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好煩。。。
早知星期二唔去。。。
我今日就唔會甘煩。。。
有無人幫下我啊。。。
sigh...i wish there is someone out there that could helps me a little...T_T....

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confused

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....ai....dou hai suen la....

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uncomfortable

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世界最遙遠的一種相距中
明明迷戀 然而又不知怎向你形容
呆想 只會越盼越凍
我怎麼可得到你認同
我不清楚 不太懂
世界最遙遠的一種相距中
明明情深 然而亦不敢親切地抱擁
呆等 感覺被我斷送
縱使看不清所愛面容
仍未敢伸出我手觸碰

逃避你 卻又期待我可跟你做情人
而用情的心可天昏地暗
逃避你 愛是遙又遠得很
而我始終不敢靠近

世界最遙遠的一種相距中
明明留戀 然而讓輾轉的掛念撲空
回憶 心裡越載越重
卻不珍惜這一次重逢
我的思想像完全失控

sigh......i donno why could i be so cold yesterday...i remember i gave him a really bad impression since the first time we met, it was such a good chance yesterday...like i never ever through this could happens to me...but...i keep telling myself....dun beleive whatever it seems to be.....i will never beleive it......ha....i am not such a dreamer =p but then.......why am i such a loser....i cant beleive i am so loser yesterday....i was so happy...but i wonder if he knows? i was smiling n laughing when i was on the train......n everytime i think of that moment, i will smile........ha......

i do worry too much , donno why...i kind of learn that "dun be too happy so early"....n i know things will never run smooth to me in my whole life, so what happens yesterday is not true, i dun beleive there will be such good thing in my life, i shuouldn't be so happy...i dun want myself to end up so disponted n so hopeless....>.<...
i donno....i through i gave up already...i really did gave up last time, until the day that i saw him in eaton center, i told myself...isnt this fate?
like when i think of him...i'll see him...when i was on the bus n talking about him with my friend, then i saw him walking on the street....
when i went to see him but he wasn't there, then i was so dispointed n going to eaton center to shopping with my friend....then i saw him again.....
sometimes i felt that this is magic, i think of him then i saw him when i open my eyes...

sigh....i really donno...i went to see the dentist today n it cost 4500 to brance my teenth....n i do wanna brance them....then i could let myself focus on skool, n i will forget about him soon.....=) sigh i donno.......i REALLY DUN want my mom to pay for me, but i spend all my money last summer coz the the plane ticket n guitar...n then shopping....i dun have money, i wanan find a job, but i wonder if there is anyone gonna hire me after i brance my teenth??? i donno..........>.<.........
but then i am so worry if i found a job then i will properly fail my skool work...coz i have a lot of hw........exspecially this term...........>.<.........

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呢排好煩。。。
我真系唔明白D人究竟要拖到幾時先可以還返D野比我。。。
你仲想拖到幾時﹖你究竟知唔知我PISS咩﹖﹖﹖
我唔系怕你唔還﹐我系討厭你無責任感﹐

當我三個星期前話要返個DESTORITION個時你就好應該羅返黎比我﹐
我曾經講過凡系關於我GUITAR既野都對我好重要﹐
其他VCD/DVD 等我都可以唔CARE﹐但系個DESTORITION就絕對唔可以﹗

我CALLED左你幾次﹖ 你好想好似比人追數甘咩﹖﹖
每次我問你幾時比返我﹐你從來都唔會比個日期我﹐
你話。。。“星期日CALL你”。。。哈﹖﹖FUNNY。。。即系點﹖﹖

到左星期日你無CALL﹐我問起你個時你仲要同我講”我以為你會CALL我“
我數得出你已經第4次系甘﹐我令我失望左四次﹐
忍耐系有限度﹐我唔打電話追你系因為我唔想好似追數佬逼你跳樓甘樣﹐
我當你系FRIEND先尊重你﹐等你主動還比我﹐
你甘大個人﹐有無一DD既責任感﹖﹖

當我終于發晒火同講﹐你其實系唔系應該即刻飛過黎還返比我﹖﹖
不過你無﹐今日已經第四日喇﹐你居然可以當無左回事﹖
我覺得你做人態度真系有D問題﹐
最好笑系你居然覺得我點解要MAD AT U﹖﹖﹖
你真系令我好失望。。。

我承認我份人好有原則﹐我唔會為小事激氣﹐
但系你應該分得清楚﹖﹖ 我同你講過 ANYTHING ABOUT MY GUITAR IS SUPER IMPROTANT
TO ME!!!!!! 我唔會因為你系我個FRIEND我就會唔出聲﹐
而且你好清楚當我真真正正PISS AT一個人個時﹐
得到我原諒既機會幾乎系 零﹖


我發誓從今日起我同呢個人保持距離﹐
其實我都忍左好耐。。。其實呢件事之前我都覺得有D野。。。
但系呢D私人既野我唔想系呢度暴﹐
我唔知你對我有咩野誤會﹐
我唔知我做左D咩而令你D態度變得越黎越有問題﹐
我相信你應該好清楚我一直都當你系好朋友。。。


Well I said I like someone on the April 11th journal, but that is not the person who borrows my destrotion, i dun want anymore misunderstanding happens

[	mood	|	annoyed	]
[	music	|	Jade Kwan -- Hope it's not too late	]

i had a weird dream last nite, i dun understand why could i have this kinda dream...........SIGH............i feel stupid....
ok..i dream of someone i used to love chasing some other girl,
then i donno why i was pissed off in the dream,
and then i woke up...n having this dream in my head....
ha...this is weird isn't it?
i never through that i am "flower heart"...
but...i do feel that i am kind of "flower" now...
i used to said that if i like someone, he will be the only one that i am thinking.....but...i think i changed nowdays...
i do like someone now, but i donno why could i miss him??
like...i never think of him lately but then i suddenly dream of this kinda things?? WHY??? i really dun understand myself...
i hate this kinda anneoying shit...
i dun wnana be thinking of someone and him all together,
it makes me feel like shit...like...awwwwwwwwwwww
n i hate thinking of him, because everytime i had feelings with some others, then he will suddenly get into my brain n destroy all the feelings i had for some others...and then my heart end up going back to him.....i dun understand why the hell is always like that.........fuck.........but now.........i still have someone in my heart...he cant kick this person outta my heart haha......should i be happy coz of this?
SIGH.........ha...i think i should really brance my teenth....why?? coz once i did brance my teenth...i wont think of like someone...because i knew i will be ugleeeeeeeeeeeee.....
so......i'll do so soon...let me set a date...
i am gonna brance my teenth during the next break,
i swear to god i will, n then not having a bf for 2 years....

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omg...i cant beleive that my shirt really does look like one of gackt's shirt...............BUT.......
I DID NOT COPY GACKT's SHIRT!!! SERIOUSLY!!!
I dun even have these pics before i make my shirt...n then i just go online today to check out new updates of gackt n i found these pic...i donno why my shirt n gackt's shirt looks so simerlar......all i know is that i luv the fabric i choiced, like i didnt take a look at any other fabric i just grab this one n pay for it n leave....its weird...haha....
but then i guess gackt will like my design better?? at least my buttom holes are totally different with those normal shirts out there....wahahhahaha

anyway, here is a link of pics of the shirt i made ^^

http://ca.photos.yahoo.com/bc/manahime2002/lst?.dir=/Wing%27s+Pix/charles+with+my+shirt&.src=ph&.order=&.view=t&.done=http%3a//photos.yahoo.com/

seriously i like the one i made better than the one gackt's wearing...hahahhaha....n the actual shirt is not SHINLY!!! i added a lot of lighting on the shirt part coz i want to show the patterns clearly...=P

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我呢幾日LUM左好多野...then i suddenly get so piss off,
好煩。。。我覺得好煩﹐
所以我對某個人發左脾氣。。。可能呢件系一件小事﹐
我唔應該甘PISS。。。但系我覺得我無錯﹐
我最唔鐘意人地做野拖拖拉拉﹐

case 1:
i am pissed off is not coz i think u will not return the distrotion to me,coz i know how u r, u will return,
i am pissed off is coz u keep 拖拖拉拉.....
like everytime i ask u when r u gonna give it back,
u could NEVER tell me a day,
u just keep saying oh i will call u that day...
oh yea n u end up did not calling me,
n i want it back like 2 weeks ago alrite??
n yea how many times u tell me ur gonna call me??
n how many times u end up DID NOT calling me???
when i ask u when r u gonna give it back?
i perfer u could answer it , like...give me a day??
tomolo? next week?


case 2:
我份人好無耐性﹐我最憎人拖拖拉拉﹐
我發覺其他人都好中意拖拖拉拉﹐
究竟想點﹖ 系一就一﹐系二就二
i hate it when ppl's words do not match with their actions...
我無時間無心情奉陪﹐oh yea whatever u want haha,
反正我根本一DD都唔重要﹖﹖系唔系﹖﹖
你可以繼續拖﹐你鐘意拖到幾時就幾時﹐
我唔會再CARE。。。其實我從來都無發姣無胡思亂想﹐
我無想過要拍拖﹐不過我希望D人唔好比D錯誤訊息我﹐
唔好講一D令我心動令我骨痺既說話﹐
我承認我鐘意聽﹐但系我真系唔想亂LUM野
如果你從來都無LUM過要做你講過既野﹐
甘我唔該你從一開始就唔好講
我最憎人僚起我把火然後就唔爹唔掉....!!
你應該感覺到我系中意你既。。。
而且大家都講過鐘意﹐點解仲可以拖﹖
點解要搞到唔清唔楚曖曖昧昧﹖
我唔想好似上次我同阿HO甘﹐
因為有小小野唔系講得甘清楚就比佢捉住痛腳﹐
然後我就無話可說﹐我唔想呢D事件再次重演﹐
我點解要問倒清清楚楚﹖﹖ 因為我唔想再犯上次同一錯誤﹐
如果你想同我做FRIEND﹐唔該就講/做D朋友應該講/做既野﹐
唔好搞到D關係甘唔清唔楚﹐我玩唔起


case 3:
我又好憎人講大話﹐
仲要D大話系“擺明”講大話﹐
然後專登比你捉到佢講大話。。。哈哈哈哈﹗﹗﹗
唔該你喇! 大個仔喇﹗﹗i dun give a shit ok??
like u think i will fucking worry & fucking cry coz i found u fucking lie to me??
i dun understand?? WHY COULD PPL DOING SUCH STUPID THINGS!!
do u think i am stupid or something?
GOD....like they wanan let u know that they r lying??
n then let u worrying n thinking "OH WHY HE LIES TO ME??"
I WONT ok??? DUN fucking playing games with me!

i hate u all, u fucking ppl r pissing me off,
hahahahhahaha~

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happy

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i found someone to model my shirt today,
we took pic in a hotel,
well my shirt looks GREAT on u...
thx for beening my model i luv ur poses =)
if i make any men's wear sooner or later,
i will ask u to model for me (*^^*)
actually, i wasn't thinking to make a gackt style shirt...
but somehow it is gackt style after i done?
i was thinking to give u the shirt before i make it,
so thats why i choiced this fabric coz i think u fit with it,
but then i found out that i have to keep this one as renfence for me in case if i forget anything...
and i know the measurement is a little bit different from ur size, so thats why i didnt give u it....=)
but i promised, i will make u one soon...!!

i didnt see u for so long already since last time...
i miss ya , but too bad i was too busy before...>.<..
donno when could i see u again =p

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dyed my hair black, but it turns to blue.

[	mood	|	disappointed	]
[	music	|	假如讓我說下去 ----楊千嬅	]

暴雨天 我至少想講掛念你
然後你 你最多會笑著迴避
避到底 明明不筋鴗都力疲
就當我還未放鬆自己

我想哭 你可不可以暫時別要睡
陪著我 像最初相識我當時未怕累
但如果 但如果說下去 或者 傻得我
彼此怎能愛下去

暴雨中 我到底怎麼要害怕
難道你 無颱風會決定留下
但我想 如樓底這夜倒下來
就算臨別亦有通電話

我怕死 你可不可以暫時別要睡
陪著我 讓我可以不靠安眠藥進睡
但如果 但如果說下去 亦無非逼你
壹句話 如今跟某位同居

我的天 你可不可以暫時讓我睡
忘掉愛 尚有多少工作失眠亦有罪
但如果 但如果怨下去 或者 傻得我
通宵找進接下去

離開 不應再打攪愛人 對不對

希望YUKI可以幫到我喇。。。
好緊張。。。>。<。。。
好鬼煩。。。
我驚佢亂講野。。。
死喇。。。希望佢唔好亂講野。。。。
唉。。。
不過我預左一定衰。。。
希望我唔會中途走人。。。
唉。。。點解我連呢D甘既勇氣都無。。。>。<。。

今次最後一次﹐
我發誓。。。
如果今次仲系咩野都講唔到。。。
我一定一定一定唔會再見呢個人。。。
以後都唔會。。。﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗
就算系街度見到都唔會望一眼。。。