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Friday, February 8th, 2002
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10:48 am - Notta...
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Well, I sure have not written in here for like 4 months. Ha ha. Well, lets see, where do i start?
When the football team made it to state Molly, Lindsey, and I stayed at Adam's apartment and partied with a bunch of guys. HOT GUYS might I add. It was seriously so much fun except when I puked from drinkin and when I called Mike to tell him that I loved him. That was not a good thing. Oh man...
Travis and I basically hated each other for like a week but then we were best friends because he was really there for me. At Jenna's party I did a really bad bad thing with Mic. We had sex. Oh my god! Shit seriously went down hill. The condom broke, and I was thought to be pregers. Travis was the only one who cared about me. He said that Mic would not do anything if I did end up pregnant so then Travis would be there for me and the baby. Well all turned up good. I am not pregnant but it gave me a real scare. So now, I don't really drink or have sex. Too bad that my realization had to come that way but at least now I know that it is stupid, and I can wait.
Travis is not my best friend anymore. He is a jerk to me every day in Chem. But whatever. He told me yesterday that he did stuff with Katie while we were goin out. The bad thing is that neither of us really cared. Oh damn....
School is so hard. I just don't know, and the Acts and Psats are comming up! OH my god!! I have to go to a college that I want to go too so I have to do good on them!!! Well, I gotta go. Muah!
current mood:  disappointed
current music: Eve 6
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| Thursday, November 22nd, 2001
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6:26 pm - SUCKS TO BE ME....
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Yeah well, it sucks to be me. First off I have been goin out with Travis Sutter. I really screwed up too. The first weekend we were together, my parents weren't home so of course we did some serious stuff. Not that big of deal, right? Yeah well the next weekend we had sex. Plus, it was the worst sex that I have ever had. It was only 7 mins.! But never the less we should not have and we did. That was Saturday night and by Wednesday the entire school knew. Most all found out on the football bus coming home from North Central. Yeah so the team thinks I am a total slut. That is my reputation now and there is nothing I can do about it. Guys are coming up to me asking for a quick fuck. So lately all I do is cry.
Mike is home. He knows about Travis and is disappointed in me. I actually think he is with someone up at Northern. I can just tell.
We are goin to State!! Me and Molly are staying with her brother in his apartment. Party Party!!
I think i should go. I hate my life!
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current music: gone
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| Saturday, November 10th, 2001
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4:44 pm - Crazy!
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Crazy Crazy!! We're back-Redskin Football. We just won semi-finals and are headed to quarters next week. It is great. State here we come...
I am now goin out with Travis Sutter. See, I wore his jersey on Friday and everyone said we would fuck. But no. So he came to my game last night and then we watched a movie over her. But we really did not see anything...he he. Oh well. He is coming over tonite once they get into town from Troy.
All I have left on my anthology is Works Cited!!! That is it. I am so happy. Wahoo.
MUAH!
current mood:  bouncy
current music: Nickeback
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| Friday, October 26th, 2001
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3:29 pm - BULLSHIT
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I am so incredibly pissed off. And for all of you that think you belong in my business with Alison, get your own fucken lives!!! This doesn't involve you at all. For those of you who have no idea what I was just talking about, here is the deal...
So there is this bitch, Ali Williams. She is on the soccer team. And she is talking shit. It is about Megs and me. And well, frankly I don't want to hear any more of it. And you see, she is a really quiet girl so people think that she would never do something like that. But that my friends is bullshit. Obviously they don't know her very well. Cause she talks shit all the time. Well basically if she doesn't shut her mouth, I am goin to beat the fuck outta her. People are coming up to me telling me what to do. Get the hell away. I can do whatever I want. If that means, punching her, so be it. They think that I should not do it cause she is scared. She better be scared. Scared enough to shut her damn mouth. If she stops talking then we have no problems. Nick thinks I should not because I would hurt her and they all know I could. Excuse me I am not trying to prove myself for anyone. This is for me. So I wish that everyone would mind their own business and let me and ali take care of it.
current mood:  pissed off
current music: bitch
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| Sunday, October 21st, 2001
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6:44 pm - Everything...
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So I think I am headed on a downward spiral. I really don't know what to do. I mean basically things keep getting worse and worse. Lety is mad at me cause I like Orlando. She also thinks she is black for some reason? So all my friends are fighting with her.
Oh on Monday. None of my so-called "friends knew it was my birthday, except for Lauren and Megs. Lauren is even in Michigan and she knows. Thanks girls. I love you both to death.
I am not allowed to hang out with megs though. GAY parents.
What am i gonna do? I like Orlando. I like Norberto. I don't want to be mean. But I have to choose.
I also and tons confused about college. I know I still have another year. But to play college ball they need to know now. I not only want to go to NIU, but I really wanna head to Notre Dame, Indiana to go to Saint Mary's...
AAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
current mood: bitchy
current music: i wanna be bad
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| Thursday, October 18th, 2001
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4:33 pm - Why oh why??
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Okay, you wann know what i have been contemplating? Why do I get all looking cute for school. For no reason. Seriously, when I do it is only girls that tell me that I look cute. (which makes me smile and all but no guys ever seem to notice. They only notice the hooker boots. Wow. See, I kinda sorta like Orlando and Norberto. Which is odd because they are mexican. Not like that is a bad thing or anything. It is just that I am usually not attracted to that type, coincidentally now i am attracted to two at the same time. Norberto knows that I do because like 2 weeks ago there was a peck. We always hang out on Friday nights at the game together. Orlando does not know. He is my "boyfriend" to get travis mad. But not seriously. But last Friday, after the
M-Club picture, he did not want me to walk back to French by myself, so he walked me all the way there. His class is way on the other side of the school. So he walked with me. How cute? But Norberto is tons sweet too. We like flirt at the games to make each other laugh, and he is so cute. What the shit? I am all confused.
current mood: annoyed
current music: I am a thug.
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| Sunday, October 7th, 2001
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8:43 pm - Homecoming...
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Yeah, well Homecoming sucked ass. Steve left me at the dance because he had to go to work. Fucken A!!! Yes, I am so serious. So I think we danced maybe 4 times together then he left. But I still ended up having a good time because Kortnie and I danced with all these lil freshman guys. Brian Ward even pulled me in with him and Lins for slow songs. I was incredibly happy.
Powderpuff was great. We lost 25-19 but in overtime. I started as the left wide reciever but then I became the linebacker. Awesome.
We got 4th in tennis. We so should have gone all the way. Damn. Oh well.
I kissed Norberto on Friday. No big deal. I am wearing his jersey on Friday though. WHo knows?
Gotta go work on french project.
MUAH!!
current mood:  sleepy
current music: The baby duck song
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| Tuesday, September 25th, 2001
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7:51 pm - Homecoming and and stuff...
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Well, because Jovahn is a bitch, I am not going with Joshy anymore. Long story. Plus, if I go into it, I will just be more pissed. So I did not have a date. I had the dress, but no date. Anyways, last Friday, Steve came to the Morris vs. Minooka football game,(which we won 23-0 ehm ehm...) so I just asked him to go with me. He said at first yes but he had to see what was goin on. So he calls me later that night at like 12 to say that if we went with Nikki and Austin he would go. So we are going. I took care of the flower fiasco. And we have dinner plans. So now I am excited...
Tennis is getting better and better. Tonite, megs and I won against these Minooka girls 7-5, 6-4. Oh yeah. It was nice to beat those bitches. They tried to call me for foot fault but no, I was not actually doing it so sorry girls, but no...
Cornfest starts on Wedsenday. I am tons excited. I don't really know why, since when you get older it turns gay until you can drink. But hey at least it is something to do in this gay freakin town...
Corey got in a car accident last weekend. The cop that came to the scene told him to thank god because he should have been dead. Oh my god. That is tons scary. He told me that it made him realize not too take things for granted. Like me!! Isn't that so incredibly sweet. Too bad he is in MI.
Well, i got history to do. MUAH!!!!
current mood:  dorky
current music: I am a thug
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| Saturday, September 15th, 2001
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5:17 pm - Drive-In
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Last night me, steve, nikki, austin, and megs all went to Earlville to the drive in movies. We saw some gay movie, The Planet of the Apes. But I was a little preoccupied with Steve. He is so incredibly nice. And he is cute. But we had a lot of fun last night cause, he is just a funny guy. I was laughing all night. Oh my god, his cologne smelled tons good too. I dunno. See, he is 20 years old and from Seneca. Therefore, my mother is like "he is too old for you and he lives in seneca". But you know me, i don't care. But anyways, I had a good time last night with Beaver. I hope we still talk later on and stuff. I guess we will see...
Josh may not be able to go to homecoming with me. He like tore his ACL, so for the time being, dancing is out of the picture. And he said but in a nice way of course, that he would not be hurt if I found another date to go with. I feel so bad for him. Plus, the dance is another 3 weeks away. Almost everyone already has a date. Except freshman. I am not driving to homecoming. I am sorry, but no freshmen. It really sucks and all cause I have my dress, i am ordering the flowers tomorrow. Dinner is set. Everything is all set and planned. But I guess, whatever happens happens.
School is okay. I am getting and A in french and in English. I don't know about World History or Consumers Ed. But I am pretty sure that they are both A's too.
Tennis is boring. I wish it was over really soon. But it is not. Damn. Oh well, we are doing really good though.
GTG. Muah!!!
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current music: p diddy
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| Saturday, September 1st, 2001
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3:58 pm - In Contuation...
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So I never got to finish last nights entry because Mike came over right then. So I will try to go with that from yesterday.
I was on David. So anyways he turned 20 two days ago and he wants me again. But he told me I was getting fat!! Not really just that I was getting a pooch. But I told him how I got it and he understood--drinkin. So then we kissed like 7 times. I know it is horrible, but really there is nothing I can do about it now. I soon regretted it lemme tell you. Anyways at my tennis meet yesterday, he came to watch me play for like a good hour. I was glad that he left before I got done, that way we would not have to talk. So that is over.
Now, see Mike came home. Oh dear, I know. I went to see him next thing I know we kiss. Then last night he came over and we did some stuff. Who knows. I really do still have feelings for him, but he is away and that will not work. Basically because I am afraid that I would cheat on him. I am not worried about him and all, it is just me. He is home for the weekend and I am supposed to go see him later on so you know me...
I also like Tony Darin. But something tells me that he won't go for it. Well, I really don't like him. I just think that he would be fun to go with to Homecoming. I don't like want him want him. I only kinda like him. No big thing.
I gotta go work on my anthology for english.
MUAH!!
current mood:  lazy
current music: that coca-cola song on the radio!!
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| Friday, August 31st, 2001
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8:41 pm - My screwed up life...
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Yeah, my screwed up life takes course again. First let me start about gay ramon...No I am freakin serious. Okay he tells me that he likes me and all but he is not over Dacia. I understand. Except when he lies to me or her about the other one of us. Which pisses me off. Then he told her that I was goin out with Josh Holman so that way she would think that he did not like me anymore. No, I love Josh to death but he is my friend. And he refers to me as "the wife." But then I talked to Mike Sajnaj. He is Ramon's friend. I guess Ramon told him that I was hot, but that I was easy. Umm no. I don't think he got any, so I can't be that easy!! So he is now goin out with Dacia. And I could care less.
Now on to David. Oh my god I can not believe what I did. Yesterday, I went to the soccer game and David Valdivia was there.
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| Monday, August 20th, 2001
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10:34 am - First Day as an Upperclassmen...
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Today is the first day of school. I am finally an upperclassmen!! That excites me. Ha ha. We start at like noon, so I am all dressed and my hair is done. And believe me baby, I am lookin freakin sexy!! I am totally serious. Well I gotta look to show Ramone what he can have. Oh dear...
Last night my mother asked me who I wanted to go to homecoming with and I told her four people. Tony Darin, Kevin Laughery, Jake Carlson, and Ramone. She was like, "No not Ramone, you would have to drive to Homecoming." But hey you know, I would do it. I would drive the van if that meant that I could go with him. I feel bad. I mean he is only 15. Such the youngin. But I really do like him. I dunno??
The carpet guys are here and they are SO annoying!!! They don't stop talking ever. And it is always about stupid things.
I gotta go do my makeup. MUAH!!
current mood: pleased
current music: Where the Party At?
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| Saturday, August 18th, 2001
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9:08 am - Stupid Times...
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There are things that I do from time to time that are just stupid. On Wednesday, it was one of those times. First off at like 10:30 the phone rings. (I did not have practice because the courts were flooded from the rain.) Brett called askin me to come over and stuff. So I did. We hung out for a while and one thing led to another. Not good. We freakin had sex. I know I know. I felt horrible afterwards. I mean how could I do that? I am supposed to be hooking him up with Karleen and all and then I go and do the mother of all bad things. I made a huge mistake and all. But at the time you know it was like, hey this is brett chally. I have liked him for 3 years, so I did not think. Oh god. I should have. There are just things in life that you wish you could take back. But you can't. It happened. I need to just take it little bit by little bit and eventually I will be okay again.
Now Because I had the worst day of my life that day, I needed to feel better. Megs and I got plastered at Candy's house with Maria and Brent. Actually I was the only one who really got plastered. But man, I freakin did. It was fun as hell at the time. But the next morning was not as good. SINCE I HAD TENNIS PRACTICE TO GO TOO!! It was really stupid of us to do that and then have practice. I looked like hell. I had the hangover glasses on and I tried to play my ass off but it really did not work. I just wanted to puke again. But hey it made me not think of Brett.
Last night I went to the football scrimmage thingy. Fun fun...anyways, Eric Edwards came up to me telling me that Ramone was talking shit. I could not believe it. Nothing happened!! But supposibly Ramone was saying that it did. So I talked to Ramone and every thing all got straightened out. He is freakin hot. But he is still a freshman. He totally knows that I want him, but whatever. And Eric is hot too but he should be a sophomore but is only a freshman. Oh dear. But no Ramone is hot. I want a piece...
Gotta go get ready for tennis pics...Muah!!
current mood: Stupid
current music: the songs that remind me of football season, since it is now
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| Thursday, August 16th, 2001
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9:28 am - Hell Week...
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Yeah well you see it is literally hell week. No joke. And I am not just talking about tennis hell week. See, that is what we call it here. The week before school starts is hell week for all fall sports. But tennis is not that bad, especially with Kelly as our coach. We only have one-a-days. But no everything else in my life sucks so it really is HELL WEEK.
I really don't know where to begin explaining why this sucks. First lets start off with Michael. He and Brittany are still together, so I gave him this advice for college. "don't lie to girls while you are up there. Because they always find out and revenge is a bitch." He acted like he had no idea what I was talking about. So I did not tell him. Poor bastard...
That whole Ramone thing. He is a freakin freshman for starters. And second off, nothing happened except a kiss. I mean I totally would want more to happen. But it did not, so I think that very few people will ever know that I kissed him. He is just way too young for me.
Brett. Me and him talk on the phone every day at least once a day. But it is always about his new "friend", Karleen. Because I had a part in hooking them up, I guess. Besides, I think it is really about time to get over him. I have liked him for three years and it really it is doing me no good. He is a really nice guy to talk to on the phone. But I think that is as far as it will go.
Lemme see, boys in general. I swear. Morris has no boys that I like. They are all gay or they only like the pommy poms. I can not help it. I am an athlete. That is it. I wish I never went to MCHS. I would so rather be at Joliet Catholic. Damn.
I think we are going to see Chirs and willie and all them this weekend. Which we make me excited.
Gotta go back to my sucky life. Muah.
current mood: bitchy
current music: my song, peaches and cream
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| Monday, August 13th, 2001
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7:51 pm - Lety's birthday party...
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Oh dear...Lety had her 16th birthday party yesterday. It was for her friends and her family. It was fun and all. Actually I had a lot of fun. Me and Tory hung out all night so I was glad for that. We have not talked for a while. Oh yeah we played volleyball with Lety's cousins and stuff. They killed us. Let me tell you it has been a while since I played...ha ha. The guys could not spike on us though. So we did not look so incredibly stupid. But it was close.
Well one of her cousins is Ramone. I know him from other people. He is gonna be a freshman. Plus he is 6 ft 2. He can even slam dunk. But anyways, he was all talking to me. And little flirting. No big deal. Besides the fact that he is really hot. Well, as the night went on we hung out a lot more and he was like hanging on me and stuff. So everyone went to sit by the fire and I sat between him and tory. Next thing I know he has his arm around me and is holding my hand. I was telling Tory to look over at me. Funny. I took Tory home and Ramone and Adam all came with. We drove around for a while and acted stupid. But before we left Lety's, Tory went inside to call her mom and Adam went to talk to nate and blair who were very stoned. Ramone was holding me and I look up at him and he kissed me. Not a "kiss" kiss because Tory opened the door and we backed away. But it was a kiss. What is that? A freshman?!? But I kinda sorta think that I like him. I am almost 17. He is not even 15. Oh dear...
Tennis started today. It was bad and all, but not nearly as bad as I had immagined. I am excited to start the season.
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current music: POP
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| Saturday, August 11th, 2001
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9:35 am - Oh my god oh my god!!!!
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Drummroll please? (drumroll) PETE IS GONE!!! Oh my god. I can't even believe it. He is off at college now, well it is not a college it is a technical school. He is there for nine months then he graduates and can go off and weld. But since him and Katie are still together, he is gonna come home like every two weekends. All depending on his job, when he gets one. He left this morning at 6 o'clock. He came in my room said "see ya later sissy." And then he drove off. My parents of course following him. They are helping him move in then coming home tonite. I am freakin ecstatic. I know I know. I am supposed to love my brother and be all sad that he is gone. (sigh) NOPE I am not. First of all he tells everyone that I am whore. But yet I have had sex with one. He has with three, that I know of. I have just had more boyfriends than he has girlfriends, but only like one or two more. Second, he fights with me all the time. Over stupid things, like the remote. Then he freaks out. Third, he basically doesn't talk to any one in the family anymore. None of us ever knew that he got Katie a promise ring. Lindsey told me that she did. They have only been going out for like 6 months. And her parents are not happy about the ring situation...Oh well. But truthfully he will be back in like 2 weeks anyways so it is not that big of a deal.
MUAH!
current mood: ecstatic
current music: Blink-182
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| Thursday, August 9th, 2001
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10:07 am - My future....
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Today I am working on my future. I have started my college shopping. Although I know I want to go to Northern Illinois University, major in broadcast journalism. That is my goal but I also need to have back ups. Just in case. Right now my list consists of 12 but I only know things about 5 of them. So that other 7 may not even have a very good broadcasting course so therefore they will be checked off my list. So of my ideas are NIU, Carroll, Morehead, Kentucky, ISU, U of I, Saint Mary's, Arizona St, University of Arizona, Tennessee, Western Michigan, and Michigan. I dunno about going all the way to AZ. Joe Martin did and now he is a sophomore at NIU this year since it was just too far. So maybe those two are basically crossed off my list. I think that I wanna stay semi close to home. But not at home. Like I would go to somewhere in IL, MI, TN, KY, or MI. But I am also open to other suggestions. My other motive for a college is soccer. I really wanna play. Maybe I won't be someone that they come and scout all though, I am trying to get a few to come to Morris, but I just wanna know if I make the team will I see playing time. Maybe not my freshman year but at least during my sophomore year. Because there is colleges out there where I would play it is just the matter of finding them...
Oh yeah. Brett and I talked for a good 45 mins. Basically about his gf outta town. DAMN. I want him. Oh well.
Muah!
current mood: ambitious
current music: I wanna bad.
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| Tuesday, August 7th, 2001
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6:20 pm - GIRLS NITE!!!
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Last night me and Lisa and Kortnie had girls night. It was very much needed. Me and Lisa first went to Turtle's for dinner. Ha ha fun fun fun. Then we went to get a movie, Blair Witch. We had to make a run to Walmart for candy and then a run to Eagles for Cosmo. So we got back to my casa at 9. We then called Kortnie to come over to watch the movie. But we saw Squiggy the mouse and we threw golf tee's at him. Scary. After Kortnie left me and Lisa went inside and watched Remember the Titans and talked about boys basically. I said last night that no matter what, I was gonna get Brett Chally. And she just said that I will.
Today, I slept all afternoon. But guess who called 5 times? Brett Chally. OH MY GOD!! Is that not odd? But I dunno what he wants. I will call him latter. Oh dear, now I am so happy. Well, gotta go.
Muah!
current mood: happy
current music: George Michael...oh no
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| Friday, August 3rd, 2001
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1:34 pm - summer is freakin over...
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No joke. Summer is basically over. What, today is like the 3rd. School starts on the 20th. Geese. Summer seems as if it just started. But I know that since I was busy all the time, it just seems like that. I kinda want to go back to school to see the people that I don't hang out with and all but I don't want to go back considering it is school. But you know whatever.
I got my schedual today, so that means summer is officially over. Now I have to start thinkin of school. Here it is...
US History-R Mr Williamson
French 1-R Mrs Bivens
Consumers Ed Mr Wodziak
English 3-H Mrs Eaton
Second Term
US History Mr Williamson
French Mrs Bivens
Sociology Mrs Rath
English Mrs Eaton
Third Term
Algebra 2-R Mrs Shannon
Symphonic Wind Mr Fiske
French 2-R NEW FRENCH TEACHER
Chemisty 1-R Mr Bean
Fourth Term
it is exactly the same as 3rd term...
So, yes, my junior year is gonna suck ass. Oh well, I guess that I really don't have a choice. Almost all of my classes are core classes so I gotta take them. Might as well be now.
Gotta go. MUAH!!!
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current music: that who dat song...
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| Tuesday, July 31st, 2001
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8:24 pm - Whatever pops in my head...
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Lemme see, what to talk about? Gee, I really don't have anything to say I just figured that I would come and write in here because I am incredibly bored outta my mind.
Oh my goodness, Mr Kein quit tennis. I am so pissed because now Kelly Christensen is our coach. I hate her. I did not take lessons from her this summer because I can not stand her and now she is our coach. Damn. If I don't make varsity I am going to be so pissed I will quit to go and get a job. Now now, maybe I won't. I think I will at least give her another chance.
I did something stupid the other night. First of all we were all in the pool at Nate's house. And next thing I know Nate and I kissed. Oh dear. So then me and Mikki and Adam all went upstairs to shower. We were still in our swim suits!!! So no big thing. It was Adam's birthday so he wanted me to hug him without my top on. I did. Whahoo...no biggie. So then me and him went to Nate's room and changed into our clothes. We went into the bathroom and we messed around. I don't know why we did. But we did. I am so stupid sometimes. And all I said was "it is your birthday" Oh dear...
I am going to Joshy's game tomorrow to see EL. Ha ha. Then supposibly he is having a party which I am now going too!! Fun fun.
Muah!
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current music: 112
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