headaches
tired
sickness (vomited tonight)
so many things to do
charlottes 2nd birthday tomorrow.
argh.

Date:	2004-02-19 10:16
Subject:	Love. Hermann Hesse
Security:	Public
Mood:	good
Music:	nick cave

Once again my joyous mouth craves
To meet your lips and the blessing of
their kisses,
Your lovely fingers I wish to hold,
And fold them playfully in mine,

To quench my thirsty gaze in yours,
And bury my head deep in your hair,
And with nimble young limbs
Faithfully answer your limbsí stirrings,

And from always fresh fires of love,
Renew a thousand times your beauty,
Til we are utterly satisfied and grateful
And reside serene above all suffering,

Til we greet day and night and is and was
like beloved sisters, with no further wishes,
Until, raised above all deeds and action,
We walk in total peace.

from 9:30 to 13:00 I sat at the childrens doctor *grrr*

I'm sooo tired.

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1. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS = Favorite Spice + Last Foreign Vacation Spot:
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2. SOCIALITE ALIAS = Silliest Childhood Nickname + Town Where You First Partied
Mona Bennewitz
3. "FLY GIRL" ALIAS (a la J. Lo) = First Initial + First Two or Three Letters of Your Last Name:
R.Wey
4. ROCK STAR ALIAS = Any Liquid on the Bar + Last Name of Bad-Ass Celeb:
Wine Don'tknow
5. DIVA ALIAS = Something Sweet Within Sight + Any Liquid in Kitchen:
Maplesirup water
6. GIRL DETECTIVE ALIAS = Favorite Baby Animal + Where You First Went To School:
chinchilla pos bennewitz
7. BARFLY ALIAS = Last Snack Food You Ate + Your Favorite Drink:
bred water
8. SOAP OPERA ALIAS = Middle Name + Street Where You First Lived:
weyde bergstrasse (i have no real middle name)
9. And finally the classic PORN STAR ALIAS = Your first pet's name + your mother's maiden name:
putzi philipp

is there any website where i can find a table with the prices/weights/measures of the US mail, so that i can see how much the postage is over there? thanks a lot!

Date:	2004-01-22 20:41
Subject:	ruu
Security:	Public

i just watched ruu's website and I must tell you: it's beautyful.

and i love your belly. i had tears in my eayes because i was so touched. beautyful.
wish you all the best.

create your own visited country map
or write about it on the open travel guide

why is it so complicated and hard to make a portfolio for yourself?

i think a lot about a belly button piercing lately. i never wanted one but now suddently i have the feeling that i must have one. do you think it means something? can anybody give me a hint? there are two chakras in the area of the belly button. can it have something to do with it?

i just have to tell you how i love livejournaland all my friends here. thank you for being there for me. i really love it :-)

and because i feel easy (i drunk 2 glases of red wine and ate mint chocolate and maroni)
i dare to ask
if i can be
bluebelly's friend again.
or maybe time is still not ripe for it.

please let me know, dearest.

and i think a lot about rain24 those days.
and childofmadnessin india
and ray_of_redness, who hopefully has her muffins and her love in her arms right now.

and all of you. thank you for being there :-)
you make my heart smile.

Date:	2003-12-27 12:31
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	bouncy

this night i had a horrible sleep. i went to bed very late because i played carcassonne with A. online. and charlotte slept very vivid. later at night i took her in my bed because she always awaked by her dreams and cried. so i had a very vivid sleep, too. at 7 a.m. i couldn't sleep any longer because thousands of thoughts run through my head. horrible! i was so tired. i am tired. wee. i will go to have a nap after writing this entry. but i'm so bouncy. it seems that i can't drink green tea any more. i'm so hyper.

hehe. but i'm proud on myself. i managed to fullfill one point from my wish list for next year. i foudn a table prayer that sounds good:

Earth, who gives to us this food,
Sun, who makes it ripe and good,
Dear Earth, dear Sun, by you we live,
Our loving thanks to you we give.

Christian Morgenstern

in German:

Erde, die uns das gebracht,
Sonne, die es reif gemacht.
Liebe Sonne, liebe Erde
Euer nie vergessen werde.


it's such a nice one. And there's even a melody for it. And charlotte seems to accept the change of the prayer.

Inspired by hunaja's thoughts about the shrines in her flat, i know play with the thought of making a gaia/ demeter shrine in our kitchen. i liked the people in bali bringing food and little stuff to the gods. isn't the kitchen a great place to honour demeter? will think about it. First I have to empty the cellar and throw lots and lots of stuff away. and if D. does not help, i will give him an ultimatum, and when it's over i will throw away his things, too. when the cellar is done, i can put our dryer there, paint the kitchen in another colour and make our eating place in the kitchen. at the moment it is in my room. but it's more comfortable to sit in the kitchen for eating, i think. Ohhh, I have so many ideas in my head.

i got a lot of stuff done those days. Maybe it was because of our yummie witchy food yesterday ( a gratin against stress) out of a witches cooking book.

*I made 2 stiched ATC's for identy7's stiched valentine ATC's swap.
*I finished the creativity spell for hunaja. Just need to charge it with positive energy.
*I created two pages in an altered book
*I sorted out and took photos of some stuff that i want to try to sell on ebay (mostly some of charlottes clothes which are too small now)
*I throw away tons of old photos from my past which have no meaning to me. Now there's space again for the latest pictures.

Yay for me.
I feel so restless and moody today.
PMS I think.
Can someone send me a few hugs?

thank you so much for the package, dearest lifeisart. I liked everything in there and i will reply your letter as soon as possible. today was a good mail day. Among all the mail also finally davids present (a cd from underwater) and a book with table prayers. i so much want to have a nice prayer before eating to calm down and say thank you.
i'm much calmer those days. just have to go shopping some food and then relax. i have some plans for next year, but i will write them down later in a huge list. and i will make my ponderings about what i achieved from my list last year. yeah!
i consider to send charlotte to a childrens music education. you know, thos singing and dancing games. she likes music a lot and i think it could be good for her. i'm not sure. i will ask some friends and talk to the kindergarden teacher of her. we'll see. but i think there is a big potential in her and i would be sad if it would get lost. hm. dunno.
hihi, i myself unwrapped my old pipe and played some xmas tunes on it *giggles* so many memories. and i kind of miss the musical stuff now. at christmas eve. david doesn't play any instrument. i wonder if those days there are still this musical appointments within a family. where everybody plays an instrument and sings. i have so romantic silly dreams sometimes....

off to make a list

i think about a belly button piercing. what do you think? should i?

Date:	2003-12-19 11:53
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah

i felt in love with the most beautyful perfect jul tree. i had to buy him. it's naturally grown in the garden of a small fruit store. no mass production. and he had to be mine for this year. i'm soo proud. will take a picture later. on sunday, on jul, i will stand him in our flat and decorate it with gingerbred and candles and apples and all.


and now i wish for snow.

I finally got the chance to get some pictures out of the camera with davids help. so here are some smallish thingies from my life:




Charlotte and me made this little apple-gnomes from walnut, apples, wool and paper.




And this is a small natural garden that we made at the rudolf-steiner-school wintermarket some weeks ago. It now stands in charlottes room at the smaller bookshelf.




Another picture of the garden. Beside the garden is the dream doll from charlotte. it always sits beside charlottes bed at night and brings magical dreams (so i tell her). sometimes the doll even has to brush her teeth (when i am not allowed to do it)




And finally ma little girl baking cookies with me...it was fun :-)

Date:	2003-12-12 09:32
Subject:	snatched from trinblackbird
Security:	Public

*HUGS* TOTAL!
give jademondin more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own

isn't this georgeous?