What Up? Well Upward Bound sucks major ass! Ya know that guy that I've been crushing on for like, 3 years???? Well, he has a crush on one of my friends! And she has a crush on him! Ya, so my goal of not being in a drama is down the porcelein potty!............. THE FOLLOWING PORTION HAS BEEN CUT TO HOLD PRIVACY, FRIENDS ONLY! ......... I'm about to quit this shit anytime soon now.

Ya know what? I just realized that I can type without looking at the keys now! Isn't that cool????? I blame the education system, damn them and their trying to teach me stuff. Well, I haven't drawn anything lately, well I have, but you can't see it cause I don't have a scanner. That sucks majorly. They're all mostly pics of broken hearts with blood seaping from out of them.
I'm such a fucking ray of sunshine aren't I? <--stealing beth's thing there!

Heres a pic of the new daily bread. I passed the chance to talk to a really hot guy because of this baby, he was all like, "Hi" and I was all like *thinking* "Can't talk.. need to get daily bread". Yup.

Those are my nails.. its really blurry though. They were quite shiny so they didn't last long.

Heres a poem for all yalls

Skating is my fuel
The only thing pushing me forth
In the shadow of a cruel world
It will presist through all sorts

Whenever I'm weary
The endless arrayof andreniline
It keeps me steady
Through everything, thick and thin

Intoxicating
You can't get enough
Nor will you soon be recovering
You'll never get up from suck

Blading is a privilage
Everyone has strapped skates on
Yet only a select few progress it
An artform, present and beyond

Copyright 2002 ANTII Productions

Life sucks.. I hate life.
I swear.. if some higher force dosen't strike me down soon I'm going to jump off a cliff.

did I mention I got abused at the prom, yup. Krystle tried getting me on the dance floor while the band was playing but I didn't want to. (the groupies were erking me really bad) so instead of a gentle "okay chell have it your way" so scratched my wrist with her fake nails. It was like a scene outta a horror movie where the demon guy tried to sacrifice your blood in order to resurrect the anti-christ or something. But she didn't mean to do it on purpose though... so thats okay... my wrist is all scabby though... its cool... it hurts whenever I type.. neat.

Well my favorite comic in the whole entire world is the most cutest thing ever. Lenore, gosh I love that lil' girl.. soooo cute that one. I'm trying to see some of the websodes that are on screen blast but they're not dailup connection friendly. I read the site and they sell Lenore merchandise at Hot Topic! Lucky me! I get to go to another island next week and raid the Hot topic, but again I get first dibs on that store because having to hear some trendy ass bastard telling people that I'm stealing their style when they're bragging they saw the style at hot topic is not good with controlling my anger......
Today was okay, I finished my math test in 3rd period and it was soo funny cause I had no idea what I was doing *lol* I need to get my grades up, thats what I'm doing this tuesday at the last minute. All I'm shooting for is a 3.0 which is going to be hard with all the classes. It sucks....Oh in fourth was getting abused by Tiffany that meany, we both think eachothers mothers are scary... its quite hilarious. But yeah.. she was helping me with my test which was cool cause I had no idea what I was doing again! HA! After school was the worst because I had to run from Mr kotkes to get my dad before he took my brother home that I forgot that its, like ) degrees outside. My dad ended up being 23 minutes late and I couldn't help but feel responsible when Nalani was getting scoulded by her mommy for picking her up late so yeah. I got two new magazine, A May issue of daily bread (thats coming in the mail in 3 weeks but I can't wait that long) and the issue of Wizard called "Anime Invasion". I learned a whole lotta stuff about or perverted the original animators of Sailor Moon was (or is). Quite funny.

Did you know that theres going to be new a new Matrix movie or umm... websodes being released on the internet tackling the subject on how the matrix got started and how we manged to destroy ourselves in the proccess of creating artificial intelligence. And when all of them comes out they'll release it on speciall editon dvds. Wow. And its all going to be done with CGIs and stuff, sorta like an updated version of how the final fantasy movie was made. WOW! I know about it and you don't ha!

I got the new resident evil soundtrack its okay for a soundtrack but the turned all the good metal songs into trippy techno ones...eh.

Prom sucked ass, it was a utter waste of time and money.. money that could've been spent buying brain-damaging goods like candy or whipped cream or cheeze wheez. Oh and the stylist guy cut my bangs, I wanted to grow them out and stuff, now I look like that pshyco girl from Malcolm in The Middle..

"Shinobi Vs. Dragon Ninja"

got it all too high
got it figured out,
i wanna do whatever
laugh until september
and i seem to think that you are one to be with me
maybe i was wrong
u were moving on
and i sit and wonder
falling under
get my way or nothing will move on
everyone has gone
you feel so empty, but i've got me a friend
and i like it
and i know u say i can care for someone
but are you that clever that you smile forever?
if its something like here
coz i just don't feel it
baby its a treaty
maybe you are not her
and i sit and wonder, falling under
get my way or nothing will move on
everyone has gone.
you feel so empty, but i've got me a friend
and i like it, ooooooh!
say now, got it for all of me
answer why
Laugh untill september,
And I seem to think that you were once here with me

I haven't written in a long time. Well I did go to that skateboarding contest thingy.. well sorta. We past right near the entrance and then I started freaking out and screaming, so Lani didin't turn in to the drive way. It was quite funny actually. No one else in the car wanted to go, and I certainly wasn't feeling like going from the vibe I was getting in there.

I got my prom dress this saturday right beofre going to the skatepark. Pretty nifty, its the "hoe dress", not that it makes me look like a how, its just that everyone I know tried it on or wanted to get it. But HA ! I got it first so tough noogies! School is going alright, I'm trying really hard in my classes and stuff. Just today we had a meeting for Ub and I we're going to Oahu! ANother island, for fucks sake! My friends and I are going to go shopping and stuff, but once we hit the largest open air mall in the world ( it says so in the Guiness book of world records), Ala Moana, we're mapping out where we're going to head to first. We don't want those stupid lil' trendy @$#%#$ getting to Hot Topic before us. If one of them gets a "Mullet" shirt, I'll be sure to regulate their @$$!

Theres a skating competition at the HIlo skatepark this Saturday... I want to go dammit! But no one wants to take me, or come with me for that matter! ALl I know is thats its a skatboading contest, I don't care if its about skateboarding! I still want to go! Everyones sooo mean... My parents said if I get someone to come with me (aka a friend) they'll drop me off and pick me up a lil' later. But as I said, no one wants to come with me and my moms said I can't go alone... that sucks ass! There might be one person I know who might go, and they have a car... but I can't ask them to take me because I'm.. well.... I'm shy... yeah thats it :I

So, the little get 2gether at lani's house went great, it was really fun. LIke we didn't get to watch any sappy movies, except for Little Mermaid, we just played some board games (which I won, both of them) and played around with my skates. They all took turns playing around with my TRSs, which was weird. But eh, we're teenage girls, what do you expect? A slumber party with a pillow fight in our underwear??? I don't think so. Anyway, it was really funny see my friends trying to skate in my blades, they didn't really know how to. They were just falling all over eachother and throwing themselves at the wall to stop, it was hilarious. Normally I don't let anyone touch my skates, but when you have a room filled with sugar high freaks its the only thing to do from getting restless. Totally worth it, even if my skates are scuffed up, they're were going to get scuffed up anyway.

Yesterday I had to wake up early. I did the whole "Five more minutes" thing to my parents, cause they wanted me to wake up at 8:00 am for a optometrists appointment! Who in the right mind would wake up that early in the first place. So of course, five minutes turned to ten and that turned in 30. SO my dad started bitching about how we're going to be late to get my contacts. EHHH! Oh yeah, I dyed my hair again, its BLUE! BLUEBLUEBLUE! Making my hair the tie dyed masterpeice it is today, Black-blue-green. my hair.... I love it.

We weren't late at all. In fact we didn't even have to wait that long in the lobby cause fuck, we just in time. But for the time we had to wait and fill out papers I started reading spin mag. I thought that mag was for more hip-hop oriented people but apparently not. I got me contacts but not after having been bitched by the receptionists that I didn't tell the doctor I was there for a "contact fitting", I mean she works there my dad clearly told them on the phone what I was there for. But my eye-site didn't change much so I could just keep the same percriptioon. All that for nothing.... bitch.

"I will go to the skatepark, I will go to the skatepark, I will got to the skatepark".... yeah right. Thats what I keep telling myself. That this little scared phase that I'm in will just pass over in a few days and I can go to the skatepark in peacea and not be afraid of the huge skateboarders there that might want to kick my ass. The last time I went there, to get a waiver form, there were only kids there and they were all bikers and boarders. Fact is there were no bladers there... maybe if that damn skatepark would offer rollerblading products in the PRO SHOP maybe then will there be some bladers. Hypocrites suck ass. They didn't sell any blades so I had to go and order mine from rollerwarehouse, when I could've just drove 20 minutes into town. But noooooo, everyone wants Rachell's life to be soooo hard... fuckers.... So I will go t othe skatepark, now I wish I won't fall on my ass on the ramps (which I know I'll do) and get laughed at by the litttle kids. I'm going to get my friends to come with me, these two hawaiian kids that will bitch at them if they do shit to me... thats the way to do it.....