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| Sat, June 5th ~ 10:20a | ||||
Under my feet I was a liar You were a cheat Playing with knives we were cut close to home Close to the bone You're so alone Something to have Something to hold Something to share So i've been told Deep in your eyes you're one hundred years old Cause the years have not been kind to you, you know Heal it up, heal it up, heal it up. Feeling the pinch Feeling the hole Feeling the void Deep in my soul Feeling my feelings so out of control Cause the years have not been kind to me, I know Heal it up, heal it up, heal it up Heal it up, heal it up, heal it up |
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awake| Did someone say they wanted to see crap pictures? | ||||
| Fri, June 4th ~ 4:23p | ||||
On my new phone I can take and email pictures. Muhahahahha... All hail my work-type-geekness. ( Moi ) Flower courtesy of the bouquet I sent my sister for her birthday. |
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| Paperdoils paper journal... | |||
| Thu, June 3rd ~ 9:02a | |||
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I was reading through my paper journal (Which I've sadly neglected along with this journal) and I came across this entry. Now it has no relevance to me now, I just thought it was a pretty good entry and figured it would be something better than mindless quizzes and the normal drivel I've been posting. For some reason lately I can't get words out of my head and into my journal. *foggy headed* Anyway...here it is... January 15, 2003... Love is defined as: A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance. Now something I`ve noticed, with much personal hardship lately, is that people tend to use the word love too loosely. Or actually they use the phrase `I love you` too loosely. A person can say they love ice cream or they love a certain movie, but the word takes on a wholly different meaning when put together with the very simple words I and you. There used to be a time that the phrase `I love you` was seen as precious and sacred. It was seen as a gift that was shared between two people. But now people say it too soon, too carelessly and too often. And how is it someone can say they love one person yet for no reason at all, and without warning they no longer love that person. What it really love then? Or some cruel game? To have this happen makes a person doubt everything that is said to them from then on. Their next relationship will be forever in the shadow of not knowing if its real, or just another game. They doubt themselves, their worth. It`s one thing to have someone tell you they love you after so short a time, and its quite another to BELIEVE them when they say it. And worse yet, its something else to begin to feel the same way for that person. "The cruelest thing a man can do is make a woman fall for him and not be there to catch her" Peoples feelings are not something to be played with. The damage you inflict can last for years. Don`t use `I love you` if you don`t mean it from the very center of your being. If you`re not 100% sure if you love someone say: I care for you I`m fond of you I like you Those words don`t have such sharp edges |
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| Mon, May 31st ~ 10:41p | ||||||
From Go-Quiz.com And taken from saturnsdaughter... "I have 500 dollars worth of phallic objects, but nobody's asshole to stick them into." - Rozzlyn Good stuff. |
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Internet Cafe Fun...
Name Acronym Generator From Go-Quiz.com And more.... ( Read more... ) |
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| Fri, May 21st ~ 5:08p | |||
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I just realized I could get AIM express to work here at work. AIM name: Amyletta Pop in and leave me a message would ya? I have my away message up in case I have to run out and do some actual work. |
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| Memories of two years ago.... | ||||
| Thu, May 20th ~ 4:56p | ||||
From 7-15-2002 Hold on Hold on to yourself for this is gonna hurt like hell Hold on Hold on to yourself you know that only time will tell There are certain songs I can't listen to now without being instantly forced to remember things. Things I immediately associate with the songs. Feelings, Memories. Some of these are my favorite songs, and I can't stand to listen to them. Listen as the wind blows from across the great divide voices trapped in yearning, memories trapped in time the night is my companion, and solitude my guide would I spend forever here and not be satisfied? I feel myself become bitter. I'm afraid I'm going to grow to be a bitter old woman, sitting in the corner of a coffee shop, drinking black coffee and smoking unfiltered cigarettes. I don't want that. No No No, I will not become that. Fuck you and all your pretty words. Fuck you and all your bold faced lies. Fuck you for awakening something in me and very swiftly killing it. I will not let you get the best of me. You don't deserve it. From 5-20-2004 You didn't get the best of me. I win. I'm free of you, whoever you are. The end. |
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content| Wed, May 19th ~ 12:12p | ||||
I'm intrigued to say the least. Monday I got to try Morrocan (spelling?) food and got to smoke tobacco out of a hookah. nightwitch and myself went to clark and belmont and went to Andalous (I think) for a new food experience and LOVED it. Later that night we went out by the lake and watched the lightening over the water for a little while. All in all it's been a good couple days. :) I'm at work and trying to type and watch out for the bossman makes for disjointed, sloppy entries. heh. I'm such a rebel. Damn the man!! |
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good| Thu, May 13th ~ 4:32p | ||||
I want to be around. I miss you guys like crazy. I'm not ignoring anyone on purpose, I can't help it. Sometimes people drop you and its like ehhh...oh well. Some drop you and it hurts. Bad. |
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worried| Fri, May 7th ~ 1:28p | |||
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Ugh...my gut feelings are going a bit bonkers lately. Could be good, could be bad. We shall see. I really REALLY must stop thinking so damn much. OH!! I need to get my passport. Why?? I'M GOING TO EUROPE IN THE FALL!!! Yes...my sister Janet and I will be invading Paris and London. *bounce* Look out! |
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| Work optional... | ||||
| Thu, May 6th ~ 4:04p | ||||
And a question... Is better to know, or not know? |
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| Mon, May 3rd ~ 8:31a | ||||
I got to see a handfasting (one word, no?) on Saturday as well as my first ever Beltaine celebration. Much is to be said about that later when I have time. Tonight I am going to a wake for a dear friend I worked with. Mama Ava. Just Ava to those who didnt have the honor of knowing her like I and so many others here at work knew her. She was the most giving woman I knew and my life is better by knowing her. A beginning and An end. |
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| Thu, April 29th ~ 8:25p | |||
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I've been at work for 5 hours and I've done fuck all. Am I really getting paid for this?? I can't wait for this weekend to get here. |
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| Tue, April 27th ~ 8:41a | |||
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I'm alive. I'm kicking. I don't seem to have time for anything lately. Busy bee that I am. Going to my first ever Beltaine celebration on Saturday. Rather looking forward to it. :) Thinking of you... |
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| Fri, April 23rd ~ 10:09a | |||
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One way to tell you've 'kicked' an internet addiction. You've moved and have yet to take your computer over to your new place. And you don't really miss it and can wait a little while bit to do so. Yeah... |
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| Thu, April 22nd ~ 5:13a | |||
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So yeah.... I planned on taking my day off yesterday to go get a truck and move the rest of my big stuff, (Bed, CD tower, desk)but my car decided to die on Tuesday morning. I had it towed to the mechanic and looked at on weds and thankfully it was just the battery. Oh, and I need new tires, which I knew I would be needing. I'm just glad it wasn't something worse cause then most of my savings would be gone. Other than that, things are well. I love where I am now, although I've still got a bit to do to get settled in totally. Scary thing...I don't miss being online everyday. Only thing that sucks is when I do check my email I have 200-300 emails, and only 2-4 are actually for me. |
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| Mon, April 19th ~ 5:58a | ||||
I don't know when I'll have constant internet access up, so if anything important happened you want or need me to know about, leave me a comment to tell my ass to get over to read it. *feeling the love* :) |
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| Thu, April 15th ~ 4:38p | |||
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The best thing ever said to me: "I was out with someone else the other day, and all I could do was think about you." Yeah..that made my week. :) In other news...its BEAUTIFUL out and I'm stuck at work. I've only been here 3 hours?!? Welcome to the day that would never end. |
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| Tue, April 13th ~ 10:23p | ||||
Most people never know how much something can be worth to them until they have lost it. Don't be dumb by doing stupid things and losing something that means more to you than anything else. It may never come back. |
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| Apparently this needs to be explained | ||||
| Tue, April 13th ~ 12:21p | ||||
I'm moving in with my friend Trish I'm not leaving the state or the country, just towns |
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Beautiful Inside And out Amy's Den |
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