| the swans singing about me |
[09 Jun 2004|11:37am] |
Now I don't say a prayer for anyone
And please don't ask me questions, you'll just be misunderstood
And if you could step inside me, you'd feel what hatred brings
And if you could see with my eyes, you'd see what self-deception means
I was younger once, and I created a lie
And though my body was strong, I was self-deluded, confident,
and blind
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[08 Jun 2004|12:55am] |
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if there's a word out there for everyone mine would be quixotic, what would yours be?
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| what seems like a series of me posting Anywhere out of the world |
[07 Jun 2004|10:40pm] |
This life is a hospital, in which the sick are all obsessed
with the desire for a change of bed.
One would like to suffer in front of the stove;
another imagines he would recover, were he near the window.
It seems to me that I would always feel well wherever I don't happen to be,
and this question of a change of domicile
is one which Iam forever discussing with my soul.
'Tell me, my soul, my poor chilled soul, what would you think of living in Lisbon?
it must be warm there, you would soon be as merry as a lizard.
It's a town on the waterfront; they say it's built of marble,
and that its inhabitants have such a horror of plants that they uproot all the trees.
There's a landscape after your taste - a landscape
made entirely of light and mineral, with water to reflect them.'
My soul offers no reply.
'Since you are so fond of rest and quiet, so long as you have some movement to watch,
would you like to go and live in Holland, that land which fills one with bliss?
perhaps you will find plenty to interest you in that country
whose image you have often admired in art galleries.
What about Rotterdam, you who love forests of masts,
and ships berthed right beside the houses?'
My soul remains silent.
'Perhaps you would find Batavia more to your liking?
There, incidently, we would find the spirit of Europe wedded to tropical beauty.'
Not a word. - Can my soul be dead?
'Have you reached such a state of torpor that you enjoy your suffering?
If so, then let us escape to those countries which are the counterparts of death.
I have exactly what you are looking for, my poor soul! We'll pack our bags for Torneo.
Let's go even farther - to the extreme end of the Baltic
- or even farther from life, if you like -
let's set up house at the North Pole!
There the sun only obliquely skims the earth,
and the slow alternation of light and dark cuts out variety and
enhances the monotony, which is half of Nothingness itself.
There we can take long baths of darkness,
while for our entertainment the Aurora Borealis
will offer us its rosy sheaves from time to time,
like reflections of a firework-display in Hell.'
At last my soul erupts and cries out, in its wisdom:
'Anywhere! - so long as it is out of this world!'
Baudelaire
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| the only gigs i really want to go to |
[07 Jun 2004|08:37pm] |
CLINIC Manchester University Manchester SAT 24/07/2004 19:30
MISSION OF BURMA Night & Day Manchester MON 05/07/2004 19:30
kinda pissed off that i forgot ikara colt were in leeds tonight. bugger!
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| missing london |
[06 Jun 2004|11:54pm] |
things i want to do:
The Golden Age of French Cinema
Part 2: From Pépé to Paradis
Federico Fellini
Part 1: From Rimini to Roma
at the NFT in july
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[06 Jun 2004|04:18pm] |
todays food -
potato salad
a pan of new potatoes, cooked, halved and left to cool
light mayonaisse
celery, chopped into little pieces
black pepper
chives
mix all together on a bowl and then chill, serve with a mixed leaf salad and chopped olives
(i wish i had capers for the potato salad)
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[06 Jun 2004|02:15am] |
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one week in paris, flights and accomodation = £137. it will be booked on monday and then i will have something to look forwards to. not sure but i might, just might buy it one way and then just work through summer to see how long i can stay for.
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[06 Jun 2004|02:08am] |
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The Blueskins - User Friendly |
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why is it that i never want to eat again after going to an indie night? i feel so abd about myself right now you just wouldn't know. i could sleep for a million years, i could vomit for a million years. throwing myself into my work might do the trick. i don't want to be here, i don't want to feel like this. keep smoking adam, keep smoking.
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[05 Jun 2004|10:02am] |
after reading True Tales of American Life by Paul Auster i'd be really interested to read any of your stories. i want to collect stories from all of you so if you have a spare 5 minutes i'd love it if you guys could send me a true story about your life, something that's had a big effect on you.
send it to a_quixotic_life@hotmail.com a new email address i set up for this project.
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[04 Jun 2004|10:16pm] |
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imagine the worst paper cut you've ever had
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[04 Jun 2004|09:02pm] |
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no sex, no drugs, no wine, no women
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no, of course not, this is me.
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| plans for this evening |
[01 Jun 2004|10:03pm] |
watch Yes, Minister.
have a bath with incense and tape ![[info]](http://library.vu.edu.pk/cgi-bin/nph-proxy.cgi/000100A/http/web.archive.org/web/20040609150523im_/http:/=2fstat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) somethingshiny made for me
clean my room and 1/3 of the kitchen
read the 39 steps
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[01 Jun 2004|08:36pm] |
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good good day, even if i feel a little spaced out. my essay's done and in on time. i got invited to a party after Mantra on friday. i fell asleep after getting in and had a dream starring killingfantasy as a 1920s heroine (that's talking too much about will's essay on the great gatsby). i had the biggest mug of tea, it's equivalent to about 3 normal mugs of tea and i think i'm going to have another.
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| a question for all of you brave enough to answer |
[31 May 2004|10:58pm] |
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what was the first album you had sex to?
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| list of films on my rental list at http://www.ilovefilm.co.uk |
[31 May 2004|10:50pm] |
1 Mystery Train
2 Blue In The Face
3 Irreversible
4 Buena Vista Social Club
5 Return To Oz
6 Paris, Texas
7 Hedwig & the Angry Inch
8 The Man Who Wasn't There
9 Y Tu Mama Tambien
10 Down by Law
11 Night on Earth
12 Easy Rider
13 The Godfather
14 Ferris Buellers Day Off
15 Dancer in the Dark
16 Idiots
17 Dr Strangelove
18 Lolita
19 Paths Of Glory
20 The Shining
21 Brief Encounter
22 The 39 Steps
23 Room At The Top
24 The Lady Vanishes
25 The Day of the Jackal
26 The Wicker Man
27 It's a Wonderful Life
28 One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
29 Raging Bull
30 Fargo
31 Blue Velvet
32 La Dolce Vita
33 The Last Picture Show
34 American Graffiti
35 Dazed And Confused
36 Cinema Paradiso (Theatrical Version) (Disc 1)
37 Bonnie and Clyde
38 Eight and a Half
39 The Last Metro
40 Jules Et Jim
41 A Bout De Souffle (Breathless)
42 The Loneliness Of The Long Distance Runner
43 Saturday Night And Sunday Morning
44 Odd Man Out
45 Battleship Potemkin
46 The Cabinat Of Dr. Caligari (Silent)
47 Metropolis (Silent) (Disc 1)
48 Reefer Madness
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[31 May 2004|10:11pm] |
the film is wrapped. that's a relief, now i just have to do this essay for 3 o clock tomorrow. maybe i shouldn't have bought that bottle of wine :oS
had one of the best seminars for quite a while. i love geoff wall and perec so it was lots of fun :) talking about what i did in paris and fernando pessoa.
off to london on wednesday morning which i'm looking forward to.
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[30 May 2004|06:24pm] |
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we can hold hands until the sun goes down. because i know that you and i can be together...
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| question |
[29 May 2004|01:51pm] |
which of the following groups are more idiotic?
- football fans
- big brother fans
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[29 May 2004|11:20am] |
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Richman: The Modern Lovers - Dignified And Old |
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some day i'll be dignified and old
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