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[26 Nov 2002|12:27pm] |
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let me recap the shittiness of my day thus far:
1. HAD TO WAKE UP EARLY. that's bad enough.
2. had to piss in a cup. so gross.
3. HAD MY RIGHT INDEX FINGER PRICKED FOR BLOOD. [i HATE needles.]
4. UNCOMFORTABLY POKED AND PRODDED BY FOREIGN OBJECTS IN AN AREA THAT CLEARLY IS NOT WELCOMING TO SUCH THINGS.
i'm not gonna lie, that was the most uncomfortable situation i have ever been in....and it fucking hurt. yes- i am a baby, no- i do not care.
5. as if my fear of needles isn't enough, i now have to go for bloodwork. some huge creepy looking bitch is going to stab me. oh christ.
6. i'm cold.
and if that's not enough...i have to go to my regular doctor at 1:00. what will happen there? well, i have to get that fucking blood work done for one thing. then she has to check out the cyst in my finger. i do NOT want to hear that i need surgery, that will make the day just absolute rock bottom.
however- the day will be made better by spending yet another evening with my favorite girls as we attend another show. i have the best times with them! i can't wait to see what crazy shit is in store for tonight!!! <3
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| i'm not gonna lie... |
[25 Nov 2002|11:39pm] |
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the past few days have been pretty great. yesterday was rochester with lindesy, carrie, jenn & melanie to see allister/riddlin kids/don't look down. funny stuff i tell ya. melanie decided she wanted to go to the bathroom in a stall that did in fact not have a door. so what did i do? stood there hunched down using my sweater as a guard while she went to the bathroom. gotta love drunken people. speaking of which, lindesy bought me an amaretto sour and brought it to the upstairs bathroom for me so i could drink it in a stall. good thing i left the cup in the stall because when i got out a security person was standing in there. whoo. we thought we were gonna get in trouble but we didn't.
i would like to add that during allister me, melanie & carrie OWNED the mosh pit. yea that's right. melanie even almost got into not one, but TWO fights. the security guard had to step in to calm her down. we stuck around after the show to chat it up with dustin from riddlin kids/scottie from allister, in which scottie stole my heart by singing the gummi bears theme song. we found porn on the way to the car and ran back to give it to him. i told him it was me. haha.
today = new cell phone. it's so cute. i named it *little precious* for some odd reason. i hung out and met up with jenn & lindsey as we walked the galleria mall. the christmas store, or should i say TECHNO christmas store, is absolutely amazing. crazy shit in there. i even got to see the wonderful alan katilus...*sigh* lol. who would have thought we'd run into the riddlin kids & allister boys. they thought we were stalking them, little did they know that they were on OUR turf. yea that's right. **I GOT THE LONG END**: scottie put his arms around lindsey & jenn and then pulled his legs up to wrap them around me...and told them that they got the short end of the deal while i got the long end. i had nothing to say but "no pun intended." funny stuff. umm...that was about it for them. denny's = the dong dong man, which is my new voice mail...and the waitor that said jenn was choking. "if you were really choking, you would have just died right now, because he didn't care. he just said that you were choking and proceeded to ask us how we were doing."
tomorrow = good and bad day. morning consists of my first gyno visit, followed by going to my doctor to get the cyst in my finger looked at. day possibly consists of secret t-shirt making, which i REALLY wanna do. and night consists of meeting at MT so we can all go see allister/riddlin kids/don't look down all over again!!! wahoo!
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| in a perfect world... |
[24 Nov 2002|01:15am] |
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in a conversation with crystal [ momentsembrace]...we got to talkin about things that would occur if the person who made up the unspoken rule about things having to be difficult were to be personally castrated by her and your's truly...i said this:
FaLiNgStarR19 [1:14 AM]: i'd be thinner, hotter, [said person] would want me...more so than for just a means of getting off without using his hand....
now...for some odd reason, that really made me laugh. maybe just cuz i'm tired...maybe cuz it's so gosh darn true...i just don't know...lol
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| wee |
[22 Nov 2002|10:23pm] |
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where did i leave off? well hmm...i had an interesting week.
monday and tuesday are pretty blurry...i do know that i saw comedian dave attell tuesday night, and that was fun stuff. but not as fun as jim breuer at ub on wednesday with my kristy morgan. holy shit were we laughing so hard. i couldn't believe it. it was so awesome to just be there, i think he's hillarious. later that night, a boy i met came over. yea...that's all i'm gonna say about that because clearly it was just a day thing. whatever. you think i'd be used to that by now but hey, i can't help it if it bugs me that i get ignored. makeout buddy bob all over again. minus the making out. just the spooning. ANYWAYS. thursday, don't think i did much of anything but lay in my bed. friday, the same. i was worn out tuesday/wednesday and just wanted to die. and i'm worn out all over again from last night's craziness. everyone from my suite came home real drunk and i was awake for their arrival, so i was obviously awake until they calmed down. whatever, it just called for skipping some classes this morning...that's all.
so here i am, home. cabbage free. fredonia free. i'm having fun already. went to medina today with jenn & lindsey and we had cookie times with melanie and carrie. it made me smile.
and here i am right now. very much tired, but there's a possibility of me going out again...i just don't know.
just so you know, my new favorite phrase is "i'm not gonna lie..." and then i say something that i'm obviously not lying about.
for example: i'm not gonna lie, my feet are really fucking freezing.
that is all. word.
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(4 stars | make a wish)
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| golden girls yo |
[22 Nov 2002|12:21am] |
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FaLLiNgStarR19 [10:59 PM]: yanno what?
FaLLiNgStarR19 [11:00 PM]: i think...we should all live together at some point in time, preferably when we're real old...and we can be like the golden girls. but i'm telling you RIGHT NOW i want to be sophia
carebeth [11:02 PM]: yes
carebeth [11:02 PM]: ok
carebeth [11:02 PM]: you can be sophia
carebeth [11:02 PM]: can i be ur daughter
FaLLiNgStarR19 [11:02 PM]: YOU WANT TO BE BEA ARTHUR!?
FaLLiNgStarR19 [11:02 PM]: CARRIE SHE'S A LESBIAN IN REAL LIFE
FaLLiNgStarR19 [11:02 PM]: AND NOT JUST ON SUNDAYS
carebeth [11:04 PM]: its true
carebeth [11:04 PM]: melanie is blanche
carebeth [11:04 PM]: no doubt
carebeth [11:04 PM]: rose is def jenn not past nine
FaLLiNgStarR19 [11:06 PM]: you so just called melanie a slut
FaLLiNgStarR19 [11:06 PM]: and jenn dumb
FaLLiNgStarR19 [11:06 PM]: i'm the only cool one
FaLLiNgStarR19 [11:06 PM]: i make fun of everybody
carebeth [11:10 PM]: im a dork
FaLLiNgStarR19 [11:12 PM]: yea ur quite the dull one on the show
carebeth [11:14 PM]: yeah i am
carebeth [11:14 PM]: what can i say
FaLLiNgStarR19 [11:16 PM]: its the stuff BEHIND THE CURTAIN that really matters, if yanno what i mean []
carebeth [11:24 PM]: lmao
carebeth [11:24 PM]: hahaha
FaLLiNgStarR19 [11:24 PM]: or should i say...under the rug?
carebeth [11:25 PM]: the rug
carebeth [11:25 PM]: oh man
FaLLiNgStarR19 [11:25 PM]: lol
FaLLiNgStarR19 [11:25 PM]: this is dirty
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[21 Nov 2002|07:24pm] |
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sorority boys |
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i just want you all to know, that i hate this game.
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(3 stars | make a wish)
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[20 Nov 2002|02:44am] |
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nothin's hotter than saying goodnight to sean, and having him say this: "GOODNIGHT SWEET TITS!" back to me. lol. i can't wait to see him in march...yay for spring break!
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| mmm |
[19 Nov 2002|12:25am] |
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for all ya'll that didn't know-- this would be that hot stud of a man that i chatted it up with at the party on friday night. aww yea.
this one goes out to my fellow brad pinkert lover, hollyjae ;o) enjoy girlie!!!
and thanks so much kim for finding this!!!
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(7 stars | make a wish)
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| *and if you ever said you miss me then don't say you never lied* |
[18 Nov 2002|02:38pm] |
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i've been avoiding it for some time now, thinking i could get myself through it. but...i think after reading a few things, i just can't anymore. i'm about to cry.
i can't get over the feeling that i care about certain people more than they care about me.
.i.feel.replaced.
i thought i had myself conditioned to ignore that feeling, but it all just came crashing down within a few minutes. eek. =/ i think it's because of the lack of resassurance/confidence in my [importance].
uhh...home-life come winter break is sure as hell going to be interesting. i've tried so hard, i don't know if i have the strength in me to keep trying. yet, i just can't bring myself to give up because i hate the way things are becoming. i'd just about give anything to have things back to a few summers ago, when things were absolutely amazing.
--i just don't know what i'm supposed to do anymore--
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| drunken weekend |
[17 Nov 2002|04:56pm] |
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so i'm originally writing this in an e-mail, cuz i forsee AOL kicking me offline [fuckin dial-up]...and i can't afford to lose this entry.
i had the most fun weekend ever. aside from DEtroit, this weekend is right up there with the funnest of funtimes. and i'd like to write about it because some stuff just NEEDS TO BE TOLD.
DISCLAIMER: this journal entry will involve mass amounts of alcohol. if you can't stomach my drinking, then i suggest you don't click on the below links and just go right down to the bottom...that might be more for you. however, if you want to laugh- i suggest reading about saturday lol.
( Friday Night... )
and now for ...
( Saturday night!!! )
now, for the other portion of my journal entry. i'm starting to feel quite guilty about this whole "party-up-sara" thing that i got goin on lately. i feel like i'm disappointing those of my friends who don't drink. and because of this, i feel like i've become a lot different from them...and i don't like that. i feel like they don't enjoy my company anymore and that saddens me, because i love them dearly. eek. so, if i am disappointing some of you, i apologize. i'm just having fun...i'm sorry if you may not agree with that.
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| i'm gonna be hot |
[14 Nov 2002|12:58am] |
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ohh man. ohh man ohh man ohh man. just saw a picture of myself from 11th grade.
.HOLY.SHIT.
i was fucking hideous!!! shoulder length blonde hair, bangs, non-plucked eyebrows. good god. why did i do that to myself?!
so on that note, i've redeclared my mission. i need to start going to the gym, i'd like to lose 15 pounds by the summer. i understand some of you are going to say why?! you look fine. well. to be completely honest with you, i am overweight for my height...and i have some excess chubb that i don't need. jess, one of my suitemates, likes to call it the intertube. she couldn't be more right. it's time for my 50 crunches before bed and in the morning all over again. cutting down on how much i eat, and going to the gym every so often for some toning. i've let myself become lazy...i can't do that anymore. i just wish it were nice outside cuz i'd TOTALLY do my hour long rollerblading sessions at night. perhaps i'll bring the blades home over thanksgiving break and if i catch a nice day i'll hit that up. all i know is that i need to do something, because i was supposed to be doing this since i decided i was going to florida for spring break...and i stuck with it for about a week, if that. seeing how i looked back then just absolutely disgusted me, and i'll be damned if i let myself fall back into that again.
and now for the un-conceited portion of the entry:
anywho. i'd like to state my excitement for next week wednesday. the wonderful liz told me yesterday that jim breuer is coming to UB. me and kristy have been wanting to see him ever since his special was on comedy central last year...and now it's finally gonna happen. she got us 2 tickets today and we're gonna drive back to buffalo next week to see him. it is going to be the best night ever!!!!!
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| Me & JT make a great team |
[13 Nov 2002|10:47am] |
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justin timberlake - cry me a river |
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even JT is down with my lingo, in this song he says "don't act like you don't know it"
he knows whatsup. that's cuz he's damn sexy.
ACT LIKE YOU KNOW!
.i'm.pathetic.
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