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Sunday, March 3rd, 2002

Subject:love
Time:7:33 pm.
i want to be in fucking love too.
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Thursday, February 21st, 2002

Subject:bumfuck
Time:6:46 pm.
Mood: okay.
Music:lala.
yeppers. not much happened today. still haven't really found people on livejournal. gargle. i will be back later. i am playing with my pink elephant. actually i am just doing some art and smoking a jack. ok tata stay safe and blessed be )O(
isabel
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Tuesday, February 19th, 2002

Subject:suspension
Time:6:05 pm.
Mood: annoyed.
Music:beatles.
well i am home now becuase i am suspened today. it really sucks and it is really good at the same time. i needed a break and it sucks because well ya know one really wants suspension. but whatever. i am going to do art all day. and prolly watch some movies. i will write more later. tata
stay safe and blessed be )O(
isabel

btw lots of fights are goin on in my house lately
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Saturday, February 16th, 2002

Subject:hola i am isabel
Time:7:42 pm.
Mood: bitchy.
Silence presses down on my dangerously cold skin,
as the tangled voices erupt from within.
Exhausted tears keep unwanted fears
lurking to destroy.
Crimson dreams of cascading streams are being sought to soothe,
the misconceptions and mass deceptions unleashed upon my soul.
Urgent patience looms under my penetrable protection,
as I find irreconcilable direction.
Never digging deep enough to experience ultimate relief,
I demand to feel at ease,
while I breathlessly breathe.
~isabel

i'm a lolli-pop porn bitch
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Subject:just something i wrote and clubs i belong to and tests i took
Time:7:39 pm.

Silence presses down on my dangerously cold skin,
as the tangled voices erupt from within.
Exhausted tears keep unwanted fears
lurking to destroy.
Crimson dreams of cascading streams are being sought to soothe,
the misconceptions and mass deceptions unleashed upon my soul.
Urgent patience looms under my penetrable protection,
as I find irreconcilable direction.
Never digging deep enough to experience ultimate relief,
I demand to feel at ease,
while I breathlessly breathe.
~isabel
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Time:7:33 pm.
Mood: tired.
Music:the shit music blasting from my twin sisters room.
well.......tomorrow i am planning on seeing robin and stina from northwest. robin is out on a day pass from her residential treatment. and its stinas b-day. i am nervous. i love them so much but it has been so long.
well i am tired. i have to clean my room and take a shower but i think i will take a bath first so i will feel more relaxed so hopully i can fuckin sleep tonight. i get my artwork back tomorrow. my art teacher dr.munn took it to a lecture/conference he went to on self injury and showed people it. and i get it back tomorow. i really can't wait to get it back. plus i want my mum to see it. my mum went to georgetown this weekend to this gallery and they referrred her and her art to all these places FYI: me mum is an artist. ok will i am going to go now. tata
stay safe and blessed be )O(
isabel
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Subject:my first sex store hehehe
Time:7:05 pm.
Mood: giggly.
Music:girls just wanna have fun.
ok well yesterday i hung out with brian and the kims. i am at one of the kims house now. we went to georgetown yesterday. we had fun. we went to commander salamnder ::my fav store:: and i bought a really prettyful meshy kinda shirt. and we just went shpoping. and i went into my first sex store. and let me tell you.... what an experience. i swear i was just like thora birch in ghost world. i was so amazed by everything. i was like wow this one has 8 speeds. and there were like cordless remoteless and like edible things. wow dide i was so shoked by everything. it was so much fun. brain almost bought butt beads hehe. i bought a penis straw. hehehehe. it was alot of fun. and then we were walkingback to the metro and i saw the kennady center free show bus. and i was like lets go see a free show...............
so we did. and it was like latino music. it was fun. we were in the kennady center. just imagine. flaming brian pink me and the kims it was so funny. and we talked to this old guy alot and he was super nice. we are going to go see those free shows once a week. we all vowed. it was so much fun. then we took the metro home. and my boob popped out of my bra and i laughed. then we took the public bus to our highskool and we all wore paper hats that we made. and i fell on the bus and i laughed alot. hehehe. then we went to my house and hung out. and then we all slept over at kims. i can't believe my mum let me go to a sleepover with a guy there. but ya know brain is gay. so ya know. ok well we are goin to ihop now. tata stay safe and blessed be )O(
isabel
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Monday, January 21st, 2002

Subject:fat
Time:9:09 pm.
Mood: gloomy.
i feel fat. i mean i feel huge and fat. i eat too much. i try throw up but it like doesn't come up. ughhhhh. i can't stop eating. maybe i will become a laxitive junkie. or epicate. ughh, i just wish i would become skinny again. my twin sister gabriella is skinny. she never grew boobs like me. she was never put on meds that made her big. me and my twin sister gaby always were the skinniest and tinniest girls. i was like a little faeire. i have some really cute pics. if i look at current pics i get disgusted. i am FAT. i hate this. why is it that i am letting this egotistical soiciety who makes barbies pop icons make ME feel fat. <>bI WANT TO HURL AND DIE!!
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Subject:fat
Time:8:57 pm.
Mood: indescribable.
i feel fat. i mean i feel huge and fat. i eat too much. i try throw up but it like doesn't come up. ughhhhh. i can't stop eating. maybe i will become a laxitive junkie. or epicate. ughh, i just wish i would become skinny again. my twin sister gabriella is skinny. she never grew boobs like me. she was never put on meds that made her big. me and my twin sister gaby always were the skinniest and tinniest girls. i was like a little faeire. i have some really cute pics. if i look at current pics i get disgusted. i am FAT. i hate this. why is it that i am letting this egotistical soiciety who makes barbies pop icons make ME feel fat. <>bI WANT TO HURL AND DIE!!
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Time:6:41 pm.
fdsafdsa
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Sunday, January 20th, 2002

Subject:mom=being a bitchhhhhhhhhhhh
Time:11:17 pm.
Mood: pissed off.
Music:hate.
ok so i cleaned my room. totally cleaned it not just picked up i mean like it is fukin spotless. i changed the sheets i vacumed. and u know whaty rteally sucks about lj. i don't have ahistory here so u guys have no idea what i am talkin about. fuck.
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Subject:i need to be loved
Time:12:58 pm.
Mood: lonely.
Music:tori amos.
i feel very lonely. very very lonley. i want to hurt myself.
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Saturday, January 19th, 2002

Subject:tomatoes, snow, and we can't forget cutting
Time:9:37 pm.
Mood: sick.
Music:ummm that band who sings hey jelousy.
holaholahola
well today i feel like shit. i think i have a very bad cold. nothing i take helps either.
today was a weird day. i had family therapy.(i say rapey cause it is like raping the mind, but i don't mind it when i am with my therapist and no family) anyway so i got home and brian had already gotten there and was like chatting with my mom. he is so cute. so cute and so gay. he is like my best girlfriend ya know? and i set him up with mike(a friend from another skool who i used to like before i knew he was gay) ok so we hung out with ian. and ian was in a pissy mood. we went to friendlys. and u know what> THEY AREN'T THAT FUCKIN FRIENDLY!!!!! anyway so it was fun. we drpped biran off and well there really isn't any fukin point to thsi entry. ian got pissed when he dropped me off and then he drove off not to his house though(he lives next door) errr and i know he did that to piss me off and to worry me. jfdksl;ajfsdkal;. anyway i still have no friends on lj, and i feel lonly and isolated. fuck.
stay safe and blessed be)O(
isabel
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Friday, January 18th, 2002

Subject:jelly belly fuck
Time:9:59 pm.
Mood: contemplative.
Music:marcy playground,gin blossom and the counting crow mix.
well of course i had skool today and well it was acutally ok. btw everyone: i go to a speical skool for people who are ed. or emotionaly disabled. and we always get new students and they tour first and my friend jess from my old mental treatment place toured and i saw her and i REALLY hope she goes there. it would be kewl. ok so then after skool i went to brians houise. brian is my best girlfriend. he is just so jfdksljfslkad;. and we saw sarah aka amish gay hippie, and we picked her up and we went to IHOP. THE BEST RESTURANT IN THE WORLD!! and we just chilled and actted werid. btw again i am like half a lesbian and yes u are now thinking well then i am bi but when people hear that they get this kinky image of them fuckin u and ur best friend and its like whatever. i prefer to think that i like who i like, just like everyone else, but i do not limit mysleef by gender. ok anyway so then brian came over. we watched some movies and then we wnet and had thai food. then we came back and went in my hot tub. it was fun. his nickname is now faggy. and mine i v. don't ask. ok well that is what happened in my day. i am tired. i have gotten many urges today to just cut my arm or anything off. i didn't though, becuase my burns are still healing. ok tata
stay safe and blessed be )O(
isabel
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Subject:jelly belly fuck
Time:9:59 pm.
Mood: contemplative.
Music:marcy playground,gin blossom and the counting crow mix.
well of course i had skool today and well it was acutally ok. btw everyone: i go to a speical skool for people who are ed. or emotionaly disabled. and we always get new students and they tour first and my friend jess from my old mental treatment place toured and i saw her and i REALLY hope she goes there. it would be kewl. ok so then after skool i went to brians houise. brian is my best girlfriend. he is just so jfdksljfslkad;. and we saw sarah aka amish gay hippie, and we picked her up and we went to IHOP. THE BEST RESTURANT IN THE WORLD!! and we just chilled and actted werid. btw again i am like half a lesbian and yes u are now thinking well then i am bi but when people hear that they get this kinky image of them fuckin u and ur best friend and its like whatever. i prefer to think that i like who i like, just like everyone else, but i do not limit mysleef by gender. ok anyway so then brian came over. we watched some movies and then we wnet and had thai food. then we came back and went in my hot tub. it was fun. his nickname is now faggy. and mine i v. don't ask. ok well that is what happened in my day. i am tired. i have gotten many urges today to just cut my arm or anything off. i didn't though, becuase my burns are still healing. ok tata
stay safe and blessed be )O(
isabel
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Thursday, January 17th, 2002

Subject:hola
Time:8:22 pm.
Mood: bouncy.
Music:poe.
holaholahola to all. ok well the reason i have started my humble little abode here is well because OD is dying and i need a new place to be well me on. it really sucks cause i have like a history there. with all the self injury support diaries and just well everyhitng. i have been there for two years. but it is now time to move on. to livejournal. i have some frieinds here so what the hell. i love online diaries btw. i really fuckin do. heheers. ok well my next entry will be some basics on me ok? i have ot go now. tata
stay safe and blessed be )O(
isabel
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