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Current Mood: horny

I do believe I shall make this a sexual fantasy journal.

Now I have both of my extra journals as communities. Which means that next I just have to change snow_kitten and I'm done!!

I find it amusing to see that someone I despise had her girlfriend add me to her friends list. I find it even more amusing that this girlfriend was probably doing some sort of spy-thing on me.

Later, citylights03.

Well, I guess I'm opening this back up.

All public posts.

All the time.

You lucky bastards.

However, I'm also keeping my undinesea journal, as it's been a real comfort zone.

Well.
Welcome to the newbies!!
I'm a fucking nutter, feel free to befriend me.

Hihi to old-school!
I love y'all.

Nite.

:D

Current Mood: excited

*sighs*

I hate it when these two are right.

I hate it when people are being awesome and not telling me. I hate being ignorant.

I hate the fact that I left Nightkitten.

I hate the fact that it actually pained me to leave, because I've met so many awesome people here.

I miss me.

I don't miss me.

But now I just have to deal with the consequences of these actions, losing two people I do believe, and then I'll have something else make me think I need to do something, and then I'll do it, and then I'll find out what a stupid choice I was.

Now why the fuck do I open up to this more than undine?

I need to do some serious deleting.

Snow_kitten is goin' down.

Nightkittensbos is going.

Moonbabies and Lollipop_tree can stay.

But I don't know what to do about Undine.

I think I'll keep her.

I don't what to deal with the hassle of making more people move.

Maybe THIS will be my raw journal.

Only certain people can comment.

Only certain people will remain on my friends list becaue I trust them.

I need to think.

Current Mood: guilty

I accidentally deleted this entry.

As I was saying.

I lost a great deal of what I thought to be good friends when I abandoned this journal. I gave all of you plenty of oppurtunities to add my new journal, undinesea to your list, and a few failed to do so. For those that may have been concerned, you all could have seen my email addy.

I therefore have come to the conclusion that I was more of a nuisance than anything to many of you, and so I will continue to conduct my business in undinesea. If you wish to add me, do so. I trust that if you thought and/or think of me as a friend and add me, then you are being sincere.

Other than that, this journal will be used solely for the purpose of staying in the community thenotebooks, since I do not want to cause them any complications or undue confusion.

Darkest Blessings,
~*Nightkitten*~

And opening this journal up a touch. Back to "registered users" commenting and such.

I fixed my userinfo, you can go check it out.

4 days until Brian's 17th birthday....*grin* I'm sending out his package on Friday. I had 33 dollars for it, but spent twenty on a bouquet of flowers for Mom. Yea, I bought her flowers. Some women like flowers. She does. So I got them for her.

So 13 bucks to get a card (I saw one in the flower shop that I'm dying to get!) and send out a novel, necklace, and card.

*bites lip*

I hope I have enough.

I hope his parents don't confiscate it.

*dances nekkid in the rain* Tiptoe... through the tulips...

Tulips. Ladybug.

That reminds me of something that's bugging me. I hope to Goddess darkwisdom doesn't not join a community I made just because I made it. She's not that kind of person, but then I guess I don't know her very well anymore.

Damn. Same goes for nightvixen. Intelligent people. I almost feel like handing the community over to my hidey hidey account so no one knows. Or making another.

Nope, they can just deal. Like they'll care anyway, lol.

Well, I ain't seen my friends list and friend of lists in forever. Must go to userinfo to take a peek at who's creeping around in my alleyway :D

Blessed Be and Merry Part,
~*Nightkitten Brianna EveningStar*~

Current Mood: cheerful

I return.

I was gone, a little vacation you might say.

But I return, stronger and more confident than ever.

If any of you wish to view my other journal, go to see it.

undinesea

But I return, with my full Wiccan name, confidence, and a slightly frozen heart. I freeze it against many. But that's life.

Deal.

*back*

I just reported behemoth217 to Livejournal for abuse.

I just thought you might like to know.

Uninvited
City of Angels Soundtrack (1998)
Music and lyrics by Alanis Morissette

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Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepard meet shepard
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced like mine before
But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate

Good day, how do
And I send a smile to you
Don?t waste, waste your breath
And I won?t waste my hate on you

Ain?t gonna waste my hate
Ain?t gonna waste my hate on you
I think I?ll keep it for myself

Ain?t gonna give no more
Ain?t got the time to help you score
I think it?s time you pleased yourself, yourself

Good day, how do
And I send a smile to you
Don?t waste, waste your breath
And I won?t waste my hate on you
Waste my hate on you

Think you?re worthy now
Think enough to even raise the brow
And to laugh and tip that two pronged crown

I see my hands, I see my feet
I feel that blood that pumps in beat
But where the hell?s my mind goin? now?
Goin? now

Good day, how do
And I send a smile to you
Don?t waste, waste your breath
And I won?t waste my hate on you
Waste my hate on you

Think I?ll keep it for myself

Ain?t gonna waste my hate
But I?m so greedy when they say
Better to give than to receive

Ain?t gonna waste my hate
No, no ain?t got time to waste my hate on you
I think I?ll keep it all for myself, for myself

Good day, how do
And I send a smile to you
Don?t waste, waste your breath
And I won?t waste my hate on you

Think I?ll keep it for myself

Hate

You're beautiful, that's for sure
You'll never ever fade
You're lovely but it's not for sure
That I won't ever change
And though my love is rare
Though my love is true


Chorus:
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is
(and baby all I need for you to know is)
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is
All I need for you to know is


Your faith in me brings me to tears
Even after all these years
And it pains me so much to tell
That you don't know me that well
And though my love is rare
And though my love is true


Chorus


It's not that I wanna say goodbye
It's just that every time you try to tell me, me that you love me
Each and every single day I know
I'm going to have to eventually give you away
And though my love is rare
And though my love is true
Hey I'm just scared
That we may fall through


Chorus x 3

Open door so I walk inside
Close my eyes
Find my place to hide
And I shake as I take it in
Let the show begin

Open my eyes
Just to have them close again
Well on my way
But on my way where I?ve been

It swallows me
As it takes me in it?s fog
I twist away
As I give this world the nod

Open door so I walk inside
Close my eyes
Find my place to hide
And I shake as I take it in
Let the show begin

Open my eyes
Just to have them close once again
Don?t want control
As it takes me down and down and down again

Is that the moon
Or just a light that lights this dead end street?
Is that you there?
Or just another demon that I meet?

The higher you are
The farther you fall
The longer the walk
The farther you crawl
My body, my temple
This temple it tilts
Step into the house that Jack built

The higher you are
The farther you fall
The longer the walk
The farther you crawl
My body, my temple
This temple it tilts
?Cause this is the house that Jack built

Open door yes I walk inside
Swallow me so the pain subsides
And I shake as I take the sin
Let the show begin
Let the show begin
Let the show begin

The higher you are
The farther you fall
The longer the walk
The farther you crawl
My body, my temple
This temple it tilts
?Cause this is the house that Jack built

The higher you are
The farther you fall
The longer the walk
The farther you crawl
My body, my temple
This temple it tilts
?Cause I am, I am, I am

Open my eyes
It swallows me
Is that you there?
I twist away
Away
Away
Away

I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
the thought is too
Much to conceive

I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
That my life became 'cause

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to
Express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface
I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

So where were you
When all this I was going through
You never took the time to ask me
Just what you could do

Read above.

I'm back.

FUCK NIGHTVIXEN!

undinesea is still active. I'll use it when I want, so don't remove me from your list if you haven't already.

Okies. I'm out for now.

Blessed Be,
The new IMPROVED!
Kat

Goodbye. I have another LJ. But I highly doubt any of you give a fuck. Apparently I treat you all like shit.

I'll be at my other LJ. I guess you'll just have to go look at my bio if you want to know what the username is.

*kills Nightitten*

Current Mood: crushed

behemoth217....
Bye.