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| User: | abaculo (112507) |
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| Name: | Mark Abaddon |
| Location: | I Dont Exist onyour r a d a r, California, United States | | Birthdate: | 1978-10-14 |
| Bio: | I'm adrift.
the rest is what i am here to discover.
By Sept of 2001 - I realize I have Learned a few things. I am excited by how much more there is to Know because I am no longer scared of the road or directions I have to take.
However, I am deeply saddened by the realization that all of the things I have learned thus far, are concepts and meanings for which I have no REAL ability to Relate.
My search continues to satisfy the Primary Goal of my Life. Communication.
November & December are months of pain, December has had some few Sharp Highlights, it is discovered that those highlights only feed further into the pain. Much is on hold, all that can be done is to wait.. wait and hope to heal.
Horrendous Oversight: I have never mentioned that I am not alone. I do not live life as One - I Live Life as part of a 'WE'. I have a marvelous Friend. All discovery - All Life - All moments of Highest Happiness - All desire to continue can find the roots of themselves in this self contained unit that is 'WE'.
the pain of november & december
the waiting
has been worsened greatly by a forced separation due to forces outside of our control.
Time to Heal = Time back in Her presence = Time in which I can be MYself = Time in which I can BE.
One of my greatest -as yet unrealized- dreams is to ALLOW Her.
A correction: Earlier I made a statement that the roots of many important things could find themselves in 'WE' - this is not untrue, but for the sake of clarity it might be better to say - In WE the roots of those things which have Great
Importance to us Find Light, Air, & Water.
All Essences of Life.
(thus it is made known that without the occurance of the miracle of WE - those roots (seeds in hybernation) might never have found the ability to Strive.
December sets me up for the fall of January.
2002..I can only force myself to Find Light and Air. to close my eyes and hold my face into the sun for the feel. If i let go or look down - i will scream.
January. the new year has begun. My highest hopes - are being engaged,
in the most FUCKING torturous way.
I have to prove myself worthy.
Will this take months - Years?
I will be Here. I promise.
I promise. |
| Interests: | 146: alaska-year-round, anais nin, archetypal-influence, architecture, art, asthetes, aural sensation, ayn rand, back-packing, bjork, books, bruce lee, cafe's, cats, chance, coffee, cold air, comfort, communication, connotations, conversation, cultural dishes, culture, cut, dark, day, days-before-rain, death cab for cutie, debate, decades, depression, dictionaries, disguises, documentanarianism, dogs, dreamingawake, eastern culture, edwardnorton-timroth-tomwaits, elephants, elizabeth mcgrath, energy, english, enthusiasm, era's, erendira, eyes, eyes & lips, eyeshadow, face, female spy's, finger-pads, fingers, foreplay, form-content-meaning, frank lloyd wright, french, friends, functionalism-simplicity-honesty, german, germans, gray-skies, haikus & hands, hands & healing, hermitism, hip-bones & hips, history, hitch hiking, howard rourke & humanity, images, individuality, interplay, intonations, japan, john irving, laid-back-people, language, less, librarians & libraries, life, lips, moodiness, more, most other countries, mouth, music, new york, north carolina, opportunity, outside, owls, people watching, people-who-want-to-talk, philosophy, photography, pj harvey, plants, playing dress up, reading, reason, robbie-the-robot, running, russian, ryhming, sarah, self discovery, sensation, sensual, shari, skin, soft-style-precepts, sound, spy's, strangers, sub-culture, subtext, subtlety, swapping wordsasbreathasartaslife, symbolism, synderesis, synesthesia, teeth, the 5 senses, the americas, the art of tease, the autumnal phase, the century, the east, the mind, the really east-east, the soul, the south, the-heroin-look, thought, throat, tongue, totality, touch, traveling, visual stimulation, walking, war-in-history, weather, word-play, words, worship, writing |
| Friends: | 13: 384, abstraction, anchoret, emberfly, explode, flaweddiamond, hatchetface, latentaura, rvrssciociosan, sharikins, uminthecoil, villanelle, zoeythustra |
| Friend of: | 16: 384, _violetflame_, abstraction, anchoret, emberfly, explode, flaweddiamond, hatchetface, imagefactory, intersubjective, randomfemale, rvrssciociosan, sharikins, uminthecoil, villanelle, zoeythustra |
| Account type: | Free User |
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