problems. Others sense your sincere interest and desire to help, and you can always be counted on to see the bright side of any problem. You enjoy making others happy and you never let your own problems "get you down" for any length of time, even though you do tend to worry too much at times. Your optimism can be a source of inspiration to others as well as yourself. In close personal relationships you are usually thoughtful and considerate. However, your natural interest in others, coupled with your sympathetic reaction to problems, could draw you into emotional situations which may be difficult to get out of. Health weakness would appear as skin conditions or ailments relative to the liver. A tendency to overeat quick-energy foods aggravates any health problems. JJ The name of Jj creates a very passive, easy-going, friendly nature. You love people and desire to get along with everyone you meet. Your desire for sociability and the pleasant things in life makes you too easily influenced through your associations. You have imagination and many ideas but you lack the drive or initiative to put these into effect. It is difficult for you to say "no" and mean it or to carry through with any commitments you have made. This name makes you too lackadaisical. The influence of this name is to lack practicality, system and order, organizing ability, astuteness, and the ability to make decisions and act upon them. Due to procrastination you have many unfulfilled desires. You often lean upon the strength of those around you for guidance. You appreciate the finer things in life such as good clothes, pleasant surroundings, and friendly companions. You find it difficult to tolerate circumstances that are not up to your particular standards. The physical weakness created by this name affects the fluid functions of the body. Nic The name of Nic has given you a strong desire for success and all the amenities of affluence. You pursue your undertakings on a grand scale, based on your business acumen and ability to visualize an overall plan. Your enthusiasm, aggressiveness, and salesmanship are often sufficient to bring about fulfillment of your ambitions. However, in the attempt to impress others with the scope of your success, you can over-extend your resources to the point that you have inadequate means to cover your basic expenses. There are times when you would be advised to start in a smaller way, and gradually reach your desired level of success through perseverance, patience, and attention to details. When things are going well, you have a generous, magnanimous nature, ready to offer support and assistance to others. When under stress, you can become overbearing and belittling in your attitude to others, and inclined to express sarcasm and temper. Should you become too inwardly focussed on your own world of personal relationships or material possessions, you could suffer disappointments with those close to you, unfulfilled ideals, or material losses. Health weaknesses centre in the generative organs or appear as general nervous tension. Not bad over all, whats not true- James- " In your work, you would seek a position offering self-expression through contact with people, such as sales or teaching, or a position giving scope to your creative, artistic talents." Truth- I'd nather do all of that and not have to talk to a single person. "...and you never let your own problems "get you down" for any length of time, even though you do tend to worry too much at times." Truth- Very true, except female problems level me out like earthquakes do cities. It took me......5 months last time? >_< "Your optimism can be a source of inspiration to others as well as yourself." Truth Not my optimisim, my determination is was inspires others. I'm not the most optimistic person in the world. JJ "It is difficult for you to say "no" and mean it or to carry through with any commitments you have made." Truth- You all know i'm worth every bit of my word. "You often lean upon the strength of those around you for guidance." Truth- Uhh...No. I'm alone. What's my famous phrase? "I'm alone in this world, I fight my demons alone, so if I lose, it's only on me." " You appreciate the finer things in life such as good clothes, pleasant surroundings, and friendly companions. You find it difficult to tolerate circumstances that are not up to your particular standards. " Truth- I don't care about clothes, and I'm a very tolerant person but only on certain things. Other things, I'm a total ass about, and demand them my way. Nic "The name of Nic has given you a strong desire for success and all the amenities of affluence. You pursue your undertakings on a grand scale, based on your business acumen and ability to visualize an overall plan. Your enthusiasm, aggressiveness, and salesmanship are often sufficient to bring about fulfillment of your ambitions." Truth- Only applies when I give a shit, when I don't, i'm like JJ, lackadaisical. What's VERY true- Nic "When under stress, you can become overbearing and belittling in your attitude to others, and inclined to express sarcasm and temper." No comment needed. James- "Health weakness would appear as skin conditions or ailments relative to the liver." *cough* Alcoholic *cough* JJ- "The name of Jj creates a very passive, easy-going, friendly nature. You love people and desire to get along with everyone you meet." Yeah, I've got mad charisma, and like to please others. Post your comments you all, catch something I missed. Current Mood: blah Current Music: Ayumi Hamasaki - And Then (Voice Spectral Mix) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 2nd, 2002
12:20 am	Some people just don't learn.... This is just a random rant it'll probably be lengthy, but probably amusing too- Why don't people understand that I have a right to choose my friends? If tomorrow I decided I didn't want to friends with one of you anymore....guess what? I wouldn't! Its that whole, "You can pick your friends, but you can't pick your family" See...I can choose my friends, I can choose who I associate with. And if you have hard feelings. Note to someone- If I don't talk to you for two years....I probably don't want to to talk you. Some people are stupid, they don't understand simple things. But then again, I love a good argument, especially one where I can be an ass get away with it. Which brings me to my next point....We're all growing up..... It's freaking wild and sort of eerie as well...I always promised myself I'd never be a work-a-holic and always have time for me...But I am one now. I enjoy working a lot, its good money, and you don't have to deal with stupid shit. Even though today was my first day off in two weeks, still, it's nice to get two paychecks. Even still, we're all going off and doing our thing, I hope to keep in touch with just about all of you (that being my friends) but the rest of the HS crap, I hope just flushes away and is gone....kinda odd huh? Guess this is growing up..... :-( I wonder how we'll all turn out, If Mishi and I get that nightclub, if Jordan and L get married, if Angel survives on her own (i think you will ;-) , if J becomes a Ninja....or gets a Jazz drumming degree, if Rob will still be working at CCC when we're all done, If i get to Japan or not, If amy gets to Japan or not, if Carole will survive on her own in Georgia, If Seema will design all our clothes for the future, if LOASIS will do something in college, the list could go on.....if i forgot someone.....I probably just forgot (i'm looking at ppl who are online) if Russ and Heather will still be together, will Russ still post dumb stuff in his LJ....(lol)......in any case....I'm just losin a bit of my mind here.... And i shocked the CRAP out of myself playing DDR today, sweat+ligh+electricity=James getting shocked=OUCH My arm is STILL numb....like 30 mins later....and my wrist really hurts I WANT SOME DAMN COMMENTS PEOPLE, MAKE ME FEEL SPECIAL Current Mood: amused Current Music: System of a down - Fuck The System (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, June 21st, 2002
9:35 am	World Cup The US lost 1-0, i didn't think they'd beat the germans, but they played much better than i expected- Good Show USA! Time for my ass to get to work.... My sched- Fri 10a-2p Gamestop 6p-4a Amsco Sat 9a-5p Gamestop (might be able to drop this shift...) SLEEP Sun 4:30am-2pm Amsco the round up for me- South Korea over spain- 1-0, Germans over South Korea 3-1 Senegal vs Turkey....? Who cares, they're going to lose to brazil Germany vs Brazil 2-1, or 2-2 with germany taking it over brazil in OT or PK's Current Mood: determined Current Music: ESPN Sportscenter (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 9th, 2002
12:51 am	Can our hero survive?!?!? Schedule for work- Sunday- Off Monday- Mall- 12:30p - 5:30p Tuesday- Warehouse- 7a-3:30p then, Mall- 6p - Close Wedensday- 7a-3:30p but am taking CCNA...maybe Thursday- Taking English CLEP test, then Mall - 5 - Close Friday- Warehouse 7a-3:30p then Mall- 5p - Close Saturday- Warehouse- 4:30am - 2pm then, Mall- 5p - Close 62 hour work week.....w00t...... I'm going to die....... Current Mood: productive Current Music: Ultimate Fight DVD (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 8th, 2002
3:56 am	Good club I had a ton of fun tonight at Buzz, being me and pat there. Lots of people, music, glowsticks, breakers, it was all good. For a while in there i just sat on a sub and just zoned out and thought about stuff...i think i might have sorted some stuff out, i sure hope so. Tonight's experience has re-kindled my desire to break, because i did some old moves i know (and even though i thought i was shitty) people said i did alright. Another interesting thing happened, I actually talked to a girl there, (she actually came up to me) and we were talking for a bit, and i guess flirting or whatnot, so after a bit she turned away, lit a up cigarette, and turned back to talk to me. I've never seen someone's face melt off in front of my eyes before, but now i have. I've also never has a girls skull go "BWARRSHE!" in my face while attached to her body....Cigs=bad bad bad. Otherwise, great night. I think i might have made my "2nd peace" .....maybe i'm being a bit optomistic....oh well.... In other news today- The DC Police would like to let you know the Open Air Drug Market is now closed, thank you and please come again. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: koda kumi - Take Back (Hex Hector English Edit).mp3 (Comment on this)
Friday, June 7th, 2002
9:59 pm	A table turns- Well, i'm over here at pat's house waiting for us to leave to goto buzz....So i figured i might as well write and get some thoughts out of my pretty confusing head right now. In recent events: -James officially got WAY TOO DRUNK at L's house the other night, and apologizes profusely to all parties involved. -James has dream #4 in a series so far of wierd-ass dream's involving "faceless" girl...(i'm going to post them later) -James' fourth dream stumps Charpentier....odd for both parties.... -School has finally ended for James, he finishes with: NHS, Certificate of Merit, and a 3.4 wieghted GPA. -James officially has two jobs, and will be worked to death this summer. -After a long, bloody, loud, and most times embarrassing battle, James claim's a tenative victory over his Penis, details on the Peace treaty to follow. -Note to all, hair color gel works....odd.... -Still looking for Ms. Right, so if you read this, send me a telegram or something, k? ...that seems to be about it... Went out to diner with some friends for Angels birthday, made up for some stupid shit i did, its all good. Well....I don't know what else to write right about now, I'll when i return from Buzz (feat. Dj Dan and Scott Henry, should be good) and see where my mind has taken me. I'm oddly calm right now, I'm happy, see you round all. Current Mood: complacent Current Music: Gorillaz, nice system too i might add.... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 29th, 2002
3:11 pm	*ponders* Practice was gay, (that being graduation practice) but i ate breakfast with L, Amish, Kate, Angel, Tasha, and Heather- So that was fun, actually a ton of fun, and tomorrow i'm eating breakfast with them all again. :-) On other news- its been a year...today, for those of you who know what i'm talking about, you'll know what i mean. It's sort of eerie...it feels different than i thought it would....it feels empty, but none the less, I did the right thing (or at least my brain is telling me that)......I've got a new ayu song, so that's distracting me from the reality of it, I think... Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Ayumi Hamasaki - Free & Easy.mp3 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 25th, 2002
9:23 pm	GOLDFINGER well lets see, this friday, i was all geared up to goto this Foam party at Nations (which i know would have been hella cool) and LAN at jordan's for some SOF II (WHICH IS AN AWESOME GAME....OMG....) So then i'm walking in the hall and spot Charpentier. He's like "Goldfinger, Nations". I'm like "I don't really listen to Goldfinger, but hell, I could use a good punk show." My mom didn't want me to goto both, so i blew off the Foam party ('till we go clubbing in a week or two). To make this long story short, I rock some punk gear, and Plaid Blazer, and we roll up there. It was fun as hell, there's no POSSIBLE way they could put on a better show at HFStival. I jumped around, moshed, knocked people over, screamed fun lyrics like, He's a dick, "He's a dick!", Fuck him, "Fuck Him!", Ass-hole, "Ass-hole!!". It was mad fun, I love Goldfinger now. It was so cool for the band to hang out after the show and signed stuff. Most make you pay, or aren't cool enough to even hang around. So I had a ton of fun (for free too!!!), and have to do this punk show thing more often and such. YOU ROCK J, Thanks for inviting! And yes, my ears almost 18 hrs later are still ringing. Current Mood: like my ears need to stop ringin Current Music: Goldfinger - Answers.mp3 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 22nd, 2002
12:07 am	RANT- the b-side OH YEAH, MY FAVORITE LOAD OF HIGH SCHOOL BULLSHIT "WE'RE PREPARING/TRAINING/MODELING/MOLDING FOR THE FUTURE" also- "we try to teach you like adults" They try to teach us like adults....WHAT THE HELL? I bet my dad doesn't have to get a note from his mom when he misses work. I bet when my dad gets in an argument his parents don't get called. "hey, lets treat these kids like adults, and when they step out of line, rather than dealing with it like real adults, (not us pussy-bitch teachers/administrators) we'll just throw them out of our class rooms, suspend them, tell they're mommy on them." Well son, you got in a fight, i'm going to call your mommy. WHERE THE HELL IS THE ADULT FREAKING TREATMENT IN THAT. I swear, if i have kids, NO TEACHER will EVER touch them, even if my kid is dead wrong, he's going to be the one to balance the years of horrendus underabilities of the current teacher/administrator force. Hey teachers, underpaid? want a raise? BITE ME. I'd rather give every single bit of my tax money to derrilict drunks on the street than give you a freaking penny to buy yourself food. Want a raise? earn some respect. Want a raise? Learn what your supposed to be able to teach. Want a raise? Drop your 'holier than thou" attitude. Want a raise? Then make an actualy difference and stop fronting. Want better text books? Learn how to use the one's you got, idiots. Want students under control? Learn the golden rule. Want kids to respect you? Don't say stupid shit like "thats not my concern" when a student had to work that night and couldn't do his homework. Want a different job? Good. We're on the same page, because you sure are doing a shitty job at this one, go pump gas. Its no big secret why america's test scores suck compared to the rest of the world. Our kids aren't taught well. Sheep can't teach other sheep. Current Mood: like going on a crusade Current Music: ayumi hamasaki - kanariya.mp3 (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 21st, 2002
11:39 pm	Oh dear god...... Why, why, why?!? Why does school have to ruin everything? .....dear god, this is total bs. Lets recap- Right now, i've got 3 freaking days left, just like most of my friends do, and they go and fail my friend mike. He's had some trouble, was passing this year by the skin of teeth but still passing...and they go and fail him, FOR SEEING STAR WARS. I want these people to rot in eternal hell. They don't belong on this earth, they're total evil pricks with no life. Next- My friend scott got kicked out for tucking in his shirt......i'm not even going to get started on that bullshit... Next- My friend pat, pat, although being one of the smartest people i know, and one of the most gifted writers i know, was destroyed by school, and told to drop out. what the shit. "here at America's public high school's we encourge kids to prosper" Eat a dick public education. You guys can't get anything right, with our 'role model' principal who cheats and dumps his wife, thats what i want to do when i get older!!! next- Two girl have hung themselves this year from our highschool. Hmmm....wonder why? They're convinced its the students, "that damn rap music and those 'extamusy' drugs". They're too ignorant and blatantly stupid to look at thier own reflection. next- Stupid teachers. B-r-y-c-e. Enough said, if you've had him, you know that i'm talking about. i'm sure i have more to rant about, but i can't get my thoughts into anything coherant, i'm just going to play jedi outcast II until i pass out, then maybe i'll goto school tomorrow. Bye. Current Mood: like i need to go on a crusade Current Music: Ayumi Hamasaki - Trust.mp3 (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 19th, 2002
3:29 pm	Arg... well, i'm back. Whooo. Go me. I don't feel like making a blog, so here I am. Nothings changed, I'm still the pathetic loser I was before, now you all will just hear my confusing, altered to be undecipherable, bitch. Enjoy. Current Mood: Like Fighting. Current Music: Various Artists - Marilyn Manson-The Fight Song (Slipknot Re (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 12th, 2001
5:37 pm	no more LJ http://www.envy.nu/nictius/index.html thats where i'll be posting from now.......hope you like (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 6th, 2001
8:42 pm	Started a new RPG today.......Star Ocean- 2nd Story, it owns and im going to finish this one! .......nothing else to say really...... =P Current Mood: good Current Music: dance dance revolution 2nd mix - Paranoia Max (Dirty Mix).mp3 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, October 29th, 2001
10:45 pm	why.....did i do this to......me? that should have been my last title........i think i got virus...... my computer is dying....my video card doesn't work anymore, and it locks up a lot. I'm going to buy myself a new alienware system.....not a good one though, im aiming for under $1000, trying to get like p3 933, i'll go celeron if i must....anyways......just thought i'd say something Current Mood: remorse Current Music: yelling of my mind (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 27th, 2001
11:03 pm	.....why.....me? everything was going alright, work wasn't bad today, and i had a great time on friday night. So i come home after to get on my computer. There's one problem......it won't read either of my hard drives.....hmmmmm, after some tinkering, now my C: drive works.......but not my D: drive. For most of you that know me really well, my D: is everything, mp3s, games, .....everything and anything. If i don't get this working.....i dont know...... Current Mood: cold Current Music: *clicks winamp icon* "D:\music\mp3\winamp.exe" cannot be found" (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 24th, 2001
10:29 pm	blah today was alright.......well not really, played ddr till i started to get dizzy, then took a break.....ate a bunch of peppercini peppers then played till my dad started yelling at me i've decided not to try and accomodate people who aren't worth my effort or don't seem to try, i used to try to be nice to all, but im just tired of it Current Mood: cold Current Music: ayumi hamasaki - Cyber TRANCE presents ayu trance 03 Trauma (JamX & De Leon's DuMonde Remix).mp3 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 21st, 2001
8:57 pm	....? I feel kinda sick today, so i wasn't in a very good mood for work. My friend stopped by today with his leg in a soft cast, so i made a joke about him hurting it playing soccer. He got into a car accident and totaled his car, (i missed all the cuts on him from the broken glass) and he has surgery coming up soon. His friend in the car with him got his left leg cut off from the knee down.... what the hell is going on? Current Mood: cold Current Music: ayumi hamasaki - Cyber TRANCE presents ayu trance - 09 Evolution (Goldenscan remix).mp3 (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:48 am	woohoo Wow, that dance was FUN! i can't believe i had fun at a school dance....first one in a while. Got some glow sticks up in there too hehehe......note to all- freaking with black girls is fun! *cough* ^_^ Anyways, im out, english project Current Mood: content Current Music: ayumi hamasaki - and then.mp3 (Comment on this)