| Sunday June 17th, 2001 |
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| I have no life so i watched Billy Madison AGAIN...I don't know what it is, but i can't get sick of that movie!!! I entered the contest on my radio station to get Nsync Sound Check passes and to get front row tickets and to get front row tickets in Cali! I hope I win but at the same time I don't want to!!! You have to do the most insane thing you can think of (they pick 10) and they have to do that, and the 1st place person gets all that stuff! I said I'd run around the mall in a bikini with Nsync painted all over my body, and i'd run into all the stores yelling nsync lyrics and that I'd dance on a table at the Hard Rock Cafe.....hehehehe....ooo bad image....well not really bad...but hehee...nevermind. I've gotta go clean out the pool, so i can go freeze in it again, and i still need to take a shower too! Okay Lata! Awww man...they are playing the graduation on TV again...I'm getting really sick of seeing that....oh and the reason i wasn't talking in that chat today was because I was on the phone with steve and he didn't even say hi he's just like 'WOO HOO!!! Scholorships rule!! I got into my college!!!" so he's going on to Cali, and I'm kinda, well not kinda I WAS TOTALLY AND COMPLETELY BUMMED...i still am...but i can't stay sad forever....oh well...i just need some cheering up...hehehehehehhe...i know how to do that too! Lata current Mood is  crazy current Music is Eve6 - Here's To Tonight |
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| 0150 • It's been a while |
| I almost forgot about this thing! I haven't used it in a loooong time!! Well not much is up. I'm on summer vacation and I start summer school monday to take gym...because i want to..man i need a life!!! Then I have band camp...you know...one time...at band camp.... DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO GO TO BAND CAMP AND ACTUALLY PLAY THE FLUTE?!?!? grrrrr at American Pie grrrr! No one is online right now...damn my buddy list of 87 people..damn you all bc none of you are on! I've been on this one site it's really really corny but i've been occupied by it. http://www.lemonadegame.com the people look like aliens...but oh well...it's cheap entertainment what can i say?! My nail on my pinky ripped off it hurts like a bitch..i'm afraid to go swimming cuz it's gonna sting...I went swimming the other day...i was like freezing!! My lips were sooo blue!!! It took like an hour to get warm! Anyways, it's father's day..yay or something...all i know is that we are having spaghetti and that my grandparents are coming over my house...i thought we were going over theirs but i was wrong!! I WANT MY BLINK182 CD BACK!!! lol! Anyways, I was like up till 5am the other day, and I was just writing and writing and writing and writing and I got like 3 poems out of me...and i think they're good a so do like two of my friends ::hugz:: to Justin and Lana! I'm gonna post them in this thing...but they're on my other AOL screen name...so i'll have to do that later I have to go it's like almost 2 and i'm still in my PJs!!! As Bri would say "You be scubbin it today!" Lata! current Mood is  bouncy current Music is Sublime - Wrong Way |
| Sunday April 8th, 2001 |
| 2123 • |
| Well i do believe i have just experienced the motherload of shitty assed weekends. Saturday, i went out shopping, get home, wash the car, all is going good. Then, my mom gets a phone call "Your grandpa just had a heart attack in church!" so we rush to the hospital. They couldn't save him. I mean, he went quick and painlessly, and he was in church none the less. But I mean, it's like you wanna remember what they are like before they died, but it's so hard when the last image you can remember is them lying gray-faced on a hospital bed with one eye shut and the other half open and a tube in this throat. It's almost kinda of werid, you can't be taught to grieve, but I've never had anyone die, so i don't know how. I've barely cried, I don't exactly seem to miss him, and it's partly because I really haven't noticed that he's gone, and i doubt it will ever register with me. He was my Great Grandfather and all, so i didn't see him as much, so i never got to know him well. He was 85 so i mean, when he was younger I was like 3 and 4, and I don't remember anything from back then. The wake is tomorrow after school, and Tuesday I'm missing school because the funeral is in the morning. All our family is coming in from New York, Jason came up from Bowling Green University, and Mike came in from Michigan. I was over at my aunts house (Jason and Mikes mom) whoooooo Jason got hot!!!! He's 22, and he's my second cousin, but i mean, woah baby! I guess it's older Italians or something that do it for me. Although, him and Mike kept calling me Britney (as in Spears) BLAH!! Imma kick their butts tomorrow...but ya gotta love em! Anyways, I gotta go, just thought i would write in here since i haven't in a while. And i feel bad for my parents too...what a way to remember their anniversary! We had to go pic of my great grandpas car at the church, since great grams doesn't drive and mom was crying in the car like "17 years ago i was getting our wedding pictures taken out here and now my grandpa is dead" I mean i felt so bad for her. And like I didn't cry that much because, i just don't even know...it's so odd to me, the whole concept is so new to me that I don't understand it, and i probably won't for a while. Now i really gotta go! Lata! current Mood is  blank current Music is Bon Jovi Two Story Town |
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| Thursday April 5th, 2001 |
| 1545 • |
| blah, my aol is fucked up too. Then i thought i had reset the password to my one screen name, and made it so i have to type in my password. Anyways, i ended up not changing my screen name, and now i can't sign back onto it. So i'm deleting my Crunkers05 screen name, and my main one will be Wonderditz28, if anyone actually cares. Anyways, gotta go now. byeee
current Mood is  okay current Music is Josie and the Pussycats - 3 Small Words |
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| Tuesday March 27th, 2001 |
| 1942 • |
| okay blah, i really really like this CD...sooooo anyways, here's like a couple more songs from it, i just need to type stuff to keep my occupied and my homework is not what i feel like doing right now "Crystal Ball" Every time I look in your eyes You take me away To a place that's so deep inside There is no escape Will you walk with me? Will you show me the way? will you say that you'll be mine? 'Cause I don't need to cast a spell Somewhere deep inside a wishing well Don't need a crystal ball To tell me what to do... All I want is you All I want is you... And sometimes when I look in your eyes You take me away To a place where I'm still a child Innocent and brave Will you walk with me? Will you show the way? Will you say that you'll be mine? 'Cause I don't need a dime to cast a spell Somewhere deep inside a wishing well Don't need a crystal ball To tell me what to do.. All I want is you I don't need a dime to cast a spell I just want to ride the carousel Don't need a crystal ball To tell me what to do.. All I want is you Every time I look in your eyes You take me away "Forget that Girl" I think it's time to talk About your latest flame She'll never burn for you Don't think that you can win Play a waiting game In love there are no rules... For every precious pearl A million empty shells This is reality You know that I'm your friend I only wish you well So take it from me...you've got to Forget that girl Don't let her rule your world You're gonna be walking around With a stone in your shoe 'til you forget that girl I know just how you feel Been on that roundabout But you were there for me I was a fool in chains In deep with no way out But I set myself free...when you told me Forget that girl Don't let her rule your world You're gonna be walking around With a stone in your shoe 'Til you forget that girl She'll never give her heart to you She's just a dream what won't come true That's all she'll ever be That's why you've gotta let her go - Let her go Forget that girl "I Want You Back" My mind somehow Disconnected from my feet I keep on turning Down the same old dead end street I'm scared of holding on For fear of letting go The simple lessons Seem the hardest ones to learn Why put your hand in a flame Just to watch it burn? Now I begin to understand What love's all about One thing is clear... I want you back...I want you back I guess I'll have to face the fact I'm no good without you That's why...that's why I want you back No consolation In a photograph of you I want to hold you in my arms They I used to do And every night Seems longer than the last I'm lost without you I want you back...I want you back I guess I'll have to face the fact I'm no good without you That's why...that's why I want you I want you back I want you back...I want you back I guess I'll have to face the fact That nothing's good without you That's why....that's why I want you back I know what's wrong You're thinking I'm stormy weather But stormy weather won't last forever Baby we belong together Won't you come on back? I can't live without you Ain't no getting over you I want you back current Mood is  indescribable current Music is Go West I Want You Back |
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| 1921 • |
| I dunno where to begin. I've been kinda upset all day today, especially since i got home. Amber knows why. I guess it's just upsetting that it's all happening around me and I have to sit here and take it. I talked to my friend Rachel, and she's really helping me. It seems really odd for me to be this upset about it, but it's just, I am, and I can't help it. I'm attached to that man, and this kind of thing hurts me. To top it off, Ben went and BLEACHED his hair too.....blah blah gag! I went into my moms car since she's gone for the week in Michigan and I took over her CDs. I found this CD that I think is really good, I've been listening to it alot today. It just fits my mood and what I'm feeling. They did a song that was on the movie "Pretty Woman" I've been listening to that for the longest time. "The King Of Wishful Thinking" I don't need to fall at your feet Just cause you cut me to the bone And I won't miss the way that you kiss me We were never carved in stone If I don't listen to the talk of the town Then maybe I can fool myself... I'll get over you...i know i will I'll pretent my ship's not sinking And I'll tell myself I'm over you 'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking I am the king of wishful thinking I refuse to give into my blues That's not how it's gonna be And I deny the tears in my eyes I don't want to let you see...no That you have made a hole in my heart And now I've got to full myself I'll get over you...i know i will I'll pretent my ship's not sinking And I'll tell myself I'm over you 'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking I am the king of wishful thinking I'll get over you...i know i will I'll pretent my ship's not sinking And I'll tell myself I'm over you 'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking I am the king of wishful thinking I will never, never shed a tear for you I'll get over you If I don't listen to the talk of the town Then maybe I can fool myself... I'll get over you...I know I will I'll pretent my ship's not sinking And I'll tell myself I'm over you 'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking I'm the king of wishful thinking I'll get over you...I know I will You made a hole in my heart But I won't shed a tear for you I'll be the king of wishful thinking I'll get over you... I'll pretent my heart's still beating 'Cause I've got no more tears for you I'm the king of wishful thinking.... I'm thinking of changed the king to queen. Anyways, that's how i feel, for the most part, some other songs really fit me too, but i'm not gonna type them all out. I borrowed Allison's Billy Madison movie...lol...i like it, that and Rachel has been the only thing to cheer me up. Kristen may come over too, her mom has to pay me money..yay, hopefully she comes...i need something to make fun of lol..i'm mean but Kristen, is easy to laugh at lol. Anyways, Imma go now....bye current Mood is indescribable current Music is Go West King of Wishful Thinking |
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| Monday March 19th, 2001 |
| 1552 • Blah! |
| i don't feel well, and i have a really bad headache. This sucks, I have to go visit grandma tonight....oh the joy....hopefully Rach will be able to come over so i won't have to go. *prays* Anyways, like no one is on except Amber hey sissy!! anyways, got nothing else to say! lata! current Mood is  sick current Music is Nsync It's Gonna Be Me |
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| Sunday March 18th, 2001 |
| 1319 • YaY! |
| Anyways, I'm happy today! That bitch Britney took my man damn her, but that's okay, I still have Joey! yay! Anyways, I got my nsync tickets yesterday, 10 row baby uh! So I'm going with Kristen and our Moms. It's gonna be so funny. Our parents and 55,000 screaming 12 year olds. hahaha...i don't have any sympathy for them! This is great, the tickets are my birthday present from Patti. So I'm gonna have to make a huge assed poster and put lights on it and be like "IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!! YAYA!!!" on it...and then some small print "what about those birthday spankings?" lol...i'm bad, but ya gotta love me....because i'm a princess!
current Mood is giddy current Music is Dizzy 98 degrees |
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| Saturday March 17th, 2001 |
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| testing the style |
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| Sunday August 6th, 2000 |
| 2132 • blah |
| well.. once again.. i havent updated in a hella long time.. so i decided to waste some time writing stupid shit that no one reads or cares about neway.. so neway.. i got dragged outta bed at fuckin 1pm to go out with some friends.. and i didnt wanna go.. but i didnt get a choice.. soo.. i went neway.. it was okay i guess.. then i got home at like 6.. and talked to Jesse then called him.. talked to Frost.. and Lee.. and Jen.. and now im talking to Tana and Chris.. and im remembering.. i just wanna take a fucking sledge hammer and bash my head in so i cant remember nemore.. it wouldnt hurt half as bad as remembering a time when i was actually happy.. bc im not now.. and it sucks.. and hurts... it hurts so bad to remember.. no one really understands.. but oh well.. i dont guess ne1 cares enough to try to understand either.. i dont know tho.. its odd.. strange things have been happening.. strange dreams.. shit like that and i dont understand where theyre coming from or why theyre there.. life is so confusing sometimes.. i just dont get it.. theres been a lot of stuff happening lately that i dont get.. oh well.. i wanna go to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppp =(... well i guess im gonna go.. peace or something. |
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