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Monday, June 4th, 2001
9:36 pm	wow i have come to the conclusion that girls suck. No offecne to sarah, sara, carina, and Jill. your all great but you know i cant seem to fine the one that i want. ya i have dated around and shit like that but it never workz out. i mean ya me and carina had a lot but i cant commit to what she wants. i mean ya she says she loves me and all and i say it back but i do not know how true it really is, i mean i am only fucking 16 i anit suposed to love any one right now. i got way to much in my life for love right now. i just wanna be friends with girls now i dont really wanna date any one, i mean ya if jill where to like me i would give it a shot, or mabye even jess, but still i am kinda wanting to stay single. i hate haveing a G/F for some reasons, and i love them for all the same. i am not like most kids think i am. i am not all about ass, thats the least i need/ nor want right now, i just want a girl i can hang out with, cuddle with, and even make out, come on is that to much to ask. i dont even think about getting ass no more, just being with a girl is fucking kool. AHHHHH i dont know what to do. lata bob Current Mood: confused Current Music: Danzig (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 31st, 2001
10:15 pm	My life right now Yo whats going on. I dont know what to make of my life right now. I am leaveing my skool by the start of next year. I am single and all i want is a nice G/F that i can hang out with and just be friends with, i dont even care about getting ass, that is the least thing in my head right now, i just hate being sigle. now thats the least of my problmes right now. Skool is up there with the best of em. I dont know what to make of it. all the kids there think i am a horny loud mouth son of a bitch,. and when in all reality i am not. so tomora at skool i am not going to talk to like any unlesss i am spokeing to. like i am going to start new. i know there is aonly like a week left in it but still there is always time to change. i am going not sit with my boyz knowing that if i dont i wont do my work, and i am going to DO MY WORK, i figur if i do it than they cant fail me. so if any one from SJ reads this dont expect me to be the same ol bob, i am going to say what is on my mind, no more lies. and i am going to let it all out, like if i am pissed i will let the world know i am, and if i dont like you i will hit you if you piss me off. i am not the same kid any more i think i may have gone over the deep end this time and i am chageing fast, dont get me wrong if i like ya than i will be so nice but if i dont like you or something you do makes me mad i am going to tell you and if you dont like me for it FUCK YOU i dont care any more. I am out just know i anit the same. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Factory 81--Peace officer (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 22nd, 2001
6:33 pm	damn I really hate being hurt. i really do. well to let you all know, no i am not dead just druged up on pain killa. they so rule. i need them cause i pulled some muscles in between my ribs, and it is hard to move around. it sux, i can only lay on one side of my body. i didnt have to go to skool in the past to days, but i have to go tomora my mommy says. its fun at home but boreing as hell. i like wathing TV, sleeping, and going on the comp. but all that gets old in about 20 mins lol. well my love life sux. 2 more of my friends got G/Fs. and they like to rub it in, how come i cant just cant find a nice girl that i can love. But no, all girls i date end up cutting me(breaking up with). it really gets ones moral down. i got my eye on 2 girls but i really dont think they like me so i am going to keep to my self about it all. i tried to talk to one of them this weekend and they make it appareint they didnt want to talk. no she didnt come out and say FUCK OFF. but she always had to go when i IMed her. but you know its all good i guess. right now i am ICEing my ribs. I gatta ice them, and than i gatta heat them. i hurt them Skateing or wrestling i fell in both, wrestling- i was on a ladder and i did a flip on to Sane(brad) and he put his knees up and i landed on them. and Skatering- i went up a spine tried to 360 it and came right down hitting my chest on the 2 pipes running along it. yes yes it did hurt like a bitch. and than at work i was doing a lot of lifeing so i dont think that helped to much. work is going good. my friends came down to the drive through sunday and than they ordered 100 cheeseburgers, 40 Big baccons, and my mom. i said NO FUCK OFF and they got out of the car and started to attack wendys it ws funny till my manager came out and bitched them all out for like 45 mins. i found it really funny there didnt. Brad was there to he used to work there till he cussed out a custemer. ya ya the custamer is always right but hey you know how i look at it,,, THE CUSTAMER IS ALWAY AN ASSHOLE. ya i got lots o anger. well i am out now Lata BOB Current Mood: high Current Music: 311-all mixed up (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 16th, 2001
5:01 pm	you let me get this out ok i know that my last 2 posts where not what i am used to doing. and i am sorry but i think it is bull shit to hold in all my feelings inside. i need to let them out and in song is the only way i really can, cause if i dont i may snap on some one and hurt them. i meani am young but i got a lot of stress, like girls most of all i cant find any girls that like me its pisses me off but o well i will not stop looking i am bound to find some one some day but for now i will just chill in my room and play with my self till i can find the right girl. lata bob Current Mood: awake Current Music: kid rock (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 15th, 2001
9:06 pm	a poam as i sit in my room all alone i watch the time go by i think to my self nasty things of how i can end it all and let it all stop but i cant do it i just canbt bare it to many pains to may things that i keep inside of me i just cant do it to that many people the walla of my room plasterd with pics of people i wanna be people that i love i know that i will never get to that stage give up comes to mind but no i cant give up wont give in i have come to far and tried way to hard cant do it to that many people i think i can i think i can that book comes to mind and motavates me to think that i can go on there is a reason to all this mess of a life the reason girls turn me away the reason my grades are not good the reason only a few good friends will stick up for me teaches breathing down my neck this cruel world is not ready for a force that cant be handle this force is me i am not ready i think i am a waste this life means nothing and i fear the worst dont pitty me its not what i want you can fuck yourslef i dont care about you i only care about one person in my life and that is Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: once more MUDVAYNE this has gatta be my inspreing band (Comment on this)
Monday, May 14th, 2001
10:53 pm	me song dont hate me if it sux O god i am so lonly i dont know what to do, i look to you for help, and you turn my away.i feel my life is nothing to you, and you dont care, you god of all things turn on me like every one else My life cant get any worse , nothing is going my way i feel the hate build up in me i dont think i can hold it any more i may just snap at any moment on any one i cant control this any more i just cant do it i fear what i can do i know that i can hurt i think that i need help but i dont wanna seak it this world dose not like me nor does it want me i feel that i am stuck here looking for a reason but my looking will go unfullfilled O god i am so lonly i dont know what to do, i look to you for help, and you turn my away.i feel my life is nothing to you, and you dont care, you god of all things turn on me like every one else HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME O god i am so lonly i dont know what to do, i look to you for help, and you turn my away. i feel my life is nothing to you, and you dont care, you god of all things turn on me like every one else O god i am so lonly i dont know what to do, i look to you for help, and you turn my away.i feel my life is nothing to you, and you dont care, you god of all things turn on me like every one else O god i am so lonly i dont know what to do, i look to you for help, and you turn my away.i feel my life is nothing to you, and you dont care, you god of all things turn on me like every one else (well thats my song called O GOD i dont think it is to good i know its short but i fell i can do much better. and i dont feel this way at all.) Lata BOB Current Mood: angry Current Music: Mudvayne (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 13th, 2001
12:10 am	yo hey man whats going on, i know i have not done this in a few days thgatr because i have had work. its so god damn hard to get the hang on things. i dont think i will. and than i work with aaron who left today casue he dont like the manager and my boy george, he left cause he burnt his finger what a fucking pussy, ya he is hardcore. i dont know i seem to be the only one who will last there. i mean the mgr seems to like me best out of my friends i dont know what is gunna happen, all i know is ig gatta get better. lol i Love jill, and meg. and thats all there is to it and i love missy lata bob Current Mood: cold Current Music: Mud Vayne (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 6th, 2001
11:53 am	The story of my life Now Ladies come, ladies go, Out my revolving door Some ladies never come back, Most come back for more. I?ve got a house in the hills With a door that spins. Goes in and out, Out and in, ?Round and ?round again. \ I keep my girls in rotation, Door rotating. You looking for a good time, I?m always on vacation. You could stop by baby, If you want to try your luck. But don?t waste my time, Unless you?re down to fuck. Unless you?re coming back for more, Well then you know what?s up. You know the routine Girl, you?re not the one. You?re just a one night fling. Some ass to hold this casanova over. Till the right girl pass, I?ll drop this lifestyle fast. Cuz what I?m really looking for Is the one will last And make my present past. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: CXT-Revolveing door (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 5th, 2001
11:29 pm	well my day sucked ok get this, i got my grades today right so i forged one, only one how bad can it be. thats how i think of it but now my rents went sacage on me man. i have never seen them so mad at me. so lets say i am in some deep shit. lol now i cant go out, no tv, no fone, and no comp but they are all asleep now so i can get on late night so thats a good thing. and let me be the first to tell you that I LOVE THE SINGLE LIFE. dont get me wrong haveing a G/F is great but you see i like to hang around at the mall and try to look kool. i know i am not that kool, but still its fun trying to be kool. and some girls find it funny and i end up with em so i like that aspenct of my life. i am out lata bob. Current Mood: blah Current Music: Slipknots new cd IOWA, the whole thing (Comment on this)
12:41 am	Carina Ok, lisen i really didnt wanna do this on the net but you know, i cant type it in to an IM and i cant use the fone so this is where i have to do it. i got some odd people IMing me and talking to me about you and this kid, he asked you out and you said i gatta cut my B/F first, but you could not talk to me so it never happened and than the kid didnt want to any more, and dont lie i heard this from more than one person and i didnt know him. and if you have been reading than you will see that i am looking at girls in my skool. i knwo you say you love me and all but i dont know how much you mean it. now dont go and call me and cry to me please. lisen i think it would be best if we broke up for the time being until things in my life cool down, i told you before when we started going out it wouldnt work. i mean now i got my band, wrestling, skool, sorry but there anit time. i tried but it didnt work. and you know there is 2 things i didnt like. your 2 damn horney. sorry to say but you are. and second your to commited. i mean i am only 16 i dont wanna be tied to one girl i wanna play the feild. so you know it is for the best, please dont cry to me about it till like 2 weeks form now casuse if you call me than i cant talk so it would not be worth it. I am sorry i had to do this on the net i didnt want to but i will see ya around. Lata Current Mood: confused Current Music: Rammstien--Du hast (Comment on this)
Friday, May 4th, 2001
4:12 pm	Great day I am so happy cause today my band got a gig, well you see it is not like a set date right now but this is how it is going down, my dad knows this guy who owns a bar and he cut him a deal if we prac and get good he will let us play in his bar. man i am stoked about it. this is the play list of songs. Help- beatles Punk cover Gin and juise- Punk cover Blink 182- dammit Blink 182- what my age again. these 4 are set in stone we will play them for now. we got 3 others in mind like we are makeing one and we dont know how fast we cant get it done these 2 Mudvayne-DIG Slipknot- Wait and bleed I know them prettly well but i dont know if i can sing them being tired and all that, so i may just sing the one or both. and mabye we will do some rammstiene. but it all depends on how my voice is. / to day was a good day i saw jill. lol i was a happy camper at that time. she is so fucking hot man you all just dont get it. and i got 2 peeps trying to get her to notice me, i cant do it for obvious reasons. I am a shy lil bitch lol. well i am out for now lata. BOB Current Mood: devious Current Music: 311--All mixed up (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 3rd, 2001
9:48 pm	Yo whats up I am in a really good mood today. my band my make it some whare now we are going to prac a lot and than my dad knows some people who own bars so we can get a gigi there. i am stoked about it man, i didnt think we would go any ware with it but sure enough we are. I went all of today with out picking on any kids. i mean it may not seem big for all of you but for me its like wow. and tomora i am going to set things right with people, like my Ex loren i am going to talk to her and tell her that i wanna set it all right i still care for her and i dont want her to like die and than me not be on good terms with her. i mean ya i am madd at her and all but i cant stay mod forever. thats all i really got to say right now so E-Mail me lata if you wanna talk. lata Current Mood: amused Current Music: Offspring (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 2nd, 2001
10:45 pm	Yo I have never been a really good kid in my life, i always wanted to do things my way. today at skool we had this retreat . this guy talked to us and told us some stories, and one got to me. it hit home, i am gunna start liveing my life in a new light. i mean dont get me wrong i am still gunna be the crazy kid that i always was, and i am gunna have a lot of fun , but i am going to not pick on kids so much, i mean i was never picked on so i am not going to go and say i didnt like it when they did it to me. i am a big kid and kids dont fuck with me cause i can hurt people, buti mean i dont think it feels good when people pick on you, and i dont think i wanna put any one through that paine at my expance. i was really moved today at the retreat and i didnt think i could be i was not open at first but the guy giveing it was so kool, funny as hell, and i can relate to him in may ways. i am not a jesus freak now but i am going to start looking at my li8fe in other peoples eyes thinking how they will feel if i do this who will it hurt. O and missy i like my self not gay to lol. ~~BOB~~ Current Mood: awake Current Music: Oasis (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 1st, 2001
9:24 pm	YA ME Yo whats going on. MY NAME IS BOB. i am in a good mood today for 2 reasons. well one cause missy wants to hang out with me lol. and the other casue i am getting some one to try and hook me up with jill. well see i know it will never work out cause i am bob and nutting works out for me. i wish i was gay so i could get chicks. lol no really you ever see that all gay people have girls hanging out with them GOD DAMN that pisses me off, i try and than boom i get shoot down, the gay guy just sits there an be's gay and he gets more girls than i do GOD. lol i am out lata Current Mood: amused Current Music: Boy hits car (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 30th, 2001
3:24 pm	DAMN SKOOL SUX Ok i have come to this one conclusion SKOOL SUX ASS. i go in every day and sleep minding my own, and than the teach gets in my face about it. WTF i mean i am not bothing any one, i am just siting in the back of the room all nice not doing any thing and i get my head chewed off. I DONT GET IT. there is this mad hot girl at my skool, ok and i am trying to get her to like like me but what i do is not trying so if any girls read this than wanna coment on helping me pick up gils than help me PLEASE I NEED IT. O carina i didnt forget a bout you but i have heard some things that i didnt like. i cant tell ya who told me or why he did but i am not going to tell you, NOW WE REALLY GATTA TALK. i will IM ya if your on line to tell you cause i cant get any fone calls you know but dont seem to care o well. Hey missy what going on i miss you to, skool just is not th esame with out you, but i bet you know that already lol. there is only one fun thing well like 2 no 3. one is i out tacks in my shoes and skate down the hall on them, dont ask em why cause i am an ass thatr why, 2) JILL 3) wall ball, yo uknow the game where the hit a ball on a wall catch it and toss it back with out getting hit with it, it is hella fun. well i am out for right now i will talk to ya lata. Current Mood: LOL 24 / 7 Current Music: Train-Drops of Jupitor (tell Me) (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 28th, 2001
8:43 pm	my boreing ass day yo, the title its self says it all. today being saterday, mabye the peak of most kids weeks but not mine. thanx to my rents i had to stay in and watch the tube all day. ok get this my mom says to me that if i dont bring home my grades i cant go out all week end, so i think ok i will bring them home, so when i do BAM my mom bitchs at my all night and i still get grounded. i am not even going to try and figure out what goes on in my rents heads. Other than not doing any thing to day, i did nothing. lol. well i did get to play DC and try to pirate some games for it but it didnt work, so it looks like i wont be going to jail any time soon. i guess that is a good thing.....i have come to one conclusion LIFE SUX ASS right kim. lol you know it does but o well. i dont know my life dont seem to be going all to well right now. i mean my g/f and I are not talking right now cause we cant, but i dont see that going any where any more i dont know why but i just dont think it is all there any more. i mean ya i really like her but there is one thing missing and i cant put my finger on it. baby i will call you as soon as i can. and we can try to figure things out. well on a happeir note i have haveing some of my friends over tomora for a lil B-day thing. that seems like it will be a lot of fun. i dont think we will be doing any thing but still it is always fun when my boys come over. i got a cake. an ice cream cake. i like cake a lot. I am out for now i will talk to you all soon. LATA Current Mood: calm Current Music: Help by the beatles-PUNK REMIX (1 Comment |Comment on this)
4:37 pm	Sorry Hey guys whats up, i know i have not been on here in some time thats cause i have had a lot going on. it was my B-day, and i went to hooters, and than to see joe dirt. my boy almost got hit by a car and i had to tell him he was not insane and it wont happen again. i have been thinking a lot to. and baby if your reading this i gatta talk to you about some shit K. dont call me right now i am grounded. ya grounded i get this shit a lot to. if i dont do good in skool i got my crap taken away. my ma and dad are not here right now and i am all alone so i was like i am going on. i dont got a lot of stuff to say right now. so I will be on later to talk to ya all LATA Current Mood: blank Current Music: Air heads (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 24th, 2001
7:00 pm	Back to skool Yesterday we had to go back to skool. DAMN I MISS vacation. i dont knopw i guess i miss you part of not having to go to skool, the part of not haveing to get up, the part of not haveing to go to sleep, well you get the point. i didnt have good days at skool. well you know i dont think any day is a good day at skool. see i failed a test, and i got all up in people faces who pissed me off with almost lead to a fight. I am not that small of a kid, you see i am not small at all, and i know that i can win a fight, but i dont see fighting any one, or how a fight will solve any thing.. well that is all i really have to say right now so i will hit yall back later Current Mood: bored Current Music: Prozack- BE AS (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 22nd, 2001
7:28 pm	One hot fucking day Damn, i woke up at about one, or mabye two, i opened my shades and boom i was hit with heat. i almost fell over. it was so great to wake up and be warm not cold as hell.... i called my baby and we talked for some time. I love her. then my cuz called and me adn hiom went rideing. we did some dirt raceing and jumping, played some roller hockey and thn we went to get some food. than we satrted to have a lot of fun, there is this warehouse down the street from me and we went there and broke a lot of shit windows, walls, cars, doors, and we spray painted some wall with our tags. i know i dont got a lot to say to day but i will in the furture, i will hit ya all back in a few with some more shit cause i am going out now. see ya all later. Current Mood: bored Current Music: X-Facter (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 21st, 2001
10:10 pm	hey i really got no life Hey, i know i already did this once today but i am board as fuck right now so you know i am doing it again. the only reason i am even home is cause my current G/F lives in WH and all so i cant just like walk there you know its kinda far. but baby if you lived closer i would walk to your house and fuck you. you know that right. lol. i really dont got any thing to write right now other than i love my G/F more than any thing and i always will, and as long as she knows that it is all good... so lata for now Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Amercian Hi-Fi --- Flavor of the week (Comment on this)