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[26 Nov 2004|09:08pm] |
so, im here on break doing absolutely nothing. im so bored.
im kinda not looking forward to christmas break at all. why would i want to spend a month here... sitting on my ass cause i know thats gonna happen. every time ive been home since i left for school, i spend the majoraty of my time doing jack shit.
everyone has plans all the time now.
i hope at least tomorrow is fun. i get to see jamie which is always awesome. ive been with her just about every day for the past like 3 months(which has been amazing).. and its been weird not seeing her for a few days.
anyways. thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday..
if anyone wants to hang out while im home. call me before sunday.
<3
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[25 Nov 2004|12:28am] |
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im like... 19. weird.
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[18 Nov 2004|09:58pm] |
Tide smells like home.
:)
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[09 Nov 2004|07:24pm] |
I've been coming back here to update a few times since the last.. but i just stop before i start.
i really dont have much to say.. and what i want to say is just me repeating myself.
i feel like whatever i write in here.. people dont care about, or people dont want to here it.. hence why ive been getting like 4 comments an entry since ive been at school.
well i dont really give a shit because this is my journal and im going to write about whats on my mind.. whether i sound like a broken record or not. eff yourself (c)
im just so god damn happy right now. i really havent been this happy in a long fucking time.
even though im not doing the best in all my classes... i dont even care. im so lucky to have you
oh and i also am getting excited for my birthday.. and thankgiving break (even though its short as hell)
me and rj decided on going into boston with the group... maybe dressing up like we're important and we can all gather and talk about our cool college kid stories... or in Mikes case... how many pencils he dropped this year. maybe even russ and jamel will come out of there caves and maybe ill see them for once. who knows. that could be too much.
alright well im starving, and i have 20 mins until im leaving work. (where i am right now)
oh wanna know whats kinda sad.. well im sitting here for 2 hours on this computer.. doing nothing for workstudy. noone comes in. nothing. then, i will go home and go right back to MY computer for another two hours or so. maybe more... im so pathetic. haha.
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[02 Nov 2004|06:17pm] |
here I am. Sitting at work again. Bored outta my mind.
To bad AIM express doesnt work on this computer. shucks.
oh well.
this weekend should be a lot of fun. Nick AND Chris (yes THE chris.. chris reidy, the kid who dissapears for months at a time) are both coming home for the weekend, and posisbly to worcester to visit. oh how i miss you boys.
had a nice talk with chriso today. its been like... two months since ive last seen/talked to the kid. im excited to see him. nick too. yah!
anywho. halloween... woooooo gts. as you might no... im not big on halloween. but this year i had a very fun time. with the most amazing girlfriend in the world. and billy and jenny.. we hit up some haunted hayride and haunted house place at nashoba valley. im not gonna lie.. it was scary shit. but then again, i have a vagina. but yeah. i had a really good time.
i dont talk about things enough.
one time, i went to college. expecting to not make any friends, never mind a girlfriend. i had the worst attitude going to school.. thinking i wouldnt fit in, thinking that i should of stayed home and went to a community school, wishing i didnt quit my old band and stayed home.
well, things didnt exactly go as planned.
i met a real good group of kids who i get along with. i met a girl, who i clicked with right away and now can call her my girlfriend. shes amazing :)
i recently found a few kids from surrounded colleges (worcester stat/WPI) who im going to start jamming with soon. im so glad i didnt stay home, because honestly i dont like going there anymore. i love being on my own.
im happy with my life. i just wish i wasnt failing art history. motherfucker.
i still have an hour and a half here. someone help.
<3
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[28 Oct 2004|07:43pm] |
Last night, I was in Boston when the RED SOX won the World Series. Best night of my life so far.
thank you boston red sox.
-Joshua Smith. <3
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[21 Oct 2004|03:56pm] |
OWNED! posada pees on his hands..
i didnt see this coming. holy shit.
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[05 Oct 2004|07:50pm] |
i love the play-offs so much.
but i would give anything to be watching these games back home in the apartment with everyone.
i hope this weekend is fun. maybe when im home my friends will actually hang out with me.
i know jamie is coming over for a day or two.. so thats gonna be fun.
i never have anything to update. like, ever.
oh, i went to see everytime i die, misery signals and dillinger a couple days ago. it was kinda shitty..
talk about alot of kids. and by kids i mean kids. meh. seeing etid in maine last year, and the living room... its gonna be impossible to top that. i was expecting to much from them this time.
misery signals was tight as hell. good band.
and dillinger.. fucking amazing live. i just wasnt enjoying myself much.
i wish there were good shows coming up.
<3
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[24 Sep 2004|07:32am] |
its early.. but hey, its friday! finally. well actually, this week flew by. as does every week here. its pretty cool.
im tired as hell.
saw norma jean, throwdown and a life once lost last night.
it was fun.. throwdown was sick. alol is talented but alot of there songs sound alike.. norma jean was good.. alot better when i saw them in allston though. yawn
might go to ahhjays to watch the game in provi tonight depending on my gas situation.(for the car) OR i might be going to see terror, remembering never, since the flood and unearth tonight down the street. who knows.. blah.
i have more to say.. but have art history in 15 mins. im done by 10 with everyhting though.. so thats good. ill be back.
<3
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[21 Sep 2004|04:08pm] |
jamie is the best in the world
<3 JOSH
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[19 Sep 2004|07:11pm] |
I feel like im on drugs all the time. Not really though. I've just been lightheaded/dizzy for the past few days. It sucksssss. Oh well.
went home friday... made me realize just how much I love it here. The second we got off 95 and hit rt 1 in walpole.. im like.. "what the fuck am i doing here?"
it was a totally pointless trip home. i got laundry done, and got some food and shit.. but it wasnt worth it in my opinion. stupid. i dont plan on going back anytime soon.
Skate fest was pretty rockin.
Treos was the first band we saw and as always were fucking AWESOME. Like... awesome times 9807. So good.
Folly played a little later on and blew me the fuck away. They were so good. Most powerful voice ever. They played downstairs which was rad and there werent many people there so there was tons of room. AWESOME band.
With Honor was next upstairs. Also fucking awesome. I love them. word.
I just spent 24 hours straight with the coolest girl in the fucking world. :)
thursday night is the red chord/a life once lost/norma jean.
friday is unearth but i dont think im going.
I hope Russ and Jamel come up this weekend.
I miss having best friends. thats the one thing i dont like about this.
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[16 Sep 2004|10:09am] |
ok so what the fuck. my roomate is the biggest fucking tool ive ever met. im so rediculously pissed right now.
last night.. he gets home at 1:30ish. now ive been in bed for a good hour. he gets home and theres a few kids with him obviously helping him to get to his room. now they are all trashed so everyones falling down laughing having a grand old time. i just sit up and im like... dude go to fucking bed, jesus.
so they all leave. he passes out. back to sleep i go.
about 4:15 in the morning rolls around and i hear him get outta bed. so im like ok, hes probably going to take a piss or somthing.. i turn around cause i hear him kinda talking to himself.. and guess what the fuck he starts to do.
HE STARTS TO TAKE A PISS IN THE FUCKING FRIDGE.. what the fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. im so pissed right now i get up and scream at him.. " you fucking idiot the bathroom is 3 feet away from the fucking room asshole.. jesus christ im going to kill you if you turn around you fucking peice of shit" then, he just falls back into his bed and passes out.
Im shocked.
i sat in my bed.. stunned that someone actually would do that. i then got up turned the light on and started screaming at him to get the fuck up and clean that shit. but he doesnt even flinch. im so fed up right now. i left him a sweet little note, then went upstairs and slept on tylers floor.
fuck him dude. seriously. this is going to be a long fucking year. fuckfuckfuck. i want a new roomate NOW. im thinking of talking to that director guy because im fed up right now.
fucking drunken retards. fuck you, drinking is retarded. i hate you.
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[14 Sep 2004|10:03pm] |
I was planning on updating tonight.. but I kinda feel shitty.
All you need to know is that Im having alot of fun.
Jamie is the shit.
Class isnt bad either. I might be dropping intro to comp.
Im coming home on friday.. so if you are around call me.
<3
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[09 Sep 2004|10:26am] |
i ate all my food. all i have left is granola bars and stale goldfish.
i wont have money for a while. i dont start work until the 24th, and even then.. i only will be working twice a week. i want mini muffins.
i did laundry for the first time last night.
i need to shower right now, but have class in 20 mins and cant get out of my chair.
teyon thinks im the biggest loser.. which i am.
i suck at making friends.
im having alot of fun.. even though it sounds like im not.
i miss everybody tooo much.
im far from homesick.. but im friend-sick.. if thats a word.
i want someone around here i can talk to and act like i do at home with.
i heard becker firewalls all trasnfers out of this connection area or whatever its called..
BULLSHIT.
i paid way to much money to come here, and for my computer, to not be able to recieve music.
idiots ruin it for everyone.. i guess someone got a virus last year so they had to firewall everything. fuck you whoever got that virus you retarded mother fucker. fuck you.
cock
balls
hey mike.
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[06 Sep 2004|07:20pm] |
Im tired.
College makes me so tired.
and makes me shit alot. haha.
im having alot of fun. i found a nice group of friends that dont go out partying every night which is awesome. and rare around these parts. the differnce with friends here and back home is... here they live with you. they are always there. you eat with them, you go to class with them, you study with them, you go to sleep, then wake up and they are right here. its weird, but ill get used to it.
so far i love everything i guess.
had an awesome long weekend. watched a lot of family guy, went to six flags which was the scariest thing ever, had a sLuMbEr pArTy at my room, played pool... i dunno, alot more. it was fun.
i hope i meet some more people though. more people that i can call friends ya know?
Ive been missing everyone like crazy. there will never be a group of friends as fucking awesome as ours is. (caila, mike, nicole, nick, rj, chris, lyndz, rj, russ etc...) i miss you all so much. like.. SO much. seeing mike and nicole for a total of like 2 hours the other day was such a tease.
i dont want to drift from anyone. i hope we dont. i havent really talked to lyndsey, rj jamel or russ since ive been here. i guess that could be part my fault.. but yeah. it sucks. even with mike caila and nicole.. i dont talk to you guys as much as i would like.. i love you all.
i havent talked to chris in a good week. i know you're alive... but i miss you.
i dont know what else to say right now. i need to get some work done.
call me sometime.
<3josh
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[01 Sep 2004|05:08pm] |
woah. so summers over.
classes started today. i only had 3.. and was done by 11. so that was pretty rad. jenny is in my art history class so at least i know someone. i think shes in my princ of design class also. we'll see.
i need to make more friends. ive only made 2.. and they are boyfriend and girlfriend so its kinda weird at times.. even though they are the coolest kids ever. there are alot of cute girls here. but there are even more slutty drunken whores which is funny. i didnt realize this school was such a party school. ive met a good amount of people.. non which i can call friends yet other than bill and jenny.
i met this kid erik from NC. he plays soccer. funny kid, he listens to beloved and shit who are from NC. he thought it was awesome that i knew who they were. i got his digits! oh snap.
i chilled with these kids luke and bk from maine last night for a little while. that was fun. everyone is awesome around here.. they just all drink and smoke way to much. probably will stop doing it so much now that classes have started and they realize they wont be able to handle it.
oh and random. i talked to this girl tina last night who knows nick guiod. haha so random. i loled a bit. ummm..
so i miss everyone at home/also at school. i havent talked much to anyone really.. other than mike. kinda makes me sad.. oh well. im skipping dinner cause i had easymac and peanut butter a few mins ago.
until next time..
<3
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[28 Aug 2004|09:19pm] |
im here.
in worcester. i still dont even know my address.. or room phone number. maybe i should get those.
arrived at about noon.. unpacked the cars. hung out here with the family for a few hours.. unpacked my shit. realized i forgot a bunch. thats about it.
my roomate Teon is a nice kid. more cool than i suspected i guess. i havent really talked or hung out with him much. hes a quiet kid. as am i.
we had a cookout and i met some cool people. well, 3 to be exact. Jenny, Billy and some kid who i cant remember his name. i suck with names. but yeah.. tyler and i hung out with Jenny and Bill all day pretty much. went to differnt halls, drove to walmart.. nothing exciting. im happy to of found kids who listen to some of the same music as me, and have alot in common with me. I think jenny and caila would get along.. she doesnt like girls very much. kinda reminds me of you dear. i dunno. yah!
i wish i were more outgoing and would talk to people. theres this kid down the hall staring at me right now. my computer is right by the door.. which is open. and hes laying in his bed. hahah, its kinda creeping me out. maybe ill go say hi..
ok i just said hi. hes from framingham. and teaches karate? hahah sick.
so im kinda bored right now.
things i need.
-mouse pad (lost mine in the move)
-some sort of table for next to my bed. for my clock.. phone, fan.. whatev.
-carpet.
-some sort of light weight blanket.
-another bin to put next to my bed for extra clothes and shit.
didnt take me long to update this. im gonna go try to find someone to hang with.
<3 i love and miss you all.
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[27 Aug 2004|11:52pm] |
i really dont even know what to say right now.
i leave on sunday afternoon. for worcester.
its hard to imagine living anywhere other than walpole.
i dont want to leave my friends. i just cant really believe it wont be a 2 second ride to mikes.. or a 6 and a half minute drive to cailas. :(
i had an awesome summer.
with the best friends in the whole fucking world.
-mike
-nicole
-caila
-russ
-jamel
-chris
-lyndsey
-ty
-ryan
-rj
-nick
-matt
- and everyone else i spent my summer with.. i want you all to know that i love you and you all are the best people in the entire world. best fucking group of friends ever.
i had so many fun times this summer.
went to the cape a handful of times... a bunch of great shows, fucking baltimore! seriously guys.. i cant believe we actually did that. it all started with one of us a WHILE ago..jokingly say "hey lets go to baltimore or somthing to see a sox game.. heheh giggle" and we actually ended up going. sick. so fun. it is going to be hard to top this summer. i think we can do it though. definetly.
oh man. last night it was really hard to say goodbye to caicai. no goodbyes are easy.. but last night was fucking hard as hell. i got no sleep after coming home from her house.
but yeah... im going to keep in touch with all of you. and hang out with all of you all of the time.
whenever there is a show in worcester.. you have a place to stay. whenever you feel like getting out of your house.. or dorm you can come to my place. for real.
i need to pee.
ok back. has anyone seen the mcdonalds chicken selects commercial?? with the guy who doesnt let anyone near his chicken selects? oh man, its hilarious. i just loled.
im gonna go to bed.. hopfully get some sleep tonight? we'll see.
<3 i love you all.
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[23 Aug 2004|11:42pm] |
its been a few.
as always.
ive been really shitted lately i guess. at least at night. everyones leaving, or already is gone. ive just had that whole feeling you get like the night before your first day of school.. kinda shitted, but excited, but not. i dont know.. i mean i still have 6 days before i leave but the feeling is already there. blah.
this entry was expected i guess.
i have a few people i want to spend time with before i leave.. that i dont know if i will get the chance to.
i guess i just wish i was leaving tomorrow or somthing so i dont have to be upset for 6 more days.
i still have so much shit to do.
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[18 Aug 2004|01:31am] |
boston tonight.
WICKED FUN!
for real.
train ride home..
SO funny. gotta love 32 year old drug addicts hitting on RJ and telling chris there life story.
told me i looked like i just robbed a bank.
how did they know?
Im shitted. im going to be until i leave, and even then i will still be shitted.
chris is leaving either tomorrow or friday. i NEED to talk to him. about ALOT of shit. i worry about him more than anyone i know. more than my own family. he IS part of my family.. ive known him since 2nd grade. my family and his family are best friends. a little too close somtimes. heh. (not funny)
i hope he got my message.. i want to go to lunch with him, or sit down and have a good talk with him tomorrow before i have to work. i feel like when we are alone, we have the best talks about anything and everything.(im dead serious.. this is not anything homosexual if you are thinking that.) and so much is going on right now... i just need to make sure he knows how i feel about certain things before he leaves.
( Chris the cowboy.. )
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