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Thursday, July 26th, 2001
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2:47 pm - time's flying
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really, where did it go???
i fell like a buzzy little bumble bee, still there is to much work coming up.
snuggled yesterday a lot with sascha.... now i smell like him *sigh* i just don't know what the hell i'm doing there. i gave this guy a basket and said forever goodbye, now we two sitting in front of the school and holding hands.
i need vacation, this won't work out....... I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO STUPID!!!!!!
he is really borring, annoying and bugs me the whole time. did i mentioned that he's totally crazy???? oh god..... please, i need some vacation. especially....... *smile*
love, lue
current mood:  bouncy
current music: you don't care about us
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| Friday, July 20th, 2001
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10:09 pm - just bad memories
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did ever somebody hit you?
one year ago some fucking bastard, who i loved a lot, did it and broke everything what was between us. he always was like my big brother and such a sweet person. this night he got drunk and tried to touch me. i said no, nothing more, he was mad and it happened. nothing worse.... just the feeling, that someone you trust does beat you.
there was something really wrong. he was sorry, but that doesn't help, does it.
he gave me the cutest little nickname, kellogs.
i was his little sister kellogs. oh damn him, i loved him so much and at this moment he just gave a fuck about me.
current mood:  sad
current music: our song, that's why........
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| Thursday, July 19th, 2001
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2:47 pm - jaja!!!
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i was today at this beautiful exhibition, called "der kalte blick" (= the cold view).
it was about pictures of the early 20th century.
you won't believe how beautiful everything was.
most of the pictures were from private owners.
there was one picasso (not abstract!!!), the portrait of olga. i just had to buy the poster of it. *sigh*
mary didn't call. oh gosh..... this girl is horrible in love and forgets everything around her.
probably, i'm going to call her right now. it's rainy outside, and she will catch a cold, if she plans on staying her whole life outside in the rain. still, isn't it romantic *smile*
love, lue
current mood:  sleepy
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| Wednesday, July 18th, 2001
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11:49 pm - love
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i read today this entry from a girl here at livejournal. she talked about not being loved. i wished i were able to answer, but she locked this ability. this was her only post and it's five weeks ago. i hope she is allright.
it's horrible if you don't feel loved.
i hope there is somebody to help her. hey darling, i believe in you.
current mood:  touched
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12:12 pm - serpentine
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rain... rain... rain...
anyways, it seems like a real nice day with nothing to do. my best friend is planning on visiting this one boy (nobody is allowed to met him *sigh*) she kind of likes likes a lot.
i'm listening to a couple of nice songs from dEUS.
this group is just great, i am so in love with their songs. why? tell me, why have a break now?
i would love to see them on concert.
my story is comming along just fine. at the moment i'm making love with the idea of writing again fanfiction. but i just don't know. it's probably not serious enough.... and i have to finish the real thing or it never ever ever will find an end.
love, lue
current mood:  lethargic
current music: serpentine - dEUS
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| Tuesday, July 17th, 2001
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2:27 pm - *sigh*
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that's getting more and more confusing.
isn't it kind of creepy, when people tell you, that live is supposed to be confusing???
current mood:  busy
current music: bruise pristine - placebo
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2:27 pm - *sigh*
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that's getting more and more confusing.
isn't it kind of creepy, when people tell you, that live is supposed to be confusing???
current mood: busy
current music: bruise pristine - placebo
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2:23 pm
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that's getting more and more confusing.
isn't it kind of creepy, when people tell you, that live is supposed to be confusing???
current mood: busy
current music: bruise pristine - placebo
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1:59 pm - wise up!!!
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hello!!! i finally finished the picture of dorian gray. oh, it gets so scarry at the end. i really love this book. it's great!!! read it!!!
now i'll probably start rock'n roll babylon.
nothing interesting today..... still eight weeks of vacation to go, smile.
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| Monday, July 16th, 2001
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5:15 pm - i know
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there we go...... in any case somebody is ever reading this stuff (what i don't really believe)welcome..... smile.
dear love, it was a horrible beautiful day. i met all my old classmates again. actually they were happy seeing me again. i can't believe, that i will join them soon.... 11th grade.... i am so afraid of going there. 40 hip hop fanatics and my best friend mary with no other topic than thom yorke. *sigh*
have to go........ why?..... because of.......
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