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ok this is inspired by my sister.
i love my sister to pieces. shes so friendly and outgoing and has so many people that love her and i wish i could be just like her. she is so full life and happiness and i love being with her. i love the way she hugs me when i cry it feels like she has so much love in her heart some of it gets transfered into me. she is the best and i love her so very much. and im the luckiest to know throughout my life she will never leave me.
i love my best friend tina so incredibly much. we have been through so much together and she has made such a big impact on my life i honestly dont know whatd i do without her. she can make anyone feel welcomed or make anyone laugh. she is the most interesting person and makes me laugh harder than anyone. she such a strong person even though she has been through so much and i admire her and look up to her alot. i also finding myself wishing i was more like her. she is such a great friend and i know i could never find anyone better and im so lucky to be able to call her my best friend. she makes such a difference in my life and i love her so much.
i love nicole too. even though she may not believe that. she has a really good heart and i love being around her and she has such an attractive personality. i even get jealous of her. even though i try not too. i wish i could go right up to people and talk to them the way she does or make them laugh and be fun to be with. i like the way she has always stuck up for me. i think that really shows her character. i think shes a really awesome person
dan. i love him. i love his upbeat personality and the stupid stuff he says and does to make me happy and how he is always fun t be around. i think its great all the friends he has and how they all love to be with him. i love how hard he works at things. like guitar. he taught himself probably every song he knows and hes awesome it and thats something i really admire. and i love how hes so determined. like he worked and saved up until he got enough money for his car and i dont thing ive ever heard him complain about it. i love how i can just be in a room with him and we wont be talking but ill still be happy because just being with him is enough. i really do believe dan has made me a better person. he thinks for himself and does what he thinks is right without following anyone else. he sort of helped me find myself and he really was my best friend for awhile. i could call him any time of day and hed make everything alright. i think he really does have a good heart and think he really does care abut other people in general. i cry alot when i think about dan and how things used to be. it frustrates me alot. i know its my fault things changed and it kills me. i love being in his arms. it feels like home. it feels like i fit there. his touch makes me feel good inside and i cant imagine anyone having that kind of an impact on me. things felt so perfect. the thing i want to be more than anything is someone good enough for him because i think that he is the best there ever will be and if i ever say i hate him or otherwise its because i get hurt very easily and i dont express my feelings too well. the truth is i feel like a real fuck up about him. cause i know like bink asks nicole to hang out and they are just friends but im dans girlfriend and i cant make things good enough. i feel like i annoy dan alot and i wish i didnt. i really try not be too dramatic. i just feel alot and cant fake things enough to be normal. i dont even deserve to be talking to him and i forget that.
im really glad i met steve. he might read this and think im a complete psycho but i really enjoy talking to him, he always has the most interesting things to say and i admire how he doesnt let little things bother him and just enjoys life. and i think he really does have a caring personality. i couldnt ever picture him being an asshole or being mean to someone for no reason. and i wish i could be jsut like that. i think i could learn alot from him.
yeah jsut some things i wanted to say to/about the people that seem to matter to me
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edit..note: im keeping all my current livejournal friends. i love you all. <3
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