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today seemed to be overall rather eventless, but some stuff did happen. and most of good. yesterday i was on the ball and motivated and got everything done and nothing went right at all and by the end of hte night i was pretty seriously frustrated. not only the thing with art but work wasnt great (though i kept up a positive attitude somehow) but on the way home i got a message from my mom that earlier when i had called the library to let them know i couldnt work thursday (oh yea...i got a very p/t second job at the local library) i hadnt called the library at all because the auto-dial for it on our phone was set to the wrong number. i couldnt understand the machine but thought it sounded vaugely like someone at the library so i left a message and it turns out it was someone my mom knows and then there was this whole annoying repeated theme from my mom and grandmother about my getting someone to cover for me; which wasnt the case at all. and i know they didnt know and all that, but at the end of that day it just didnt serve to put me in a good mood and it aggravated me greatly. then my mom added to it when i was going to bed by asking me about it and after i said i couldnt work cause it was my anniversary she said 'why dont you celebrate it friday?'. i know she didnt intend it but that pissed me off alot. i elected to ignore and not answer her. (just because her anniversary is a living mockery doesnt mean mine is.) but after that trying day in which heavy realiance on vehemence was mostly what got me through, my darling one stayed up later than she should have talking to me and it made me feel better. not just talking everything out, but hearing about her day and her constant support and show of love and value towards me really meant something and helped keep me from dipping too hard into depression and relaxed my coiled frame. on that note, if any one ever wants to know why i love that woman (if a single look doesnt answer it...sexy!)...even from a distance, by text she has a great power over me. very few people truly have any power over me, and far fewer still of any significant level. she effects me on levels i could not have previously even comprehended.
so anyways, i came into today with little agenda, just history class for an hour and a half (this is my late day too) and i woke up slowly, heard my dad (who finally got a job last week) got asked to take a entry-level posistion for next to nothing an hour just working phones after the guy who had it before came back today. my father said no, and i cant blame him. thats a dick move. so after hearing that slowly, i had a very slow breakfast of coffee and a bagel while reading a little paper and then talked nonsense with nana for awhile and eventually went to school (and managed to be late somehow, blah) and class was uneventful; though we didnt get our tests back as expected. which i was hoping to see how i did, but oh well...thursday. so i came back and went to my po box and a package for thursday came finally (thank goc...though it was not what was expected and in the end a discussion needs to occur with drea cause i dont know what to do with the situation..but she has to wait till thursday to find out whats up!) and i also got a letter from bcc. i looked thru the window and it had that suspiciously blue check kind of color...hmmm...i was intrested. but after waiting for like 10 minutes to get my package i finally got outside and opened it in my car. it *was* a check. and i had totally forgotten about how my dropping a course at the beginning of the semester would get me a refund, but even so i had never counted on any significant money from it...and then WAM! i get $403! that is so unexpected and awesome..so i went and cashed it straight out and blew it all on a dumptruck full of 39 cent burrito's, which i deposited on the nicks car. actually, i deposited 330 of it right away but i wanted to cash it so i didnt ahve to wait days for any of it to be available. i cant really spend much of it at all, but it does get me out of a serious hole (and that 300 is spoken for already..yay) but it does get me out of 2 big things and allows me to save exclusively for debt consolidation for the rest of the month! yay for combined freakin' payments. but i talked to mike today and he's getting the money to do his comp upgrade, and being the slick bastard that i am im selling him my mobo (which is essentially what i would have ordered for him anyways, 'cept its got more slots) and i have enough cash around now so i can get the newer version i want! wooohooo! hopefully that takes away my ram difficulties. if not, i *should* have enough kicking about to get a small amount of that. which isnt what i want, but hey...there is always a needed excuse for upgrading down the line then! like i'll have money anytime soon..but i dont care. im in a much better mood from that. and work at the library was good, that place is so relaxed and friendly it kind of scares me. ive never worked in such a stress-free environment and frankly i love it. though i do seem a bit confused as to what to do sometimes. im not used to being at a workplace where im not under pressure to perform constantly. plus at work i was able to talk to lorna and get thursday off after all, with no problem at all and i showed them my picture of drea i keep in my wallet and they all thought she was cute and commented on it. *grin*grin*
well, for now im happy. im laying off doing taxes for a week or so, cause unlike mike i have no happy news there and a loan or something is likely my only recourse as i will owe so much due to unemployment last year. but im not going to have my mood dampened and it waits! thursday is my one year anniversary with drea! hear hear for the best fucking year of my life.
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