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LiveJournal for **..Crys..**.
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| Wednesday, February 13th, 2002 |
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Ok.. Well its been ages since i have been on this damn puter. I have tried to have a life. Isnt it amazing? To start this story off, i walked to the mall one day and met a few people. And then i was nice enough to let them stay with me for awhile to get them on their feet, As i see it.. I was helping.. So i thought. Well come to think of it I think i got myself into bigger problems than i already had.. But i made good friends from it all. Anyway, I also tried to let someone actually get close tome and it turns out i was yet Again Betrayed by themas well.Like it usually goes. Ok so strike one! Now here is the Kicker! I tried to MOTIVATE this one person i let get close to me.. AKA : Boyfriend status.. And let him do things WITH me that i wouldnt let anyone else do.. Or ever did for that matter. And then He was A sweetheart for a lil while.. then after awhile it all fucked? Like he lost interest. WTF is that about man. Ok so now i broke up with someone.. Yay.. Only my 2nd BF ever and he fucked m over Emotionally.Woo.Anyway Other than that a met someone rilly cool. He was traveling from Cali and he had 4,000$ with him and his 2 friends went to this rave .. they wereholdin his money andthen left him in SLC and took his money and his shit! Now he stays with me. Hes rilly sweet and VERY pissed that he was taken advantage of. So yeh we are in the same boat it seems.So hes rilly upset And has to be constantly high tonot think of what happend to him.Arg life is so fucked up! Tonight we walked downtown cause i was VERY pissed off at people in this house and just walked for miles thoughout the city, Tryin to keep calm. So i come back and im STILL pissed off..But not like i was. Arg im crying now for no reason.. Or maybe i have a reason.. Somewhere in my head.. I just want to have one thing go right.. For once..Anything at all would be great. Im so tired of trying.. I want to Dissapear. Even the net doesnt helpme anymore. Im losing Myself in my own sorrow.Everytime i try to have a life it fucks up on me.. I DO however have great friends in real life that will help me through anything. I love them for it. I hope Life gets better before i go insane... And lose Myself Forever... ..I just dont wanna know...Anymore... |
melancholy.| Monday, December 31st, 2001 |
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You Are FLAMING TOILET PAPER FROM HELL!! Malicious, evil, sadistic... those all describe you perfectly. World domination, preferrably through violent, destructive means, is your ultimate goal. You really, really, really like to play with fire. Remember: if you set the whole world on fire, there will be nothing left to dominate! Take The Flaming Quiz at Fire For Ice! Quiz by  fire4iceOh wow.. that is like.. yeh,, Im SO hot..rofl. 0.o |
| Wednesday, December 26th, 2001 |
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horny.
| Monday, December 24th, 2001 |
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-waves- Hello people. Tis been a long time since i been on. I been doin 340958309654 things at once. I have alot of people stayin over and they all love the puter like its crack. So i hardly get it. lmfao. other than that, we are getting ready to cook food for X mas.. Only Ours is Happy Anti-Christ-mas. Me and my friends Mouse, Sham and Tokey are cooken and the rest of the people will be Prolly getting high and watching/playing video games and/or tv all that time. We arnt gona sleep tonight cause we gotta make all this food. for tomorrow. So ill be up all day and night and then untill the next day. then i might sleep. Its rilly cool that i got soem real life friends now and 2 of them are gothic/Industrial people. thank lucifer My roomie andrews mom bought us a ginger bread housr you put together and ima make it a Satanic House thing. rofl. Have white icing on the roof and the Pentagrams all over it and blood Sickles off the roof as well. Ima have fun muaahaha. mmmm whut else.. OH YEH!@#$ I FINALLY BOUGHT NEW PANTS@! they are bondage wide leg pants with straps and zippers/buckles all over the legs. Omfg i love those pants. they were 60$. They didnt have size 32 in men, since i wear guy pants.. so i had to get a 34 waist omg they keep falling off me arse! so ima have to get me a *new* Bondage ring belt :D After X mas and all, Me, Mouse and Rastlin are gonna goto The Sanctuary and Fuck with the baby bats hahaha. Thats always amusing i think hehe. And i am STILL sick. I have been sick for almost 3 months now. I lost my voice for about a week to. Im still slowly getting it back to. It sucks. Other than that life is excellent. I haf Tuggy, My friends on here, and real life friends that think of me as there lil sis. since im the youngest. rofl. Everyone is like 22 and over.I dun mind tho haha. AND im not the shortest either! rastlin is like 5'4 im 5'11.. and the tallest is tokey hes 6'3. Oh well Being somewhat smal is cool i guess rofl. Anywh0re, I miss being on here liek i used to tho but ima be on more frequently now. So i can spend time with tuggy, I missed him so much through all of this shit happening, im so happy that i can come on and sit and talk with him like we used to. I luff it. -Dreamy stare- hehe XD Well, i dunno what else to type at this moment in time soooo on that note...... RoX <3333 TugGy <333 r0b <333 Alijha <333 ..Come lie.. Next to me... ....fades..away... |
happy.| Sunday, December 23rd, 2001 |
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 Wow! I'm almost pure evil! Sin is my way of life. If there is a hell I have packed my bags for the trip. Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com |
depressed.| Thursday, December 20th, 2001 |
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 Waste 5 minutes of your life with the QuasiGoth Dead Person Test! |
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This is whut my friend Mouse Got for this test. Same as me Bwhahaha/ How evil are we??? *grins* |
| Wednesday, December 19th, 2001 |
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| Monday, December 10th, 2001 |
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| Saturday, December 8th, 2001 |
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 Take the Online BULLSHIT fucktard tests: How good are you in bed test by dr jo0lie |
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You are The Goddess of Death Everybody’s heard of you, but nobody knows who you really are. Some say you are the devil, which flatters you immensely. You don’t care what anybody thinks, because you can just end their pathetic little existence whenever you feel like it. It’s your world, we’re just preparing for a painful death in it. You are evil and demented. Take the What Character From A New Day, A New Death Are You? quiz at Fire For Ice! Quiz by fire4ice
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 These bizarre creatures are well known for their weird brooding habits. They mate in the water, and as the eggs are released the male fertilizes them and presses them to the back of the female. The skin grows around the eggs to enclose them where they will develop over the next 80 days. The young emerge out of the back of this toad as a bunch of tiny froglets! |
energetic.| Wednesday, December 5th, 2001 |
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sleepy.
| Tuesday, December 4th, 2001 |
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 Take the What Cat Are You? test by  webkin! |
ditzy.| Friday, November 30th, 2001 |
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Well Hello..Uhm Alot of stuff has been goin on this past week.I was offered a Puter related job in reno that pays 12$ a hour and i dunno if i shouldtake it, i have all expenses paid trip there and a place to stay, but im scared to go...That also means i wont be on anymore for a long while untill i get it all setup..Sigh my stomach hurts from thinking abou this.. I dunno if should go..Stay here and just be on the net with no job, or reno to get money and start life i guess...Im scared..I dont want to leave my friends behind or have them mad that im going to be gone.. But also i hope IF i go..Things wont mess up,I cant take myputer and major stuff right away,and i cant get those til January or soemthin. I dunno..Im scared to go but then again uts a new place and a job to get me situated a lil more..All of this is taking place on sunday..Which means i have till then to decide to go or not..I Need some help or advice...For if i take this this will be the last time you all will see me for months...Maybe.. Unless it all goes well..I rilly dont want to leave this place.. the net i mean.. All my friends..They arnt even real friends to me.. they are my family.. I love them alot.. Man...I dont want to go, but it might be a good start for me since i fucked up my whole life... If it goes badly or soemthing ill come back to utah and back to here with my roomie. He said i can come back if things go wrong. I just hope i can handle it.. Ill be alone when i travel to reno..It scares me alot..My friend Mouse is gonna be at reno to. But still.. i wish tug was with me..I always feel safe with him..sigh...Well Im in tears and i dunno why..Im scared to death abou this and dunno if i can handle doing it..I cant part with all of you guys..Its so hard..We shall see what happens...But if im gone for a long time..then you know why...I love you guys...Wish me luck.. Love you Tuggy, Rox, Alijha, r0b...-Cries softly- |
scared.| Thursday, November 29th, 2001 |
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 Which Evil Criminal are You? |
| Monday, November 26th, 2001 |
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Ok Its been awhile since i last wrote, few hours. lol. But anyway, The snow still hasnt stopped, Its fucking almost covering the windows, its halfway up now. 0.o I feel so Loved..I came on after being gone for those few days, and i was loaded with IM's askin where i was and they missed the hell outta me. -tear- hehe. It made my day tho. God my friends rule! :D I should be on tomorrow hopefully. If not its cause of that damn storm and my isp fucking up again. Lets hope it dun do that. Its like 20 Degree's Here At this moment. Omfg its so cold, the heaters work half the time so i have 34098554 blankets around me, Plus My vinyl dress. Man stupid heaters! *Shakes Fist* Ima go take a Warm shower and the goto bed. I just got done talking to tuggy and ima sleep with him again.hehe. Anyway, Off i go..-waves- ..She's The one i live for, I live alone..I live alone... |
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Ok i havent been on in ages because we had this HUGE snow storm thats still in effect as i speak.we have about 4 feet now, And its still fallin. So this shit knocked my ipsserver down a few days to and i hadnt been able to get on at all. Omg it sucked arse. I missed everyone lots. I been sittin reading watchin out the window and all that cause i was bored as hell. Its fucking colddddddddd! -Dies- Anyway other than that nothing has been happening, Im still sick.. Hooray... And yeh..... RoX <333 TugGy <333 r0b <333 Alijha <333 ..Full of Decay.. |
| Friday, November 23rd, 2001 |
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I am bored.... So i made a New Icon... ...yeh... 
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LiveJournal for **..Crys..**.
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