A conversation came up the other day, and I'm curious...

What does butch mean to you?
Is it contradictory to be sensitive and still be "butch"?

Personally, I feel like I am only myself, and other people's perceptions of how I should be are simply figments of their gender role imaginations.... I don't know any male who acts as "masculine" as stone-butch women behave.

Hmm.... is this good or bad? Still... it's oddly accurate..

Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"

July
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying.

( God's law... )

*amused*

Remember me mentioning mindy smith at house of blues cleveland? Well... she's opening for none other than Better Than Ezra. My god, is it worth rehashing my hash filled college days for 22.50?

I don't think I could find anyone willing to pay that kind of money... my best chance has grown up, joined the Peace Corps. and currently resides beneath the palm trees of Surinam.

Dog Toy or Marital Aid.. you be the judge....

I spent like $40 today at the drug store (all on stuff I needed...) It's the stuff like laundry detergent and tampons that always add up quickly and all run out at the same time.

A good part of that money went to moisturizing my suddenly parched skin. Head to toe, I feel like a slug someone dumped a jar of salt on. It's insane. Of course, you have to get stuff for different parts... someone ought to invent the all body moisturizer that is really for the whole body. One would think skin is skin. And why is it body lotion is like $6 for this huge bottle... but you get this tiny ass one for your face and it's like $10.

Finally, a night off. Parents or not... I'll unpack a little bit and then my ass is going to hang out with SpazBoi (hey, that's what he calls himself... I didn't even come up with that one!! We are old friends from Toledo.. I knew him when he was still a baby and I was just leaping out of the closet.)

I think a few beers are in order... to celebrate... something... I dunno what yet, but I'm sure I'll figure it out after I've had a couple.

There's a show at the house of blues I really want to go to on Sunday... if I'm off, and it's cheap... I heard this artist the other day named Mindy Smith. If you're into folky type stuff, you'll love her... I did first listen. Shit, I'm willing to pay for the whole show even though I've only heard clips of like three songs.

Oh.. the other new love is this band from Australia somewhere named Fruit. They have Indigo Girls-esque harmonies, except they throw some horns in with the rest of it... but not in a tacky sort of way at all. Speaking of which... I need to give that cd back to Youngin'... I still haven't figured out how it ended up in my car.

Have you ever attempted to activate and non-legit copy of Windows XP home? It's a pain in the butt... The worst part is, the girl HAS a legal copy... she just doesn't know where it is. My copy won't work with her serial... probably because it's OEM. Anyway...

I was listening to and NPR show earlier about famous words... I heard this, and decided to put it in here for me to look back on.

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling but rising every time we fall."
Confucius

While I was looking up the quote...
I saw this and realized it's what I really want to work towards...

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."
Jimmy Dean

Why are people always surprised? This one made me laugh because of how true it is... especially when it comes to me. I make a great first impression...

"A stranger loses half his charm the day he is no longer a stranger."
Genevieve Antoine Dariaux

And the one I live by...

"Don't tell other people your troubles. Half of them aren't interested, and the other half will think you deserved it."
Unknown

Random thoughts in the car today... songs I think of when I think when I was with Youngin' - "Hard Day's Night" and "Can't Buy Me Love" by the Beatles. The end ... Counting Crow's "Time and Time Again" and "Anna Begins" Not surprisingly, both cd's have been in heavy rotation lately. Never in a million years would I have believed that any Beatle's song would apply to my life.

There probably won't be any more surly teen bunny chronicals... Youngin' is now the proud owner of one dwarf bunny with a gigantic personality.

But.. I did discover his parting gift to me. He chewed through BOTH cables for my playstation, rendering it completely unusable. Does anyone have a broken playstation who is willing to mail me the old power and tv cables? I'm gonna check ebay today.

This weekend proved to be tiring but lucrative. The side job worked out quite well... plus I picked up a 8 hour shift Sat. and worked another 8 1/2 Sunday. While it sucks to work 20+ hours over the weekend... it's one very nice chunk towards an apartment.

This week I work, and work some more. Absolutely thrilling.

Thank god my debit card turned up. I left it at the bar Sunday night... remembered the reciept, not the card. Doh!

aww fuck, I'm SO sick... like bad enough that I called off at both jobs yesterday even though I desperately need the money right now.

In other news.. simplycosmic had a link to the sorryeverybody site.... I looked at quite a few of the pictures... some were amusing... but it's a bold statement regardless. I especially appreciated the foreigners saying it was ok etc.

The secret fucking service visits a livejournaler... *shakes head*

I would LOVE to see Hillary run next time around... but do you think she'd have a chance?

I really need to stop thinking and talking politics.

In other news... I cut my hair off. I'm not 100% sure I like it.. well I like the cut, but it's all mixed curly/straight... so I dunno. Hmm.

Bumper sticker I saw on the way to work today:

"Kick their ass. Take their gas."

Nice...

Somebody actually paid money to have those made for all of the midwest white trash to put on their rusty broken down vehicles as they head to the manufacturing job that won't be here in two years.

Two years? Try less than six months in some cases. Those dumb asses just voted for the guy that's rewarding their boss for moving their jobs overseas. There's a reason Cleveland is the poorest city in the nation... I'm betting it's somehow related to the quality of education we provide for our kids (as the school system has to cut yet another 25 million from the budget.) No child left behind? Think again.

My sister in law voted against the levy. Why? Because her rent would go up $30 a month, and they can't swing it. The way I figure it, that would mean she's covering the tax for both her AND the owner (who lives in the other half of the house.) It also amounts to what I'd call... intimidation.

I can see her point... but at the same time, it's my neice who's entering first grade next fall. This is the same little genius neice I talk about all the time... except she'll be getting a substandard education... all of that potential could just go to waste. If I had the money, her ass would be going to Montessori. But as it stands, I can barely pay my own bills.

The moral of the story is:
Lets keep the ignorant, ignorant. Then make them feel superior so we can control them better.

(Oh, and I'm allowed to say white trash... thems my roots.)

The latest on Nathan the Surly Teen Bunny

When do bunny's stop being surly teens and just become assholes?

Anyway, he's pissed off and he's letting me know.

I have been keeping him in the office lately (to my credit... not in his damn cage, which is where he belongs.) I can't trust the little jerk. He was out and hopping around happily... we made sure the bedroom doors were closed so there would be no more peeing incidents. SOMEHOW, he found his way in bartendress' room, and did it again! Oh, and in the livingroom...

So... back to the office.

I go in there every so often and give him treats, pet him, and just kinda be around so he doesn't get lonely.

Well.. his new thing is making this gutteral bunny growling noise and lunging at me! Of course he took me by surprise and I kinda jumped back the first couple of times. The last time though, I growled back at him and squirted him with the trusty water bottle.

Nathan 10,000 : Kristel 1.

I'm growling at rabbits... first Bush gets re-elected... now this. What is the world coming to?

I went to bed sad, but hopeful. Maybe one of the two issues I care most about would win (issue 1 or Kerry.)

Today, I'm feeling less optimistic about the American people. And much less about the legitimacy of the political process. No wonder people like my mother refuse to vote.

Slashed tires? PPL sending out fliers in poor neighborhoods saying that if you have ever had a speeding ticket or unpaid parking ticket you can't vote. PPL sending out fliers saying that because of the number of voters that democrats should vote on wednesday.

Keep in mind.. that only the very ignorant would fall for this... BUT so would foreign ppl who don't know any better (and tend to vote democratic.) There was this old lady on the news that said a nice gentleman had come to her door, asked how she would vote... and then offered to mail her democratic absentee ballet for her (even though he was there to try to convince her to vote for Bush.) So much shadiness...

Anyway, someone (smokedamage maybe.. feeling too lazy to go back and check but thank you) posted this link about the definition of a fascist regime that I found mighty interesting...

And in case you care... probably not... lemmie tell you about my voting experience yesteday.
( Quite disturbing... )

Was taking a look at laptops yesterday.... found a couple I was interested in, but alas I cannot be financed at this time. Too much debt from unemployment... not employed long enough. Fuckers. Oh well.. guess that clears up the question of whether I should add to the debt to make my life easier here at work!

Actually... I've got to let everything clear at the bank from my Halloween folleys, and then it's back to fiscal (and dietary) responsibility. It's much more fun to be hedonistic. At least I give myself a little taste sometimes, just so I don't completely lose my mind.

Halloween was great by the way. The hobbit costume was a hit... just hoping tootie uploads the pic whenever she does the rest of her camera so I can show myself off. Actually, everyone's costume was awesome... you could tell a lot of effort went into most of them... I love Halloween...

I had much fun at Dave and Buster's yesterday... more because Kelly was there than anything.... but I confess... I think I might have tasted just enough of the horse game to make me want more. Just as I suspected... and therefore the reason I've never played. What could I say? Youngin' accidentally created a new horse... I HAD to race it (several times...)

Oh, and I will be finishing up packing tonight and tomorrow night... I did do SOME, and really there wasn't that much to do in the first place. I actually got some time off of BB... so Wednesday will be the big day (night?) I couldn't move while Kelly was here, and I haven't gotten any time off to really take care of it. But ultimately, Wednesday is the big day because Youngin' says so! All those stairs.... ugh.

Ok, my mom loves to forward me stuff... it is rare for me to pass it on... but this one amused me because it's stuff you don't think about!

Basically, answer the questions without looking at anything or asking anyone. Write them down, THEN check your answers. There are quite a few (well... 27) so don't do what I did... actually number them. :-)

When you're done, post how many you got.. I'm curious. P.S. these answers only apply to the US and Canada... amazingly in the world of LJ, it is actually relevant to say that. Anyway, have fun..

1. On a standard traffic light, is the green on the top or bottom?

2. How many states are there in the USA? (Don't laugh, some people don't
know)

3. In which hand is the Statue of Liberty's torch?

4. What six colors are on the classic Campbell's soup label?

5. What two numbers on the telephone dial don't have letters by them?

6. When you walk does your left arm swing with your right or left leg?

7. How many matches are in a standard pack?

8. On the United States flag is the top stripe red or white?

9. What is the lowest number on the FM dial?

10. Which way does water go down the drain, counter or clockwise?

11. Which way does a "no smoking" sign's slash run?

12. How many channels on a VHF TV dial?

13. On which side of a women's blouse are the buttons?

14. Which way do fans rotate?

15. What is on the back of a Canadian dime?

16. How many sides does a stop sign have?

17. Do books have even-numbered pages on the right or left side?

18. How many lug nuts are on a standard car wheel?

19. How many sides are there on a standard pencil?

20. Sleepy, Happy, Sneezy, Grumpy,Dopey, Doc. Who's missing?

21. How many hot dog buns are in a standard package?

22. On which playing card is the card maker's trademark?

23. On which side of a Venetian blind is the cord that adjusts the opening
between the slats

24. On the back of a Canadian $1 coin, what is in the center?

25. There are 12 buttons on a touch tone phone. What 2 symbols bear no
digits?

26. How many curves are there in the standard paper clip?

27. Does a merry-go-round turn counter or clockwise?

( See the answers )

With the new eating habits I'm trying to establish, I'm also trying to get my 8 8ounce servings of water each day. Problem is, I have to pee like every 45 minutes. Has anyone else had this experience? There have been comments about the softness of my lips though, so it can't be all bad.. :-)

By the way, water-filter pitchers are the greatest. If you don't have one, get one... it will revolutionize your opinions on water. When I keep up with filling it and putting it in the fridge, I think I drink at least twice what I normally would... and I have the ole nalgene, so when I remember to use it I don't have to pay for bottled water anymore.

I bought suspenders yesterday for my hobbit costume... just gotta come up with some pants. I think I'll be taking a trip to tjmaxx or something to pick up a pair. I'm afraid that people will think I'm trying to be Tom Sawyer or something. What's uniquely hobbit like that I'm forgetting? Oh yeah, gotta get hair for the hands... I haven't solved the feet problem though...

Kelly and I went to Target yeserday so he could pick up some deoderant. I spent $60 on random ass shit. What's wrong with me!

Actually, I bought a speed racer t-shirt and a Mr. yuck (remember the ugly green sticker that went on poison bottles?), a sports bra, socks, two plants (one for Youngin') and some new pots. Back in my uber poor days I bought these cheap (and therfore tacky) plastic pots. I just wanted plants, I didn't care what they went in. So I got some new ceramic ones to finish the transferring to nicer-ness process (since they were VERY on sale.) I have soil, now I just need some free time...

So i walk into the bathroom just now... and there's this tall lady with a fuzzy poodle perm standing there just looking at me as I walk in. She leaves the bathroom... I go... as I'm washing my hands she walks in with a cigarette and stands by the sink. She goes into the stall as I'm leaving... still smoking.

People are so odd.

Side note... I think I had a little too much caffeine this morning...