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Friday, April 19th, 2002
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8:24 am - Adventure to Stony Brook, I-Con 21 here I come!
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Well today I take my road test AGAIN...and then later i'm spending the whole weekend at I-Con (an anime/sci-fi faire) in Stony Brook...so i'll be away for the whole weekend, yay finally a vacation. I'll be staying with Dylan and his friend the whole weekend so it should be cool. A weekend full of anime watching and cosplaying as Kaoru Koganei from Flame Of Recca, woohoo! Finally i'm happy about somethin eh? Anyway i'm goin to get do stuff and eat, ja matta ne minna-san (good-bye all). I will return!
current mood:  excited
current music: The Oystars - Nanka Shiawase (Flame Of Recca Intro)
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| Saturday, April 13th, 2002
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10:06 pm - Watch me fault her, you're living like a disaster...
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Sorry I haven't updated, wait who am I sorry for? You? Me?
I don't know. Things have been shitty lately I don't know what to do. I don't care too much about school, and my parents are giving me shit about that, I'm trying to pass my road test and it's a fucking hard thing for me so I wish everyone would just leave me alone, I don't care about stupid shit. I need a job. I need to achieve my cravings, its my only escape from a cursed reality. I'm glad Dylan got me more into anime and i'm glad next weekend i'm going to I-CON (SciFi/Anime convention) to get away...I need a vacation so badly...from all the shit that haunts me everyday, things from my past and present not going away...maybe its just me, or maybe its not...
"Pardon me while I burst
Pardon me while I burst
A decade ago, I never thought I would be.
A twenty three on the verge of spontaneous combustion. Woe-is-me
But I guess that it comes with the territory.
An ominous landscape of never-ending calamity.
I need you to hear. I need you to see.
That I have had all I can take
And exploding seems like a definite possibility
To me
So Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and its people's mindless games
So Pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.
Not, two days ago I was having a look in a book
And I saw a picture of a guy fried up above his knees
I said I can relate
Cause lately I've been thinking of combustication as a welcomed vacation from.
The burdens of the planet earth, like gravity, hypocrisy, and the perils of being in 3-D...
And thinking so much differently.
Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and it's people's mindless games
Pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.
Never be the same...yeah.
Pardon me while I burst into flames.
Pardon me, pardon me, pardon me.
So pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and it's people's mindless games
So pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.
Pardon me, never be the same. Yeah..."
current mood:  uncomfortable
current music: Incubus - Pardon Me
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| Monday, January 28th, 2002
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6:29 pm - I'm too sexy for LiveJournal...
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Spanx to Koconut KT for the sexy code to change comment posting. <3 KT.
Started college again today, 2nd semester...woohoo (hear any excitement?). Yeah bleh. I can't get out of my 9:30 class, oh well doesn't matter. English is fun with Sam, Dylan, and Christina and we got the easy teacher so maybe it won't be bad. I still haven't gotten my life straight yet but i'm hoping to soon. Thats all I gotta say. Later
current mood:  accomplished
current music: iLL Nino - What Comes Around
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| Saturday, January 19th, 2002
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11:16 pm - Oh so many ways for me to show you how your savior has abandoned you...
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Choices always were a problem for you
What you need is someone strong to guide you
Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow
what you need is someone strong to use you...
like me
like me
If you want to get your soul to heaven
trust in me
Don't judge or question
You are broken now
but faith can heal you
Just do everything I tell you to do
Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow
Let me lay my holy hand upon you
My God's will
becomes me
When he speaks out
he speaks through me
He has needs
like I do
We both want
to rape you
Jesus Christ why don't you come save my life
Open my eyes and blind me with your light
and your lies
"Do onto others, what has been done to you" ~ Maynard James Keenan
current mood:  thoughtful
current music: Tool - Opiate
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| Friday, January 18th, 2002
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3:13 am - So far away...
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Thanks to my friend Adem who told me about Stabbing Westward.
I never really heard much of them but after hearing some of their songs and especially this one song...I'm gonna check them out as should you.
This song describes so much...it's a great song...
Each night I feel the distance that has grown between us
Open up as lonely as the space between the stars
I wish that I could find a way
To smash my fist right through these walls
Of ugliness and emptiness
and gently touch your face
But every time that I touch you
You feel so far away
And every time that you need me
I feel so far away
As you lie silently beside me choking back your tears
I wonder if you recognize
That silence that defines us
Desperately I try to fight this overwhelming sense
That I may never find
The strength to change
How hopeless we've become
And every time that I touch you
You feel so far away
And every time that you need me
I feel so far away
We need to find a way to break this silence
We need to find a way to break this silence
We need to find a way to break this silence that's between us
So I scream your name
But every time that I touch you
You feel so far away
And every time that you need me
I feel so far away
And every time that you reach out
You feel me pull away
And every time that I touch you, I touch you, I touch you
You feel so far away...
current mood:  tired
current music: Stabbing Westward - So Far Away
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| Wednesday, January 16th, 2002
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12:40 pm - I'm not gifted...slightly twisted...
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Well its a new year...didn't do much on new years (like always) just hung out with Joey, Roach, and Grizzly. We sat around, watched The Hobbit, played guitar, and shtuff. But about the new year...I doubt it'll be any better than the shitty past 4 years, but oh well thats me. College is annoying and so are my parents who tell me I gotta do good in school and my mom who isn't happy I failed a class...I'll get better in school...I hope...I guess. Plus I gotta get a job, bleh. I like being lazy...maybe it'll be ok...get some money to get a new ESP guitar...and workin at coconuts sellin people cds (haha even though their cds are expensive)...
I failed my road test again (stupid hitting the curb) but I'm more confident. Hopefully soon i'll drive...until then I gotta find a way to school...
I'm tryin to start everything over and give somethings that could never be up and fix things that can still be fixed.
Still trying to get good at guitar but oh well I gotta practice the stupid notes and stuff more. Oh well I think i'm gettin better. I'd like to be in a band but I dunno...gotta find people. Last...I met KiTTie with Joey!! Talena Atfield is so fucking hot, shes the hottest bassist alive. Woohoo. Amazing show. Ill Nino and Dry Kill Logic rock balls. I missed Andrea's sweet sixteen cuz I got sick, and dern I was all in make-up and stuff dressed kinda like Daisy Berkowitz (ex Manson guitarist). Oh well...forget my parents who make fun of me cuz of that. I think its cool to do that stuff.
Anyway...I dunno what to say...so later
current mood:  indescribable
current music: Dry Kill Logic - Pain
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| Thursday, November 29th, 2001
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7:50 am - My life...my pride...is broken...
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This past week has been shit...but then I can't seem to remember a time when I was happy so what does it matter...its Thursday...i'm gonna be trapped at school for 3 hours waiting for Sam to give me a ride...I got stupid school shit to do that I don't give a flying fuck about...right now...things are just getting fucked up with some issues in my head and no matter what I try to do to forget about it or be happy somethings gotta come and stab me in the ass. God just fuck it. Failed my road test, prolly gonna fail classes, fail life, fail relationships, fail everything. Screw it. I wish I stayed home today...stupid parents starting shit at 6am with me. Things just haven't gone right...and I doubt they ever will. Who cares. Not you. You don't understand me. Nobody does. Nobody will.
It starts with one thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn?t even matter how hard you try, keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme, to explain in due time
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me (in the end)
You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I
I?ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know...
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter...
current mood:  grumpy
current music: Linkin Park - In The End
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| Sunday, November 18th, 2001
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9:55 pm - Somewhere over the rainbow...
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Bad weekend. I slept, slept and rotted on my computer. Life is so confusing...I just wish I could make sense out of things...and understand my feelings for...someone...I hope I can figure things out...and pass these dark clouds in my mind...
Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high,
There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me,
Where troubles melt like lemon drops.
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly,
Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow,
Why oh why can't I?
current mood:  confused
current music: Me First And The Gimmie Gimmies- Somewhere Over The Rainbow
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| Saturday, November 17th, 2001
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12:16 am - Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down...
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Just when you think things go right for once, you come back and realize everything shatters while your mind is away from the chaos, and you try to enjoy life...just more and more BS added on top of this pile...if something positive happens...something comes and negates it...
I can't explain what happened...but I know how I feel, and others do too, some understand, some pretend to understand, and some just don't give 2 shits. I don't care...so nor should you...
"I got my head but my head is unraveling
can't keep control can't keep track of where it's traveling
i got my heart but my heart's no good
and you're the only one that's understood
i come along but i don't know where you're taking me
i shouldn't go but you're wrenching dragging shaking me
turn off the sun pull the stars from the sky
the more i give to you the more i die
and i want you
and i want you
and i want you
and i want you
you are the perfect drug
the perfect drug
the perfect drug
you are the perfect drug
the perfect drug
the perfect drug
you make me hard when i'm all soft inside
i see the truth when i'm all stupid-eyed
the arrow goes straight through my heart
without you everything just falls apart
my blood wants to say hello to you
my fears want to get inside of you
my soul is so afraid to realize
how very little good is left of me
and i want you
and i want you
and i want you
and i want you
you are the perfect drug
the perfect drug
the perfect drug
you are the perfect drug
the perfect drug
the perfect drug
you are the perfect drug
the perfect drug
the perfect drug
you are the perfect drug
the perfect drug
the perfect drug
you are the perfect drug
the perfect drug
the perfect drug
you are the perfect drug
the perfect drug
the perfect drug
you are the perfect drug
the perfect drug
the perfect drug
you are the perfect drug
the perfect drug
the perfect drug
you are the perfect drug
the drug
the perfect drug
(take me)
(with you)
(take me)
(with you)
(take me)
(with you)
(take me)
(with you)
without you (take me)
without you everything falls apart (with you)
without you (take me)
it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces (with you)
without you (take me)
without you everything falls apart (with you)
without you (take me)
it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces (with you)
(take me)
it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces (with you)
(take me)
it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces (with you)
without you
without you everything falls apart
without you
it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces"
~Nine Inch Nails - The Perfect Drug
current mood: Destroyed
current music: Nine Inch Nails - The Perfect Drug
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| Monday, November 12th, 2001
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9:13 pm - I can't hold on...
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I don't know what to do anymore...i'm trying so hard to look positively on things but when I do I just get more shit piled on me...I really don't know what the hell to do...I know people are holding things from me...and everyone has problems and i'm trying to help them but I can't help myself...and i'm falling...and I just know one of these days i'm gonna fade away...and i'm starting to count the days...
"Sometimes you just can't always win...but why can't we win any of the time" ~Me and Vinny...Vinny I wish I knew...for once I wish everything would go my away...its asking too much from life...i'm just gonna give up...i'm not gonna try and fail again and again...
"she shines
in a world full of ugliness
she matters
when everything is meaningless
fragile
she doesn't see her beauty
she tries to get away
sometimes
it's just that nothing seems worth saving
i can't watch her slip away
i won't let you fall apart
i won't let you fall apart
i won't let you fall apart
i won't let you fall apart
she reads the minds of all the people as they pass her by
hoping someone will see
if i could fix myself i'd -
but it's too late for me
i won't let you fall apart
i won't let you fall apart
i won't let you fall apart
i won't let you fall apart
we'll find the perfect place to go where we can run and hide
i'll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side
...but they keep waiting
...and picking...
...and picking...
...and picking...
...and picking...
...and picking...
...and picking...
...and picking...
...and picking...
...and picking...
...and
(it's something i have to do)
i won't let you fall apart (i was there, too)
i won't let you fall apart (before everything else)
i won't let you fall apart (i was like you)
i won't let you fall apart"
current mood: discontent
current music: Nine Inch Nails - The Fragile
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| Wednesday, November 7th, 2001
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9:34 pm - Emptiness Is Lonliness...
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I swear it must be a sin for me to be happy but then I guess its too fucking much to ask? Why the hell should I even try it's so damn useless I may as well do exactly what my feelings tell me which is to sit in my room for eternity which is what I may as well do...
"I can?t hold on
To what I want when I?m stretched so thin
It?s all too much to take in
I can?t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in"
current mood:  angry
current music: Linkin Park - Pushing Me Away + By Myself
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| Friday, November 2nd, 2001
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5:01 pm - Little by little...
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Dan Dan Kokoro Hikareteku
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Dan Dan kokoro hikareteku
sono mabushii egao ni
Hatenai yami kara tobidasou Hold my hand
Kimi to deatta toki
kodomo no koro taisetsu ni omotteita basho wo omoidashitanda
Boku to odottekurenai ka
Hikari to kage no Winding road Ima demo aitsu ni muchu nano?
Sukoshi dake furimukitaku naru youna toki mo aru kedo
ai to yuki to hotori wo motte tatakau yo
Dan Dan kokoro hitareteku
kono hoshi no kibou no kakera
Kitto daremo ga eien wo te ni iretai
Zen Zen kinishinai furi shitemo
hora kimi ni koi shiteru
Hatenai yami kara tobidasou Hold your hand
Okotta kao mo tsukarteru kimi mo suki dakedo
anna ni tobashiteikite daijobu kana to omou
Boku wa... nanigenai shigusa ni furimawasareteru
sea side blue
Soredemo aitsu ni muchu nano?
Motto kikitai koto ga atta no ni
Futari no kaiwa ga kuruma no oto ni habamarete toori ni mau yo
Dan Dan kokoro hikareteku
Jibun demo fushiginan dakedo
nani ka aru to sugu ni kimi ni denwa shitaku naru
Zen Zen kinonai furi shitemo
kekkyoku kimi no koto dake miteita
Umi no kanata e tobidasou yo Hold my hand
This is one of the best songs i've ever heard...you have to see the english lyrics...
current mood: frustrated
current music: Dragon Ball GT/ Field Of View - Dan Dan Kokoro Kikareteku
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| Wednesday, October 31st, 2001
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5:31 pm - Inavsion Of The Journal Snatchers...
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Talk about invasion of privacy!! Lara from PFY fired Sam because of Sam expressing her dislike for the new PFY rules and because we all hate Andy aka Andolf Peters aka Andy Hitler and she wrote it in her journal...thats fucked up! And Lara thinks Sam threatened her what BS! PFY SUCKS!! I hope at Sam's meeting tommorow Lara gets fired! Stupid Prison for Youth. Anyway since im not goin anymore and nor should anyone else i'll have no life again heh...
In other news...im still fed up with all this other BS...but then I guess theres no other choice...guitar lesson in less than a half hour hopefully that will be good...anyway thats my rant for today...screw PFY!! ...And screw life...
"Why is it always
You fuck up something you have always had
Why'd you try to tell me
How could you be so cold?
Your throat, I take grasp
Can you feel the pain?
Then your eyes roll back
Can you feel the pain?
Love racing through my veins
Can't you feel the pain?
Your heart stops beating
Can't you feel the pain
Black orgasms
Can't you feel the pain
I kiss your lifeless skin
Can't you feel the pain
I hate you can't you feel the pain..."
current mood:  blah
current music: KoRn - My Gift To You
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| Thursday, October 25th, 2001
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10:39 pm - Oh Vivica...I wish you well...
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Oh Vivica I wish you well
I watch you burn in humid hell
No sleeping pills no old tattoos
will save you now
He'll never change he's just too vague
he'll never say you're beautiful
Oh Vivica I wish you well I really do, I really do
The apple falls far from the tree
she's rotten and so beautiful
I'd like to keep her here with me
and tell her that she's beautiful
She takes the pills to fall asleep
and dreams that she's invisible
Tormented dreams she stays awake
recalls when she was capable...
Oh Vivica I wish you well
I watch you sit I watch you dwell
No crooked spine no torn up rag
will save you now
He'll never change he's not that brave
He'll never say you're beautiful
Oh Vivica I wish you well I really do, I really do
The apple falls far from the tree
she's rotten and so beautiful
I'd like to keep her here with me
and tell her that she's beautiful
She takes the pills to fall asleep
and dreams that she's invisible
Tormented dreams she stays awake
recalls when she was capable...
Oh Vivica I wish you well
I'll sit right here I'll never tell
no tender scar no twist of fate
will save you now
He'll never change he's just not there
He'll never say you're beautiful
Oh Vivica I wish you will I really do, I really do
The apple falls far from the tree
she's rotten and so beautiful
I'd like to keep her here with me
and tell her that she's beautiful
She takes the pills to fall asleep
and dreams that she's invisible
Tormented dreams she stays awake
recalls when she was capable...
She's empty and so beautiful
I'll keep her here with me...
current mood: lonely
current music: Jack Off Jill - Vivica
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| Wednesday, October 17th, 2001
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12:43 am - I'm Just An Effigy
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Er...I wanted to change my entry from what I wrote a few days ago...I havent written in here in awhile but I dunno so much shit has been happening...I stopped going to PFY for a little bit because everyone has to be a fucking drama queen...and college and driving stress shit...and I'm tryin to get good at gee-tar...and love and lonliness...blah...shoot me in the friggin head
current mood:  blank
current music: Marilyn Manson - Burning Flag
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| Tuesday, June 26th, 2001
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11:43 pm - Hey Friends...Fahk Yew...
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I don't even need to say what happened...everyone knows already...Dan and Adem are seeing each other BIG WHOOP! LET'S GO AND TELL EVERYONE AND MAKE A BIG STINK SO WE ALL FIGHT!! Yeah ok, Dan isn't 100% innocent but grow up. Just fucking grow up god damn...if we all act this way I swear i'm gonna lose all my friends, and i'm starting to just not care (except for like Joey who is neutral, and Joey is my best friend and alot of this doesn't bother him). Besides that stupid shit I hung out with Joey, Ryan, and Ari at the cup. It was cool. I feel bad cuz we graduated sunday (finally i'm a grown up...ahahaha yeah fucking right), but graduation felt so wierd. Then at Sam's party barely anyone was paying attention to him play but me. Oh well, fuck them. They didn't get to hear his talent, and then they played spin the bottle, so I sat out. I got no problem with gay people its just I really don't think I could kiss another guy (no offense). I felt kinda sick so I went home. My party is this saturday (I just know somethings gonna fuck up, people who I want to come won't...and theres gonna be a fight, just can't wait), and i'm still waiting for my guitar. Life is peachy huh?
current mood: annoyed
current music: Marilyn Manson - The Nobodies
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| Thursday, June 21st, 2001
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3:21 pm - ...What Have I Become...
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The only good new is: me, Joey, Katie, Dan Novak, and Cheryl Mosher are goin to the Big Day Offest (kinda like a small venue Ozzfest) with Manson, Slipknot, Mudvayne, Linkin Park, Disturbed, and Papa Roach (Papa Crotch). But bad news now...
My guitar is now delayed to next tuesday, thanks Sam Ash...and things just don't get better this week...
My mom still is bitching about me getting a job, calling East Meadow Driving School, going to the DMV, staying up all night...
My brothers asshole friends came over today and acted like complete assholes...they wrote cock sucker on my door, they kept asking if im gay...saying this kid Adam who i hate is my lover...banging my door making it hit my thumb...sprayed something in my hair, came into my room stared at me laying on my bed laughing, this one asshole Andrew pretended to jerk off in my face, they downloaded harcore porn onto my computer, and changed my rare Kittie desktop to a blowjob picture, pretty huh...whats worse is sititn here talking to somebody who I had feelings for just hasn't made this week any better...tonight is prom night and I'm staying home because a) I hate proms b) the obvious reason I dont go to them is because you go with someone to kinda flaunt the fact your in a relationship with somebody and anybody to write back and say its not true i went with my friends can bend over and kiss my ass, because i'm not goin with my friends who are just gonna sit there and make me feel worse. Friday is PFYs Prideball, not going to that either...so fuck this all.
current mood: gloomy
current music: Jack Off Jill- Strawberry Gashes + Nine Inch Nails - Hurt
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| Thursday, June 7th, 2001
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3:47 pm - Bordem does nothing for me...so i'm gonna chase it with a chainsaw and kill it!
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Finals and shit today...bleh
Dan painted my nails sexy dark blue (midnight blue as I call it) but my mom was such a bitch "...yeah well i always wanted a daughter", let them get use to it, i like it dammnit.
Things still suck though...oh well...lifes a bitch...school is over next tuesday thank god!
Um so yeah...by the way Joey...I'm here for ya too about you know who, and you know what. Anyway im bored and crap so peace out cubscout (ha ha KT I stole your line!!! =P)
current mood: bored
current music: A New Found Glory - Hit Or Miss
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| Saturday, June 2nd, 2001
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1:37 am - It's Always Raining In My Head...
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Yes I'm talking to my ex friend Dan again...i've known him for so long it's just so hard for me to just give up a good friendship even though we've been through so much shit...
So much projects and work and shit...
I want my guitar...stupid check...stupid bank...
stupid I need state ID...and my moms bitching for me to go get my drivers permit...im lazy...and school and crap...
PFY was ok...I just hung out...it rained and alot of people got wet from standing outside...but still im tired of being lonely but I guess if everyones so happy I should be too...
I wish I could stop everyone from being upset or angry...Samantha is confused about Dan R...Dan wants all the rumors to go away...Joey is pretty happy with Collene so I guess he's not complainig...Katie wants to be closer to Dan Novak (I hope they do...they are good together, and I think they make each other happy)...JP and Liza are fighting with Rachel over crap about where to hang out *sigh*...I don't know...I hope Melissa is happy too..I know shes had a lot of problems with her life, and I really want her to be happy again...and Candy (my friend from SC) well i've known her for 4 years and i've dealt with her boy problems...and it's been hard since I kinda liked her...but I don't know...im selfish...and I can be two faced...and I don't know im realizing so much about myself...things are just getting annoying...
When Melissa was upset one day, Joey made her sing "Your Not Fully Dressed Without A Smile" and
since then i've listened to it when im sad...and it's helped alot...(think whatever you want its a great play and song)
Who cares what they're wearing on Main
Street or Saville Row
It's what you wear from ear to ear
And not from head to toe that matters
So, Senator, so, janitor
Hey hobo man,
Hey Dapper Dan,
You've both got your style
But brother, you're never fully dressed
Without a smile
Your clothes may be Beau Brummelly
They stand out a mile
But brother you're never fully dressed
Without a smile
Who cares what they're wearing on Main
Street of Saville Row
It's what you wear from ear to ear
And not from head to toe.
That matters
Ah. the lovely Boylan Sisters.
Doo doodle-oo doo
Doo doodle-oo doo
Doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo
So long for a while
Remember you're never fully dressed
Though you may wear the best
You're never fully dressed without a
Smile
Smile
Smile!!!
Smile darn ya, smile.
current mood: tired
current music: Annie - Your Never Fully Dressed Without A Smile
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| Tuesday, May 29th, 2001
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1:13 am - :( Broken Bonds
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Dan IMed me...ex-friend...what do I do...
Talk to him...reveal lies...or truth?
Now things are gonna get worse...
Will I lose friends? Gain friends?
Find truth, lies?
I don't know...I'm scared...
Of losing it all...
current mood:  distressed
current music: Nine Inch Nails - We're In This Together
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